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Friday, 2 May 2014

Royal Opera? Maybe The Fat Lady Needs A "Cookie" Before She Sings!!

Monday 21st April (Week 6, Day 36)

I dreamt, one of my long, epic dreams, that seemed to go on for hours, but which I can't recall all the details of. But there were the usual themes, friends, moving home, acting, working in retail, unattainable love, from my dream love interest, lots of animals, being abroad & critics. I lazed in bed, until 10am, then had a shower. I got on my scales, my lax week hasn't done much damage, I'm still 9lb lighter than when I started 'The Cookie Diet' 5-6 weeks ago!

I had a coffee & two Maple breakfast Cookies, at 10.30am, as I got dressed. I did a bit of dusting & gardening, before the weather got overcast & cold. I had a snack Cookie, with some mineral water. At 12.30pm, I was changing to go to the gym, and as I did, I spotted that the 'On The Busses' film was on TV, so I decided to watch that first, as I'd not seen that in decades. It finished at 2pm & I was just packing my gym bag, before popping to the shop downstairs, when Cagla, from the shop downstairs, called me, on my mobile. 

She told me, that she had a male customer, who was leaving St Albans, but had mentioned me, a few times in conversation. She said he was "Really good looking & successful, traveling abroad a lot on business, and a real character & lovely to talk to" She said he'd come in & was talking about moving, then went all shy, and mentioned me, asking if I was single? Cagla said she wasn't 100% sure! but she thought I was. 

Apparently he said "How the hell is she single??" & Cagla said she replied "Junes a pretty girl, but she's also very intelligent & intelligent girls, always get left on the shelf, so end up staying single!" So apparently, he left his mobile number, with her, just incase, it turned out 'I was single!' (Waits for GLP, to now slag me off, for being 'vain & self obsessed', just for writing, what has actually, happened in my day & posting the info, given to me, second hand!) So I popped down to the shop, as I was about to do so anyway, to get a paper & a few diet cokes. 

Cagla said my admirer "Paul" was "very good looking" (Again!!) he was blonde, with his hair in a ponytail, working in something, in the media. She said he was a real character, and a lovely guy. She said, that he'd stood behind me once, when I was in the shop one time, and he asked her about me & she'd said to him, what I did & he gave her, a name of a website, to put my CV on, to get me more work. But she forgot & lost the bit of paper. He'd later asked if she'd passed it on & she lied & said she had. 

She said he looked really embarrassed, when he was asking her, if I was single. She gave me his mobile number. She'd rewrote it out, as she said, that his hands, were shaking so much, when he wrote it, that it wasn't very legible (Blimey, am I really that scary??) So I went home with my newspaper, and put the cans of coke, in my rucksack, and Paul's number in my mobile phone. I'm not looking, for a new man, in my life. But as I walked to the gym, curiosity got the better of me (Or maybe, Cagla, regularly repeating "very good looking!!" May of helped, peak that curiosity, more lol) 

So I text "Hello Paul I hear I have an admirer!?" (Short & to the point!!) he replied "Hello June! Hehehehe, you do ;) how are you all good I hope?" I replied "Not bad ta on the way to the gym" He replied "Oh good stuff, I need to go back to the gym myself. Do you go to Fitness First?" I said that I did & after a bit more chit chat, he asked me, if I'd like to meet up, in the near future? I replied "Well I have to admit I'm curious (I'm worse than a cat curiosity wise)" He replied "Lol well I'm sure you've seen me about, because my local off-licence is the same as yours (I think) Also, I think you may have caught me trying to catch your eye on Friday - I was sitting in the cafe (on the corner) & I think you were off to the gym then!" 

Hmmm..... I did go to the gym that day, which cafe on the corner? The one called 'Cafe On The Corner?' If so, I've no idea, as I'm blind as a bat, without my lenses. I saw a few blokes, sat outside 'Cafe Roma' but as he said "IN" I'm assuming, it's the former!! In which case, I haven't got a clue!!!?? I really don't, walk around, clocking potential, single guys!! Anyway it's brains, humour & personality, that captures my attention, and you can't clock that, in a glance. So I'm pretty sure, I haven't seen/noticed him about, even if he is 'Super Hot' even on a day, I had my lenses in!! 

We had a bit, of phone text banter, on my way to the gym, his banter is good (A few brownie points gained) So I'm guessing, he's a fellow air sign (Aquarius, Libra or a fellow Gemini) or possibly a fire sign (Leo, Aries or Sagittarius) But much more likely the former, most probably an Aquarian, going by, his quick Wit. I got to the gym & I had a vending cappuccino & decanted the diet cokes, into my gym drinking bottle. Before doing a set of Powerplate exercises, then 10 sets, of 10, on 40kg, on the hip adductor & the same on the hip abductor. 

Then some more exercises, on the powerplate, then 30mins, on the bike, on random setting, level 15, then 15mins on the cross trainer, on the same settings. Finishing off, with 10 sets of 10 squats, with the Swiss ball. Then I headed home, getting a Costa, soya cappuccino, en route. I got home & had a small seafood paella, followed by some salted cashews, for dinner at 770cals. 70 over, the top end, if evening meal scale. But I've more than worked off those 70 cals, in the gym. 


Paul started texting again, just as one of my fave shows, with a very complex plot (Revenge) came on!! Bad timing!!! I kept dropping hints I was trying to follow the 'Revenge' plot, but he still kept texting (A few of those, former brownie points, lost) During those texts though, I did glean a bit more about him, he's 5ft 7-8" (So short) and has shoulder length, blonde hair, tied back, plus a beard. NOPE, I can honestly say, I have definitely, NOT SEEN, a 'Very Good Looking' short, blonde guy, with a beard, around town, 100% sure!!! He seems a really nice guy though (Even if he can't seem to get, a few hints, not to text me, during Revenge) but from his description, I find it highly unlikely, I'd have any interest in him, other than making a new friend maybe, which is fine, as I'm not actively looking, for a new man, in my life. 


I'm not into beards & prefer a taller guy, than myself, when it comes to relationships, you'd have to be pretty special for me to ignore both of those things. We agreed to meet up at 'The Peahen' at 7pm, as tomorrow, is the only evening I'm free, before he moves out of the area. We seem to have a lot of films, TV shows & interests in common, which makes me more inclined to think, he's definitely an Aquarian, though I haven't asked, maybe I will tomorrow. Which is good if he is, as I have never met, an Aquarian, that I didn't like & they are always interesting, characters & Cagla said he was a "Character" so we will see, I had the last of my snack Cookies with some mineral water & went to bed around 1am.

Tuesday 22nd April (Week 6, Day 37) 

I woke at 9am, I can't wear any contact lenses now, until after my pre laser eye surgery, eye examination. It's very dark & gloomy out today, I had two cinnamon Cookies for breakfast at 9.30am after my morning wash, with a coffee to wash them down. To be honest, I'm so bored, of the repetitiveness, of the 3 sweet/sweetish Cookie flavours, especially when my tooth is savoury & NOT sweet!! They should have, some savoury flavoured Cookies, Garlic & Herb, Cheese & Tomato, Cheese & Pickle etc etc. At least with 'Slimfast', you have a choice of flavours, in shakes, soups & bars, same with the 'Cambridge Diet', even with 'The Atkins Diet' products, there is more of a variety, than just 3 flavours, in just one format!!!! Yawnsville!!! 

You can vary your one meal, yes, but the monotony of the same old, same old, the rest of the day (Especially when I don't have a sweet tooth & when, I don't, normally, buy biscuits, or Cookies, unless for guests, occasionally) is getting beyond boring!!!... Maybe Americans are cookie & sweets crazy..... I'm not!!! I dressed in my neon peach undies, grey jodhpur look leggings, grey v-necked, t-shirt, with my white, Reebok, Easytone, trainers. I had another snack Cookie at 11.30am with another coffee & popped out to my letting agent, to pay my rent, then to the post office, to post Simon, his iPhone charger lead, he left at mine the other week. 

Then I bought a Sun newspaper & when to the gym, from 12.30pm until 1.30pm doing 30mins on the bike, 15mins on the stepper & 15mins doing exercises on the powerplate. I had another snack Cookie at 1.30pm, with a vending machine cappuccino from the gym. Then I went to 'Beauty Secret' & had a 'Bailine' session on my thighs & love handles at 2pm. I had a black coffee & chat with Yalda after, she said I looked very brown, I said that was probably due, to the neon undies, then around 3.15pm I went to get my nails manicured & painted, the same as before (for continuity) having two lunch Cookies at 3.30pm, as my nails were being done. 

On the way home, around 4.45pm, I had a look around Reiss, a few nice bits but nothing outstanding!! I got home at around 5.30pm, and had a shower, as I was meeting my admirer Paul, in 'The Peahen' at 7pm. I decided to wear a dress, as I've been in jeans a lot lately, so wore my grey/white/black leopard print one (below) with black heels.



I washed & dried hair & pulled it back, with a straight, faux, ponytail, hairpiece. Did my make-up, then pulled on my khaki, leather, trench coat & grabbed my Versace umbrella, as it looked, set to pour down, any moment & I set off, to 'The Peahen' at 6.45pm. Paul text me asking what I wanted to drink, just as I was across the road, from the bar. I said "A vodka & slimline, with a slice of lime, please, thank you!" I spotted Paul straight away, despite being blind as a bat, without my lenses, thanks to him texting me, what he was wearing & where he was sat. 

Paul was a nice guy, really chatty & loads in common & interesting too, and as I expected, he WAS an Aquarian. But unlike, with most Aquarians, I felt no chemistry at all, so even if I was looking for a new man, it would still of been a no to romance. Paul had a nice, friendly, smiley face, but unlike Cagla I'd not describe him as "VERY GOOD LOOKING". Not that looks are everything, brains, personality & humour is more important, and he certainly wasn't unattractive, there just wasn't any spark. 

Maybe the fact he was obviously nervous, and because he also apologised, unnecessarily a lot, it dampened any chance of a spark. I have no problem, dating a guy lacking in confidence, as long as he can put on a good front! We liked a lot of the same bands, TV shows & films, he wasn't in the media, he's in IT & does some IT work for media company's. Hungry as I'd not had dinner, I had a grilled veg & Haloumi sandwich (No idea of cals, but must be under 700) & he had the same, another thing in common, we both love Haloumi. We chatted until around 11pm, I had 3 vodka Slimline's in total, during that time, then he walked me back home, as he lives just across the road. Then it was back home & get some rest for my audition tomorrow. I had a decaf coffee, with the last of my Cookies, before hitting the sack!!

Wednesday 23rd April (Week 6, Day 38) 

I woke at 8am & jumped in the shower, I have an audition with the Royal Opera, at 'The Royal Opera House', today, at 5pm. So I went to the gym early, and did my usual routine, having a coffee & two chocolate Cookies, for breakfast at 9am, before I set off. Then my snack Cookie at 11am, in the gym. I got home at 1pm, and had my other snack Cookie, with a decaf diet coke. Then I jumped into the shower, for the 2nd time today, then changed into my audition outfit. Which consisted of, my grey, jodhpur look, leggings, a white vest top, and a navy, tie front, dance top (below) plus my white Reebok trainers, as my agent said, to wear something, comfortable to move in, as there will be some improv, within the audition. 



I had two chocolate Cookies for lunch at 3pm. I tied hair back & added a straight faux ponytail. Just after that one of my agents, said I wasn't needed for the 3rd day of filming on the drama series, as I've been heavily featured on the 1st two days. I shoved my cookies & essentials in my bag, and pulled on my metallic blue, Betty Barclay, puffa jacket, and headed out to the station. 

I got the train to Kings Cross texting a few close friends, saying to keep their fingers crossed for me & once at Kings Cross, I got the tube to Covent Garden & went in the stage door, to wait to audition. I was up against, 43 other women, for the role, many of whom, were dressed in character, for the part, unlike myself. I had my evening snack Cookie at 5pm. Then we were ushered into our audition. There were 4 people watching our audition & we finished at 6.50pm. So how did I do? Well I'll keep you guessing for now. 


Tired I headed back to Kings Cross, and got a tuna melt, panini from 'Starbucks', plus a large, decaf, soya, cappuccino, which I had with a pack of cashews, to give me an energy boost (794 cals, 94 over, but I've done lots of walking, dancing & exercise today!!) I checked my Facebook & Twitter for messages, while on the train home. No good luck, texts today, from my brother or sister, who I'd told, that I was auditioning at the 'Royal Opera' today, not sure they have any faith, that I have any chance, with such a big audition. Watched TV & had my two snack cookies, as I did, before going to bed. 

Thursday 24th April (Week 6, Day 39)

I woke, with a massive migraine, at 10am, it was really bad, I took some migraine pain killers, then eventually, went back to sleep until 1pm, when I woke feeling a bit better, but still with a migraine hangover. Just as well I don't have to film today after all!! Not sure if it's down to the stormy weather? The tension of yesterday's audition? Or built up stress in general?? I put on some sunglasses & checked my emails, Facebook, and Twitter I had lots of messages from my SA pals still working on the drama series today, saying where was I? And that they really missed me & filming wasn't the same, without me being there!! Which was very, very, sweet, of them all, I was really touched at their sincerity! 

I had 3 maple Cookies for breakfast at 1.30pm with a decaf coffee. Then had a shower & changed into my turquoise jeans, gladiator sandals, plus white vest & yesterdays navy rehearsal top (washed & dryed) then I popped to the shops, in my Betty Barclay, puffa jacket, still wearing my sunglasses, as my eyes were still sensitive, from my migraine.



Shopping done, I popped into J.K Palmers for a tuna melt, jacket potato, for lunch, at 3.30pm to send my migraine, hangover, packing!! Very tasty it was too & excellent service as always. 537 cals, near the lower end of meals. Then it was back home (Getting a soya cappuccino en route) & a bit of housework & laundry. At 5.30pm I had 3 maple Cookies for dinner. I watched 'Millionaire Matchmaker' which had the gay son & heir of the founder of 'The Cookie Diet' on it, what a vile, cold, unattractive, little queen he was!! Then I watched 'Home & Away' & 'Dinner Date' I had my last 3 maple cookies, at 7.30pm, when I was still shattered & wiped out, due to this mornings, migraine. By 9pm I was shattered & went to bed.

Friday 25th April (Week 6, Day 40)

I had an odd dream, where one of my agents, was trying to convince me, to make a porn film, with some model guy, with a huge penis, and I was fuming & having none of it!! And I woke up laughing & thinking "What the bloody hell was that all about???" Today is yet another bleak, grey, dismal, day!! A contrast to last weeks sunshine!! I had a cup of coffee & two cinnamon Cookies at 9am, I had a bath & wore a red, 'La Sensa' underwear set, under my dark skinny jeans & grey tiger print, t-shirt. 

I had my snack cookies at 11am & 1pm. I popped to the shop, and got a newspaper & caught up with the news. Then did some laundry before having a snack cookie at 3pm & heading to Beauty Secret, for a 'Bailine' session, on my torso. Yalda said, that she liked my underwear set. I played Heart radio on my iPad mini, during my session, then some 'Tarkan & Despina Vandi' & Yalda & Raha came in & laughed, that I was jiggling to the music, while laid down, being zapped. They said that I gave them energy, with my energy. I had a black coffee & chat with Yalda after, as the lovely Raha, had already gone home.



After that, hungry, I popped to J.K Palmers again, for another tuna melt jacket potato & cappuccino 514 cals. As I craved cheese & savoury things, at the moment, as I'm so sick of the sweetness of the Cookies. They really need to introduce, some savoury options, for the UK, if cookies are the sole product if this diet!! The best are the Maple ones (above) but I'm getting sick of their sweetness, the chocolate ones, are like chocolate brownies, but I've never been a fan of, or bought chocolate brownies, and the cinnamon ones are blahhh OK. But I crave salty, savoury flavours on this diet, more than ever, even pastry items, which I normally don't buy!! 

Also I'm sick of thinking of food & time... Is it 2hrs yet?  Is it another 2hrs? is it time to eat real food next? I've never thought as much about food, as I have on this diet! Normally I never give food a second thought, until I get peckish/hungry!! Now I'm thinking about it every two soddin hours!! I went home & watched 'Home & Away' & 'Dinner Date' having my snack Cookie at 7pm. I did a bit of job/audition searching online & some blogging. I watched 'Agents of SHIELD' & had my 2 dinner Cookies at 9pm, with a coffee. I saw an old flame on TV, while watching BBC1, 16yrs on he hasn't changed at all, personality wise, just got some grey, in his hair, nice guy. I had my last snack Cookie at 11pm & went to bed, as I have to be in London, to help out a friend, by being a gangland bitch, posing as a police woman, in his trailer taster, for a independent film, he's making. 

Saturday 26th April (Week 6, Day 41)

I still couldn't sleep & didn't fall asleep, until after 6am & woke, when the alarm went off at 7am. Damn!! I had a bath & forced down 2 brownie Cookies, with a coffee, they are getting so boring & hard to face. I'd love a delivery of new flavours (Preferably savoury) to arrive!! I dried my hair & did it in a ponytail & had natural makeup, to go with my French manicure nails (below) to look policewoman like, even though, I'm fake fuzz, in it! I pulled on my dark blue, skinny jeans, and electric blue, t-shirt, plus my white trainers. 



Then grabbed my black studded shopper & puffa jacket & headed to the train station at 9.30am, buying a newspaper en route. I got off at Farringdon & got the Circle Line, to Liverpool Street, then the Central line, to Gants Hill. I met my partner in crime, Sarah Dorcette, outside The Valentine Pub, at 11.30am & we waited for our lift, to the house, our scene was being shot at. There were a few men I knew, playing gangsters & hoods, already there. 

Sarah & I went upstairs to change into our faux police woman attire. The white shirt was fine, as was the reflective jacket, but the black trousers, were a 44" waist!!! Errrr my hips are 39" my waist  29" so they had to be gaffer taped at the back then a belt put on. As I could step into them, and pull them up, when they were done up & if I let go, they fell to the floor. Then a belt & handcuffs were added. 

We only had a short scene to do, the female victim, opening the door to us, thinking we are police & an interior scene, menacing & chloroforming the victim. So we sat in the lounge until it was our time to shoot. We did our two scenes in a matter of minutes & then we had lunch. Lunch was two, tuna salad, sandwiches (no mayo) vinegar & sea salt crisps & an alcohol free, Becks (blue) beer 728 cals. Then we got changed, and were told we could keep our entire uniform, to thank us for our time, which was nice of Angus. The lead actors asked if we'd be back again soon, as they really liked Sarah & I, and said we brought life to the set. The lead female (our victim) said we were so convincingly menacing (below) she was both scared, and yet wanted to laugh, at the same time.



We were given a lift, by an Indian guy, connected to the film, he took me to Kings Cross & then continued on to Swiss Cottage, where Sarah had an audition. I got a Starbucks soya cappuccino & got the train back home. Once home I changed into my gym gear & did my usual session in the gym, plus some palates. 

I went home & watched 'Britains Got Talent' then had two chocolate brownie cookies, for dinner with a diet decaf coke. Then I watched 'Amazing Greys' as I'd been asked by production, if I'd like to go on it? So I was keen to see if I'd missed out?? I hadn't, what a borefest, the biggest challenge of the show, was the viewers not turning over, I'd imagine!! Then I watched 'NCIS' on +1 before going to bed, shattered due to only 1hr or less sleep last night. I only had 6 Cookies today, couldn't face the other 3... Bored of them!! 

Sunday 27th April (Week 6, Day 42)

I woke at 10am, due to a noisy hairdressers downstairs. I had a crazy dream, where I was at a society do, connected to work. I had my own personal stylist/dresser, who said they were going to dye my fringe a different colour & add hairpieces/extensions, I was curious as to how it was going to look, and whether she would bleach my fringe white, dye it brown or black or a colour, such as pink, blue or red? Or if the hairpieces/extensions would be blonde or coloured too? 

My costume was made in pink & white gingham, but it can't recall how it looked, now on writing this. The event was soon to beguin & I couldn't find my stylist, to do my hair & I was running round in circles, trying to find her. I woke while I was still searching for her, so I never got to see this hair creation. Don't know what that dream was all about, maybe I had my theatre performance on my mind, or maybe the noisy hairdressers, encroached my dream!!?? 


I ran a bath & jumped it once it filled at 11am. Then dry brushed & moisturised myself, before slipping on, my white underwear, diamanté trimmed, skinny jeans & long sleeved, grey, v-necked, t-shirt & black, gladiator sandals. I grabbed, my metallic blue, Betty Barclay, puffa jacket & black studded shopper & bought a Sunday paper, en route, to J K Palmers. Once there I had a all day breakfast for brunch, washed down with a cappuccino (701cals) as I have discovered, that I stay less hungry, on this "Cookie Diet" if I eat breakfast, or lunch, as my main meal. 


The veggie breakfasts, with Haloumi, are scrumptious & all my male friends, would enjoy, the huge, full English breakfasts, as much as Simon does. It felt odd, having Sunday breakfast, in J K Palmers, without him. I read some of my newspaper, as I finished my cappuccino & then paid & left. On the way home I called into a boutique I'd not noticed before called "Cheska" it had some lovely classic, ladies that lunch, pieces in there. But they also had fussy, frumpy, gaudy stuff, that I could only imagine a fat public school, governess wearing!! Not as nice as "Husen Moda" on Friday!! 


I bought a Costa, soya, cappuccino, en route home, then once I got home & I watched, the online film "Super Juice Me" by the juice master, Jason Vale (Who really reminds me, of my friend, Ian Port) I'd love to go, on a 2 or 4 week, juicing holiday, at his juicing retreat in Portugal. To really kick start, my return to health. Thirsty, I had a cranberry & blackcurrant juice, blended with ice in a blender. I wasn't hungry until around 8pm, when I had a diet coke & 2 Chocolate Cookies for dinner. (My 1st Cookies of the day!) While watching the film "Fast Girls" I had another two, at 10pm & another three, at midnight, with more ice blended juice. Then I did some audition applications & job applications until 2am. Then it was lights out!! So 7 cookies today couldn't face the last 2, I'm bored of the same 3 flavours week after week!! 

Sunday, 20 April 2014

Windsor & Cookie Diets..... Which Is Murder??

Monday 14th April (Week 5, Day 29)

I woke, at the start, of a new week, at 8am, I had a meeting to go to, so I jumped in the shower, my eyes are red raw, due to having my contact lenses in, all day, to try spot, my pals, running in the London Marathon, yesterday. I shouldn't off bothered, I never spotted a single one!! Role on laser surgery, no more sore eyes then. So as well as jeans & dark blue t-shirt, I wore dark blue, sandals & sunglasses, to shield & hide my manky eyes (sexy!!) I had two chocolate Cookies for breakfast at 8.30am, then went to my meeting at 9.30am. I had a call asking if I was free for 3 days for a drama series, filming in Windsor, knowing a friend wanted more work with them, I said I was free, but only if they could also cast my friend (If he's free) as he's local & we could car share, plus share petrol costs, making travel easier for me & travel costs, cheaper for us both!! 

After the meeting, I got a takeaway cappuccino, to go with my two snack Cookies, at 12.30pm, and headed home with todays paper. At 2pm I went to Beauty Secret, for another Bailine session, Yalda, said she had heard, that Simon had come in, on Saturday & that he was very handsome. Today it was time to do my torso again!! I had my 3 tone, dip dye, lilac underwear set on & Yalda said it was very pretty & I looked very brown. We had a chat, over a black coffee, after & as we did, I followed her new Beauty Secret, account, on Twitter @yalda1360 they are a lovely bunch of girls, so I hope they do well. 

I had my 2 lunch Cookies, 45min late at 3.15pm & did 30mins on the cycle & 30mins on the stepper, in the gym, then headed home. Having not heard from my friend, by 4.30pm, I text him, to see if the drama series, had contacted him? And if so, if he was free on those dates? He replied to me shortly after saying "I said yes, then realised, I'm not!!" Awe what a shame, that would have been a right laugh!! Oh well, that's showbusiness!! 

Hungry I had a snack Cookie at 5pm, I applied to a few auditions, and chatted to some friends on Facebook & Twitter, after checking, my emails. By 7pm I was ravenous, I'd of eaten my own leg & for a piscaterian that's saying something!!! The 1st 3 days, are meant to be the worse on this diet, but today, it's absolute murder, I'm so hungry!!! I could almost eat meat I'm so hungry!! So I had dinner, plum tomato & mascarpone soup, plus two slices of soya & linseed bread!! 702 cals, But by 8pm I was still gagging for food, so I had the 2 remaining snack Cookies. By 9pm, I was still feeling famished, so I had two more slices of soya & linseed bread (No spread) plus my can of K cider, that has sat in the fridge, for days!! A total of 500cals (oops!!) eventually my stomach stopped growling. I watched some TV & tried to finish, last weeks blog, going to bed at 2am.

Tuesday 15th April (Week 5, Day 30)

I had a lay-in until 10am, it's another bright sunny day out, will do a bit a spot of weeding later. I got on the scales, after my bit of a blowout weekend with Simon, and was surprised to see I've lost more weight, 9lb in total, according to my scales!! I had a wash, and had two, breakfast, maple Cookies, with a coffee. Still waiting for a call time, for a drama series tomorrow. A fellow SA from Hemel, Felicity, is picking me up, and we are going on to Windsor together. Now we have to await call time & costume. 

I finished off last weeks blog & posted it. I had more Cookies at noon, then did a bit of weeding. Then I did a couple of classes in the gym. I had my lunch cookies at 2pm & another snack one at 4pm. In a complete change to normal, I was constantly on the loo today.... It's like I'd been slipped an ALLI capsule!! I got a newspaper & a few bits, from my local shop. I then had a call on my mobile, from a top agent, who was putting me forward, for a part I'd love, with The Royal Opera!!! I'm auditioning for them next Wednesday, he said with my personality, he thinks I'll blow them away & get the role. The rehearsals will be, for a few weeks in May!! I hope the rehearsals, if I get it, don't clash with my laser eye surgery date, as I'd love this opportunity!!! 

My friends Martin & Terry, told me, that they too, were offered, the same dates, on the drama series as me, but neither could do Thursday. Both said to me, that they were gutted, not to be working with me, as they miss me, as we always have a laugh. Terry said to demand to be on his ward, on Holby City soon, as it's been absolutely ages, since I've worked with him, on there. 

Renny messaged me, laughing about my mention of him, in last weeks blog. He asked me, when I'd be able to fit him in, for a St Albans visit? I said when my life gets less audition manic! He said he needs to, get with more agents, as it's been too long since we last worked together, I said that I'd put a good word in for him!! "Cookie Diet's" fellow Guinea Pig, Julie, messaged me, saying she liked last weeks blog (Unlike my hater GLP!!) Wardrobe called & the costume brief, was muted summer colours. I can do that no problem (lucky that I changed my winter wardrobe, over to a spring/summer wardrobe, so finding apt stuff is easy!!) 


At 7pm I had a Birdseye, prawn curry (Note to Birdseye, your prawn curry is 90% rice 7% sauce & 3% prawns!!) But it still managed, to somehow sate my hunger, along with two slices of soya & linseed bread!! At 8pm I had a diet coke & a snack Cookie, watching 'CSI' then 'The Mentalist' before a earlyish night, going to bed at 10.30pm

Wednesday 16th April (Week 5, Day 31)

I am not sure, if I actually slept last night, or if I'd just rested, when the alarm went off at 4.30am? But if I did, it was only briefly!! I got ready for the day, washed & dried hair (dryer fused) and was ready with alternative costume choices all packed. At 5.45am Felicity arrived & we drove to Windsor to set. I realised, as we drove to the location, that as Felicity was 15mins early, in my hurry to leave I'd forgotten my cookies!!! Oops!! So full cooked set breakfast it was. Then it was costume checks, they chose from my selection what they wanted for me & I changed in one of the SA trailers. It was meant to be a hot day, but at 7am to 9am it was bitter cold out & I wished I'd brought my puffa jacket!! 


The set, was a lovely Windsor, Tudor Mansion (Below) which is the present setting, for a famous, American Drama, being filmed in London & around the SE. It's Ideal for a Halloween party, but with too much dark wood, inside, for my tastes. Not somewhere I'd actually, choose to live, even IF I could afford to!! I wondered how many generations, had died there? Either in their bed? Or by accident? Or other means, over the 500 years, that the Palmer family lived there? I wondered, if there had been any murders there? Or if it was, mainly at Windsor Castle, that people lost their heads, or were brutally murdered, in Tudor times? I also wondered, if the inhabitants, ever experienced any ghosts? 



There wasn't a huge amount, of SA people about, but I knew 85% of those, that were. The 1st & 2nd ADs, were lovely & unlike on 'other TV/Drama shows' they gave you a pep talk, before each scene, what was going to happen next, plus when you did well with your, continuity, they were very vocal & complimentary! Also a nice change!! By the afternoon it was boiling out & I was baking in my synthetic blouse, that wardrobe opted for, for me. So I opened a few buttons & caught a bit of sun.... Atul sunbathed between takes too!! (Below) 



I saw from the scene sheet, that one of the actors, on the episode, was James Lance. I've admired his comedic acting, since the 90s, when he was in 'Ab Fab' as Patsy's Toyboy, then later in things like 'Smack The Pony' I was actually in the same scenes, with him on 'The Look Of Love' a while back! I didn't see him on set today though. The sunshine, was super hot, today, it was beach & bikini weather, I hope tomorrow is the same. With no cookies on me, I had the catering lunch, of tagliatelle & ratatouille, with an ice lolly desert!! I spent a lot of my lunchtime, throwing a tennis ball, for a cute, cross eyed, collie dog. 

Then it was back to filming again, by 5pm, the temperature had dropped somewhat & it was a bit nippy, if you were sat in the shade, between takes. They brought out some sandwiches & I was good, I only had 1/4 of a cheese & pickle sandwich & a coffee, plus a orange juice. We wrapped bang on 7pm. Felicity & I drove home, after first finding a petrol station, as her car was very low on petrol. I got home, just in time to watch 'Secret Eaters' on +1 at 9pm followed by 'NCIS' also on +1 having 3 snack cinnamon Cookies, with a coffee & going to bed at 11pm. 

I met two fab SA's on set today, who I'd not met before. Mohinda (below) a really sweet, Indian lady who actually had me weeping with laughter, when she was telling me, about working as an Extra, on 'Robin Hood' when she said "I really wanted to be raped & pillaged, in the rape & pillage scene..... But nobody wanted to rape & pillage, an old Indian woman!!!" It was so unexpected, I roared with laughter!! It didn't take long after that, to find she was a right "game for a laugh ole girl" she was a sweet, little devil!! There was also a lovely blonde girl, with the most amazing jewel coloured, green eyes, called Nib, who was lovely too. The woman who owns/runs the manor house got us to sign the guest book too, which was nice!! 


Yalda, from Beauty Secret, sent me the video, of one of my favourite, Greek, dance tracks, today, which was really sweet of her, I must get the album Geia, by Despina Vandi (below) as I'm always, singing along & dancing around my flat, to it's title track!! 




Thursday 17th April (Week 5, Day 32)

I slept on & off, in a bitty, wake up every 60-90mins, type sleep!! Which made me feel, tireder, than when I had none (or next to none) yesterday!!! Knowing what I had to wear today (The same as yesterday!) meant, that getting ready, was a breeze. I was ready nice & early, for when Felicity arrived at 6am. I put my puffer jacket over my costume, as it was so cold yesterday on base, before the sun heated up!! I got in the car, to see Felicity had done the same, with a warm coat & warm boots, as the frosty/dewy grass gave her frozen feet, before the day warmed up, yesterday. 

We got to set at 6.45am, wardrobe double checked the SAs that had been on set yesterday, just to check our outfits were identical to yesterday (which of course they were) then it was another cooked breakfast (I'd left cookies at home again.... Oops) There were some more SA's today, more good SA friends I'd not worked with in ages!! Like Pam who it was great to see, plus Feih, who rushed over & hugged me, which was sweet. Another friend Alin, was also in, with his wife, Alin & I, normally just miss each other, normally we are on the same production, but always, somehow on different days!!  


I enjoyed catching up with my SA friends, then it was all off to base for today's scenes. The 1st or 2nd AD, took a group picture of us all, on Atul's phone camera (Above) The comedic actor, James Lance, was on set today. The day was fun & went fast, I was actually placed, so I got to interact with James Lance, in one scene. We had a bit of a laugh, with it, throwing in some jokey innuendo & double entendres, banter for good measure. 

It warmed up outside, as the day went on, but hazy cloud meant that, it was nowhere near as scorching hot as yesterday!! For lunch, I had fish pie, with green beans & cauliflower. Then a very yummy, naughty, banoffee pie for dessert, yum yum!! (Sorry Cookie Diet!!) Then it was back on set for more scenes, I was getting very positive feedback, from the ADs which was nice. There were lots more cute dogs, to play with & fuss over, when back outside & not needed on takes! One of the SA's was talking to actor James (Or Jimmy as the director was calling him) about his comedy role, involving pushing a piano in '2.4 Children' and asked for his autograph, which James was very accommodating, in doing.


I'd never do that, I think it's a bit cringey!! But the SA was a young lad, so being star struck, is more understandable. I chatted a bit to James, about when he played, Patsy's Toyboy, in 'Ab Fab' plus us both doing the same scenes in 'The Look Of Love' some time back, with 'David Walliams' We both agreed it was a fun shoot. The autograph getting, young SA, took a pic of me with James (above) Just as we were wrapping at 6.30pm. I was chatting to James at the time & asking if he was doing scenes, the following Thursday, wherever that would be, when a lot of the same people were back? He said he was & he wished me, a "Happy Easter" as I was heading off (to get signed off) which was nice of him. 

I'd been chatting to another lovely SA, I'd never met before called Renee, who told me, that she follows me on Twitter & loves my BLOG... Yes this one!! (Pauses, while my hater, GLP, chokes on their bile!!) She said she came across it, by accident, when trying to find two old school friends, from St Peter's school, in Belgravia & it popped up, so she read it & loved it & followed me on Twitter & now, here we were, on set together, small world ehhh!!? So once home I followed her back on Twitter & we added each other on Facebook. I got home around 8.40pm & bought a paper & some mineral water from the shop next door, then fixed myself a prawn tikka masala, for dinner, watching 'CSI & Body Of Proof' eventually going to bed, at 10pm, exhausted, back on the Cookie Diet track, tomorrow!! 

Friday 18th April, Good Friday (Week 5, Day 33)

I woke at 6am, I'd had a weird dream, I dreamt that while I slept, someone had tattooed the whole of my legs & feet, my outer legs, were tattooed, as a soldiers trousers, red with a white stripe, down the leg, with the end of a sword, scabbard, running down my thigh, on one leg, and black boots tattooed on my feet. The front of my feet were tattooed as boots, then the rest of the front of my legs, had multiple designs, like a sleeve of tattoos, I was absolutely horrified & enraged!!!! I thought "I'd rather amputate my legs, than live with these, repulsive tattoos!!" Then I fell asleep again & dreamt I was working in a supermarket & sorting out a customer with some half price fabric (Peacock blue brocade) plus another customers complaint, about their spring lamb. (My dreams are bonkers!!)

I woke at 10am, and had a wash, plus a coffee & two maple Cookies, for breakfast. I checked out some casting sites, for auditions/jobs, then I had a second coffee, as I changed for the gym! I wore grey 3/4 yoga pants & my fluorescent, coral, FCUK, t-shirt & white, Reebok, Easytone trainers. I put my hair up with a clip & applied some mascara & lipgloss then headed for the gym. 

Before I went on my way, To the gym, I popped to the shop, bought a Sun paper & two diet cokes, then I grabbed my puffa jacket & bag & headed to Fitness First, getting a small soya cappuccino from Costa Coffee en route, to have with my snack Cookie. I got in the gym, threw my bag & jacket in my locker, then filled my gym, drink bottle, with the two caffeine free diet cokes. Then I headed onto the gym floor,
I did my usual, 30 mins on the bike, some exercises on the powerplate, I had another snack Cookie, then the usual routines on the hip abductor & hip adductor, before another 30 mins on the bike & some squats (I'm concentrating on my thighs) as they are responding the least to 'The Cookie Diet' & Bailine.... 

As my hater GLP could tell you (I have been told, by my readers, who were slagging off my troll) that GLP commented on my "Flabby Thighs" on my last blog!! (Exactly what was said, by GLP, I don't know?) As my NY Resolution, this year, was to delete GLPs comments, without bothering to read them 1st, as their opinion, is irrelevant to me!! So only have a rough idea, due to messages, from my enraged readers, about GLP. They said, they thought, that GLP, was a petty, idiot & of course ANY "Before" pics in a "Diet Trial" blog, would be bound contain, some less than flattering, bulgy pictures, adding the GLP comments had been pathetically laughable. ALMOST made me wish I'd read the comment, before deleting. I had my 2 lunch Cookies at 4pm


I got back from the gym, at 5pm & chatted for a bit, online, on both Twitter & Facebook. I'd watched my best friend Candie's husband Costa & her son, Xavier, on BBC1's 'Parking Mad' via iPlayer, earlier today. At 6pm I had 2 snack Cookies, by 8pm, I was famished & had a Quorn curry, with 'Good 4U' Super Shoots, lentil pea & bean shoots & 'Tesco's Finest' tomato, olive & rosemary salad, all washed down, with a litre of mineral water, with a drop of lemon juice & Fountain (Above) in it!! I watched 'NCIS' at 9pm & at 10pm I had the last snack Cookie with more mineral water, as I watched 'Gogglebox' on plus 1, then 'NCIS LA' on Ch5 +1, which is good, but not a patch on the original NCIS. Then I ran myself a bubble bath. I had a nice soak, which eased the aches, from the gym. After I watched a bit of Supercasino as I got ready for bed & while doing a few bits online, I also had a bit of fun banter on Facebook & Twitter & texting a friend, before going to sleep some time after 3am.

Saturday 19th April (Week 5, Day 34)

I woke at 8.45am, and watched a bit of TV in bed, while I checked my Email messages, Facebook & Twitter. Then it was a shower & two chocolate breakfast Cookies with a coffee. Then I got dressed, in my turquoise jeans, lemon, v-neck, t-shirt, plus turquoise & white, Roxy Life, trainers (below) Today I have an open audition to go to in London, the weather is sunny, but there is lots of rain clouds about. So it was puffa jacket & my holdall of leggings, for the dance part of the auditions & headed off for the station. I was glad of my puffa jacket, as it may have been sunny, but it sure was COLD!!!! 


I had a snack Cookie, while on the platform at St Albans station, and my 2nd snack Cookie, as I sat awaiting to go into my 1st part of audition, which seemed to go well. There was a couple of hours until the dance part, so a few of us went to McDonalds, and feeling very hungry & needing energy for the dance half, I decided to have lunch as my main meal & save the Cookies for dinner. I ended up having 935 cals oops!! (235 cals over) Well I'll hopefully dance some of that off!! Then it was back to, a lot of sitting around, waiting to be called, for our turn, at the dance half, of the audition. 

Eventually it became my turn & it must of gone well, as I was told to stay behind, as I'd gotten through to the second part of the dance audition. More sitting around, so I had my two dinner Cookies, with a coffee at 8pm. I was called in at 9pm & did my 3rd audition of the day, then I was to go take a seat, back in the smaller waiting area. 

At 9.30pm one of the audition team, came into the room & said that all of us in that room, had made it through, to the audition short list, HURRAH!! So now it's a waiting game, to hear. So I changed out of leggings, back to my warmer jeans & headed home. I got a soya cappuccino from Costa, on the way home & got in at 11.30pm. I got changed for bed, then watched the 1st bit of Supercasino as I checked my Emails, Facebook & Twitter, then crashed out at 1am, without even having my last 3 snack Cookies. 

Sunday 20th April, Easter Sunday (Week 5, Day 35)

I woke at 10.30am, after a weird dream, I dreamt I was in Katie Prices home, helping her rearrange her lounge, as she had too many couches in it, in a mix of coloured & styles!! I also dreamt I visited a male friend had another child, and he dressed him in a mini version of his own football kit. 


Then in my dream, I went to my holiday home, in Cyprus, my friend Candie was staying with me & we had a threesome with a guy I know, my place was amazing with a huge bedroom, with a panoramic window looking over the island & sea. I was in a bar when a stunning guy said we were neighbours & he could see into my bedroom from his. I thought "OMG!!! I hope he can't see me pottering around in the nude!!"... Then I was on a plane to my other holiday home in Jamaica with one of my older sisters, Julie, my kitchen was stunning & huge, I was showing her my new kitchen stools, that I seemed very proud of..... The subconscious is a mad thing!! Talking of mad things, look at this chap, imagine him eating soup or drinking coffee in your dining room.... With a WHITE carpet!!!! 



After my wash, I got on the scales, I've not lost any more weight this week..... But I have not GAINED any either!! So I'm still 9lb down. I had a coffee & the two chocolate Cookies, not eaten yesterday, for breakfast I wore my turquoise jeans with a pale grey t-shirt & pale grey, cardigan, with pale grey, pearled collar & turquoise & white Roxy Life, trainers (above) Today is a day of a marathon watch of my "V" video's (below) with a friend!!! As there is just rubbish, on TV, over Easter, mainly!! Plus typically the Easter weather, is it's normal cold rainy self!! 

I had a snack Cookie from yesterday's leftovers, at 1.30pm with a diet coke, as we took a "V" break, to watch 'Spiderman 3'. We had a 105g of Minstrels (527 cals) each as we watched the movie (Well it's Easter & I've not had an Easter egg!!) so I skipped my 2 lunch Cookies & 2 snack Cookies. Then it was back to "V" the DVD marathon, until 7.45pm, when we stopped for some curry for dinner, 638 cals, while catching the tail end of Catchphrase & Off Their Rockers. We were about to go back, to the "V" DVD marathon, when 'Toy Story 3' came on. I'd not seen that one, so we watched it. Sweet Movie!!



 At 10pm I wandered home, with my DVDs, hungry, I didn't bother opening a cookie bag, for my 3 evening snack cookies. So I had a soya & linseed bread, super food, sandwich. I will get back on the Cookie bandwagon tomorrow! I slid this week as it is rather boring & repetitive & I'm not a fan of, same ole, same ole!! I read the Sunday paper, some EVIL American mother, killed her 4 year old son, smashing his head in, because she thought he was gay!! Because "He walked & sounded like it!!" WTF??? How butch can a bloody 4yr old boy sound? What is becoming of this world?? Meanwhile, a 65yr pensioner (But looks, much, much older) Calling himself, Roxanne, is demanding a £20K sex change on the NHS. Roxanne (below) says "Sorry guys, I know I'm pretty, but I'm a lesbian!!" No offence Roxy, but I think, that just maybe, laser eye surgery, is more urgent for you, first!!! 


I watched 'Fargo & Heat' on Ch4 +1, two good movies, on at Easter for a change. I can't wear any contact lenses next week, as I have a pre laser op, eye examination the following week. I can't wait to have normal sight, it's my birthday present to myself. I'm not going to be 50 & 50% blind!! It will be life changing, even if I will be paying instalments for a long time. I could get it done on the NHS but that could be ages & my eyes have really deteriorated, since their pneumonia damage, a few years back. Talking of NHS, that VILE piece of garbage, Josie Cunningham is in the papers again. Last time it was about her getting a boob job on the NHS after lying, she was broke & her small boobs made her DEPRESSED!! The truth was she was a prostitute, who could afford to pay for the Op herself, and wanted a boob job, to increase her clients & do glamour modelling!!! With that face??? (Below) 






Now the low budget slag, is pregnant, from one of her punters (So she is a nice, no condom, Aids/STD risk too!!! Classy!!) It now emerges, that the skank, now wants to abort the baby, to court fame, going in the Big Brother House. Is there no depths this little slut, won't sink to? She will be one of the most hated women, in the UK, long before she enters (If they are mad enough to have her, plus, that low life 'Big D' from 'Benefit Street') More exposure, will just make her further despised!!! She is beyond repulsive, I wonder if her parents are hanging their heads in shame, or if they are, the same level of scum, as her? I went to bed at 1.45am, a busy week of auditions & interviews ahead. I will try to get back on, the cookie diet, again next week, but this week, trying to stick to it was absolutely murder!

Saturday, 5 April 2014

Cookie Monster??

Monday 24th March (Week 2, Day 8)

Today, I got up at 12.20am, rested, but with no sleep, since I went to bed, just after 8pm on Sunday. I got on the scales, as soon as I got up, as it is now exactly a week since I began. I'm another 3/4lb down, so that's a loss of 3.3/4lbs in a week. I got dressed, checked my costume case, then wrapped up warm & set off into the cold night air at 1.50am. I caught the 2.21am, Thames Link, train, boy are commuters at this hour miserable!! I was tempted to sit there, grinning inanely, just for my own sick amusement, at their discomfort & alarm!! Once at Blackfriars I waited 20mins for my 3.28am night bus. I got to set at 4.15am, frozen & starving, so had the night time snack Cookie, I'd not be awake to eat Sunday night!! It was a Chocolate one & I washed it down with 2 black coffees to warm & wake myself!! I managed to wait until 6.30am, to have my two breakfast Cookies, 1 chocolate & 1 maple, washed down with a caffeine free, diet coke, as I was ravenous by then!! I had a Cinnamon snack Cookie at 8.30am & another Cinnamon snack Cookie, at 10.30am. 

I was very hungry by lunch at 12.30pm, so I had a milky coffee with my maple & chocolate Cookies. I had my Maple snack Cookie as I travelled home, after filming at 2.30pm (Shattered!!) I collapsed on my bed ready to sleep, at 3.30pm, but the hairdressers downstairs (that is normally closed on a Monday) was opened at 4pm, just as I was drifting off & turned on their music & was scraping stuff across the floor (FFS!!!!!) Bloody typical!!!! In the end, exhausted from 32hrs with no sleep, I text the owner, of the hairdressers, complaining about the noise. She turned down the music, but being a light sleeper, I didn't fall asleep, until she finally left at 5.30pm. But I woke 2hrs later at 7.30pm & so I had dinner, a super wholefood salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast with honey 637 cals. I watched the brilliant Revenge at 9pm on E4 & then had my final Cinnamon snack Cookie at 9.30pm, then at 10pm after Revenge finished I went back to sleep. Another poop free day!! I fell asleep quickly thankfully, as I have another early start tomorrow. 

Tuesday 25th Match (Week 2, Day 9) 

Today I have a meeting, with UKs, top character model, agency, so I was up at 7.30am (thankfully after around 8-9hrs sleep, after a sleep deprived day yesterday!!) I jumped in the bath & washed hair, and made a so so offering, to the "Stool Gods" but NOT of the consistency that Dr Gillian McKeith would be pleased with (but it's a start) this diet definitely affects your bowel movements, Julie is having the same problem. I got on my scales, according to them, I've now lost another 1/2lb so that's 4 1/4lb in total so far. Today Breakfast was 2 cinnamon Cookies, with a black coffee, one had absolutely no flavour again (the cinnamon ones, seem a bit hit & miss flavour wise!!) I dried my hair, did makeup & got dressed, then I checked Facebook, Twitter & Email messages, before I set off for London. I have practically lived there again, these past two months, at least filming for the next two days, is local in Elstree Borehamwood! On the train I had a snack chocolate Cookie, with a takeaway cappuccino, and read the paper. The guy sat opposite me was the double of Freddie Flintlock, maybe it was him? I got to Kings Cross & got the tube to Wood Lane, I got to the agency early & gave the staff a couple of bags of Haribo (I touched none) as they are always wanting sweets. I had some crazy photos done & did a solo video, then did a joint video with a magician. Then I got back on the tube, travelling 3 stops to Hammersmith, to get a few bits I need. While having my 2nd snack Cookie 'maple' en route. Shopping done, I contacted L'oreal, re some info needed, before getting the tube to Kings Cross, and the train home, eating 2 maple lunch Cookies on the way. 

I went to Wilkinsons, once back in St Albans, to get some essentials & then I popped into. my local beauticians, Beauty Secret for my 3rd Bailine session. Yalda said, that as I already had a high pain threshold (some women wimp out & say they can't take it & turn the power down, she turns mine up, as I'm fine) she said, she'd do it to the advanced level, you normally go to, AFTER the 5th session. Yalda did my abdomen again today & it will be the legs again on Friday. I finally got home, only to discover, one of my photos from today, was already on the model agency's, Facebook & Twitter page!! Now that's quick!! I had another chocolate snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke. Then started preparing my outfit & 2nd outfit to pack for filming in Elstree tomorrow. I had dinner instead of my 2nd evening snack Cookie at 6.30pm, a salmon salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast, with honey as desert 678 cals then did some housework. I had a chocolate snack Cookie at 8.30pm, while watching myself on an old Midsomer Murders series. I found out, through the grapevine, that Sharran had gained over 7lb in weight, on the Cookie Diet despite strictly sticking to it & was having the same "No Poop" problems, I feel for her, that's what happened to me with Vi!! I messaged Luna, her weigh in was meant to be today, but she has not responded, maybe she's not had a good result either? I had my final cinnamon snack Cookie at 10.30pm, while getting myself ready for bed with a pint of water & milky decaf coffee. I laid  my stuff out for tomorrow, answered a few text messages & Facebook messages, then went to bed..... TIRED & desperate for sleep!!!!! But I was not to sleep, not even for a minute, instead I was to endure 11 hours of exhausting TORTURE!!!!

Wednesday 26th March (Week 2, Day 10)

I lay in bed, music booming & keeping me awake, at 1st I thought it was the pub, just up the road, having live music on. But when it was still blasting out at midnight, I went into my lounge & checked the pub, the lights were off & it was shut. So I realised it was coming from the hairdressers, I popped downstairs to my bathroom ear against wall (Yep definitely the hairdressers providing the booming music!!) I text the owner at midnight, no response, I tried again at 1.30am, plus I called the hairdressers, incase they were having a staff party (though odd on a Wednesday) by 4am I'd taken 3 Nightall & tried stuffing cottonwool in my ears & covering with earmuffs & I could still hear the booming base of the music clearly!! I was tempted to call the police, but I'm sure their response would of been slow & knowing my luck, if I did manage to fall asleep, they'd wake me knocking on my door around 6pm. I thought about calling the owner on their mobile (but oddly felt bad about waking them at that hour!!! Mind you the phone would probably be on silent or off if she was not getting the texts!!) I took 4 more Nightall to try & sleep but no joy. By 9am I was so exhausted & angry, due to music being left on all night, in the hairdressers, preventing me to sleep, I could cry!!!

I needed all the rest I could get, last night, as today, I was going on a TV game show as a contestant, with my friend Ian, that morning and I needed my mind to be clear & sharp, but instead it was pounding with a headache muzzy & beyond exhausted!! I could kill whoever left the music on!!! How could you not notice, as you lock ups, that the music is still on?? If it was just a CD left on, the noise would of eventually stopped in the end... But it was obviously on REPEAT mode, so boomed out for 11 hours!! If it had been pop music, it may not of disturbed me, quite so much, but it had a heavy base, that boomed out for 11hrs, as I tried very unsuccessfully to sleep!! It was like torture, even cottonwool in ears & ear muffs did not keep the noise out & 7 sleeping tablets (Nightall) had no effect, which added to my frustration & turmoil!! 

I got on the scales at 9.30am I've lost another 1/4lb that's 4.5lb in total!! I had breakfast 1 chocolate & 1 cinnamon Cookie. I got dressed in a yellow shift dress & wore gold pumps & put my beige heels, plus my 2nd outfit, a navy dress & black heels, in a holdall. Then headed for the train to the TV studios in Elstree, eating my chocolate snack Cookie at 11.30am on the train. I met Ian at Elstree station & we got to the studios at noon & were whisked off to the green room. I explained I was sleep deprived & why, hoping I'd be chosen for tomorrow's filming & not today's (so getting some sleep tonight!!) I had my 2nd snack Cookie (maple) at 1.30pm, and some flirty, jokey banter, with the young runner lad, Liam, which helped to keep me awake, when I was physically exhausted, with a banging headache. I took a load of painkillers, to try feel human. On the plus point, the complements were flowing re my yellow dress. 

I checked twitter while in the green room, Luna has had her weigh in & last week lost 3lb! Sharran the sumo wrestler, who had a gain, despite sticking to the diet rigidly, has gone quiet online. I really feel for her, because my weight leapt up by almost a stone, in a week, while sticking rigidly to the Vi diet, I then I resorted to replacing all 3 meals, instead of 2 with Vi out of desperation & then I still gained another 7lb!!! So I stopped using it & I instantly dropped the 21lb, so I'm stuck with a few £100 of Vi stock, which is of no use to me!! (So if Vi works for YOU, or you are a Vi rep, and want to buy a load of shakes come find me!!!) It may be that the Cookie Diet is not suitable for Sharran, like Vi wasn't for me, or it's just a 1st week set back!! 

By 3pm we were still in the green room & I was fading fast!! We had lunch handily at 3.30pm I had the mini, margarita, calzone with a spoonful of hand cut chips & stir fried veg. Elstree catering leaves a lot to be desired, the chips were fine, but the calzone, a lump of stodge, with some cooked tomato. I left the stir fried veg, as they tasted of washing up liquid. Whoever washed the wok or pan it was cooked in, didn't rinse it well after washing & it obviously had a detergent coating, when it was used next. Ian & I were chosen to film today, despite me telling all involved I was sleep deprived (bugger) we did quite well to start with, but then there came a question, I knew the low scoring answer I wanted, it was the name of an artist. I know him well & my nan owned a painting of his, as did the owner of the stud farm, we lived on in Nottingham. But due to now being without sleep for 32hrs, I was exhausted, and I had a mental block & couldn't think of the artists name, it was frustrating me as I stood there, as I knew the artist well, my dad & I often discussed his work (when my dad was alive!!) I racked my brains, trying to think of the name, which I knew was a SHORT name, I pleaded in my head, to my dead dad, to come to me & remind me of the name!! But it wouldn't come & time was running out, as the presenter came to me.


I was left with 3 alternatives, all that seemed obvious & high scorers to me, just what I didn't want, but unable to come up with the artists name, I had to opt for one of them, I opted for the oldest historic person of them all, hoping a lot of school kids were surveyed, as these days they seem, very ignorant of history. It was a bad choice & we were out of this show, but still in for the second show. I hoped that would be, due to timing, get filmed tomorrow (when I could rest) but no such luck!! At 5.30pm I had a chocolate snack Cookie, and changed into my navy dress, with dragonfly print (above) plus my black heels. Ian & I went into the studio again for the 2nd show, I was now 34hrs without sleep & absolutely shattered!! This is where, my tiredness, really hit me.... I only had one contact lense in, as my left eye had puffed up this morning, from tiredness, and I couldn't put my lense in it, so that combined with tiredness, meant I had difficulty viewing the board. One answer, the one I could see & was going to go for, had the initials OW. Exhausted and frightened of my mind forgetting, like on the artist question, I kept saying to myself over & over "Oscar Wild, not Orson Wells, Oscar Wild, NOT Orson Wells" So what happened, when they got round to, an exhausted me? Yep I mistakenly blurted out Orson Wells, I realised, the second it came out of my mouth, I'd said the wrong one, the very one, my mind was telling me not to say!! But it was too late, as they take your 1st answer. So my exhaustion screwed over Ian & I, thanks hairdressers, you stitched me up good & proper!!!

So when it airs, I will look an idiot, on TV, due to my tiredness (which of course the TV audience will be totally unaware of!!) but by then, I was just relieved, It was over & I could now go home to bed, as I was beyond exhausted. I walked with difficulty (in my flat pumps again) to the station, each step was exhausting!! Ian got on his train to London & moments later mine came, on the train, I realised, I didn't have my yellow dress, in the holdall. It had been hanging up next to my white coat, I must have been really exhausted, not to see such a bright dress & pack it in my bag, when I put my white coat on. I contacted the TV crew & they said they'd post it to me. How I managed to walk from the station, home, god only knows? I passed the hairdressers at 7.45pm & popped in & asked the owner, if she now knew, who had locked up last night, leaving the music blaring out? She said it was one of the hairdressers Danny. I get on well with Danny, we have silly, jokey banter, but he certainly isn't in my good books right now!!! I eventually crashed into bed exhausted after 36hrs without sleep, way too tired, to eat my last two, cinnamon Cookies. 

Thursday 27th March (Week 2, Day 11)

I woke up at 2am, needing to spend a penny (Cookie Diet side effect) still dizzy & sleep deprived, from Wednesday, I toddled naked from my bedroom, to go to the bathroom, downstairs. But my stairs are dangerous at the best of times, steep, and undersized depth wise, only 3/4 the depth of my smallish size 5 feet (so toes hang over the edge, even when my heel is at the back of the step) Being shattered & so less overly cautious, of my stairs, as I'd usually be. My foot slid on the stair carpet, at the edge, and I flew backwards, crashing down the whole flight on my arse!!! OUCH!!!! Carpet burns & bruising tomorrow lovely... Another mishap, to add to my disastrous day, due to, the hairdressers keeping me awake. I checked Facebook & Twitter messages, then went back to sleep, my bladder woke me again at 5am, but with my arse still smarting, from my last wee hours, bathroom journey, I ignored it & went back to sleep!! I woke finally at 9am, due to the noise of the hairdressers opening up downstairs (as usual!!) 

I got up & gingerly, I went down the stairs, to the bathroom, only to discover I now had cystitis, OUCH!! Great just what I need, I must of really done some damage, to my bladder & kidneys, in that fall!! I got on my scales, I'm now down by 5lb, in 11 days. I had a shower & had two maple Cookies for my breakfast with a coffee (with milk) then I did a few household chores that needed doing, my internet has been down, since the 12th March, which is screwing me job/audition search wise. I had my two maple snack Cookies at 11am & 1pm then headed for the gym. I got in Fitness First, and did a set of exercises on the power plate, then I did 10 sets, of 10 reps, on the hip adductor & the same on the hip abductor on 40kg. I had a vending machine cappuccino, as I felt tired & did some squats with the Swiss Ball & a few more on the power plate. Then I passed Frank Bruno, on the way to the exercise cycle, I was about to start exercising on the cycle, when I had agonising cramps in my stomach, and in my kidneys, I broke out in a sweat, it was like when I had a gallstone attack (which is said to be 9 times more painful than childbirth!!) 

I put my legs up on the bike, with my knees under my chin, in the recovery, position, that I learned with my gallstones. The pain was excruciating & I pulled gargoyle like grimaces, as I struggled, not to scream out, like I was being murdered!! Sweat poured off me & my legs trembled, as my kidney area, went into seizures. Nobody came to my aid, though it must of been obvious, to those on the bikes, either side of me, that all was not well. When the pain had passed enough, for me to move, I walked (doubled over) into the changing room. Where I knelt on a stool & half laid over the table area, in front of the mirrors. As another wave of pain attacked me, and I groaned like a woman in labour. A woman came to check on me, and asked if I was ok?? I said "I think I have kidney stones, or a urine infection, caused by a fall & needed to go home!" when this 2nd attack passes. I eventually left, still doubled over, going into Boots en route, buying some medication for Cystitis, asking the pharmacist if the fall, could of caused a urine infection? Plus would it cause these, stone like symptoms? He said yes, but to go to hospital, if symptoms persisted, after the medication was finished? 

I had 2 lunch Cookies at 3pm & laid on the bed, I had another bad attack & screamed the flat down, as if I was being murdered!! Which proved the noise pollution from the hairdressers only goes one way, or they did hear me screaming, but didn't care enough to check if I was ok!! It was a long time before I could face, or felt brave enough to eat. I had a Quorn curry with rice & slice of buttered wholemeal bread (for roughage to try help me go to the loo) plus 6 Riesen chocolate sweets for dessert. That totalled 766cals 66 cals over suggested amount, I spent most of the rest of the night curled in bed feeling rough, taking cystitis medication & the final 3 snack Cookies. Going to sleep at 11pm totally shattered!! 

Friday 28th March (Week 2, Day 12)

I woke at 6am, wanting to go to the loo, for a wee, but resisted after my bad accident yesterday at 2am, when I woke, bladder full, and fell down my stairs, top to bottom, going to go to the bathroom. I went back to sleep & woke again at 9am, when the noise, of the hairdressers downstairs, disturbed me! I got up & went to the loo, looks like the cystitis thankfully gone. Hopefully the cramping in gut & kidney area, will have stopped too (I obviously damaged my butt, bladder, coccyx & kidneys in my fall) I grabbed a Cookie bag for the day (I couldn't be arsed with the hassle of mixing up a few bags) so I had 2 chocolate Cookies, for breakfast at 9am, with a coffee. I got on the scales I'm now 5.5lb down in 12 days. My bum really hurts, it was bad enough the diet making me want to pee a lot, but now burning cystitis, makes me feel like I want to go, every two minutes!! I pulled on my Union Jack leggings & Marilyn Monroe t-shirt & did some housework, and had a coffee & snack Cookie at 11am & another at 1pm. At 2pm I went to my Bailine session, today it was thankfully on my leg/hip NOT torso area today (I think my kidneys would be too sensitive still, for the electric shocks!!) Yalda complimented me on my lemon coloured underwear today. I was so chilled out in today's session, I was checking my Facebook & twitter as I lay there, listening to Heart Radio on my iPad. 

Yalda says I have such a high PAIN threshold, that she is upping power & combination that she would do AFTER 5th - 6th session on my 3rd & 4th I'm going to include arms next.... Even though that's also meant to be AFTER the 5th session. I was going to go to the gym after, but after my bad kidney attack in the gym, yesterday I was wary & opted to wait until after the weekend!! I had two chocolate Cookies for lunch at 3pm with some water. When the hairdresser who kept me awake Wednesday, due to leaving the music on, and blaring all night, apologised to me, in a somewhat unusual fashion. Funny old world!! I did a few chores & some shopping. I had a snack Cookie at 5pm while putting away some underwear gifts, I'm running out of storage for underwear & bikinis. Then I watched Home & Away from 6pm to 7pm, when I had my 2nd snack Cookie & finally at 9pm, I had a seafood curry, with Japanese rice & a slice of buttered bread, at 614cals (under the top calorie limit) I haven't done much today, yet I feel utterly shattered (I am usually full of, too much Hypa activity!!!) I'm sure it's this diet, sapping my energy!! I had my final snack Cookie at 11pm then zonked out in bed shattered!!! Without going to the loo, yet again!! 

Saturday 29th March (Week 2, Day 13) 

I got up at 9am & had a bath plus my two chocolate, breakfast, Cookies at 9.30am. I packed my costume case (Disco Diva) all outside shots have been done, so it's indoor night shots today, at a reasonable hour, thank god, no more night busses in the wee hours (phew!!) I put on my blue satin disco pants, then pulled my jeans on top (in case changing area, is limited on set) plus my bright blue t-shirt, my sister got me for Xmas. It's a lovely day out for a change, so I wore my gladiator sandals (below) I wore my lightweight Betty Barclay puffer jacket & packed my bodywarmer & butterfly scarf in my case, along with the rest of my costumes, as it will no doubt be colder tonight, when my filming ends! I grabbed my Prada sunglasses & dragged my case to the train station, to catch the 10.30am train. 



It was a beautiful day which really lifted my spirits, but sadly didn't bring out the sunny disposition of my fellow commuters (below) I had my 1st snack Cookie at 11am, just stuck with the chocolate ones, I couldn't be arsed, decanting & mixing them again. While on the platform, I heard via the station announcer, that the trains to Richmond, on the District line, were not running, west of Hammersmith to Richmond!!!... Great that's where I was heading!!! There were rail replacement busses, from outside Hammersmith. Great, so no night busses this time, bloody rail replacement busses instead. While on the platform, I bought myself a Cappuccino, to have with my snack Cookie, on the train into London, with the grumpy commuters. 


I changed at Kings Cross & got the tube to Hammersmith & then the Tube Replacement Bus, to my destination. The bus thankfully stopped, practically outside set & I had a 2nd snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke at 1pm, as I got into, my full costume. I was bent over, doing up my strappy heels, when a Facebook message, popped up on my iPad. I laughed when I opened it, it was from my fellow SA Mandy, saying she loved the "Disco Pants" not sure if she'd got my best side, when she spied them lol. Actually the blue trousers, were a bit of a hit, a lot of people, complimented me on them & my long legs!! (36" trouser) but I'm not sure, if my legs, would of got those same compliments, if they were still trussed up, in those Bailine straps!! In fact I'm pretty sure they wouldn't, my friend Simon said I looked fantastic, in my 'Car Wash' disco diva, attire. He's coming to stay at mine again soon, I can't wait!! I had my two lunch Cookies at 3pm, with another caffeine free, diet coke, while all around me, scoffed soup, or burgers. My bum is really hurting today, I really bashed my coccyx badly, falling down those stairs. 

At 5pm I had a snack Cookie with a coffee, as I needed one I was starting to flag, despite a late start. I was peckish, when I had another coffee & my 2nd snack Cookie at 7pm, and I was glad for, my on set, veggie burger in a bun & a diet coke, plus a slice of wholemeal toast & honey, for dessert, at 9.30pm, coming in at 718cals, 18 cals over, but too hungry to care!! At 10pm I set off home, more busses to Hammersmith, then tube to Kings Cross. I got a large, skinny, decaf, cappuccino, for the train journey from Costa & got on the semi fast train home, eating my final snack Cookie at 11.30am. I got home at 11.50pm pretty shattered, and washed & got ready for bed, before watching a snippet of TV, before crashing out for the night, shattered at 1am (which as I put the clock forward, for British summer time, is now 2am) Still constipated, apart from constant peeing, I didn't go to the ladies once today, AGAIN!!! (That can't be healthy??) then I was out for the count!! 

Sunday 30th March (Week 2, day 14) Mothers Day 

I laid in until noon, which with the clocks going forward last night was 1pm... I got on the scales I have lost 3lb again this week, that's 6lb since the diet started two weeks ago. Not bad I guess? But I'm still suffering constipation, peeing like crazy & I am very tired, which I don't think is ONLY down to my lack of sleep!! I had 2 cinnamon Cookies for breakfast, then I had a shower & pulled on my jeans, my white, Reebok, Easytone, trainers, plus my blue t-shirt, I got from my sister for Xmas (below) I wrapped my butterfly scarf round my neck. I pulled on my metallic blue, Betty Barclay, puffa jacket & packed scissors, water, my cookies, plus debit cards, in my small Moschino, rucksack & set off for the cemetery at 3pm. 



I bought some orange roses, from Tescos, en route, during my hour long walk, to the cemetery, thinking of the happy times, spent with mum, on the journey. I got there at 4pm, I had my 2 lunch Cookies (I saved the 2 snack ones, for later, as breakfast was so late) and removed the remnants of the Christmas visit, wreaths etc, then pulled up the weeds & used the scissors to cut down, overgrown grass. Then once it was tidied up, I filled the planter with some water from my bottle & trimmed the orange roses & arranged them. Then I sat crossed legged in front of my parents grave, and talked to their headstone for roughly an hour until 5pm. I was saying what I'd been up to, since my last visit, joking to dad, for not helping me to remember, the name "Stubbs" on Wednesday, when I was so tired & needed the help, on Pointless, plus wishing mum a Happy Mother's Day & saying how much I missed her!! 




I set off home at 5pm, with a sore bum & aching legs. Thinking about mum & how much I miss her, on my hours walk home. Once home at 6pm, I had a SMALL prawn curry with rice & two slices of buttered bed, which went 33cals over meal limit, at 733 cals. But I am not too concerned, the two hours walk & a bit of pruning at the cemetery will have worked off more than those excess 33cals. I spoke to Sharran, she said she had one LARGE, but HEALTHY meal, along with the Cookies, but gained & like me (With Vi) the weight dropped off again, when she stopped with the Cookies. So she is going to see her doctor, about it. I asked if the LARGE meals, were within the 500-700cal limit set? She said a typical example, would be a steak with LOADS of vegetables, which should be fine! BUT of course, that depends on the cut & size of the steak, plus if it was grilled or fried?? Also it depends if the vegetables are boiled/steamed or cooked another way & also if those veg are high in carbs, like potatoes, swedes, parsnips etc, as that could tip the meals well over 700 cals. Also if their is gravy or any sauce had with the steak? 

Maybe taking a photo of each meal, to show her doctor, would help? Because some people, like in Secret Eaters, don't realise just how many calories, can be in vegetables & it can be a lot, depending on type of vegetable & the way it's cooked!! But she also may be Spot On calorie wise, but the sugary Cookies, play havoc with her metabolism? I hope she gets some answers soon, I know just how frustrating, sticking to something & still gaining weight is!! I had 2 decaf diet cokes & my 2 morning snack Cookies (cinnamon) at 8pm. I finally went to the loo at 9pm & it was hardly a nappy filler, this is deffo a side effect of the diet. I was regular as clockwork, 3 times a day, before The Cookie Diet. I had two of my evening snack Cookies at 10pm, when I felt shattered, despite my lie in this morning!! Another side effect of the diet, I think!! At 11pm my bowels moved again, maybe thanks to the rice & the spices in the curry? Not a huge amount, but at least twice a day, is closer to the norm & better than the none a day of late!! I finally went to bed shattered (as I have been all day) at 1.30am, when I finally finished this blog!!