Showing posts with label Cancer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Cancer. Show all posts

Monday, 19 November 2012

Sexxx Please, We're British!!

Monday 12th November, I woke at 8.30am, and got up & I had a coffee & chocolate Weetabix Mini's for breakfast. I felt quite weary after a hectic week, last week, and wondered if this week would slow down? I checked my Hotmail, Facebook & Twitter, on Facebook, there was a clip of my lovely friend Victoria Eisermann, doing her bit for 'K-9 Angels' in the houses of parliament yesterday, presenting the 'Green Apple Awards' (Well done Victoria, You Go Girl!!) Pic of the fab K-9 Angels at Parliament is below.


The FAB K-9 Angels - Pola, Victoria & Annika 

I dressed in my jeans & my sparkly K-9 Angels T-shirt, I must of lost more weight, as my jeans are 3-4" too loose in the waist (They were too tight, a week or two ago!!) While I was on Facebook, I shared a link on both Facebook & Twitter, for people to buy the charity single 'Everything You Need' by 'Lewis Clay', You can buy it at Tesco's, or download it on iTunes for just 79p like I did. The money goes to a good cause, a Cancer charity. Which with around 90% + of my family, having either died of cancer, or presently fighting cancer, or sadly terminal & dying of Cancer, plus having friends fighting this evil disease, this is a charity close to my heart!! So if you want to help, a non signed artist, get to No1 in the charts (Why not do something nice for someone, it wont even cost you £1) Or if you want to help a Cancer charity & have a fab new iTunes track, to download & bop around the house to click HERE!!!


Buy It - You Know It Makes Sense!!!

I did some laundry & household chores & then pulled on, my long, black, Primark coat & faux, rabbit fur, deer stalker, then I popped to the job centre, in the rain, to see what new jobs they had? I then after that, I went on to Tesco's for a few essentials, and thanks to the weather, I ended up, looking like, a soggy Cossack, by the time I got home. So I thoroughly enjoyed my lunch of pea & mint soup, with wholemeal bread, straight from the oven, which warmed me up nicely. 'I'm A Celebrity' started Saturday, there can surly only be one winner, the brilliant, charismatic, cheeky, cheesy & funny, 'Brian Conley' (Below) I bloody love him!!!


Brian Conley, My Winner "It's A Puppet!!" 

I checked my Hotmail & saw I'd got an email, from Loaded Extra's, about their NEW TV station 'Loaded TV' inviting me to the special private viewing, of the 1st two episodes, of the NEW Sitcom 'SEXXX' who's wrap party I went to last week (The viewing is tomorrow) Which will air, on the NEW, Loaded TV, station (Connected to the men's magazine, Loaded Magazine) on SKY, channel 200, on November 26th. They will be covering my travel expenses too, so really, no reason not to go!!



I watched 'The Real Housewives Of New York' with the mad as a box of frogs 'Ramona' and the vulgar, classless, name dropping, 'Luann' who can't sing to save her life. Her single 'Money Can't Buy You Class' is both awful & ironic, as she has absolutely no class, her name dropping & behaviour would be looked down apon among European, aristocratic, circles. And she uses the title Countess, that she married into, even though she is no longer his wife, and mentions her title non stop.



It seems the more money, American women have, the more unhinged, crass & neurotic they seem to be, they fly off the handle, in diva hissy fits, over nothing! Get a life to go with that money & title girls Jeeeeeeeeeeze!!!... Then I watched my favourite soap 'Home & Away' I wasn't really hungry enough for a big dinner, after it finished at 7pm,  so I had a seeded Panini with some Brie & a cappuccino. Then it was a lazy night ahead, with the TV, watching 'Corrie' 'I'm A Celeb' 'Made In Chelsea' '8 Out Of 10 Cats' & New UK animated comedy 'Full English' OK but it wont have 'Family Guy' & 'American Dad' quaking in their boots!! Then I watched Alan Carr's 'Chatty Man' before having a shower & going to bed, at 2am (Calories consumed 1,163 good!!)

Tuesday 13th November, I woke at 8am & lazed in bed, until I heard the post at 9am, then I tootled downstairs & found that the very lovely & very funny, living Barbie, Cindy Jackson, had sent me her book 'Living Doll' in the post, as she'd promised Saturday & it was the hardback version, not the paperback & she'd signed it to me, too!! How sweet of her, she really was charming company Saturday. I have been searching Library's & book shops, for years trying to find a copy of that book. But I kept getting met with a "It's no longer in print" So I'm delighted to now have it, and so I will be getting stuck into it, in bed tonight!!



I had chocolate mini Weetabix & a coffee for breakfast & a long soak in the bath after, to slowly get ready, for the 'Loaded TV' private showing of 'Sexxx' tonight. I think I have lost more weight since the 1.5lb I l'd lost on Sunday, as my jeans, were very baggy yesterday and more so today! I have lost 10lb this month, so far that's almost a lb a day!! At this rate I will get back to my old physical (Size 8) me, by the New Year!! Next I have to be the old financially comfortable me again once I have hit my size 8 target!! Then... Maybe I'll take a few leaf's out of Cindy's book too!! About time I put what I want 1st!! I enjoyed my soak, in the bath, as I am aching quite a bit, down my left side & it helped ease it a bit. I wish they'd hurry up & arrange my 3rd op!


A Sulky Looking Me, When I Was A Size 8 
Shortly Before Mum Died Unexpectedly 

I did my make-up & dried my hair & pulled it back & added a faux ponytail extension, then I decided to see, if my pale blue, jeans, would fit? They were too small, to put on before, much smaller than the ones, that are now too loose (Which I use to have to, lay on the bed, to do up, a month ago!) To my amazement, they pulled on with no effort, blimey!! I must have lost a stone now! Only 2 more to go, before I am my old self again. I wore them, with a long sleeved, two tone, striped, baby blue, off the shoulder, boat neck, Petite Bateau top, my baby blue suede cowgirl boots & a chain belt that had the word SEXY on it, which I thought apt for the SEXXX premier!!



I made a baguette of cheese, tomato & Quorn faux ham for lunch, washed down with a caffeine free Diet Coke. I popped on Facebook & thanked Cindy for my book & also answered a few messages on Twitter. Then I set off for London around 5.30pm, arranging to meet up with fellow Actor/SA Richard, in a pub in Piccadilly Circus. So I grabbed my long, black, Primark, military style, coat & my favourite, Salvatore Ferragamo, handbag (Lol £550 handbag with a £30 coat) The the summing up of my old & present life situation, expressed in just two contrasting accessories.


Primark V Ferragamo


I walked to the station, on a cold but thankfully non raining evening, and got a travel card to London & text Richard that I was en route & I'd see him soon. I got to the pub 'The St James Tavern' in Piccadilly, just as Richard & fellow SA pal Jon, were about to head off for the venue 'The Sanctum Soho Hotel' in Warwick Street. We arrived at the venue, as the owner of Loaded, Paul Chaplin arrived, in his chauffeured car, with a couple of women in toe. The Boys were glad to see, that there was a free bar, as were some other male SA's from Sexx. Who judging by the look of them, (They looked pie eyed) plus their demeanour & the fact they were slurring their words, had obviously, had a skin full, before they'd got to the free bar! The bar options were beer & red or white wine, of the three, I prefer red wine, but it stains my lips & I end up looking like a vampire, or someone with a liver disorder, so I grabbed a white & found a seat next to John AKA 'Great Northern Git' by the big screen & Richard & Jon sat ahead of us.


 Richard & Jon, Happy With Their Free Beers 
With John AKA Great Northern Git 

Then after the warm up man, we got to see the 1st two episodes of 'SEXXX' which was better than anyone had expected, Loaded's owner Paul, play's nice but dim Paulie who is in partnership with a dodgy partner (80's porn star Ben Dover) of a sex shop called Sexxx. There were also, some guest appearances, in it, from Big Brother 1's, Nick Bateman (Nasty Nick) & also singer (& my teenage crush) Mark Shaw (Then Jerico) I'd best describe 'SEXX' as 'Benny Hill', meets 'Carry On', meets 'Mind Your Language'. But if unlike me you have Sky, you can see for yourself, on Channel 200, on Monday 26th Nov. After that I went to the pub with the boys, I'm always the token female in a group of 8-10 guys. 

I'm beginning to think I'm a bit of a geezer bird, who's seen as one of the lads (Worrying) I had a Vodka Slimline & chatted with Stuart & Richard, who seemed quite down. Can't say I blame him, he has a lot on his plate right now & also some nasty, jealous, vindictive, SA, is spreading false shit about him, trying to get agents to drop him from their books (& sadly it's working with some, haven't they heard of a thing called evidence??) So despite being tired Stuart & I agreed to go, to Stringfellow's Cabaret of Angels, with Richard, to cheer him up a bit, stopping for a slice of vegetable pizza, on the way, as we were all peckish.



We got to Stringfellow's & I was amused to see, the same bouncer (Who Candie & I hated in the 90's) Was still on the door, 20yrs later! Also that he remembered me!! Less amusing was the £20 entrance fee (Even for GIRLS??? I have no interest in the Angels tits, however nice they are!!!) Back in the day, my best friend Candie & I had 'Stringfellow's Model Memberships', which got us in for free!!


Breast Best Friend Candie 

With that £20 fee, I also got a card, giving me free entry on any other day (I'd of preferred £10 entry & no soddin card!!) Anyway amusement number two came, when I saw 20yrs later they still had the same blonde barmaid/bar manager the one that reminds me of Jill from 'Nighty Night' 'Can't wait to tell Candie' I thought. She also remembered me & said "How is your shorter brunette friend?"  The Angels, all had lovely body's, whether real boobs, or fake ones. BUT boy did they look bored & miserable!! When either sat around waiting to dance, or waiting to be picked for a private dance, as well as when they were "supposedly" dancing, seductively, on the poles. Not one looked cheerful, or aroused, not a hint from any, that they are happy in their work!! 

Their pole dancing was as erotic, as watching the nappy of a baby, with a dodgy tummy, being changed!! If I was a guy I wouldn't be arsed to spend cash, on a sullen cow, who put no effort in her dance, however hot she was physically!! All of them looked like they were sex traffic victims, from Eastern Europe, who were waiting to be rescued, all dead behind the eyes. I have no problem with girls stripping, or lap dancing, for a living, but if your doing it for the money, at least be smart enough to act like you love it, even if you hate it!!.... Or stop & do something else!!



While there, girls were coming up to me, saying that I had a nice rack, giving my boobs a squeeze & saying "Wow their real!!" like real boobs are becoming extinct! (Sorry girls I'm not a lesbian & unlike Danni Minogue or Rihanna I am not wanting a lap dance!) My friend Paul Spanish called & text me while I was there & when I said I was being groped by pole dancers he made me laugh when he text back 'OMG you need me there to regulate the squeezing' Anyway, my girl friends are sexier, than the Angels, both Cindy & Victoria, or my friend Jenny, or my friend Tania, who like Victoria, went on Big Brother. Tania use to work for my friend Candie, in Dickens & Jones, when Candie ran the Chanel account in there & I ran the Versace account!


 Sexy Girlfriends Tania & Jenny 

I had a Vodka Slimline & a female, model friend, of mine arrived, in a group of men and women who'd just come in. She looked very pretty, in a long, cream, Grecian style, dress. She also looked really embarrassed to be seen by someone, she knew there. I don't know why? I'm hardly going to judge her, that's not me, anyway I was there myself, I was in no position to judge anyone for being there, even if I was that type!! She seemed to of had a few drinks & gave me a big hug & said to join them downstairs if I wanted, I said I was with my friend trying to cheer him up, but might pop for a chat later. I stayed a while but then around 3am, I thought, that I should go home, as I'd been tired, even before we went to Stringfellow's. I did find it amusing, seeing that Ex Corrie actor, 'Chris Quintin', Was still managing the place, for Peter, after all these years... Chris & I have a past & we were once a 'News Of The World Exclusive', in the mid, to late, 80's, when we were photographed, out Jiving, in another of Peters clubs (At the time) 'The Hypodrome' (One of the photographs from the newspaper article is below!)



So I popped downstairs to the lady's, then had a chat & a hug with my female friend, then left Richard & Stuart to it, in Stringfellow's. Then I walked to my night bus stop, near Trafalgar Square, where I got chatted up, by two tipsy lads, of about 19-21yrs tops. Which was amusing, especially when they ran alongside, my night bus, blowing kisses through the window.... PML I wonder if they will remember doing that & cringe, in the morning?? I got to Kings Cross & got a decaf skinny cappuccino from Costa, then headed to my platform, Platform B. 

As I went to sit down, I saw a local, black guy, who has a speech impediment (A stutter) but who is a stand up comedian, who never stutters during his act (Like singers, who can sing, without stuttering. I guess already knowing what they are about to say, stops the stutter!?) Actually it is more honest to say, that he saw me, as he called & beckoned me over, to a free seat next to him. So I chatted to him, while on the platform & on the train home, as well as when, we walked up from the station, into town together. Then we headed in our opposite directions once we got to the town hall. I finally got in at 5.30am & had a wash & went to bed (Calories consumed 1,602 Not bad for a night out)

Wednesday 14th November, I woke at 10am, after 4.5hrs & had a shower, then I had a coffee & a bowl of mini chocolate Weetabix, for breakfast. I watched some breakfast TV, as I finished my coffee. I put on fresh undies & pulled on last nights jeans, plus my K-9 Angels T-Shirt, my B&W leopard print Trimsoles & my black puffa jacket & did some weeding in the garden. Then I came back indoors & started reading Cindy Jackson's book 'Living Doll' I became instantly absorbed, I could relate to it, on so many levels we were so akin. So much so that I inboxed her on Facebook, saying.....

Hi Cindy LOVING the book oh my how I relate.....
Living in a small country village, feeling an outsider, my pets & farm animals, my only real friends, who loved me unconditionally, especially my cats & dogs. Being a late June baby, so one of the youngest in my year, and my birthday always during the school holidays, not that I had any school friends to celebrate with. Lunch spent with the school losers/rejects/misfits, as I was treated as one, because I wouldn't join in, with the bully's in picking on them. Hating myself in the mirror, as I had an overbite, buck teeth & national health glasses. Also even the fact, that I was lucky enough to be, slim, tall & had big boobs, worked against me, and not for me! A dominating dad, who had control of TV & scared off any possible suitors & who teased me, over the things that frightened me. Being afraid of getting out of bed at night, in case something spooky, under my bed, would grab me, by my feet/ankles. Being thought a freak by the country girls, as they just wanted just to be a farmers wife, but I wanted glamour & an exciting life, in either in the beauty industry, singing, dancing, modelling, designing, lion taming, or acting. My face, always buried in Vogue & Harpers Bizarre, while they read Jackie magazine. Dressing my pets in my dolls clothes (As apart from Barbie, all other dolls bored me, as they were hard not cuddly, and I had no interest in fake baby's, just Barbie with her glam outfits) Also my 1st dog Vicky also being a Sausage Dog!!! (Below) So as you can imagine I'm finding the book fascinating (As I knew I would!!)


My 1st Dog, Vicky & I 

Then I stopped for some lunch, Butternut Squash, Honey & Sage Soup & two buttered crumpets, yum yum!!  I did some housework & put a wash in the washing machine & then made a coffee & I read the paper. The front page is about jockey 'Frankie Dettori' failing a drug test for cocaine. The 41yr three times champion, faces an enquiry, over the banned substance being in his body & could lose his job as a jockey over it, and get a worldwide ban, from horse-racing, the fool, is getting high really worth it?? I've never had any interest in recreational drugs! 

Terror suspect scum 'Abu Qatada' has been freed from jail thanks to moronic judges ruled he cannot be deported to Jordan (Why Not!!??) We now face an obscene £13Million bill to keep the Evil C**t in the UK, while ministers, renew the legal battle, to kick the scum out!! The bastard will cost us £100,000 a week, to monitor 24/7 on top of the £3Million legal bill, he has totted up, in legal aid fees, benefits, prison & security costs. If the scum is still in the UK for 2 more years, his total bill will be £13.4Million. He is free because the 3 moronic judges, at the 'Special Immigration Appeals Commission' upheld his appeal!! They agreed deporting the scum would breach HIS human rights (That Fucking Human Rights Bill again!!..... Thank you so much Cherie Blair!!) 

What about OUR fucking human rights, Not to have, Terrorist scum, living in our country!!!?? Home Secretary, Teresa May, who managed to kick out vile, Abu Hamza, now has to tale the case to a Court Of Appeal. PM David Cameron said "I am completely fed up that this man is still at large. He has no right to be in our country. We believe he is a threat. I share the British peoples frustration!" Qatada can only leave his house between 8am & 4pm each day & must wear a leg tag, he is banned from using the internet & mobile phones (I'm sure that can be got round) He came here on a false passport in 1993 claiming asylum.

Lord Patten, was under pressure to quit his job as BBC Trust Chairman, as it emerged he had 10 other jobs, now I have had 2 or 3 jobs at a time, in the past & it was tiring, juggling all 2-3 and having enough sleep when working 7 day weeks. One has to question, not only how he can fit in 10 jobs, but how much time & dedication he can give to each, when his attention is split 10 ways!! His 10 other jobs bring him in an extra £200,000 a year on top of his £110,000 BBC salary. 


Jimmy Savile - The Top Says It All 

Talking of the BBC, in the wake of the Jimmy Savile scandal, there was a bit in the paper, on Paedo's who seemed to be pillars of society. Such as repulsive, 29st, Lib Dem, MP, 'Sir Cyril Smith', who preyed on young boys for years. 'Bishop Peter Balls', a friend of Prince Charles, has recently been arrested, for attacks on young boys, in the 1980's. BBC Radio host Michael Souter (No I've never heard of him either!!) faces 18 counts, of child abuse, of boys over a 20yr period. Organist, and owner of a music shop in Ipswich, Suffolk, David Templing made 5,800 vile pornographic images of young children. A Manchester headmaster, Malcolm Ford got 15yrs, after being exposed as a serial paedophile, spending 3yrs raping & sexually abusing one 14yr victim. Sick bastards the lot of them.

To child cruelty of another type, a devastated Gloucestershire boy, blasted his mum as "Evil" after she pretended he had cancer, for a £85K benefit scam. His 37yr mum, forged doctors notes, and shaved his head & eyebrows. She also made him wear a bandana & go to school in a wheelchair & banned him from PE. She went on to claim £85, 899.44 in benefits & was given a special car to drive him around. She even put news updates of his cancer on Facebook, even the child thought he had cancer. 

She used the benefit to take her kids on holidays in Florida, where she made him use his wheelchair, to jump ride queue's. The scam was only revealed, when the boys dad went to his GP, to learn the truth. He then alerted social services & his ex was arrested in 2010 & her children taken away. She was jailed for 3yrs 8 months, Judge Jamie Tabor, said "The boy was devastated to be a tool for money!" In a statement, the boy just 6 when the scam began, said of his mum "I don't like her, she is Evil. I wonder why she picked on me? It must of been because of my age!" (What an Evil sick bitch!!)



There were some Basque's in the paper I'd been looking at Basques in 'Ann Summers', the other day as, I thought, that my bra straps, digging into my bad left shoulder, wasn't helping me, pain wise & I thought wearing a strapless, Basque, instead, would be the solution (As a strapless bra, is not supportive enough, for a bigger bust, under many looser clothes, only under, a structured bodice) But all the Basques, I have in my draw, are too small body (Not boob) wise, at the moment. So I thought I'd check out those in Anne Summers...... They were £60..... Sixty bloody quid, just for a bit of underwear!!!!... Ann Summers use to be cheap!! Not any more! I'd expect to pay that, for 'La Perla' or 'Agent Provocateur' but NOT Ann Summers!! I could get a nicer one for less in 'La Sensa'!! In fact, in the paper there was nicer ones for £28.50 in Debenhams & £35 in Littlewoods.


 Better & Cheaper Than Ann Summers

I watched 'The Real Housewives Of New York' then 'Home & Away' Then my friend, Paul Spanish, from band '40 Dub Street' (Below) who had called/text when I was in Stringfellow's Tuesday, called me on my mobile & we chatted for 50mins & he had me in stitches, he really is very funny, I do love a quick wit. He was telling me about his latest gigs & also a few auditions, he'd had, plus a date that went a bit awry, all very funny story's. I must get him signed up on 'Loaded Extra's' I think he'd be ideal for them.



After we chatted, I made dinner, a Sourdough Panini, with brie & cranberry sauce, washed down with a cappuccino. Then I read more, of Cindy Jackson's book 'Living Doll' until 10pm, then I watched 'Secret State' then still peckish, I has 2 buttered crumpets, with a decaf coffee. Then I watched 'Law & Order: Special Victims Unit' After that I had a fairly early night at 12.40am, as I'd only had 4hrs 30min sleep, since yesterday (Calories consumed 1,607 Good)

Thursday 15th November, I woke at 8am, to a bright day, today is the day we get to Vote in bi elections. I had honey yoghurt, with Granola with a coffee, for breakfast (Very tasty) followed by a shower & I dressed in my pale jeans & a grey 3/4 sleeved, boat necked, cotton top, by Petite Bateau. I popped to the local shop for a few essentials, plus todays paper & after voting, I went home had a can of Diet Coke, while I watched 'This Morning' Their fashion item had a 007 theme, where items were not, just what they seemed, like cuff links, that were also a USB stick. But what was brilliant, was phone gloves, gloves that sync to your phone, like an earpiece does, and you listen in the thumb & talk in your pinky finger (As demonstrated by Philip below!!) Which cost around £45..... I so want!!... lol 



After the show I read the paper, the front page, was about a woman in living in Surrey, called Natalie Hemme, aged 31, who nearly died & almost lost her arm, after being bitten by a normal, British, house spider!! Her arm swelled, stopping the blood flow & turning it sceptic. They thought they may have to amputate at the hospital & she said, that the pain was so bad, she didn't care if they did! But miraculously they saved it, though it looks pretty scarred! 


Natalie Hemme's Arm, Hrs After The Spider Bite - YUCK!!!!!
A Recovered, Natalie Hemme

Sadistic, evil, bastards in Greater Manchester, have butchered 11 Sheep ALIVE... The poor ewe's, many of them pregnant, had their hind legs cut off by a saw, in a series of 3 night raids (After the 1st or 2nd I'd be keeping watch all night with a shot gun to shoot the scum!!) They seem to have been butchered by a trained (& sadistic) butcher (I'm guessing probably illegal immigrant, they seem to have no conscience as far as animals are concerned) Using a dog to round up the sheep 1st. Farmer Mr Perkins of Lion House Farm said "The people who've done this are inhuman, to cut the back legs off an animal while it is still alive!! Finding their grizzly carcasses like that, has been a massive shock!!" I just can't get over the cruelty of this, imagine the pain & terror, those poor sheep went through, imagine having your legs cut off & being left to slowly bleed to death!! Horrific!!

In the showbiz world, Tulisa, is apparently dating a 25yr Newcastle FC player, called Danny Simpson, who slept with Natasha Giggs. John Bon Jovi's teenage daughter, Stephanie Rose, 19, has been arrested, after an alleged heroin overdose..... Who cares??



American Navy Veteran 'Dennis Avner' aka as his Native American name  'Stalking Cat' (Above) Who spent years turning himself into a human Tiger, has died, aged 54, after allegedly committing suicide. He spent thousands of dollars on tattoo's and operations, over the years, in his rather odd quest to become a Tiger. he had his lip surgically split, his ears pointed & silicon implants in cheeks & forehead, as well as his teeth, shaped into fangs & claw like fingernails (Is it just me?..... But I can't fathom, why a 'Tiger Man' would have, scaly, lizard/snake, tattoo'd arms, and not Tiger stripes???)

Around 2pm, I had a call from Rapper, Montanrr Love, who said he wanted to meet up with me, Friday, or Saturday, re me singing on his album. I said Saturday was best, and I said that, I'd see him some time, Saturday afternoon, and that I'd text him Friday, to confirm a time. Then I did some chores & made lunch, I had a baguette, with faux Quorn ham & coleslaw, with a home made skinny latte, which I enjoyed watching 'The Real Housewives Of New York' After I had a shower, as I was meeting up, with a load of model girlfriends, in Kent latter, as we were going to be, in some photo shoots together. I dried my hair & then added some clip-in, extensions, to big my hair up & to keep my head/ears warm, on what is a very cold night. I did my make-up & did a red lipstick, which I don't do often, as it can look very hookerish on blondes. 



I decided as it was cold, to wear a red, V-necked, sweater dress, with black fishnets, black high heeled, knee high boots & a wide black patent belt, a tad Mrs Christmas, but who cares!! I was ready early, so chatted a bit on Facebook & Twitter before going out. Then I grabbed my long, black, Primark coat & Salvador Ferragamo bag & set off at 6.30pm, to St Albans Station. I was meeting my model, girlfriend, Chloe, in Costa Coffee, in Kings Cross, first for a coffee, bite to eat & gossip, before meeting the other girls. I got to Costa, just mins after Chloe & we laughed, as we were in almost identical outfits, except her dress was more plum, than red, the boots were flat & she is a brunette.

We got our drink & food I had a Brie & Cranberry Panini, plus a huge skinny Cappuccino & Chloe & I chatted away putting the world to rights!.... After a hour, we travelled to Charring Cross, to meet the other six girls. To travel, to meet with an agent friend, in Ashford Kent. We met her in Chimneys pub & we were all being very good, on either Diet Cokes, or Mineral water, and the agent told us all about, a long term modelling project, she wanted us for. Which I am not allowed, to divulge anything about, except that our 1st shoot, will be based on a Burlesque theme, which sounds like fun (Thank god I'm losing weight fast!!) 

Quite Ironic, as I was checking out Basques, in Ann Summers the other day & was looking at them in the paper too!! We chatted about the project for a few hours & then we went on to the club Liquid, the agent getting us all in for nothing (Just like the good old days) We stuck to the soft drinks, even when we got bought drinks from guys (& the 9 of us, got bought a fair lot of those) It was good to have a dance, on the dance floor, tho Chloe & I were pretty hot, due to our sweater dresses. Annoyingly the battery's of my camera had given up the ghost, and none of the girls had brought cameras, only camera phones & it was too dark for any decent photos, to come out with any of them!


 Liquid Ashford Kent 

Chloe & I got a lift back to London, from her Graphics Artist, boyfriend Mike & I crashed at theirs in the spare room, in their Covent Garden, flat. We had some crumpets & digestive biscuit's, with a decaf coffee, as we chatted with Mike, as we wound down, then we headed off to our beds at 6.30am (Calories Consumed 1,918 Not bad for a night out!!)

Friday 16th November, I woke at 9.30am & had a wash & did make-up, quietly, dressed & left a note for Chloe & Mike, thanking them, for letting me stay. I pulled on my black coat & faux rabbit skin Deerstalker hat & quietly let myself out, into the hustle & bustle of Covent Garden. I wandered down to Leicester Square & got the tube to Kings Cross. I was sat on the Kings Cross train, reading the free Metro, paper, when a good looking, immaculately dressed, tall, blonde guy, who'd been sat in a seat, adjacent to mine, across the isle, got up to get off, at a stop. When he suddenly leaned over me & handed me a card & said, in a well spoken voice "I think your stunning, please call me I'd like to take you to dinner some time" Which really surprised me, seeing I'd only had 3hrs sleep, so must look at least a bit rough. I looked at his card, his name is Daniel, but it has no info where he is from? Or what he does for a living? Just his mobile number & email address. I thought 'Must be the extensions & the hat, I always pull when in either, or both!!' 




I got in at 11am & made a coffee & had a bowl of chocolate mini Weetabix, for breakfast. I changed out of last nights clothes & had a shower & changed into a pink velour tracksuit, to lounge round the house in, before heading off to the gym, to do a pilates class. I then came home & caught up with Tuesdays, Closer magazine. I watered the plants & washed the kitchen floor, I'm still loving my new stair carpet, it is the only, nice, floor carpet, underfoot, in the entire flat, the rest is as thin as cardboard. 

At 2.41 Montanrr Love text me saying 'Hmmmm what's the latest I can cum down tomorrow. I was fink to do writtin session wif u for the whole nite, if ur free' I thought 'Oh FFS not again!!' Then I thought. 'Last time he wanted to meet up with me about singing on his album & come round to mine after midnight, which I said no to!' He said then, that he'd send me a few tracks, that he wants me to sing on, which he'd send to my email (Which he never did, when I said no, to his Midnight visit!!) & now here he comes again with the same M.O!! I text back 'I thought you wanted me to do some vocals on tracks already written??' To which he replied 'Wanted to write a few songs with u. And i'll leave early in the morning, Up to u.'  WTF?? I'm a singer, NOT a writer & I have shown no interest, in wishing to write anything with him, it has jumped from one thing, to something completely different & yet again, suggesting coming round to mine, at a unsociable hour!!! NOBODY gets access to my home, Male or Female, until I know them, VERY  WELL & Not at that hour, of day/morning!! I didn't bother replying, as it is obviously a load of bollocks, like the last time, he contacted me, a few months back & I'm not wasting, any more time on it, even if it is genuine, that approach is so unprofessional, that I don't want to know.

I put an update on my Facebook, to say ignore, yesterdays status, about me, having talks on Saturday, about singing, on the album of an up & coming rapper, as it has become apparent it is all a load of bullshit! Then I put some more stuff in the attic then watched a bit of morning TV & caught up with my Hotmail emails, plus my Facebook & Twitter messages. Then I did a lot of Job & audition searches & applied to a bunch. Then I did a bit of blogging while watching 'The Real Housewives Of New York' having a late lunch of a tuna sandwich & Quavers, plus four, seed covered, bread sticks, at 3pm, washed down with a Diet Coke. I got a call on my mobile, re the modelling work from my agent & chatted a bit about that. 

Then I read some more, of Cindy Jackson's book 'Living Doll' I'm loving it, I really relate to it, we are so akin & been through a lot of similar things. Cindy replied to my message on Facebook & said she was glad, that I was enjoying it & I replied..... 

'I'm absolutely LOVING it I can relate to it so well, so much is the same with me, the being artistic & going to art college, my small home village's, inhabitants, twitchy curtains, when I visited my parents, in either punk or new romantic garb. Singing in a band, Stringfellow's etc. hanging out with punks, Gary Newman, Pete Burns, Boy George & Marilyn. And always somehow partying with celebs (Totally unlike my siblings) The clubs I hung out in (Wont be surprised if Ferdenzis pops up, before the final chapter) The flying off to other country's, to do work (Solo) Going from earning a good wage, to living hand to mouth, while working for fuck all, to make my boyfriends/fiancés, businesses a success, only for them to dump me, when they get rich [Thanks To My FREE Help!!] Because, I'm supposedly, no longer in their league... Wankers!! 

The revenge of sending pizzas & cabs by the score, to the home/workplace, of those who'd done me wrong (Plus S.N.M.N will explain that one, to you one day!!) Longing for decades on end, for rhinoplasty, to sort the bump on my nose, caused by school bully's, smashing my face, repeatedly against the edge of my desk & also longing to get my overbite fixed. But instead, always putting others, plus keeping a roof over my head, as priority instead. So never ending up having the cash to do it (Something I only this year, decided, has to stop, so I can have what I want, for once..... Though the list is now getting longer with age!!) Even the irony, of me me mentioning my favourite comedian Philis Diller, within 5mins of us meeting & the fact my best friend Candies In-law was her plastic surgeon, is not lost on me!! It's like I was meant to read your book, to underline what I was already thinking..... Which is FUCK IT!!... It's ME Time!!....

She said it certainly was ME TIME, and the BEST people, are those who were at some time, or still are, or at least once felt like Misfits (Rather like Marilyn's last film) I watched 'Home & Away' drinking a very cold Diet Coke, then at 6.57pm I got a text from Montanrr Love (After a missed call when I was in the loo) saying 'Is this some joke. Ur slagging me of on fb. JATS. Is dat how pathetic u are!' So obviously, one of my so called Facebook friends, is in fact a Frienemy, as my status is set to private & only my friends, can see it. So obviously one of them, knows Montanrr & has grassed up my status. Whatever!!... hopefully they also deleted themselves as a friend, whoever they are. 

Oh well as they wan't to make 'that' public to him. I will make it ALL public, to everyone, in this blog, rather than a small, passing comment, in Private on my FB wall! With no reply from me, he text again 'Just thought you wer alot older than that. Peace'  Whatever!  Of the two of us, I know who is the most grown up!! Or should that be 3 of us & include the grass too! Knackered from a week with little sleep, I crashed out for a bit, waking at midnight, hungry, so I had a bowl of cereal, plus a decaf coffee then got changed for bed, and had a very early, night for me (Calories consumed 1,264 Good)  

Saturday 17th November, I woke up at 8am, and after texting my friend Rob, a good luck text, about an operation he is having today on his back, I had a long bath as I too was in a lot of pain thanks to my shoulder, back & neck. I know he is a big strong man, but we all need a bit of moral support now & again. I'm a tough old boot at times, but even I miss having someone there for me, when I made/make, my countless trips, to hospital, for operations, especially since mum died! I pulled on my pale jeans & Petite Bateau grey top. I twisted my hair up in a top knot & put a touch of make-up on. Then popped to the shop for a paper, I got back in made a coffee & had mini choc Weetabix for breakfast. I read the paper, the jilted lover of Tulisa's new beaux, Footballer Danny, told how she & Danny watched Tulisa's sex video together & Danny mocked, Tulisa's blow job technique. It seems by the sound of things, that this guy is a player, fine if you know the score & are willing to put up with that, and see him, as just a shag buddy, but that's not good, if your looking for boyfriend material.

DJ Dave Lee Travis, 67, who was arrested yesterday, fiercely deny's, groping 2 female colleagues at the BBC. He also stressed the probe into him, did not involve under aged girls, saying that kiddy fiddlers sickened him! He said it is easy to make allegations & why wait 40yrs to do so? 

Helen Flanagan (Rosie from Corrie) is getting the cold shoulder from her 'I'm A Celebrity' camp mates due to her failing 4 tasks so far & them starving on basic rations. She is a sweet & beautiful girl, with an amazing figure, but boy is she a wuss!! And she isn't even giving 10% effort to the trials let alone the 100% she claims to be giving. Maths is obviously not her strong point.... Well certainly not percentages anyway, the public of course are loving this & she has been voted to do the 5th bush tucker trial!! 

A bigoted bus driver, left X78 passengers stranded for 20mins, after refusing to drive it, from Rotherham to Sheffield, at a driver shift cross over, because the bus had an Advert on its side from the gay lobby group Stonewall, which say's 'Some People Are Gay Get Over It' The passengers had to wait for the next X78 to arrive & get on that! when the driver then swapped buses with the Homophobic 1st driver, who found it unacceptable as a Christian. I think he should take a leaf out of the Ad & 'Get Over It!!' 



Shock figures reveal, that over 50% of Europeans, are overweight (Shock figures, on shocking figures!!) It says that 52% of adults weigh more than they should. Blaming the wide availability of fatty, sugary food & inactivity. In the UK 26.1% of adults are classed as obese, that's over twice as many as France (Mind you, they're all insipid, scrawny, rude, chain smokers!!) Yet life expectancy has increased to 79, from 73 in 1980!! Odd huh!!

I did a lot of household chores, which my shoulder didn't thank me for, as it is hurting like a bitch!! I popped out to the shops & got a few pairs of plain stockings & a fishnet & seamed pair & one pair of thick tights for when it gets colder. I got home & had lunch which was just another bowl of cereal & a diet Coke, as I was feeling hungry, but the pain was making me feel sick, so couldn't manage much. Later I watched 'Take Me Out' and laughed about it with my friend Maxine, by text & on Twitter. With such naff guys out there, it's no wonder, we both choose to be single?? 


Mad Max Or Rather 
Maxine 

We are both still waiting, to be swept off our feet, by a Mr Right, but these days, guys would rather, ask you for a booty call than a date. It amazes me how they seem to find it acceptable, these days, to suggest meeting up for sex, before even asking you out on a date? (Even if the date is really a pretence, they could at least bother to pretend!!) It seems, to me, that nowadays men find it, less embarrassing, to suggest sex, to women, that they haven't even met yet (When online) Than it is, to suggest, bothering to get to know you, over a coffee, or dinner. It's really no wonder that, I've stayed celibate for so long, or have so many bouts of celibacy inbetween relationships!! Which isn't easy, as I have a High Sex Drive & LOVE Sex!! But I'm not going to go out there & get used, by a load of players, or one night stand merchants!! 

I told Maxine about my train admirer Daniel & she asked if I was going to call to arrange a date? I said I wasn't sure, but he ticks all the right boxes. But the fact I didn't get excited & respond & call straight away, means I'm either not that keen, or something is stopping me!! Hmmm maybe I should email? Maybe it's because his card tells me nothing about what he does, or his personality?? I just don't know, I'm procrastinating over it, maybe that's why I'm single, maybe I should stop thinking & be more pro active, re dating?? Maybe I should get out there & 'Manhattan Date' maybe I should just go, on loads of dates, maybe I should text/email Daniel & give him a chance, after all, these days, it's a rare man that offers you a date, rather than just a fuck!! 

I watched 'Xfactor' what an abysmal show this year, there are only one or two half decent singers this year & they miss that certain something, that makes someone a star! I just hope god awful James Arthur go's. I just do not get the hype & praise that is being lauded at him at the moment on TV & in the press!!?? He mumbles & slurrs like a drunk down & out, that's not singing in my book!! I watched 'I'm A Celebrity' that is also boring except for the brilliant Ant & Dec, plus Brian Conley!! At 10.30pm, I went to bed, with a decaf coffee & read some more of Cindy Jackson's book, then went to sleep, drugged up with a load of painkillers (Calories Consumed 434 Whoops that's Anorexic low!!)

Sunday 18th November, I woke at 7am, to a bright sunny winters morning, my neck & shoulder are still very painful, so I took strong painkillers, with a coffee & had a bowl of Chocolate Weetabix Mini's, for breakfast. I got on my scales, weight still the same (Lost 10.4lb so far) It should start falling off quickly now, it normally does, once I drop the 1st, 7lb!! My knees will be grateful for that, as they have been causing me a lot of pain!! Bad knees must be hereditary, as my mum had knee replacements & my sister Julie suffers with pain in her knees too!! Mine started playing up since I gained weight, after mum died. They were fine when I was a size 8-10 so hopefully they will stop hurting when I'm back to that size again. Mind you, my legs/knees are still flexible enough, to bend both legs behind my head, EASILY, which is pretty damn good for someone of my age, there is not many 20yr olds that can do that!!!

I had a text from Tracy, about going over to hers for a chat Monday afternoon re modelling & one from my friend Jennie about seeing her Thursday night. I also had an invite, from Loaded TV, to be in the audience, to watch a show called 'Babe IQ' on Tuesday. Which I assume from the title, will be a bunch of Page 3/ Loaded / Nuts, type girls, being quizzed, to see if they fit, the hot but dumb, category. I was a paid up member of Mensa in my 20's - 30's, as I have an IQ of 164. I thought it would be a chance to meet up with lots of interesting people. But although all the puzzles & tests were enjoyable to do, the get together's were dull & the people, although intelligent, were boring & introverted, in the main. So in the end I left, as I can just buy crossword & quiz books, if I want to do puzzles. 

Loaded TV said, they would pay my travel to go, so I said yes. I was on Twitter for a bit & I saw that, one of my local football teams, that a friend plays for, Cassiobury Revolution FC won 5-0, against Roundbush FC. They must all be elated!!! I wondered if they ever played, either of the two teams, that my friend Andrea's, boyfriend, Tom manages? Which is Harringay Borough FC & a North London, Greek team, called Salamina FC? Cassiobury's Goal Keeper, Rob, is off at the moment with an injury, that has been operated on yesterday. He must feel gutted not to be part of that winning game today! My brother plays in goal, for his team & I know he would be. 

I caught up on the 'Homeland' I missed last week, on 4oD which took forever, with all the buffering on my Laptop, but it was worth it though, to catch up with the excellent series. I then watched 'Carry On Henry' on ITV, while doing job searches on my PC. I had a part, a few years back, in the NEW Carry On film 'Carry On London' but the sponsors pulled out last minute & it has been shelved ever since!! I applied for a bunch of jobs, then I had a cheese baguette & some chilli Doritos, for lunch, with a decaf Diet Coke. Then bored, I watched corny 80's fantasy film 'Krull' 

I'd seen it a few times before, in fact it was on TV not so long ago, but there was sod all else on. Then I popped into the attic to get the items down, that I'd sold on eBay. Then I watched 'Chuck' on 5* which was amusing, then I read today's Sunday Sun. The headline news is that 'Harry Styles' from 'One Direction' is dating 'Taylor Swift' Errrrr so what? Is that really worth a front page?? Also 'Tulisa' is in danger of losing her 'Xfactor' Job due to poor time keeping & attitude.... Whatever!! Neither edge of your seat stuff!! Tulisa can spend more time with her new, bit of rough, footballer, boyfriend, Danny Simpson, if she is fired. He's the charmer who dumped pregnant Stephanie Ward, mother to his 16 month daughter Maybe Tulisa has done, Stephanie a favour, as it seems the Newcastle FC player use to tell her "Your not a proper WAG..... Proper WAGs need to put up & shut up!!" Oooh what a catch he sounds....... NOT!!!! He may suit Tulisa though, as she seems to date scum bags, going from her past record of beau's

What should of been on the front page, is that an entire neighbourhood police team, in Bromley SE London, have been fired, for lazing around in their HQ playing poker & backgammon, or cleaning their golf clubs when they should of been on the beat catching crooks!!! (Disgusting!!) An undercover operation involving hidden cameras, revealed how cope & community support officers, didn't even bother changing into their uniforms while ON DUTY & sat watching TV or went jogging on police time. They also cut short street patrols to play cards & claimed OVERTIME for hours they NEVER worked!! The team ironically named 'The Safer Neighbourhood Team' was uncovered by the Met's Directorate of Professional Standards. I hope the lazy S.O.B's are named & shamed!!

Talking of crime, locking away our criminal teenage scum, shockingly cost's 6 times MORE than if they were sent to Eton!! And most of the feral good for nothings go straight back to crime once released (Because jail is too soft.... It should be like a tougher version of Porridge!!... Ideally more like a Turkish Jail) Ministry figures show it costs £245Million a year to detain 1,800 offenders or £100,000 a place, BUT at cushy privately run 'Medway Centre' in Kent (Which I have ranted about being to cosy & cushy before in my blogs) the Bill comes in at £200,000 per offender. A teen being sent to Eton costs just £34,000 by comparison!! Yet with all that money being spent on their stay & rehabilitation, many still leave being unable to read or write (Obviously due to skipping school in many cases, they should be made to learn while locked up!!) A disgusting 70% of those that leave the 'Medway Centre' reoffend, due to it being no hardship when they are sent back there no doubt!

French cops, now think the British family, gunned down, in the French Alps & the French cyclist, were shot at random, by a French serial killer, armed with a antique pistol. (Quite frankly, I think the police don't have a clue what's going on, the theory's have changed so often!!) Talking of gunmen, a crazed gunman Blaec Lammers, 20, who plotted to kill fans, at the new 'Twilight' movie, like the nut job at the Batman movie, did. He was in jail last night after being foiled by his mum, when she tipped off cops, he planned to copy July's Batman blood bath. He had bought 2 assault riffles a hand gun & 400 rounds of ammo. He'd booked his ticket for the opening night of 'Twilight Saga - Breaking Dawn, Part 2' before he was held at a cafe in Bolivar,  Missouri. It doesn't say how his mum was aware of his plans, but she saved many peoples lives.

I watched 'Burn Notice' & 'CSI New York'  then I had 2 Veggie Sausages, with oven chips, mange tout & baked beans for dinner, washed down, with a Diet Coke (decaf) At 8pm I watched the Xfactor results show (Boring) The bottom two, in the sing off were Ella (Good voice, but lacking that certain something) & James Arthur (Hurrah thank god, maybe we can get rid of him, he is god damn awful!!) Ella chose the wrong save me song for her voice & didn't do herself justice. 

James was his normal, awful, droning, self, the judges votes stood 2 against James & 1 against Ella & the deciding vote was Gary Barlow's. I thought he was bound to do the right thing & send James packing!! But NO!!..... He took it to deadlock (Surly the public have put James last!!?) But No it was bye bye Ella. Then I watched the brilliant 'Homeland' followed by the film 'Unforgiven' on 5 +1, finally going to bed, tired, at 12.30am (Calories Consumed 1,260 Good) 

Monday, 7 May 2012

May Day, May Day!!!

Monday 30th April, I woke at 8.30am, aching from head to toe, like some 80yr old granny. I wish this damp weather would sod off!! I think I need to become a Bedouin & live in the lovely, hot, arid, desert & feel young & pain free, due to the lack of damp, that set's off my rheumatoid arthritis!! I had a bath, to try to ease my aches & pains, then washed my hair. I had a coffee & a bowl of porridge for breakfast. I wore my New Look jeggings & my black polo-neck, jumper, also from New Look, which fits, despite being a size 6. I popped to the shop for some more milk & a Sun newspaper. I got home & read the paper, the front page was all about football (As it always seems to be lately) Re the FA choosing Roy Hodgson over Harry Rednapp for England Manager (Big deal, that could of gone on the back, in the sports section!!) 


While the smaller, front page news (That should of been the headline..... No pun intended) Is, that a Muslim, British aid worker, Khalil Dale who was kidnapped by the vile Taliban, 4 months ago, has been found in Pakistan yesterday. Well to be exact, his beheaded body, has been found. The Taliban scum beheaded the 60yr Red Cross medic & left his remains in a plastic bag, with his name scrawled on it in a black marker, in an orchard, along with a note, which said he had been killed by the Taliban & they had video footage of his death, the sick wankers! He was thought to have been killed, 12hrs before he was found.


Terror Victim, Khalil Dale 
Khalil Dale's Body Found In Bag, Under Blanket
Khalil Dale's Body Brought Back In Bag & Blanket


More Madness, from yet another moronic Judge (How do these soft Judge twats keep their jobs??) A Swindon stalker was freed, by idiot Judge, Euan Ambrose, despite the fact that cops found a 'Kidnap Kit' in his room. Dangerous, oddball, freak, Matthew Bastin, 35, had a stun gun, disguised as a mobile phone, plus potassium cyanide, a GPS tracking device & books on Kidnapping. He also admitted harassing his ex, for 4 months earlier! On THAT occasion, cops found, a stun gun, a noose, tape & tranquillisers in his car. He was given a soft suspended sentence & told to stay away from his victim (I'm sure she now sleeps very soundly at night, knowing that, that dangerous freak, is out on the loose, after being told not to do it again..... NOT!!) Idiot Euan said he was "Uneasy" over the kit's, but it was not illegal to possess the "Other" items. Bastin was then sent to a hostel & was arrested for threatening behaviour, BUT freed AGAIN!! It would be funny, if not so bloody dangerous!! If this freak, later stalks & murders someone, the Judge should be done for accessory to murder, for not keeping him off the streets!!


Dangerous Stalker, Matthew Bastin
Ladies, If You Seem To See, This Freak Around A Lot
Report Him & His Stun Gun Phone, To the Police Pronto!!


Double murder suspect, James Allen 36 (Below) who tried growing his hair & wearing a baseball cap, as a disguise, while on the run, was arrested yesterday, on his birthday (Lovely) By armed police, in Leeds, after being spotted by a odd-duty cop. Lets just hope no moronic judge gives him bail & he goes on the run again!!


Murderer James Allen 


Drink Drive Killer, footballer Luke McCormick, was disgustingly given leave from jail (Where he is serving time for killing two little boys, Arron 10 & Ben 8) So he could celebrate his own son, 3yr Leo's birthday, at a Holiday Park. What the Hell were those prison officials thinking?? What a huge insult to Amanda & Phil Peak, the two boys parents! (Below) Allowing Luke to enjoy his son's birthday, when he denied Amanda & Phil, ever being able to enjoy Arron & Ben's birthdays, Ever Again!! What a cruel kick in the teeth judgement, by our increasingly moronic penal system!! Amanda Peak not only lost her two sons, but is now a full time carer to her husband Phil, who suffered neck & back fractures, in the M6 crash! Luke being allowed temporary release, is a disgusting joke & an insult to all of Luke's victims.




In the UK postage stamps go up today 1st class goes up 10p from 50p to 60p & 2nd class goes up to 50p. Talking of money, fat lesbian, look-alike, with a ugly quiff hairstyle, Sam Buttery (Below) Who was axed from the awful 'The Voice' said of the show "Of course it's better than 'Xfactor'.... the BBC pay you to sing!" He say's the contestant's are paid to sing & get travel expenses, put in flats & given a food allowance (From your Licence Fee) 


Errr sorry Sam, but I think you will find 'Xfactor' contestant's get much the same!! But the 'Xfactor' pays for it, from their own earnings, which is more generous than the BBC, as they are using the 'Licence Money' from the public, to pay 'The Voice' contestant's (The Beeb are generous with the public's licence money, which they don't deserve, as they produce only 10 good shows at best) About time the Government scrapped TV licences, or made it an opt out & those who opt out don't get BBC stations, I'd cope quite happily without the BBC!! People are finding it hard to put food on the table & pay the bills in this economic climate, let alone fork out over £100 a year for the BBC's MAINLY rubbish shows!


Sam Buttery 


I watched 'The News' & '60 Minute Makeover' despite hating presenter Catherine with a passion! Then I did some washing up & mopped the kitchen floor, then popped out to the Job Centre, popping in Tesco for a few bit's before heading home. I got in & made lunch, steamed salmon, with edamane, pea & mint salad, washed down with a Diet Coke. Which I ate while watching 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' I did the washing up & put a white wash in the washing machine. 


I watched 'Come Dine With Me' plus 'Home & Away' I did some more job searches online & then applied for a bunch of auditions too. Then had some chilli Doritos dipped in lemon & coriander humous, yum yum!! I put a dark load in the washing machine, watered the house plants & then hung out the dark laundry to dry. Then I watched 'Foxes Live: Wild In The City' so cute!! I love foxes, a vixen use to come sit next to me, when I use to sketch, while on the grounds of Lydhurst, private estate, when I lived in Warninglid, West Sussex. It use to sit feet away and over a period of a month it got closer & closer, until she sat right near me. I use to share some of my packed lunch with her in the end. One day she brought some cubs out to see me, I felt really honoured by her trust.



Then I watched 'Embarrassing Bodies' while eating a Solero & drinking a Diet Coke, followed by 'Made In Chelsea'  I crack up each time that 'MIC' Gabriella's proactive.co.uk Ad is on, in the breaks. The acting is appalling, especially the SAD face!! Too too Funny. That was followed by 'Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares' on Ch4 +1, I was feeling rough, due to the rain causing me a lot of pain, so I took some painkillers with a decaf coffee & went to bed at 12midnight. Moments later there was deafening thunder & the strangest lightning, that was constant for 20mins & just looked like someone had turned on a constant light switch, behind the black rain clouds. The loud thunder continued, and the rain was unreal, lashing down like crazy, as a wind howled outside, it stopped for 40mins & I was almost asleep when it started up again, exactly the same. 




My head was feeling muggy, and I thought "Oh shit, that's a migraine trying to come" So while I was still able to see, I turned on my laptop & I messaged my new 'In Training' advisor & said I was feeling ill & felt I had a migraine on the way. So if I didn't show tomorrow, that would be why & to book me a new appointment, but if I was OK in the morning, I'd call or email I was coming in. Then I went back to bed (Calories Consumed 1,184 Excellent)


Tuesday 1st May (May Day) I woke at 9am, today is the 1st day of May, so I was gutted that I opened the curtains to weather, more befitting of October. But to be honest I ached so much, all over, that the grey, rainy. weather, came really, as no surprise!! I had a pounding migraine, as expected, thanks to last nights, thunder storm & was glad I'd cancelled my In Training, noon appointment, in Luton. I took some pain killers with a coffee (Decaf) but my migraine was too bad & I ended up being ill, in bed, until 4pm. Bloody weather, that's most of the day wasted!! Once I felt a bit better, and hungry, I heated up some lush Tomato & Paprika Soup, for lunch & ate it, while reading Joanna Bryant's blog. 




I cried while reading Jo's Blog today (Link HERE or go to my blog list, to right of this blog >>> and look for the Blog 'Tales From The Heart' I cried as I read about, how now her hands & feet are failing & how she is now using her nose, to text friends, as she can't use her hands. Such a young and lovely girl, life is so unfair. I wept like a baby (Which close friends will attest, is very rare, mind you I tend to do my crying out of sight, on my own) She is still being so upbeat, on Facebook, and her blog, at a time when she is suffering so much, in so many ways. I have been in agony these past two or three weeks, due to my rheumatoid arthritis, and typing has been hard due to painful hands. But at least it's not terminal & eventually when the damp weather goes, the pain eases & sometimes completely goes! Joanne is so young & so full of fun & life! This evil, rare, cancer is so unfair & undeserved!!


She should be spending decades of fun & laughter, with her handsome boyfriend, maybe even getting married to him. Not being dealt this unfair hand, yet with each new celeb "Team Jo"  support photo, she seems so happy & re energised. I felt honoured, to be able to share her delight, of one pic from Prince Harry (Below) As I read her latest blog entry, bless her. 


I will light a candle in St Albans Abbey & prey for some kind of miracle, as she sure as hell deserves one, while lighting one for my late mum, my late dad, My late Aunty Babs, as well as for Nicky's late dad Jim, Candy's late Sister-in-law Vivian & Nichola McLean's mum Margret, who is sadly dealing with breast cancer right now, lets all send positive energy, for her to recover soon, and some strength for Nichola too, as the stress over a much loved parent being ill is massive. I hope Jo's determination to live, will make her succeed & stick two fingers up, at the doctors, who have given up on her & that her willingness to keep fighting this rare cancer, proves them all wrong!!




I checked my emails & I had one from my lovely friend, Richard Newman from BB8, who's sadly, recently lost, his lovely mum, to Cancer, back home in Canada. He had sent me 2 pic's of support for Jo, for her Facebook 'Team Jo' collection (Below) Bless his heart & I posted them straight onto Joanna's Facebook wall for her. So when she is feeling less poorly, either she, or her Boyfriend or a helper, can put it in her 'Team Jo'  Support Album.


 Big Brother's Richard Newman, AKA Half Of 'Dicky & Dolly' 


I put my long coat & Ugg style boots, over my silky, leopard print, pyjamas, and shuffled to the shop & got the paper, plus a Flake & Crunchie bar, for a treat to make me feel less crap. Munched my Crunchie while back in bed watching 'Come Dine With Me' & then the fab 'Home & Away' & it's second show on 5* I did some job & audition searches online & then chatted a bit on Facebook & Twitter. Then I read the paper I'd got earlier, as my head was too muzzy to read the small print before. 


The Headlines was Football again Man City 1, Man United 0 (Yawn!!)  Put it on the sodding sports pages!! A Former cop Ivan Esack 38, was under arrest, last night, for the stabbing to death, of his estranged wife, in her hair salon in Ashford, Kent. Our sick society is getting more & more violent!! Pretty Natalie Esack 33, was found dead, by police, after workers in nearby shops heard screams from the salon, yesterday morning. Paramedics fought in vain to save her, as staff looked on, outside the salon sobbing, after arriving for work, to the bloody scene.


Victim Natalie Esack 


A new Titanic II is due to set sail in 2016 & this time it, unlike it's namesake, will supposedly, really be unsinkable (That's almost making it a challenge, to terrorists to prove them wrong!!) It will look identical even down to its 4 funnels. Personally I'd feel I was tempting fate sailing on it!!


Good news for women, like Nichola McLean's mum, Margaret. A breast cancer test that reveals if women will get the disease 11yrs before it develops is being created by British Medics. This would be good for Nichola & her aunts & any sisters if she has any, who may be concerned it is in the family, after Margaret sadly contracting it. Cancer is rife in my family My dad, all 4 grandparents, 90% of aunts & uncles have died of various forms of it, two cousins are battling breast cancer & another prostrate cancer. More than 46,000 British women are diagnosed with breast cancer every year. Researchers have used a simple blood test to detect tiny biological changes, more than a decade before a solid tumour forms.




Slimy Snake, Ken Livingstone (Above) has earned up to £1.2million over the past 3yrs & at times more than rival, intelligent but Lovable Buffoon, Boris Johnson. Also his ruse of of funnelling his wage into a company may have saved hi paying  up to £220,000 in tax. Which is far, far more than the £50,000 first though, OVER 4 times MORE!! Proving Red Ken to be, the 'Hypocritical Liar', most of us always knew he was. When he said that "Tax Avoiders" were "Rich Bastards, who should be unable to vote, many having paid as little as 18% tax" well it seems he has finally been proved a 'Dodgy, Hypocritical, Bastard' In complete contrast to Slimy, Red Ken, Honest Boris 'Paid' the TOP RATE TAX, that was hiked up 50% in April 2010. In 3 years Boris paid £519,276 in tax, on his top rate tax, it is estimated that Slimy Ken, only paid a tax rate of 22%. Of course, Slimy Ken, is blaming all this, on his accountants.


Sleeping longer could help you loose weight (Bad news for Insomniacs like me) Though ironically, last week when I was poorly & spent a lot of time in bed ill & sleeping in, I lost 3.5lb!! Apparently sleeping more than 9hrs a night suppresses genetic factors that lead to weight gain. While too little sleep (That's me usually) has the opposite effect, those sleeping less than 7hrs a night (7hrs!! That's luxury!!) Genetic factors, accounted for 70% of difference in body mass index..... I need to be like my friend Candie she can sleep for England! (She even slept through a bomb going off, about 6 doors down from her flat, in Cadogan Place, off of Sloan St, years ago, when we were in our 20s) Then I could be a Skinny Minnie!!


Snore The Flab Away???


Talking of weight, a teenage model, who starved herself, because she thought she was fat, died aged 19 weighing a sad 6st, after being gripped by evil anorexia & bulimia. She was a cover girl on teen magazines, such as Popgirl & BBC Girl Talk, from the age of 12, earning £112 a shoot, but by 16 she had developed eating disorder's (One wonders how much agency pressure/comments contributed to this?) & ultimately became too weak to work. Bethany Wallace of Newmarket, Suffolk (Below) sadly died in her sleep, while at her gran's, after her weakened heart failed!! Her Anorexia kicked in after she fought to keep off the weight lost after a bought of glandular fever. 


 Tragic Beauty, Bethany Wallace


Roof tiler dad Clive Wallace (Below) said "She lost her self esteem, she would say she was fat, but she was so beautiful!!" At her most healthy 5ft 3" Bethany was 8st 7lb, her parent's said what made her death more tragic was that, she was making good progress after a year on a eating plan, while getting counselling. It's so sad that girls and women seem to think size zero looks good!! Abbey Clancy looks a dire bag of bones, at the moment, she was gorgeous before. Nichola McLean also looked awful & bony a while back, and I was worried as she was such a page 3 stunner & looked amazing on 'I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here' so I was glad to see her back to form for 'CBB' last year, though she is still tiny, mind you worry about her mums health, could cause weight loss, sadly losing my mum had the opposite effect, I gained 3st.




After the wettest April EVER, Gloucester, Essex & Somerset (Below) are flooded & a 52yr car passenger drowned, with his pet spaniel, in a car, when he was swept away in a swollen river. Yet there is still laughably, a hosepipe ban, due to drought!!


 Essex
 Gloucester
Essex


Bulgarian Gangster, Tihomir Georgiev, known as 'The Butcher' due to cutting off rivals ears & fingers (Below) is fighting his extradition, because he say's he will be tortured in Bulgaria's Jail (Oh Boo Hoo!! Give a Shit!! What go's around, comes around, and after all the people he chose to butcher, it will be karma!) Lets hope some Human Rights, EU moron, doesn't get involved!! He is wanted in Bulgaria & faces 18yrs for the murder of another thug. He fled to the UK on bail after falsely promising to grass on his Mafia boss. He is also wanted for questioning on a series of robberies, assaults & drug deals (Lovely Chap!!) The 45yr munter is also linked to 5 more deaths & is on Interpol's most wanted list. He is of course using UK legal aid (It should only be available to Brits!!) and using the Human Right's Act to fight deportation!! What about his rivals Human Rights to keep their ears & fingers?? Even if they are scum too!!


The Butcher


Then at 8pm, I had some chilli Doritos dipped in lemon & coriander humous, with a Diet Coke, as I felt a bit peckish, as I watched 'Supersize Vs Superskinny' followed by 'The Hunt For Bin Laden' It was all about, the excellent US mission, that found & exterminated, terrorist scum & mastermind, Osama Bin Laden, in his lair, which was situated right under the noses, of the 'Supposedly' unaware Pakistani Army!! Then I watched 'Facejacker' on Ch4 +1. I had a decaf coffee with a flake & then went to bed at 12.30am (Calories consumed 1,297 Very Good)


Wednesday 2nd May, I had an odd dream where I was staying with my late father somewhere & I had a boyfriend, who was chatting to me on a mobile phone, that's all I can recall, then I woke at 7am. I fell asleep again & dreamt that my friend Ian & I were performing with Russell Grant in a three person show, at some seaside venue. We were meant to be going on in 30mins & I was meant to be playing 3 different female roles, I was dressed in a silver Marianne Twinette, like dress & a powdered wig. I was panicking as I'd never been given any lines to learn & was trying to get some from Ian, or Russell. I said otherwise I was going to have to ad lib, even though I had no idea what the play was about!!?? 


I woke at 9am thinking "How odd!!" But then it is a rare day, when my dreams are not bizarre!! I had a wash & tied my hair back & wore jeggings & my cream mohair sweater, and slipped on my Reebok EasyTone trainers. I popped to the shop sans make-up, and bought a Sun paper, plus a Closer magazine, then went back home in the miserable pouring rain. I had a coffee & porridge for breakfast & I read the paper. Frigging football on the front page again!! About Roy Hodgson being confirmed as England's new boss!! That should be in the sports section, NOT taking up the whole front page!!


Meanwhile Tulisa has been voted the worlds sexiest woman, in FHM's 100 sexiest women, mainly because of her BJ sex tape being an internet sensation a few weeks ago. Men, bless them, they're such simple souls!! She's cute, but world's sexiest woman? I liked the neon heels, that she wore, to Fern Cotton's Radio1 Show, though!!


Nice Bikini Tulisa 


Most times death is a tragedy, but sometimes it's just plain stupid!! Like the death of a 28yr Accountant, mum, Lynette Nock, from Birmingham. Who died on Saturday, after taking the drug GBL, at a wake of Carl Fearon 24, who died from taking GBL only hours earlier. What a moron, she died needlessly, leaving a child without a mother & her parents without their child. After news of Carl's death spread, shocked, idiotic friends arranged a get-together. All dressed in black they decided to honour their dead friend, by taking the drug that killed him!! WTF??? Surely to honour him they should of all got together, and renounced the damn drug that killed him, and vow not to be stupid enough to let it happen to them!! An ambulance crew were called at 9.04pm but she died 10mins after arriving in hospital. Two men also fell ill after swallowing the drug/chemical used to clean alloy & used in paint stripper. It is commonly drank in fruit juice, people at the party were said to have drunk it out of a Fanta bottle. Carl died after taking it at a party on Friday. GLB kills on average 6 Brits a year!


Top secret al-Qaeda files have been found, stashed in a 'Porn Movie' including a chilling plan to hijack a cruise ship & film the execution of passengers (Sick, twisted, bastards) Also to mount a 'Mumbai' style massacre in Europe! The cache encrypted in a movie called 'Kick Ass' & in a recording called 'Sexy Tanya' discovered in the underwear, of an al-Qaeda suspect, held in Germany, last year. They reveal UK al-Qaeda warlord, Rashid Rauf, was involved in the failed plot, to blow up planes from Britain to the US, as well as the 7/7 attack in 2005 & the botched London bombings weeks later. Scum Rauf was thankfully killed 4yrs ago by a US drone!! Another bit of terrorist scum down!!


Talking of terrorist scum, 7 terror suspects arrested yesterday, are thought to be involved in a plot to finance al-Qaeda using drug money (The Koran is against drug involvement, so al-Qaeda, who preach Muslim values, are in fact, hypocritical, BAD, Muslims!) Cash for the al-Shabaab Somalian terrorist network, is said to come from a plant called khat exported to the US & Canada, it's legal in the UK but banned in North America. It can fetch £350 a kilo on the black market in the US. So ironically American drug users, are funding the terrorists trying to blow them up! Warrants were granted allowing searches at 12 residential addresses, all suspects are thought to have links to Britain's Somalian community (There will be a few knocks on Wood Green doors then) As in the past 10yrs Wood Green, has turned into 'Little Somalia!!'  I use to shop there all the time, when I lived in Bounds Green. Yet when I went there, for the 1st time, in 10yrs last year, I didn't recognise the place! It was like I'd been transported to some Somalian street & it didn't feel at all safe. How sad, a mere 10yrs ago, It was a friendly English, Greek, Turkish & Polish mix community, now it's like some scary, Somali/African, ghetto. I don't think I will be going back for at least another 10yrs if I can help it.


Adam Younger, Like's The A Lot Younger!!! 


Police checking the house, of a vile convicted paedophile, Adam Younger (An unfortunate Surname, to say the least!!) found a 12yr old boy locked in a cupboard. The pervert fled (Why wasn't he being watched?) as cops coaxed out the frightened, unharmed lad! The pervert then sent the 12yr old a text saying "RUN" followed by another saying "Say you have only been here 10mins" But the court heard he had been there a number of weeks, even though Younger (Above) was under an order, limiting his contact with youngsters after 3 convictions, hence why the police were making a routine check of his home. It was obvious the lad was lucky, as Younger was still grooming him, when the police discovered him.


The Skanky, skint, octuplets mum, who has filed for bankruptcy, Nadya Suleman, has agreed to appear in a porn movie to help pay off £600,000 debts, after being paid £3,800 for a topless shot in a magazine (Closer, Below) Earlier in the year. Ewwwwe!!.... Imagine Mrs potato heads, Cum face!! Scary!! I had a very tasty, spicy pumpkin soup, with 2 Rivita's, for lunch & watched 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' then did some washing up.




I wrote out & posted my the birthday cards, for my Brother Bill, friend Julie & Friend Nat, that I'd bought ages ago (Julie & Bills Birthday's are on Saturday & Nat's on Sunday) I posted them in the post box, near mine, as my knee & ankles, were so bad due to rainy weather, so didn't feel like walking, to the post office in town. So I hope they bloody turn up!! (As whenever they get lost in the post, or turn up late, at their destination, I have posted them, in that bloody, cursed, post box & not the Post Office) Otherwise I will get another load of attitude from my brother, like I did over his 40th (I had no idea until a year later, when mum told me. That he'd never got his 40th card from me!!) I'd sent it in plenty of time & I'm sure some dodgy post worker, stole it after feeling it contained a CD (It had a CD of all the number 1 records, from the year he was born in it!!) I know he think's I never sent one, but I am sick of banging my head on a brick wall, trying to convince him otherwise!! So I'm gonna just have to accept he will wrongly never believe me no matter what I say!!




I watched 'Come Dine With Me' & then 'Home & Away' I had some tomato soup, 3 Rivita's & some chilli Doritos dipped in lemon & coriander humous, for dinner & a cream egg for desert! I watched a bit of 'The British Soap Awards' Very boring & god knows how crap 'EastEnders' got so many awards. I turned the TV over after a hour, to 'The Apprentice' God these lot are morons!! They are meant to be selling Gourmet street food, in Scotland, yet some blonde, market trader, apprentice, seemed to think pork meatballs & pasta, made with cheap ingredients, is Gourmet fare!! Then after giving it a good Italian sounding name (Not that I'm sure PORK meatballs are very Italian) clueless Steven, makes them change it, to his awful name choice of  'Utterly Delicious Meatballs' which makes their supposedly 'Gourmet Fare' sound as up market as cheap margarine 'Utterly Butterley' The blonde girl chose their pitch, outside a football stadium, that is surrounded by cheap fast food stalls. Footie fans are not going to pay £5.99 a pop, for meatballs & pasta when they can get a big burger & fry's for £2.50 & under.


 The Apprentice 2012- The Girls & The Boys


Also Stevens half of team out promoting the site via tour couches (Really??) They have the blonde girl, dressed as a Pizza!! Errrrrr Why??? They are not selling pizza, so that's false advertising!! Why not dressed as a meat ball, or not dressed up at all?? I guess uba twat, Steven (Far right, seated above) thought anything Italian is apt!! In which case they might as well of, all dressed up as Mussolini, as it is just as apt as pizza!! Surprise surprise that team lost to the other team who made beef stew with quality steak & also Haggis. Steven should of been out on his arse, but lucky for him he was the market trader's mate & so as project manager, he didn't call Steven back into the boardroom. I watched 'The Apprentice Your Fired' followed by 'The Killing' '2 Broke Girls' then 'Desperate Housewives' with a decaf coffee & went to bed at 12.30am (Calories consumed 1,455 Good)


Thursday 3rd May, I woke at 9.30am, I had a wash etc, dressed in black, studded, size 8, leggings, from Jane Norman & my size 6, black, New Look, polo-neck jumper, which both amazingly fit me!! I did a subtle make-up with black liquid eye-liner. I had my porridge & a coffee for breakfast & then I popped to the shop, for a Sun newspaper. I watched a bit of 'This Morning' Then at 10.45am, I pulled on my faux sheepskin jerkin, grabbed my black CK umbrella & I set off to the train station, today is the Local Council Elections & I'd not got my voting card in the post as usual. But as I walked down my road, towards the station, I spotted, that there were, two Conservative Electrets, stood in the street, with their clip boards heading in the direction of the polling station. I asked them if I could vote without my card? They said yes all I needed to know was my name & address & I could, I laughed & said I was blonde, but think I can manage to recall both. 


Then I said I will be voting for them, next they asked me, my name & address, which they wrote on their clipboard. Then I continued on my way to the station, for my boring In Training meeting in Luton. I got to the Luton office in good time & I had my meeting, which was basically filling in, AGAIN all the same information, I'd given to my 1st Advisor Sharon, to my new advisor Aneta & signing the bottom of each form. She asked what work I was after? & again I said "Retail Management, Sales, Promotions, Acting" adding "I'd also be interested in working from home, such as stuffing envelopes, addressing envelopes or anything similar, but I don't trust anything offered in that area online as being genuine!!"


I left there after about 30mins (30 wasted minutes) & popped to Primark, to get a nice pair of black shiny wellies (Hunter style) for £12, to take to Jim's funeral. As the graveside is bound to be a bog, as it has been pouring with rain constantly for the last 3 weeks!! (Even though the UK has a hosepipe ban due to a supposed drought!!! What a soddin sodden joke) People going seem to think they will put boards down, if it's muddy, to walk on. But I doubt this very much, I have been many a time to a winter/wet funeral & there has been nothing put down, for the mourners to walk on. 




I popped next door to McDonald's, for a half price, veggie burger, with chips & a Diet Coke (Thanks to a money off voucher) for my lunch. Once fed I headed off to Luton train station, where I read the paper on the platform, while waiting for the train (& again once on the train!!) The front page was all bloody football yet again!! About both the new English Captain & Fabrice Muamba. Page 3 had a very unflattering pic of Poppy 21 from Somerset, her face looked beautiful, but her boobs looked droopy & the knickers didn't flatter her figure, at all! Bad stylist & photography!




Scumbag, double murder suspect, James Allen 36 (Above) Gave the middle finger to magistrates, when he appeared in court yesterday (I'd expect no less from the human vermin, munter!) He is charged with murdering Colin Dunford 81 & Julie Davidson 50, both suffered head injury's. He's also charged with raping a woman in Middlesbough, GBH & unlawful imprisonment, this is the kind of scum who should get the death penalty!




Edvard Munch's, pastel artwork 'The Scream' which looks like the doodle of an 8yr old, became the most expensive ever, to be sold at auction, earlier today in New York when it fetched a staggering £74million. Personally I have never been a fan of the picture, in fact I prefer the version above!




I walked home, listening to my pink iPod Shuffle, and headed straight to my local polling station 1st and voted as I have every year since I was old enough to vote!! Then once home I watched 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' while enjoying a cappuccino & a pack of Minstrels. I did some household chores, packed most of my case, for my trip to London, on Saturday. Then I did some job & audition applications. Then I settled down with a Diet Coke to watch 'Come Dine With Me' & 'Home & Away' then I fixed dinner steamed salmon & sugar snap peas & mashed potato then I popped round my friend Jennies at 7.45pm.




Jennie said that, her girls wanted me to go up, to say goodnight to them, so I did which of course took 20mins as they wanted to show me, all of their new toys, or things in their magazines etc. Then I came back down to chin-wag with Jennie, watched the latter part of 'The World's Largest Snake', then watched 'The Restaurant Inspector' hilarious thanks to The Curry House restaurant owners, useless, odd ball, manager son (Below) who looked like the Karate Kid, crossed with, Elton John, a pimp & a Mafia gangster!! 




I had a hot chocolate & two bourbon biscuits, very tasty, then we watched 'The Hoarder Next Door' The Hoarder was a Liverpudlian, cross dresser called Nigel & the Greek psychologist Stelios (Below) got him to clear his home, as his female alter ego. As that part of him, had less emotional attachment to things. The Liverpool guy (Below) couldn't sit anywhere, apart a small patch of his bed, as his home was piled high with junk!! Jennie & I like our stuff, but we couldn't comprehend ever letting it get to that state!! He bathed at a friends, as he couldn't get into his toilet/bathroom, he also did his laundry, at hers, as the kitchen was a filthy, health hazard. 


 Hoarder Nigel 
Psychologist Stelios 


It must of stank, as his cats had free run & shit anywhere. I also felt sorry for the cats, as one looked ill from the environment, with weepy looking eyes and a sore face. I had another hot chocolate (Light) with 2 bourbon biscuits. Jennie and I were chatting about the Hoarder, when her hubby Edgar came back from darts. So I said my goodbyes & headed home & had an earlyish night at 1am as I have a earlyish start tomorrow for Jim's funeral, today has been an odd day as I have been feeling rampantly, horny, like a dog on heat, for no reason, all day!!! I was a glass of port away from dry humping the stair post lol, I think it must be hormonal, as I have run out of my HRT (Oooh how sexy is that!!.... Not!!) I set my alarm for 6.45am and went to bed (Calories consumed 1,846 whoops!!)


Friday 4th May (Jim's Funeral) I woke at 6.45am & lay in bed aching due to rain until 7am, and got up and had a shower, took more pain killers, I made a porridge & a coffee for breakfast. I washed and dried my hair & did a subtle make-up except for red lips (The colour of Jim's football team Man U) I wore a below the knee, black, ribbed, sleeveless, dress & a short, fitted, black, lapelled jacket, black 10 Denier tights & black KG court shoes. I took my big black shopper bag, to put my black wellies in & wore my black sequinned beanie hat (As I'd given my black hat to Nicky & my other one needs its brim steamed into shape) I grabbed my black CK brolly & Headed out for the bus to London Colney to Nicky's at 8.50am.


I arrived just as the brass band had arrived, I got to Nicky's where she looked cute in a B&W dress, black Mac, black shoes & a different black hat she'd bought, so I wore my one, I'd lent her, we had a quick Vodka & Redbull, to toast Jim & steady her nerves. We then we set off at 9.45am, walking behind the hearse, to the church as the brass band played in front of the hearse. I walked with my arm round Jim's sister, over from France, to comfort her.  We got to St Marys Church for the 10am service & the vicar called for the immediate family to go in, so I stood outside, but Jim's sister (Who I'd been comforting) grabbed my arm, to take me in. 


I said "I'm not family!!" and she replied "Oh yes you are!!" & ushered me in. I sat behind Nicky so she knew I was there if she needed me, her adorable little nephew who loved his granddad to bits was in bits & I really wanted to jump over the pew to cuddle him. Jim's coffin came in to the brass band playing "When The Saints Come Marching In" which Jim had always said was how he'd like to go, but deep down I don't think he ever thought it would happen, but Nicky made damn sure it did!!


The order of service had two lovely pictures of Jim on, I have his order of service, Aunty Babs & Viv's, but not my Mums one. My siblings went to the undertakers earlier, before I'd got back from London, on the day we were ALL meant to do it. So when I arrived, they had all done the lot without me! They just pointed to a flower arrangement & said "That's what we chose for you is that OK?" And I just nodded, feeling totally shunted out & hurt, as always. They obviously never did any order of service leaflets with a pic of mum on, as we just had the run of the mill cards, nor thought to put a pic of mum in a frame, to put on the coffin during the service, but then I think that is more of a Catholic thing. Nicky got up and read a poem with one hand on Jim's coffin & I was proud of how she held it together.


Her brother got up and did a long & amusing Eulogy to Jim, that was five, or more, pages long. It reminded me of when I gave my Eulogy to mum, which was two A4 pages long (In big type, so I could read through tears) My sister said afterwards "That went on a bit" which both hurt me, as I'd actually taken less time, than my brother Bill did on the podium, who she didn't say anything to, which felt like a real kick in the guts. I also found it odd, as I was praising mum, and an hour would of still been, too short a time, to say just how wonderful our mum was. My Brother did say to me after "Good speech" But he had to dig the knife in, and ruin it, by adding "I didn't know, you knew so many long words!!" insinuating that I'm thick! Yet another kick in the teeth on a sad day, when I was struggling, to hold it all together! 


Nicky's friend Carrie sang as Tom played guitar, which tipped me over the edge emotionally & I had a bit of a cry. Once the Catholic service was over the coffin came out again to "When The Saints" I got a lift from Les, to the graveyard on Highgate road, where the band played a medley. I was glad I'd brought my wellies as, as I'd expected no boards or anything had been put down on the sodden ground, so I was glad I had them to slip into. Nicky's poor mum was in bits & couldn't bare to see Jim being lowered into his grave, just Nicky her stunning Niece & I held back.


Les gave me a lift to The Bull, where the wake was held, where the people, who hadn't gone on to the burial were gathered, the video photo montage, from Jim's Golden Wedding Anniversary, back in October, was playing, on a screen, with a few pictures of that party added to it. There was some lovely old wedding pics, and one of Jim, in one of  my caps, taken a few years back, that I'd forgotten about, that made me chuckle!! I ordered a cider to toast Jim to. I chatted to Carrie & her dad, who is lovely, then to a bunch of other people, while the band played in the bar, as people lined up at the buffet. 


I don't know what The Bull's chef did, when making the baked, new potatoes, in jackets? But I'd like the secret, as they were utterly lush, the best bit of the buffet & the buffet was, really lovely!! People slowly trickled away including Nicky's Mum, Aunt, her Brother & wife & kids, plus friends who had to go back to work! We were left with one of her friends brothers, plus a guy Seymour Butts, due to his name or something. I was on the brandy's for the rest of the night, after my two ciders. I needed to get back home, as I was meant to be off to London tonight, but then I didn't want to leave Nicky with just these guys, as she was obviously, understandably, very down & needed the support of someone, who'd also lost a parent (Both in my case)


So I resigned myself to having to get up & go tomorrow. One guy, her friends brother left & then it was just Nicky, Seymour Butts & I. Whenever Nicky went to the loo 44yr old SB was flirting with me & asking for my number, saying he just didn't get how I was single, when I was so lovely (The old charmer) He kept asking for my number, and in the end I gave in, thinking he was probably too drunk to recall he had it, in the morning anyway. Nicky was fairly sozzled, so I kept an eye on her. I'd had loads of brandy's but was still stone cold sober!! S.B got so drunk that at some point he said that he wanted to "Fuck" me!!.... Pml 


I think he wouldn't of been capable, if I was willing, even if he tried & shortly after that, he fell asleep on his bar stool, lol. I went with Nicky, and a woken S.B to the Green Dragon. Where lots of people bought Nicky drinks. I didn't drink anything else, I just kept my eye on her for 2hrs, while she danced to 'The Pulse' or sat outside in the cold, on a bench. Once I knew she was in the company of friends, that would get her safely home, I set off about 11.10pm, for my last bus (Due 11.35pm) & sat shivering at the bus stop, in the sodding rain, until the bus came. I got off in the high street & seeing that the local Subway was open & being absolutely famished, I got a Tuna Subway & headed home. I ate my Subway & then got ready for bed, crashing in bed at around 1am (Calories consumed 2,271 most of them from booze.... oops!!)




Saturday 5th May (Brother Bills Birthday, plus Julie & Dean's) Really weird dream, that I was in Turkey with my late mum, and I was showing her a beach area, that I told her, was my favourite place in the whole of Turkey. The funny thing is I'd never been to this favourite place in my  in real life. But I have gone to it many a time, in my dreams. We were meant to be on holiday together, but I kept waking to find that she has gone off on her own, and as she has no mobile no way of knowing where she is to join her. One time I found her but she was chatting to some white haired guy with a beard, I think she was interested in him as she was ignoring me as if she didn't know me. 


Then I dreamt I was with Nat & Candie somewhere, Candie was having two dresses made for her one was very sparkly then she was having a teal, silk satin & chiffon long dress (She never wears, long dresses) there was a chiffon layer over the satin from under the bust. Like my mum, Nat & Candie & I was getting very hurt & frustrated by it, woke at 8.30am, in a lot of pain, especially in my neck & shoulders, plus a sore throat, probably due to sitting in the cold for ages at 'The Dragon' & the bus stop after Jim's funeral. I had a shower & packed the last of my bits & pieces into my case, for my long weekend in London.




I had a toasted bap, with melted cheese on & some sliced tomato, with a coffee for breakfast & dressed in my size 8, black, studded, Jane Norman, leggings, my size 6, black, skinny rib, polo neck, jumper from New Look, my new black wellies that served me well at the funeral yesterday & did a neutral make-up with black liquid eyeliner. My Brother Bill text me at 10am saying "Thanks 4 the card June :D just going out to find a cat :) xxx" (In reference to the joke on the car) Phew!! Thank god, hopefully my friend's Julie & Nat will have got their's too!) I did up my case, put a Diet Coke & packet of chilli Doritos, in my bag for the journey if I got hungry. Put on my long, black, size 14, military style, Primark, coat, clipped on my iPod Shuffle & put my earphones in, grabbed my black CK brolly & headed out the door around 1pm buying a Sun newspaper en route to the station. Bought my ticket then waited for my train to arrive on platform 1.


Boris V Ken - No Contest


I read the paper, once on the train into London Kings Cross, the headline's were about Boris thrashing Red Ken, to stay London Mayor.... Hurrahhhh (Also a bit above on Chelsea V Liverpool grrr) Boris won with a landslide 1,054,811 votes, Ken came 2nd with a mere 992,273. Where as in the local elections the Tory's lost 406 Councillor's the Lib Dem's lost 335 Councillor's & Labour 'Gained' 823 Councillor's are the public mad do they forget so quickly, that it was those 'New Labour' arseholes that put the country in the mess it's in now?? Good old St Albans stayed Conservative, by a large majority.


More on Manchester City, munter, and serial love cheat, Mario Balotelli 21, partying with 4 escort girls, three days before tomorrows big match. They were hired at 1.30am & were seen leaving his at 7.45am looking shattered, hours before he was due to train. They were hired days after his (Too good for him) girlfriend Raffaella Fico 23 dumped him (Good for you girl!!)


Disgusting news that sex fiends are dodging jail despite dozens of convictions, with one pervert let off an obscene 31 times before being jailed (Ken Clark has to go & some one HARD on crime needs to be entrenched, who wont kowtow to, weak, soft, Liberal wishes, amid the Coalition!!) Another sex beast had a shocking 27 previous convictions for sex assaults before being jailed. This is a joke, but sadly NOT a funny one!! A 3rd had 18 convictions before being sent to jail!! The Tory MP who uncovered the figures Phillip Davies, said it made a mockery of soft Ken Clarke's claims, that the courts are sending too many people to jail. Rightly adding "These figures are extraordinary, that someone can be such a persistent sex offender & not be sent to prison is absolutely shocking. You've got to wonder what on Earth these courts are thinking?? How  Ken Clark can stand up & claim we are sending too many people to jail, when we see figures like this beggars belief!!" Separate figures confirm sexual predators, who spend decades preying on victims, are dodging prison terms. Two paedo's both with 30yr records of offences, were not jailed, despite breaking strict rules, from the sex offenders register!!


Ken Clarke, Get Your Coat, It's Time To Go!!


Talking of sex offenders, Ibraheen Giwa, the revolting 13yr ring leader of the 'Say No More' gang, who raped a 11yr old, girl 3 times. Was jailed for 5yrs yesterday (Should of been a lot longer, he would of got 15yrs if he'd been an adult!!) If I was her parent, I'd be ready with a baseball bat, when he comes out in roughly 2yrs 6months!! The 1st attack was in a park with a friend, the 2nd at his home, involving 8 gang members & months later he & two other gang members, cornered her, in a McDonald's toilet, where one of his friends raped her. She was later beaten up, as a warning, not to tell anyone! The 16yr McDonald's rapist got just a mere 12months after admitting the attack.


Two vile men, aged 55 & 61 were arrested yesterday, on suspicion, of offering FEMALE Circumcisions, to girls in the UK. They were held after raids in Birmingham. About bloody time!! It's been going on far too long with no consequences. I got to Kings Cross & headed for the tube, as I listened to my music (I must share my favourites playlist with Candy & Nat via iTunes) I got the tube to Finsbury Park & then I caught the W7 bus to Muswell Hill, texting Candie that I was on the bus. I arrived at Candies & she had lunch waiting for me, veggie sausages, mash & beans. 




Xavier had cleverly won the Haringey's entry, for the design for the Trafalgar plinth with a Domino design. So he was going to get a certificate from the mayor, along with the kids from other borough's who'd won with their designs. Candy & Costa headed off for a romantic night in one of Anouska Hemple's, luxury, London hotels, Blakes, in Kensington, you can see it HERE.


I took Xavier & Tiger up the Muswell Hill, hill to the high street, as Xavier wanted to get some bits from the 99p shop. So we had an adventure going on a bunch of buses back & forth as he LOVES buses. Xavier a 56yr old man in a 11yr old kids body, kept me amused, he's a little devil, but he is adorable & very smart & I love him to bits!! We went to the 99p store & he got a load of padlocks & tools, proper boys stuff. I got a silicone keyboard mat, to keep my laptop keyboard clean, from crumbs etc & a doggy vest with 'I Do It Doggy Style' on it for Ian's Hugo (Below) for a laugh, as I'm seeing Ian on Monday. 


 Puppy Power - Hugo In His Vest - Room To Grow Lol
Hugo Giving It To, Sonic The Hedgehog - Doggy Style!!

We eventually went back after our wander round the shops, and a bunch of buses, back & forth, as I had my travel card & the kids are free on the bus. I had a coffee & while Tiger was happy with CBB stuff on his iPad, I helped Xavier board up, the broken windows, of his Wendy House Man Shed, bless him!! He did a very good job and didn't need a lot of help, or supervision. But I think he was pretty impressed with auntie Joonie's DIY skills, when I did need to step in. Then he added a load of locks, latches & padlocks to the door, with me only needing to help out, very occasionally. Then we stood back & admired our teamwork. 


He couldn't wait for his dad to see what he'd done, when he came back tomorrow. We code named it MPZ a code name only I & his parent's were to be privy too, our little secret. Then it was dinner time, so Xavier called up Domino's, for his favourite pizza, a large 'Margherita Pizza' with added sweetcorn & pineapple, plus a large bottle of Diet Coke. When it arrived we shared it & then it was time to put Tiger to bed. Then Xavier & I watched 'BGT' & 'Britain's Got More Talent' Then it was time for Xavier to have a bath & get to bed. Once in bed I played 'Noughts & Crosses' plus 'Hang Man' with him which he enjoyed, and he like Tiger was soon asleep. I went downstairs & watched 'Celebrity Juice' with a coffee & my chilli Doritos, chatted a bit on Facebook & Twitter & then went to bed (Calories consumed 1,448 Good)


Sunday 6th May, I woke at 7am, and checked on both Xavier & Tiger, they were both still sound asleep, so I went back to bed, and lazed until 8.45am. Then checked on the kids (Still fast asleep) so checked my emails, Candie called around 10am & she said how amazing the hotel Blake's was, saying it was like being thrown back to the film 'The Stud' totally 70's, the kids then began to surface, I  guess the phone ringing stirred them. I made poor little Tiger, who had a poorly tummy, some porridge for breakfast, and had the same myself with a coffee. Xavier was not interested in any breakfast option I offered him (& it was a long list of choices) he insisted he didn't want anything, as he wasn't hungry!! But I think it was more of a case, of him being so keen to get outside & go back to the 99p store for more padlock's for the MPZ Shed, that he didn't want to take up time having breakfast. 


I did a light make-up & dressed myself & Tiger, I was sure I'd put my two Nivea cream's, in my case (My Pure & Natural, moisturiser & wrinkle cream, from my prize basket) But after looking in my case, it seemed not!!...  It was another gloomy, rainy day out, so we all wrapped up & I slipped on my wellies & we went up the hill, to the Muswell Hill shops. I bought a Sun on Sunday newspaper & then it was back to the 99p shop, for more latches & padlocks. We came home just before it pee'd down with rain & I made a coffee, to have while reading the paper. I'd just sat down, when I discovered my bag was empty!! I'd bought a paper, but then left it on the shop counter, due to being distracted by, keeping an eye on Xavier & Tiger, in the newsagent's.....durrrrrr!!! 


So, as it had stopped raining, we popped to Candies local shop & I bought another one!! Then Tiger amused himself with CCB's on the TV & his iPad, and Xavier entertained himself, by adding even more locks & latches to his MPZ Man Shed, with the only occasional hand by me. So I had some me time & re heated my coffee & then checked my emails, Facebook & Twitter. I was chuffed to see, that Nichola McLean, had been true to her word & had taken a photo for poor Jo, and had not reneged on her promise, bless her. Knowing Jo was poorly, I immediately posted it on Joanna's Facebook wall, for her to see & depending on her health, she or a helper/her boyfriend can add it to her 'Team Jo' album later. I must make sure to take a picture, of the next candle lit in the Abbey, for Nichola's mum Margaret & the healing prayer for her, to Tweet back to Nichola. My camera memory was too full last time, I must load the photos onto a CD & clear my camera memory.   


Page 3's Nichola McLean, 
With Some Stunning Looking Eyes & A Note For Jo

I read the paper, the front page was about, how easy it was, for an Olympic worker, to smuggle a fake bomb into the Olympic grounds, right past 2 check points, oh what a surprise!!........ NOT!!! That comes as any surprise, our organisation & security in the UK is shit, we can't even run the underground smoothly, when there is a fireman's strike!! The Olympics with the worlds attention on it is a Terrorists dream, and our security should start the second the building work began, not once the Olympic stadium is up and running & the games about to start!! I'd want to be nowhere near that stadium during the Olympics & I have zero interest in watching it either, or going up that absolutely hideous tower, that's next to it!! 

Five repulsive, alleged 9/11 plotters appeared in court yesterday (About time!) & One 9/11 victims brother Cliff Russell rightly wished them "The worst death possible" Arrogant, sneering, kingpin Khalid Sheikh Mohammed 48 (Below) & his four vile henchmen, Al-Hawsawi, Binalshibh, Al-Aziz & Bin Attash, all removed their earphones & refused to listen to translations of the judges questions!! Chiff who's fire fighter brother Stephen Russell died in The World Trade Centre, said he looked forward to them getting the death penalty if convicted (Him & millions of decent people, world wide!!) Cliff, who helped recover 23 peoples remains from the towers ruins said "I have all the evidence I need, I have tasted death, literally!!" Vile mass murderer, Mohammed, boasted of being the mastermind behind the atrocity, which killed 2,976. 

The Two Faces of Terrorist, Khalid Sheikh Mohammed 
Both Equally Minging!!



About 3pm Candie & Costa got back & an excited Xavier showed Candie his handy work. Candie made the right impressed comments & found it being named code name MPZ, very funny. A weary sounding Costa came in the door & a overly exited Xavier, eager for Costa to see his handy work, dragged Costa out to the garden, to proudly show off what he'd done (Practically) alone, while his dad was away!! But a weary & reluctant Costa, just plodded over & looked at Xavier's MPZ Shed & instead of saying "Oh well done son! Did you do all that by yourself??" Which Xavier was waiting for, he just looked & said "What the hell is that all about?" before heading back, to plonk himself, in front of the TV!! The last thing Xavier wanted to hear, when he did it all, to get praise from his dad! So it sent him into a disappointed sulk, so he went to his room to watch Richie Rich on his laptop. 

We had pasta in a tomato based sauce, with grated cheddar on top for a late lunch & Candie & I chatted about the hotel & her stay. Once lunch was over Costa had a lay down, while Candie & I took the boy's to the park, and we had a laugh chatting about the Chelsea girl's she met in Blake's hotel, who were telling her even the small bar in the hotel with the expensive drinks attracted hookers, and Candie & they were chatting & laughing about the ton's of Hookers & Escorts in The Harvey Nichols 5th floor bar (Candie & I use to amuse ourselves hooker watching there!!) We use to 1st play the guessing game, guessing who were hookers & who just single or married women having drinks. Then we'd guess which guys would be targeted. 

Once the 1st stage of game was over, we'd watch with amusement the hookers target the guys & their various ingenious method's, to make their 1st initial contact with the target! Then we'd watch with amusement, the guy's either rebuff them, or buy them a drink because a) they came to the bar to pick up a hooker, or b) they were a gullible patsy, who were not aware, that they were being targeted by a hooker & their ego was flattered, by the attentions of an attractive, or layable looking woman. You just can't beat people watching for entertainment (Especially with a glass or two of champagne, or a cocktail thrown in!!) Always a fun night!! 


We came home & had a coffee and chatted, while the kids amused themselves, then later Costa popped to a local Greek restaurant for a take-away for dinner. Candie & I had a very tasty vegetarian moussaka, with a yummy Greek salad with feta, washed down with a glass of red wine!! 

 Vegetarian Moussaka 
Greek, Feta Salad

Candie put Tiger & Xavier to bed, then we watched the 'BGT' semi finals, followed by 'Britain's Got More Talent' I really want Pudsey to win, but think the huge 20st Opera singing 17yr old will, but I still hope I'm wrong!! Costa went to bed, then after 'Two Broke Girl's' Candie went to bed & I made up my bed on the couch. I took off my make-up & washed & dried my hair, took out everything out of my case except for my 2 other costume choice's for tomorrow (A pink, paisley, summer dress & pale pink, single breasted, jacket, plus white jeans, a pale pink, paisley print, floaty, summer camisole & the same pale pink jacket) Plus red sling-back shoe's, white mules or deck pumps, to go with all 3 outfits. And laid out the 1st choice (Minus shoes) ready for tomorrow. Then went to bed about 1am & set the alarm for 4.45am (Calories consumed 1,628 not bad)