Rock Chick, Not Rock Cake!!!

Monday 7th April (Week 4, Day 22) Day In London

I got up at 10am, after treating myself to a lie in, and had two chocolate breakfast Cookies, with a coffee. Today I was off to London, to fill in some paperwork & have a small shoot, with a top UK model agency. I should have joined them 20-30yrs ago!! I was going to be photographed looking like a Rock Chick, I had on, shiny black Lycra trousers, a black vest top with chains hanging off it, chain earrings, studded bangles, a spiky necklace, pointed ankle boots, with cut outs & a fake, straight hairpiece, clipped into my straightened hair. I had a chocolate snack Cookie at midday & pulled on my long khaki leather coat & shoved my Cookies & a few bits in my leopard print tote bag, then headed for the station, grabbing my Versace umbrella, as it was raining out (When isn't it??) Annoyingly, it was that fine, misty, rain, and it was windy too, so it was all still getting blown, under my umbrella & making my hair wet!!! So with my hair being naturally curly, my hair started to curl, but of course the hairpiece didn't!!! Grrrrrrr!!! So now my hair was a shaggy mix of straight & curly, which I guess could pass as, rock chick messy!! 

I got the train to London & then the tube, heading in the Hammersmith direction, as the agency, is by the old BBC building. I had another snack Cookie at 2pm, once at the agents, I filled in all the forms & then I was photographed, against a backdrop, as a flirty, groupie, rock chick, then as an, angry rock chick, which was fun. After that I headed off to see my good friend Nat, in Walthemstow, who was a bit housebound, after having an op recently. Having my two lunch Cookies, at 4pm en route. I had a coffee at Nat's & another snack Cookie at 6pm. The news came on the TV, and we heard that Peaches Geldof  had died, this afternoon. She was found dead, at home, with her child, she was aged just 25yrs!! Oddly the last time I saw Peaches in person, was when I was on her short lived OMG!! Chat Show, as a cougar, and I was wearing, the exact same, chained vest top (Below, Peaches in spotted dress) on the show, as I was now, sat on the couch, watching the news, after the Rock Chick shoot!! Sad, she was a sweet, friendly girl, she ran around, and got me a glass of wine personally, the day we shot OMG with both Peaches & Janice Dickinson (Crazy but equally lovely) I'd like to say Peaches death was a shock, but sadly it wasn't. For a while I said she was a "Dead Girl Walking" as she was painfully thin lately, I didn't know if it was down to drugs, diet pills, illness or looking after her kids, while neglecting herself??? But it was obvious her weight had dropped well below a healthy one & was dangerous!! If I could see this, why couldn't the supposed support network of, friends, family, husband & work colleagues??? So sad & so unnecessary. 

Nat's husband, Terry came home & we went out for a bite to eat at 7pm (Fab, as I was now ravenous!!!) we went to Le Delice, 114 Hoe Street, Walthemstow (There is a joke in there somewhere!!) I had either the #2 or #4 pizza (Gorgonzola & Chilies) which was VERY TASTY!! Plus a cappuccino. My friend Renny, was texting me, as we ate, suggesting we meet up before I head back to Hertfordshire again, so we arranged to meet at Kings Cross station, as I'd be heading there after leaving Nat & Terry. I had a chat & gossip with the boys & talked about my laser eye surgery in May!!!! I can't wait, it will be life changing, to no longer be 50% blind!!!! Nat said I could probably stay at theirs, the day of the op, before heading back to Harley Street the next day, for my post op check up. I left Le Delice, and said goodbye to Nat & Terry at 8pm & got the Victoria line to Kings Cross. I got there at 8.36pm & headed to Costa & got a large Cappuccino, while I waited for Renny, who said he'd get there around 9pm. He'd been busy earlier, putting together a CD, of acoustic covers, sung by him. I first met Renny about 3-4yrs ago, while doing a pilot, of a show called "Is It Just Me" which sadly never got commissioned (It was a fun concept!!) when he was The Rock God & I was The Cougar and he was also on "Take Me Out" last year, or the one before (below) he didn't get a black out, thankfully & he came across really well!! 

Renny arrived pretty much bang on 9pm, and had brought me a copy of the CD he'd just done, which was sweet of him & we were laughing & catching up in Costa, before we then, headed off to Millers Pub oops!!... Renny & I were gassing away, ten to the dozen, it wasn't like we'd not met up, for a few years. I really like Renny, he is really funny & good fun, easy to talk to, down to earth, cheeky, talented & passionate about what he does, which really, is all the essential, qualities, a guy needs, plus he is a genuinely nice guy, and a cutie too, sometimes, the odd expression, or mannerism, he does, reminds me of my 'one true love' & for a 30yr old, like me, he is still a kid at heart. Renny was telling me about a musical, project, that he has been working on for the past 8yrs. Which is now, pretty much, fully formed & has legs, which he wants, to get me involved in. I absolutely loved the concept & he brought it all to life, as we sat there chatting, I could really get the feel of it & bounced a few ideas off him myself, which he liked. Time flew, and before we knew it it was midnight & he'd only get his last train, by the skin of his teeth, if we left. Which was a shame, as we both agreed, we could of happily spent, at least another four hours, or more talking. But maybe it was for the best, as I had an earlyish start & I'd now added, a pint if cider, and a couple of Vodka slimline's, to my diet consumption (Oops!!) 

We both continued chatting, via text, on our train journeys home. I text him, thanking him for a fun night, saying "Damn the trains, I could of happily carried on another 4-5hrs!!!" Renny made me laugh, when he text "I know, that was awesome!!! I know it WASN'T a date, but if it was, I would be feeling pretty fucking chuffed about that!! ;) ha ha x" I laughed as I had to agree & text back "Ha ha well if it had been a date, it would of been my best date in ages, too much fun x x" He replied that, that had put a big smile on his face & to let him know when St Albans was ready for a "Renny Visit" which made me laugh. Peckish I had my left over snack Cookies on the train & once home around 1-1.30am I put Renny's CD on, I liked it a lot, he has a good voice, and his project is fun, so I hope it takes off, I will certainly have a laugh, doing what he has me lined up for. I had a wash & got ready for bed & crashed around 2-2.30am. 

Tuesday 8th April (Week 4, Day 23)

The day started off earlyish, in Hatfield, where I had my two cinnamon breakfast Cookies, with a coffee at 9am. I forgot to weigh myself, after my meal out with the boys yesterday..... And a few bevvies with the Rock God, Renny.... Maybe just as well, maybe I'd of had a shocking setback, but back on track again today. I played Renny's acoustic CD again, this morning, I really like it, he's covered some good tunes, in his acoustic style, the only one I didn't know, was track 8. I had my snack Cinnamon Cookie at 11am & on bus home at 1pm. Renny was at the Xfactor open auditions in Romford today (to make his mum happy) he text me, that he didn't get through (I think he was relieved) just before 2pm. At 2pm I went into Beauty Secret, today I got 15mins on my arms, as well as my torso section.... It felt really funny, as you can feel you are being electrocuted, as you can feel, the fuzzy, electrocution in your hands, my phone flew out if my hand as I was trying to text Renny back. Your arms really shake, as your arms, are much lighter in weight, than your legs & torso!! I had to grip a rolled up towel, to stop them flying everywhere, it made me giggle.... No pain no gain!! The torso session below was a breeze!!

Renny & I text back & forth, as I had the Bailine treatment on my torso, I really like Renny, he's funny & passionate about what he does. I checked my emails, Facebook & Twitter on my mini iPad, as I listened to Heart Radio on it. Then after I had a black coffee, plus my two lunch Cookies at 3pm & chatted with the lovely Yalda. Then it was time I went home, so I tackled the laundry, rearranged my dressing room & bedroom draws (below) to also tackle my ever increasing, clothes, shoes & undies collection, as well as put away dry laundry!!... Listening to Renny's CD again, as I did so.... Singing along!!! Then I had a snack Cookie at 5pm, with a coffee, while watching "Millionaire Matchmaker" then it was back to the household chores, while listening to "Home & Away" At 7pm I had a grilled Tuna steak, chopped up, with salad, in 3 Warburtons sandwich thins, at 491cals which made up for yesterday's calories, hopefully. 

Knicker draws, R to L - thong/g-strings, briefs, French knickers

Bras moved to bigger draw under bed

Bras & lingerie sets, in other big draw under bed. 

I had another snack Cookie at 9 & 11pm while watching TV. Finally going to bed around 1am. 

Wednesday 9th April (Week 4, Day 24) 

I woke at 8am, after a restless sleep, I got up & jumped in the shower & then had 2 cinnamon Cookies, for breakfast with a coffee. I did a shed load of job/audition applications & then a load of housework, laundry, ironing, hoovering dusting etc (boring!!) having my snack Cookies at 10.30am & 12.30pm. Then I spent the afternoon changing my winter wardrobes, into spring/summer wardrobes, as below. Having my two lunch Cookies at 2.30pm with another coffee. 

I then had a spell, reading the paper, with a few glasses of water, plus snack Cookies, before finally finishing off, my spring/summer wardrobes (above) I watched Home & Away then had some cold, steamed, salmon steaks, mixed with smoked salmon & salad, in 3 Warburtons sandwich thins, for dinner, washed down with some diet coke & some Reisen chocolate sweets for desert, coming in at 664cals in total. Then I chilled in front of the TV for the rest of the evening, as I had a long day ahead tomorrow & a busy weekend. 

Thursday 10th April (Week 4, Day 25) 

I woke at 9am, I got on the scales & according to them, I've lost 8lb, but I hope I don't mess that up, over the weekend with Simon, before my weigh-in. I had a shower & my two chocolate breakfast Cookies with a coffee. Then I got ready for my day of filming ahead, hair, make-up & outfit done. I set off with my accessory bag & change of outfit options. Once in London had my snack Cookies at 11.30am & 1.30pm. I had my lunch Cookies on set, while all around tucked into tasty, stodgy, winter food. The smell of the food made my stomach growl in protest!!! At 7pm I finally had some food, a gorgeous, pea & creme fraiche soup, with some wholemeal bread, it tasted amazing!!! But that may have been down to my hunger & it's comparison to my rather bland Cookies. That came in at 508cals and my tummy thanked me BIG TIME!!! I finally wrapped at 9.45pm & left Chelsea, to head back to Hertfordshire. I was so gasping for a drink en route home, but there were no Starbucks, or Costa Coffees, en route home, or any other drink outlets open. I was so parched that on the train home, I fantasised about a cider stall, being on the St Albans, train platform, when I alighted. When I got out of the station, directly in front of me, I spotted a NEW off-licence had opened up & was still open!!! Damn, maybe there is something in that cosmic ordering after all!!!! Lol!!

So I bought 2 cans, of my favourite K Cider, drinking one on the way home, like someone who'd been wandering in the desert, with no water, for 3 days!!! Which added another 252cals to the earlier 508 (Oops!!) making the total 760cals, 60 over (not too bad) I put the other one in my fridge. I had the last of the snack Cookies, with a decaf coffee, while answering messages, on Facebook & Twitter with Supercasino on in the background. Renny text me at 1.33am, after seeing I was on Twitter, tweeting, so onviously still awake, asking me, what I was doing still up? I told him I'd been getting a few things sorted, for Simon's stay, over the weekend, we had some cheeky banter (the best sort..... I soon bore of guys with no banter!! Or who lose their banter!!) he said not to forget, to arrange for him to visit St Albans, at some point. We bantered a little while longer, then tired, I hit the sack around 1.45am. 

Friday 11th April (Week 4, Day 26) Simon Coming To Stay The Weekend

I woke at 9am, I got on the scales, they say I've lost 8.5lb phew, cider didn't blow it.... Let's hope I don't tonight, out with the boys, as it's my 4 week Cookie Diet weigh-in tomorrow!!! I had 2 cinnamon Cookies for breakfast at 9.30am, then a long long LONG bath!! I popped to one of my agents, to see if there was anything coming up, in the pipeline, that I might be apt for? Plus picked up some mail. Then I went home & went through the mail, while eating my two snack Cookies, at 1.30pm. Wearing turquoise jeans & a matching t-shirt, I popped in my local shop, to get a paper & a gay guy in there, buying some groceries, recognised me from when I use to manage, a local night club, years ago & said I'd not changed a bit, over the years, except being, a bit trimmer, which was encouraging!! Then I headed off to Beauty Secret for my Bailine session at 2pm. Today it is my legs, thighs & love handles (Below) Yalda printed me off my original body results chart & my progress one, along with my latest results (also below) 

The graph shows, how far away, my body parts, are from being the 100% perfect, body for my frame!! Originally my body weight was 86% perfect! (14% away from perfect) with a slightly overweight BMI of 26.1 (Normal is 19 - 25) on March 18th. Today on 11th April (3 weeks & 3 days, later) My body weight is 88% perfect (12% away from perfect, after a 3.5kg loss) another 13kg to lose, for my weight to be 100% perfect!! I NOW, have a NORMAL, BMI of 24.9 (My target is 20.5 BMI) With 4cm off my back at bust level (8cm to go) 3cm off my torso (9cm to go) 4cm off my waist (11cm to go) 3cm off my hips (12cm to go) 5cm off my butt (11cm to go) 1cm off my thigh's (7cm to go) NOTHING off my knees, so (8cm to go) 2cm off my calves (So I have hit my target, so there's none left to lose) 1cm off my over arm (2cm to go) but no change in under arm, which is already, 1cm under target (Which just needs toning & which, I am very self conscious about) they are hard area to sort, unlike the rest of me, as most arm exercises are out, at the moment, as I'm unable to do due to them, as doing them, adds to my upper back problem, if I do! (Hence the Bailine, on them, earlier this week. In the hope it has an effect, Or eventually in desperation I'll be saving up for a "Limited/Axillery Branchoplasty & Smartlipo!!"

When I first went, before my 1st tightening, Bailine session, on March 18th, according to the graph (Above) My bust/back area was 87.5% perfect (Needing 12.5% improvement) My torso/back 86% perfect (Needing 14% improvement) My waist 81.5% perfect (Needing 18.5% improvement) My hips are 85.5% perfect (Needing 14.5% improvement) My butt also was 85.5% perfect (Needing 18.5% improvement) My thighs (Both legs together) Surprisingly to me, were 91.5% perfect! With more muscle & water retention, under the surface, than actual fat!!! (Needing only 8.5% improvement) My thigh's, singularly, were 88% perfect (Needing 12% improvement) & finally my knees are 83% perfect (Needing 17% improvement) 

Now, today, after my 8th tightening, Bailine session, according to the graph (above) my bust/back area is 91% perfect (A 3.5% improvement. Now needing 9% improvement) My torso/back is 89% perfect (A 3% improvement. Now needing 11% improvement) My waist is 85.5% perfect (A 4% improvement. Now needing 14.5% improvement) my hips are 88% perfect (A 2.5% improvement. Now needing 12% improvement) My butt also is 89.5% perfect (A 8% improvement. Now needing a further 10.5% improvement) My thighs (both legs together) are now 92.5% perfect! (A 1% improvement. Now needing 7.5% improvement) My thighs singularly, are now 87% perfect (Taking a 1% step backwards. Now needing 13% improvement) & finally my knees are the same 83% perfect (So still needing 17% improvement) After my session there, I did two hours in the gym, to work on those thighs, which were going backwards, not forwards!! But before I did, I had a chat with the girls, as Yalda, had made me, a black coffee. You can find out more about Beauty Secret in St Albans by following @yalda1360 on Twitter. They asked me, what I was doing this weekend? I told them, that my friend Simon (below) was staying over, at mine, for the weekend & showed them his picture, on my phone & they said he was "VERY HANDSOME!!" 

Which of course he is & I said, that I'd pop in with him, at some point over the weekend. Then after the gym session, it was back home, for a bath & hair wash & to get ready, for Simon's arrival. I dried my hair, tied it back with a faux ponytail added on top. Tonight I wore a black, off the shoulder, long sleeved top, black glossy nylons & a black leather mini. Plus my black, stiletto, ankle boots & some gold jewellery and watch. Simon had already eaten, so I had Butternut Squash, honey & sage soup, with 2 slices of soya & linseed bread!! 532cals to try to be good before my weigh-in tomorrow!! Simon tweeted me at 7.30pm, to say that he was on his way, with a chilled bottle of bubbles, so to get the champagne glasses ready. So I got 3 ready, as our friend David, was picking Simon up, from his parents, after David had finished work, and dropping Simon at mine, before dropping his car, back at Hemel & then his parents, dropping him at mine, so he can drink tonight. Simon arrived around 7.50pm & we cracked open a bottle, with 4Music on the TV, providing the music!!

We caught up with each others gossip. Simon said i was looking really good & trim & also that he has decided, he wants to move to St Albans, to be near me, plus it's good for commuting to London. He said he was saying that he'd told David that, in the car, on the way over, and David said, that he also wanted to move out, of Hemel & his parents, so they were thinking of renting, a two bedroom flat together, so we'd all be close to eachother (Excellent!!) Then while waiting for David's arrival, we messed about taking silly selfie's. 

David arrived, he had some bubbles, then we headed to The Peahen, where we got a table & ended up, getting through, 3 bottles, of pink champagne (Oops I can expect to weigh-in 3-4lb heavier tomorrow, due to fluid retention bloat!!!) plus nibbles of sticky sausages, Haloumi, and polenta, chunky chips. I had around 6 chunky chips & 3-4 slices of my beloved Haloumi (but I didn't have my last 3, snack Cookies) Our waitress, Alexandra, who is also a model, was lovely & had the patience of a saint with David, who after losing a large bonus at work, was on one, being the total, loud, party boy!! 

Peahen Posse!! 

David, turns into a Jack Whitehall, clone, whenever he's on one!! We got back to mine at 1.30am & Simon went upstairs, while I chatted to David, who was smoking in my courtyard, while waiting for his dad, to pick him up Taxi Service style. It was bloody cold out by then, brrrrr!!! I locked up about 1.50am when David's dad arrived, and went upstairs, to find that Simon, had fallen asleep on the couch, bless him. So I put a cover over him & got ready for bed, and got in bed & crashed out myself!! Zzzzzzzzzz!!!  

Saturday 12th April (Week 4, Day 27) Official 4 Week, Weigh-in 

I woke at 8.30am, around the same time as Simon, we chatted & laughed about last night, Simon couldn't believe, that he'd crashed, before I'd even got upstairs. We both had a wash & I made us a coffee each & I had 2 chocolate Cookies for breakfast, Simon decided to have breakfast later in Costa's while we are out shopping. As we can't do our traditional J.K Palmers breakfast, before I have a Cookie Diet weigh-in. My next 4 weeks sully of the cookie diet, cookies, arrived at 9am & I dressed in my turquoise, skinny, low rider, jeans, matching t-shirt, turquoise drop earrings & black gladiator sandals (below) with my Alexander McQueen style, navy & white, skull print, neckerchief & slate grey Paul Costelloe leather jacket. Simon wore skinny jeans, a grey, v-neck, t-shirt & grey jacket. We popped in to say hi, at Beauty Secret & the girls went all soppy, over Simon as usual. Which amused Simon & I, he agreed they were all very sweet, as we walked to Costa Coffee. We got in Costa & both had soya cappuccinos, I had another cookie & Simon had a porridge & a energy bar too. Then we had a good mosey round the St Albans shops & Simon bought a coral t-shirt, in the shade of the one he use to wear, when bronzed in summer, but no longer has. 

Then we headed to St Albans, train station, to go to Elstree, for my Cookie Diet 4 week, weigh-in, then we are catching up with our friend from Big Brother 6, Kinga Karolczak. As it was her birthday yesterday, I'm dying to see her adorable new Pomeranian Cindy, in the flesh too!! As we were headed up the high street, in Borehamwood, Simon popped into a shop, so needing a pee (a Cookie Diet, side effect!) I decided to go to the pub next door & buy a diet coke & have a pee. I'd stepped only four paces into the bar, when the rotund, ruddy faced, landlord, bellowed out to me "Oi where do you think your going?" Confused, as I was only half way, into the establishment, I said "I'm going to have a pee & then buy a coke & wait for my friend!" Looking around the establishment & seeing only 3-4 male customers, I wondered, if the reason for the aggressive outburst, was due to it being, a men only establishment (Are they still allowed??) He continued aggressively "No!!! That's not the way it works in here, you buy the drink, then you use the loo!!"  What kind of clientele does he get? (If any, judging by the empty bar?!) That a punter can't relieve their bladder first?? I was smartly dressed, in designer gear, I was hardly about to rip the cistern off the wall, or inject smack, in there!!! And the place was so empty, I wouldn't of been able to pee & then sneak out, without buying anything, unseen!!... No wonder the bloody bar was empty, if that's how he talks to customers!! 

I almost wished, that I was in a skirt & had the shits, and couldn't hold my bladder, as I bought the coke first, as it would have served the old git right, if I had a bowel accident, on the "Toilet Nazis" floor!! He then charged me, an obscene £1.40, for a 'small' on TAP Coke, not even bottled (That syrup & soda water mix, wouldn't even be 1p, in costs, talk about BIG markup!) I'd get a pint of cider for that, in the Weatherspoon's across the road. I went to the loo, then drank my drink, as I waited for Simon. The old git probably spat in it, while I was in the loo, it tasted rank, it was over diluted, with soda water, the syrup bag, obviously needed changing!! At that moment Simon came in, leaving my rank drink on the counter, I walked over to Simon, exclaiming loudly, for all to hear, "Don't bother getting a drink here Hun, they are over priced, over diluted & their customer service skills suck!!! Lets go somewhere else!! No wonder they are dead in here!!" As we left, Kinga text Simon & said she was here, so Simon arranged to meet her, in the Ibis Hotel, and I'd join them after my weigh in. I got into the 'Cookie Diet' offices and saw Julie & Gaynor (Gaynor is also the name, of one of my older sisters) I'd chatted to the girls, on twitter, but had not met either before (below) each of us, were weighed & measured in turn.

I wore the same underwear set, as I'd done for my 1st weigh in, so I couldn't blame any weight loss or gain on what I was wearing!! My results were I'd lost 6lb (I knew I'd of gained weight due to yesterday's night out, 2.5lb it seems) I was expecting a 3-4lb gain, as I often can fluctuate daily by up to 5lb, due to water retention!! Then it was the measurements taken, I've lost 1" off my hips, I've lost 3" off my waist, I've lost 1.5" off my chest/back area, I've lost 1" off my arm & a had a 1" GAIN on my troublesome thighs!! (But that could be water retention though!!) Then we had a group photo out on the freezing cold & windy balcony, our hair blowing all over the place!! (Above - Gaynor centre back, Julie to my left!!) They then took a video testimonial from each of us, asking questions re our experience thus far. I was also asked if there had been any negative responses to my 'Cookie Diet'  blog, I said "Not unless you count my "Hater Troll" GLPGoddess but, thats due to, their own, personal, hatred of me, not the diet!! Other than that, the comments re the diet's progress, has been positive, the only other, negative comments, have been people saying... "Who's that petty, bitchy, nit picking, Troll moron, making negative comments, on your Blog? Don't they have a life? They are making themselves look so petty, stupid & obsessed!!" So again not about the diet!!" Then after a chat & a munch on an apple, I discovered that, sumo wrestler, Sharran, had discovered, that she had type 2 diabetes (Which may explain, as to why the Cookies, made her "GAIN" weight!!) Then once the chat was over, I met Kinga & Simon, in The Ibis Hotel & I finally got to meet, the adorable Cindy (Below) She was just so cute, when I held her, she was light as a feather, a bag of sugar, would be at least double her weight!! 

I had a cappuccino & a chat, Kinga told me, a funny story, about a female relative, wearing a pair of white trousers, after using diet pill ALLI (that is meant to stop fat from food going into body) the side effect of which is, greasy poo leaking from your butt (as side affects go, I prefer the constipation of the Cookies) Then Kinger drove us, to the Elstree train station. Once back in St Albans, Simon & I had a proper look round the shops. He bought a few bits, including a clear protective cover, for his iPhone & I got some tea tree cleanser. Then we popped into Costa again & he had a soya cappuccino & some nibbles for a late lunch, and I had a soya cappuccino & more chocolate cookies!! Then I bought a newspaper & we headed home. We got cleaned up, and changed, then about 7-7.30pm we both went to Waterend Barn, for dinner. I really fancied a tuna mayo jacket potato, I had a bit of a craving for one!! So when they had it on the menu, I ordered it, without even perusing the rest of the menu, having it with a cappuccino was 580cals in total. Simon had chicken, chicken & more chicken, he was a hungry boy! He had a white wine & I discovered a Toffee Apple Cider (below) Oops!!! Very nice, it had a real, burnt caramel, toffee apple taste!! 265cals a bottle (I had two!!.... Oops!!) Oh hell, I'll get back on the program again, next week!! 

We chatted about when Simon use to be in Hollyoaks & his time as a Abercrombie & Fitch model, in LA for 5 years, plus Renny's project. We got in at midnight, then crashed on Simon's makeshift bed, on my lounge floor, to watch the rerun of tonight's Britain's Got Talent pyjama party style, then at 2am we both retired to bed. As we had a busy day, tomorrow, in London, before we went our separate ways, back to our own homes, and it was to start off with our traditional Sunday Breakfast in J.K Palmers. 

Sunday 13th April (Week 4, Day 28) London Marathon 

I woke at 8.30am, Simon was awake already!! I had a wash & made us both a coffee. We got dressed for the day ahead, me in dark skinny jeans with diamanté studding around pocket areas, a black off the shoulder top, black ankleboots & I put my sunglasses & light weight puffa jacket in my black studded tote bag (below) as it's beautiful & sunny now, but being England it will probably snow tonight (Slight exaggeration..... Very slight!!) I tied my hair back & added a faux ponytail, so my back & shoulders could catch some sun & maybe tan a tad!! Simon packed his small case & we trundled past the St Albans, Sunday market, to J.K Palmers for our traditional Sunday Breakfast, I was salivating at the thought of FOOD IN THE MORNING!!! Arriving at J.K Palmers at 10am.

Simon, had his Full English Breakfast, with added Haloumi & a tea. I had the vegetarian breakfast, 2 rounds of wholemeal toast, mushrooms, grilled tomato, fried egg, baked beans & Haloumi (Simon also gave me, his two hash browns) & a cappuccino. The breakfast taste amazing, and the service excellent as always!!! Even the Maple Cookies, in my bag, couldn't compete with that!!... The food didn't last long (below) We left around 10.40am & got two Costa soya cappuccinos & did another mosey round the shops, before walking to the station.

We bought our tickets, and a Brighton train, semi fast, into London was due soon (London would be the place that we'd eventually go our separate ways) On the train we spoke about a train bang opposite mine, that was up for rent, Simon said to check how many bedrooms & the rent, as moving in opposite me would be perfect!! I couldn't help but laugh looking at Simon with his Costa soya cappuccino & Ray Bans looking like an Ad for the Coffee Empire!!! (Below) 

Today's The London Marathon & a bunch of friends, are running for charity, they said that, the route goes past, Blackfriars Train Station, so the viewing platform, would be an ace spot for me to watch, I looked out from the platform, at the viewing platform (below) when I arrived & it was clear, but I could see it was also quite empty close to road level, so opted for there instead. As it would have more atmosphere.

It was lovely & hot & sunny & I got a coffee frappe, from Starbucks, to cool me down, once Simon left, after standing in the sun a few hours. I didn't spot a single friend, even though I'd put my lenses in especially (They irritate my eyes long term.... Role on laser eye surgery) The atmosphere & the crowd were great fun, and time flew by, at 6pm the partner, of one of my friends running, said the BBQ was all fired up at their place in Kensington, so to come over any time I'm ready!! So I hopped onto the tube from Blackfriars & got the district line, to South Kensington. 

On the tube, around 6.30pm I started to feel hungry & realised I'd not eaten a single cookie!! By now, when on the usual pattern of cookies for breakfast, lunch & snacks, I'd be ravenous for dinner by now!! But after breakfast, a soya cappuccino & a frappe coffee, I'd only just become peckish!! Maybe next week, or on a more balanced, less hectic week I should do the diet with my main meal for breakfast!!! I got to my friends & as I was peckish & not ravenous as usual, despite the tasty smells of the BBQ I resisted the food or the booze, sticking to my cookies & diet coke (good girl) enjoying the good company, instead of the good food. I left there around 10-10.30pm & got the tube back to Blackfriars & then my train home. Getting home about 11.45pm, I sorted & tidied the lounge where Simon stayed. He text me to say he'd left his phone charger behind, I couldn't see it at first, as it wasn't where he normally plugs it in, but then I saw it by the TV. Not sure if I should post it, or if David will pick it up from me & drop it to Simon, after work, one day next week?? I had a wash & I was in bed & ready to crash by 12.30am!!! So another week begins!!

Cookie Monster??

Monday 24th March (Week 2, Day 8)

Today, I got up at 12.20am, rested, but with no sleep, since I went to bed, just after 8pm on Sunday. I got on the scales, as soon as I got up, as it is now exactly a week since I began. I'm another 3/4lb down, so that's a loss of 3.3/4lbs in a week. I got dressed, checked my costume case, then wrapped up warm & set off into the cold night air at 1.50am. I caught the 2.21am, Thames Link, train, boy are commuters at this hour miserable!! I was tempted to sit there, grinning inanely, just for my own sick amusement, at their discomfort & alarm!! Once at Blackfriars I waited 20mins for my 3.28am night bus. I got to set at 4.15am, frozen & starving, so had the night time snack Cookie, I'd not be awake to eat Sunday night!! It was a Chocolate one & I washed it down with 2 black coffees to warm & wake myself!! I managed to wait until 6.30am, to have my two breakfast Cookies, 1 chocolate & 1 maple, washed down with a caffeine free, diet coke, as I was ravenous by then!! I had a Cinnamon snack Cookie at 8.30am & another Cinnamon snack Cookie, at 10.30am. 

I was very hungry by lunch at 12.30pm, so I had a milky coffee with my maple & chocolate Cookies. I had my Maple snack Cookie as I travelled home, after filming at 2.30pm (Shattered!!) I collapsed on my bed ready to sleep, at 3.30pm, but the hairdressers downstairs (that is normally closed on a Monday) was opened at 4pm, just as I was drifting off & turned on their music & was scraping stuff across the floor (FFS!!!!!) Bloody typical!!!! In the end, exhausted from 32hrs with no sleep, I text the owner, of the hairdressers, complaining about the noise. She turned down the music, but being a light sleeper, I didn't fall asleep, until she finally left at 5.30pm. But I woke 2hrs later at 7.30pm & so I had dinner, a super wholefood salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast with honey 637 cals. I watched the brilliant Revenge at 9pm on E4 & then had my final Cinnamon snack Cookie at 9.30pm, then at 10pm after Revenge finished I went back to sleep. Another poop free day!! I fell asleep quickly thankfully, as I have another early start tomorrow. 

Tuesday 25th Match (Week 2, Day 9) 

Today I have a meeting, with UKs, top character model, agency, so I was up at 7.30am (thankfully after around 8-9hrs sleep, after a sleep deprived day yesterday!!) I jumped in the bath & washed hair, and made a so so offering, to the "Stool Gods" but NOT of the consistency that Dr Gillian McKeith would be pleased with (but it's a start) this diet definitely affects your bowel movements, Julie is having the same problem. I got on my scales, according to them, I've now lost another 1/2lb so that's 4 1/4lb in total so far. Today Breakfast was 2 cinnamon Cookies, with a black coffee, one had absolutely no flavour again (the cinnamon ones, seem a bit hit & miss flavour wise!!) I dried my hair, did makeup & got dressed, then I checked Facebook, Twitter & Email messages, before I set off for London. I have practically lived there again, these past two months, at least filming for the next two days, is local in Elstree Borehamwood! On the train I had a snack chocolate Cookie, with a takeaway cappuccino, and read the paper. The guy sat opposite me was the double of Freddie Flintlock, maybe it was him? I got to Kings Cross & got the tube to Wood Lane, I got to the agency early & gave the staff a couple of bags of Haribo (I touched none) as they are always wanting sweets. I had some crazy photos done & did a solo video, then did a joint video with a magician. Then I got back on the tube, travelling 3 stops to Hammersmith, to get a few bits I need. While having my 2nd snack Cookie 'maple' en route. Shopping done, I contacted L'oreal, re some info needed, before getting the tube to Kings Cross, and the train home, eating 2 maple lunch Cookies on the way. 

I went to Wilkinsons, once back in St Albans, to get some essentials & then I popped into. my local beauticians, Beauty Secret for my 3rd Bailine session. Yalda said, that as I already had a high pain threshold (some women wimp out & say they can't take it & turn the power down, she turns mine up, as I'm fine) she said, she'd do it to the advanced level, you normally go to, AFTER the 5th session. Yalda did my abdomen again today & it will be the legs again on Friday. I finally got home, only to discover, one of my photos from today, was already on the model agency's, Facebook & Twitter page!! Now that's quick!! I had another chocolate snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke. Then started preparing my outfit & 2nd outfit to pack for filming in Elstree tomorrow. I had dinner instead of my 2nd evening snack Cookie at 6.30pm, a salmon salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast, with honey as desert 678 cals then did some housework. I had a chocolate snack Cookie at 8.30pm, while watching myself on an old Midsomer Murders series. I found out, through the grapevine, that Sharran had gained over 7lb in weight, on the Cookie Diet despite strictly sticking to it & was having the same "No Poop" problems, I feel for her, that's what happened to me with Vi!! I messaged Luna, her weigh in was meant to be today, but she has not responded, maybe she's not had a good result either? I had my final cinnamon snack Cookie at 10.30pm, while getting myself ready for bed with a pint of water & milky decaf coffee. I laid  my stuff out for tomorrow, answered a few text messages & Facebook messages, then went to bed..... TIRED & desperate for sleep!!!!! But I was not to sleep, not even for a minute, instead I was to endure 11 hours of exhausting TORTURE!!!!

Wednesday 26th March (Week 2, Day 10)

I lay in bed, music booming & keeping me awake, at 1st I thought it was the pub, just up the road, having live music on. But when it was still blasting out at midnight, I went into my lounge & checked the pub, the lights were off & it was shut. So I realised it was coming from the hairdressers, I popped downstairs to my bathroom ear against wall (Yep definitely the hairdressers providing the booming music!!) I text the owner at midnight, no response, I tried again at 1.30am, plus I called the hairdressers, incase they were having a staff party (though odd on a Wednesday) by 4am I'd taken 3 Nightall & tried stuffing cottonwool in my ears & covering with earmuffs & I could still hear the booming base of the music clearly!! I was tempted to call the police, but I'm sure their response would of been slow & knowing my luck, if I did manage to fall asleep, they'd wake me knocking on my door around 6pm. I thought about calling the owner on their mobile (but oddly felt bad about waking them at that hour!!! Mind you the phone would probably be on silent or off if she was not getting the texts!!) I took 4 more Nightall to try & sleep but no joy. By 9am I was so exhausted & angry, due to music being left on all night, in the hairdressers, preventing me to sleep, I could cry!!!

I needed all the rest I could get, last night, as today, I was going on a TV game show as a contestant, with my friend Ian, that morning and I needed my mind to be clear & sharp, but instead it was pounding with a headache muzzy & beyond exhausted!! I could kill whoever left the music on!!! How could you not notice, as you lock ups, that the music is still on?? If it was just a CD left on, the noise would of eventually stopped in the end... But it was obviously on REPEAT mode, so boomed out for 11 hours!! If it had been pop music, it may not of disturbed me, quite so much, but it had a heavy base, that boomed out for 11hrs, as I tried very unsuccessfully to sleep!! It was like torture, even cottonwool in ears & ear muffs did not keep the noise out & 7 sleeping tablets (Nightall) had no effect, which added to my frustration & turmoil!! 

I got on the scales at 9.30am I've lost another 1/4lb that's 4.5lb in total!! I had breakfast 1 chocolate & 1 cinnamon Cookie. I got dressed in a yellow shift dress & wore gold pumps & put my beige heels, plus my 2nd outfit, a navy dress & black heels, in a holdall. Then headed for the train to the TV studios in Elstree, eating my chocolate snack Cookie at 11.30am on the train. I met Ian at Elstree station & we got to the studios at noon & were whisked off to the green room. I explained I was sleep deprived & why, hoping I'd be chosen for tomorrow's filming & not today's (so getting some sleep tonight!!) I had my 2nd snack Cookie (maple) at 1.30pm, and some flirty, jokey banter, with the young runner lad, Liam, which helped to keep me awake, when I was physically exhausted, with a banging headache. I took a load of painkillers, to try feel human. On the plus point, the complements were flowing re my yellow dress. 

I checked twitter while in the green room, Luna has had her weigh in & last week lost 3lb! Sharran the sumo wrestler, who had a gain, despite sticking to the diet rigidly, has gone quiet online. I really feel for her, because my weight leapt up by almost a stone, in a week, while sticking rigidly to the Vi diet, I then I resorted to replacing all 3 meals, instead of 2 with Vi out of desperation & then I still gained another 7lb!!! So I stopped using it & I instantly dropped the 21lb, so I'm stuck with a few £100 of Vi stock, which is of no use to me!! (So if Vi works for YOU, or you are a Vi rep, and want to buy a load of shakes come find me!!!) It may be that the Cookie Diet is not suitable for Sharran, like Vi wasn't for me, or it's just a 1st week set back!! 

By 3pm we were still in the green room & I was fading fast!! We had lunch handily at 3.30pm I had the mini, margarita, calzone with a spoonful of hand cut chips & stir fried veg. Elstree catering leaves a lot to be desired, the chips were fine, but the calzone, a lump of stodge, with some cooked tomato. I left the stir fried veg, as they tasted of washing up liquid. Whoever washed the wok or pan it was cooked in, didn't rinse it well after washing & it obviously had a detergent coating, when it was used next. Ian & I were chosen to film today, despite me telling all involved I was sleep deprived (bugger) we did quite well to start with, but then there came a question, I knew the low scoring answer I wanted, it was the name of an artist. I know him well & my nan owned a painting of his, as did the owner of the stud farm, we lived on in Nottingham. But due to now being without sleep for 32hrs, I was exhausted, and I had a mental block & couldn't think of the artists name, it was frustrating me as I stood there, as I knew the artist well, my dad & I often discussed his work (when my dad was alive!!) I racked my brains, trying to think of the name, which I knew was a SHORT name, I pleaded in my head, to my dead dad, to come to me & remind me of the name!! But it wouldn't come & time was running out, as the presenter came to me.

I was left with 3 alternatives, all that seemed obvious & high scorers to me, just what I didn't want, but unable to come up with the artists name, I had to opt for one of them, I opted for the oldest historic person of them all, hoping a lot of school kids were surveyed, as these days they seem, very ignorant of history. It was a bad choice & we were out of this show, but still in for the second show. I hoped that would be, due to timing, get filmed tomorrow (when I could rest) but no such luck!! At 5.30pm I had a chocolate snack Cookie, and changed into my navy dress, with dragonfly print (above) plus my black heels. Ian & I went into the studio again for the 2nd show, I was now 34hrs without sleep & absolutely shattered!! This is where, my tiredness, really hit me.... I only had one contact lense in, as my left eye had puffed up this morning, from tiredness, and I couldn't put my lense in it, so that combined with tiredness, meant I had difficulty viewing the board. One answer, the one I could see & was going to go for, had the initials OW. Exhausted and frightened of my mind forgetting, like on the artist question, I kept saying to myself over & over "Oscar Wild, not Orson Wells, Oscar Wild, NOT Orson Wells" So what happened, when they got round to, an exhausted me? Yep I mistakenly blurted out Orson Wells, I realised, the second it came out of my mouth, I'd said the wrong one, the very one, my mind was telling me not to say!! But it was too late, as they take your 1st answer. So my exhaustion screwed over Ian & I, thanks hairdressers, you stitched me up good & proper!!!

So when it airs, I will look an idiot, on TV, due to my tiredness (which of course the TV audience will be totally unaware of!!) but by then, I was just relieved, It was over & I could now go home to bed, as I was beyond exhausted. I walked with difficulty (in my flat pumps again) to the station, each step was exhausting!! Ian got on his train to London & moments later mine came, on the train, I realised, I didn't have my yellow dress, in the holdall. It had been hanging up next to my white coat, I must have been really exhausted, not to see such a bright dress & pack it in my bag, when I put my white coat on. I contacted the TV crew & they said they'd post it to me. How I managed to walk from the station, home, god only knows? I passed the hairdressers at 7.45pm & popped in & asked the owner, if she now knew, who had locked up last night, leaving the music blaring out? She said it was one of the hairdressers Danny. I get on well with Danny, we have silly, jokey banter, but he certainly isn't in my good books right now!!! I eventually crashed into bed exhausted after 36hrs without sleep, way too tired, to eat my last two, cinnamon Cookies. 

Thursday 27th March (Week 2, Day 11)

I woke up at 2am, needing to spend a penny (Cookie Diet side effect) still dizzy & sleep deprived, from Wednesday, I toddled naked from my bedroom, to go to the bathroom, downstairs. But my stairs are dangerous at the best of times, steep, and undersized depth wise, only 3/4 the depth of my smallish size 5 feet (so toes hang over the edge, even when my heel is at the back of the step) Being shattered & so less overly cautious, of my stairs, as I'd usually be. My foot slid on the stair carpet, at the edge, and I flew backwards, crashing down the whole flight on my arse!!! OUCH!!!! Carpet burns & bruising tomorrow lovely... Another mishap, to add to my disastrous day, due to, the hairdressers keeping me awake. I checked Facebook & Twitter messages, then went back to sleep, my bladder woke me again at 5am, but with my arse still smarting, from my last wee hours, bathroom journey, I ignored it & went back to sleep!! I woke finally at 9am, due to the noise of the hairdressers opening up downstairs (as usual!!) 

I got up & gingerly, I went down the stairs, to the bathroom, only to discover I now had cystitis, OUCH!! Great just what I need, I must of really done some damage, to my bladder & kidneys, in that fall!! I got on my scales, I'm now down by 5lb, in 11 days. I had a shower & had two maple Cookies for my breakfast with a coffee (with milk) then I did a few household chores that needed doing, my internet has been down, since the 12th March, which is screwing me job/audition search wise. I had my two maple snack Cookies at 11am & 1pm then headed for the gym. I got in Fitness First, and did a set of exercises on the power plate, then I did 10 sets, of 10 reps, on the hip adductor & the same on the hip abductor on 40kg. I had a vending machine cappuccino, as I felt tired & did some squats with the Swiss Ball & a few more on the power plate. Then I passed Frank Bruno, on the way to the exercise cycle, I was about to start exercising on the cycle, when I had agonising cramps in my stomach, and in my kidneys, I broke out in a sweat, it was like when I had a gallstone attack (which is said to be 9 times more painful than childbirth!!) 

I put my legs up on the bike, with my knees under my chin, in the recovery, position, that I learned with my gallstones. The pain was excruciating & I pulled gargoyle like grimaces, as I struggled, not to scream out, like I was being murdered!! Sweat poured off me & my legs trembled, as my kidney area, went into seizures. Nobody came to my aid, though it must of been obvious, to those on the bikes, either side of me, that all was not well. When the pain had passed enough, for me to move, I walked (doubled over) into the changing room. Where I knelt on a stool & half laid over the table area, in front of the mirrors. As another wave of pain attacked me, and I groaned like a woman in labour. A woman came to check on me, and asked if I was ok?? I said "I think I have kidney stones, or a urine infection, caused by a fall & needed to go home!" when this 2nd attack passes. I eventually left, still doubled over, going into Boots en route, buying some medication for Cystitis, asking the pharmacist if the fall, could of caused a urine infection? Plus would it cause these, stone like symptoms? He said yes, but to go to hospital, if symptoms persisted, after the medication was finished? 

I had 2 lunch Cookies at 3pm & laid on the bed, I had another bad attack & screamed the flat down, as if I was being murdered!! Which proved the noise pollution from the hairdressers only goes one way, or they did hear me screaming, but didn't care enough to check if I was ok!! It was a long time before I could face, or felt brave enough to eat. I had a Quorn curry with rice & slice of buttered wholemeal bread (for roughage to try help me go to the loo) plus 6 Riesen chocolate sweets for dessert. That totalled 766cals 66 cals over suggested amount, I spent most of the rest of the night curled in bed feeling rough, taking cystitis medication & the final 3 snack Cookies. Going to sleep at 11pm totally shattered!! 

Friday 28th March (Week 2, Day 12)

I woke at 6am, wanting to go to the loo, for a wee, but resisted after my bad accident yesterday at 2am, when I woke, bladder full, and fell down my stairs, top to bottom, going to go to the bathroom. I went back to sleep & woke again at 9am, when the noise, of the hairdressers downstairs, disturbed me! I got up & went to the loo, looks like the cystitis thankfully gone. Hopefully the cramping in gut & kidney area, will have stopped too (I obviously damaged my butt, bladder, coccyx & kidneys in my fall) I grabbed a Cookie bag for the day (I couldn't be arsed with the hassle of mixing up a few bags) so I had 2 chocolate Cookies, for breakfast at 9am, with a coffee. I got on the scales I'm now 5.5lb down in 12 days. My bum really hurts, it was bad enough the diet making me want to pee a lot, but now burning cystitis, makes me feel like I want to go, every two minutes!! I pulled on my Union Jack leggings & Marilyn Monroe t-shirt & did some housework, and had a coffee & snack Cookie at 11am & another at 1pm. At 2pm I went to my Bailine session, today it was thankfully on my leg/hip NOT torso area today (I think my kidneys would be too sensitive still, for the electric shocks!!) Yalda complimented me on my lemon coloured underwear today. I was so chilled out in today's session, I was checking my Facebook & twitter as I lay there, listening to Heart Radio on my iPad. 

Yalda says I have such a high PAIN threshold, that she is upping power & combination that she would do AFTER 5th - 6th session on my 3rd & 4th I'm going to include arms next.... Even though that's also meant to be AFTER the 5th session. I was going to go to the gym after, but after my bad kidney attack in the gym, yesterday I was wary & opted to wait until after the weekend!! I had two chocolate Cookies for lunch at 3pm with some water. When the hairdresser who kept me awake Wednesday, due to leaving the music on, and blaring all night, apologised to me, in a somewhat unusual fashion. Funny old world!! I did a few chores & some shopping. I had a snack Cookie at 5pm while putting away some underwear gifts, I'm running out of storage for underwear & bikinis. Then I watched Home & Away from 6pm to 7pm, when I had my 2nd snack Cookie & finally at 9pm, I had a seafood curry, with Japanese rice & a slice of buttered bread, at 614cals (under the top calorie limit) I haven't done much today, yet I feel utterly shattered (I am usually full of, too much Hypa activity!!!) I'm sure it's this diet, sapping my energy!! I had my final snack Cookie at 11pm then zonked out in bed shattered!!! Without going to the loo, yet again!! 

Saturday 29th March (Week 2, Day 13) 

I got up at 9am & had a bath plus my two chocolate, breakfast, Cookies at 9.30am. I packed my costume case (Disco Diva) all outside shots have been done, so it's indoor night shots today, at a reasonable hour, thank god, no more night busses in the wee hours (phew!!) I put on my blue satin disco pants, then pulled my jeans on top (in case changing area, is limited on set) plus my bright blue t-shirt, my sister got me for Xmas. It's a lovely day out for a change, so I wore my gladiator sandals (below) I wore my lightweight Betty Barclay puffer jacket & packed my bodywarmer & butterfly scarf in my case, along with the rest of my costumes, as it will no doubt be colder tonight, when my filming ends! I grabbed my Prada sunglasses & dragged my case to the train station, to catch the 10.30am train. 

It was a beautiful day which really lifted my spirits, but sadly didn't bring out the sunny disposition of my fellow commuters (below) I had my 1st snack Cookie at 11am, just stuck with the chocolate ones, I couldn't be arsed, decanting & mixing them again. While on the platform, I heard via the station announcer, that the trains to Richmond, on the District line, were not running, west of Hammersmith to Richmond!!!... Great that's where I was heading!!! There were rail replacement busses, from outside Hammersmith. Great, so no night busses this time, bloody rail replacement busses instead. While on the platform, I bought myself a Cappuccino, to have with my snack Cookie, on the train into London, with the grumpy commuters. 

I changed at Kings Cross & got the tube to Hammersmith & then the Tube Replacement Bus, to my destination. The bus thankfully stopped, practically outside set & I had a 2nd snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke at 1pm, as I got into, my full costume. I was bent over, doing up my strappy heels, when a Facebook message, popped up on my iPad. I laughed when I opened it, it was from my fellow SA Mandy, saying she loved the "Disco Pants" not sure if she'd got my best side, when she spied them lol. Actually the blue trousers, were a bit of a hit, a lot of people, complimented me on them & my long legs!! (36" trouser) but I'm not sure, if my legs, would of got those same compliments, if they were still trussed up, in those Bailine straps!! In fact I'm pretty sure they wouldn't, my friend Simon said I looked fantastic, in my 'Car Wash' disco diva, attire. He's coming to stay at mine again soon, I can't wait!! I had my two lunch Cookies at 3pm, with another caffeine free, diet coke, while all around me, scoffed soup, or burgers. My bum is really hurting today, I really bashed my coccyx badly, falling down those stairs. 

At 5pm I had a snack Cookie with a coffee, as I needed one I was starting to flag, despite a late start. I was peckish, when I had another coffee & my 2nd snack Cookie at 7pm, and I was glad for, my on set, veggie burger in a bun & a diet coke, plus a slice of wholemeal toast & honey, for dessert, at 9.30pm, coming in at 718cals, 18 cals over, but too hungry to care!! At 10pm I set off home, more busses to Hammersmith, then tube to Kings Cross. I got a large, skinny, decaf, cappuccino, for the train journey from Costa & got on the semi fast train home, eating my final snack Cookie at 11.30am. I got home at 11.50pm pretty shattered, and washed & got ready for bed, before watching a snippet of TV, before crashing out for the night, shattered at 1am (which as I put the clock forward, for British summer time, is now 2am) Still constipated, apart from constant peeing, I didn't go to the ladies once today, AGAIN!!! (That can't be healthy??) then I was out for the count!! 

Sunday 30th March (Week 2, day 14) Mothers Day 

I laid in until noon, which with the clocks going forward last night was 1pm... I got on the scales I have lost 3lb again this week, that's 6lb since the diet started two weeks ago. Not bad I guess? But I'm still suffering constipation, peeing like crazy & I am very tired, which I don't think is ONLY down to my lack of sleep!! I had 2 cinnamon Cookies for breakfast, then I had a shower & pulled on my jeans, my white, Reebok, Easytone, trainers, plus my blue t-shirt, I got from my sister for Xmas (below) I wrapped my butterfly scarf round my neck. I pulled on my metallic blue, Betty Barclay, puffa jacket & packed scissors, water, my cookies, plus debit cards, in my small Moschino, rucksack & set off for the cemetery at 3pm. 

I bought some orange roses, from Tescos, en route, during my hour long walk, to the cemetery, thinking of the happy times, spent with mum, on the journey. I got there at 4pm, I had my 2 lunch Cookies (I saved the 2 snack ones, for later, as breakfast was so late) and removed the remnants of the Christmas visit, wreaths etc, then pulled up the weeds & used the scissors to cut down, overgrown grass. Then once it was tidied up, I filled the planter with some water from my bottle & trimmed the orange roses & arranged them. Then I sat crossed legged in front of my parents grave, and talked to their headstone for roughly an hour until 5pm. I was saying what I'd been up to, since my last visit, joking to dad, for not helping me to remember, the name "Stubbs" on Wednesday, when I was so tired & needed the help, on Pointless, plus wishing mum a Happy Mother's Day & saying how much I missed her!! 

I set off home at 5pm, with a sore bum & aching legs. Thinking about mum & how much I miss her, on my hours walk home. Once home at 6pm, I had a SMALL prawn curry with rice & two slices of buttered bed, which went 33cals over meal limit, at 733 cals. But I am not too concerned, the two hours walk & a bit of pruning at the cemetery will have worked off more than those excess 33cals. I spoke to Sharran, she said she had one LARGE, but HEALTHY meal, along with the Cookies, but gained & like me (With Vi) the weight dropped off again, when she stopped with the Cookies. So she is going to see her doctor, about it. I asked if the LARGE meals, were within the 500-700cal limit set? She said a typical example, would be a steak with LOADS of vegetables, which should be fine! BUT of course, that depends on the cut & size of the steak, plus if it was grilled or fried?? Also it depends if the vegetables are boiled/steamed or cooked another way & also if those veg are high in carbs, like potatoes, swedes, parsnips etc, as that could tip the meals well over 700 cals. Also if their is gravy or any sauce had with the steak? 

Maybe taking a photo of each meal, to show her doctor, would help? Because some people, like in Secret Eaters, don't realise just how many calories, can be in vegetables & it can be a lot, depending on type of vegetable & the way it's cooked!! But she also may be Spot On calorie wise, but the sugary Cookies, play havoc with her metabolism? I hope she gets some answers soon, I know just how frustrating, sticking to something & still gaining weight is!! I had 2 decaf diet cokes & my 2 morning snack Cookies (cinnamon) at 8pm. I finally went to the loo at 9pm & it was hardly a nappy filler, this is deffo a side effect of the diet. I was regular as clockwork, 3 times a day, before The Cookie Diet. I had two of my evening snack Cookies at 10pm, when I felt shattered, despite my lie in this morning!! Another side effect of the diet, I think!! At 11pm my bowels moved again, maybe thanks to the rice & the spices in the curry? Not a huge amount, but at least twice a day, is closer to the norm & better than the none a day of late!! I finally went to bed shattered (as I have been all day) at 1.30am, when I finally finished this blog!!