Windsor & Cookie Diets..... Which Is Murder??

Monday 14th April (Week 5, Day 29)

I woke, at the start, of a new week, at 8am, I had a meeting to go to, so I jumped in the shower, my eyes are red raw, due to having my contact lenses in, all day, to try spot, my pals, running in the London Marathon, yesterday. I shouldn't off bothered, I never spotted a single one!! Role on laser surgery, no more sore eyes then. So as well as jeans & dark blue t-shirt, I wore dark blue, sandals & sunglasses, to shield & hide my manky eyes (sexy!!) I had two chocolate Cookies for breakfast at 8.30am, then went to my meeting at 9.30am. I had a call asking if I was free for 3 days for a drama series, filming in Windsor, knowing a friend wanted more work with them, I said I was free, but only if they could also cast my friend (If he's free) as he's local & we could car share, plus share petrol costs, making travel easier for me & travel costs, cheaper for us both!! 

After the meeting, I got a takeaway cappuccino, to go with my two snack Cookies, at 12.30pm, and headed home with todays paper. At 2pm I went to Beauty Secret, for another Bailine session, Yalda, said she had heard, that Simon had come in, on Saturday & that he was very handsome. Today it was time to do my torso again!! I had my 3 tone, dip dye, lilac underwear set on & Yalda said it was very pretty & I looked very brown. We had a chat, over a black coffee, after & as we did, I followed her new Beauty Secret, account, on Twitter @yalda1360 they are a lovely bunch of girls, so I hope they do well. 

I had my 2 lunch Cookies, 45min late at 3.15pm & did 30mins on the cycle & 30mins on the stepper, in the gym, then headed home. Having not heard from my friend, by 4.30pm, I text him, to see if the drama series, had contacted him? And if so, if he was free on those dates? He replied to me shortly after saying "I said yes, then realised, I'm not!!" Awe what a shame, that would have been a right laugh!! Oh well, that's showbusiness!! 

Hungry I had a snack Cookie at 5pm, I applied to a few auditions, and chatted to some friends on Facebook & Twitter, after checking, my emails. By 7pm I was ravenous, I'd of eaten my own leg & for a piscaterian that's saying something!!! The 1st 3 days, are meant to be the worse on this diet, but today, it's absolute murder, I'm so hungry!!! I could almost eat meat I'm so hungry!! So I had dinner, plum tomato & mascarpone soup, plus two slices of soya & linseed bread!! 702 cals, But by 8pm I was still gagging for food, so I had the 2 remaining snack Cookies. By 9pm, I was still feeling famished, so I had two more slices of soya & linseed bread (No spread) plus my can of K cider, that has sat in the fridge, for days!! A total of 500cals (oops!!) eventually my stomach stopped growling. I watched some TV & tried to finish, last weeks blog, going to bed at 2am.

Tuesday 15th April (Week 5, Day 30)

I had a lay-in until 10am, it's another bright sunny day out, will do a bit a spot of weeding later. I got on the scales, after my bit of a blowout weekend with Simon, and was surprised to see I've lost more weight, 9lb in total, according to my scales!! I had a wash, and had two, breakfast, maple Cookies, with a coffee. Still waiting for a call time, for a drama series tomorrow. A fellow SA from Hemel, Felicity, is picking me up, and we are going on to Windsor together. Now we have to await call time & costume. 

I finished off last weeks blog & posted it. I had more Cookies at noon, then did a bit of weeding. Then I did a couple of classes in the gym. I had my lunch cookies at 2pm & another snack one at 4pm. In a complete change to normal, I was constantly on the loo today.... It's like I'd been slipped an ALLI capsule!! I got a newspaper & a few bits, from my local shop. I then had a call on my mobile, from a top agent, who was putting me forward, for a part I'd love, with The Royal Opera!!! I'm auditioning for them next Wednesday, he said with my personality, he thinks I'll blow them away & get the role. The rehearsals will be, for a few weeks in May!! I hope the rehearsals, if I get it, don't clash with my laser eye surgery date, as I'd love this opportunity!!! 

My friends Martin & Terry, told me, that they too, were offered, the same dates, on the drama series as me, but neither could do Thursday. Both said to me, that they were gutted, not to be working with me, as they miss me, as we always have a laugh. Terry said to demand to be on his ward, on Holby City soon, as it's been absolutely ages, since I've worked with him, on there. 

Renny messaged me, laughing about my mention of him, in last weeks blog. He asked me, when I'd be able to fit him in, for a St Albans visit? I said when my life gets less audition manic! He said he needs to, get with more agents, as it's been too long since we last worked together, I said that I'd put a good word in for him!! "Cookie Diet's" fellow Guinea Pig, Julie, messaged me, saying she liked last weeks blog (Unlike my hater GLP!!) Wardrobe called & the costume brief, was muted summer colours. I can do that no problem (lucky that I changed my winter wardrobe, over to a spring/summer wardrobe, so finding apt stuff is easy!!) 

At 7pm I had a Birdseye, prawn curry (Note to Birdseye, your prawn curry is 90% rice 7% sauce & 3% prawns!!) But it still managed, to somehow sate my hunger, along with two slices of soya & linseed bread!! At 8pm I had a diet coke & a snack Cookie, watching 'CSI' then 'The Mentalist' before a earlyish night, going to bed at 10.30pm

Wednesday 16th April (Week 5, Day 31)

I am not sure, if I actually slept last night, or if I'd just rested, when the alarm went off at 4.30am? But if I did, it was only briefly!! I got ready for the day, washed & dried hair (dryer fused) and was ready with alternative costume choices all packed. At 5.45am Felicity arrived & we drove to Windsor to set. I realised, as we drove to the location, that as Felicity was 15mins early, in my hurry to leave I'd forgotten my cookies!!! Oops!! So full cooked set breakfast it was. Then it was costume checks, they chose from my selection what they wanted for me & I changed in one of the SA trailers. It was meant to be a hot day, but at 7am to 9am it was bitter cold out & I wished I'd brought my puffa jacket!! 

The set, was a lovely Windsor, Tudor Mansion (Below) which is the present setting, for a famous, American Drama, being filmed in London & around the SE. It's Ideal for a Halloween party, but with too much dark wood, inside, for my tastes. Not somewhere I'd actually, choose to live, even IF I could afford to!! I wondered how many generations, had died there? Either in their bed? Or by accident? Or other means, over the 500 years, that the Palmer family lived there? I wondered, if there had been any murders there? Or if it was, mainly at Windsor Castle, that people lost their heads, or were brutally murdered, in Tudor times? I also wondered, if the inhabitants, ever experienced any ghosts? 

There wasn't a huge amount, of SA people about, but I knew 85% of those, that were. The 1st & 2nd ADs, were lovely & unlike on 'other TV/Drama shows' they gave you a pep talk, before each scene, what was going to happen next, plus when you did well with your, continuity, they were very vocal & complimentary! Also a nice change!! By the afternoon it was boiling out & I was baking in my synthetic blouse, that wardrobe opted for, for me. So I opened a few buttons & caught a bit of sun.... Atul sunbathed between takes too!! (Below) 

I saw from the scene sheet, that one of the actors, on the episode, was James Lance. I've admired his comedic acting, since the 90s, when he was in 'Ab Fab' as Patsy's Toyboy, then later in things like 'Smack The Pony' I was actually in the same scenes, with him on 'The Look Of Love' a while back! I didn't see him on set today though. The sunshine, was super hot, today, it was beach & bikini weather, I hope tomorrow is the same. With no cookies on me, I had the catering lunch, of tagliatelle & ratatouille, with an ice lolly desert!! I spent a lot of my lunchtime, throwing a tennis ball, for a cute, cross eyed, collie dog. 

Then it was back to filming again, by 5pm, the temperature had dropped somewhat & it was a bit nippy, if you were sat in the shade, between takes. They brought out some sandwiches & I was good, I only had 1/4 of a cheese & pickle sandwich & a coffee, plus a orange juice. We wrapped bang on 7pm. Felicity & I drove home, after first finding a petrol station, as her car was very low on petrol. I got home, just in time to watch 'Secret Eaters' on +1 at 9pm followed by 'NCIS' also on +1 having 3 snack cinnamon Cookies, with a coffee & going to bed at 11pm. 

I met two fab SA's on set today, who I'd not met before. Mohinda (below) a really sweet, Indian lady who actually had me weeping with laughter, when she was telling me, about working as an Extra, on 'Robin Hood' when she said "I really wanted to be raped & pillaged, in the rape & pillage scene..... But nobody wanted to rape & pillage, an old Indian woman!!!" It was so unexpected, I roared with laughter!! It didn't take long after that, to find she was a right "game for a laugh ole girl" she was a sweet, little devil!! There was also a lovely blonde girl, with the most amazing jewel coloured, green eyes, called Nib, who was lovely too. The woman who owns/runs the manor house got us to sign the guest book too, which was nice!! 

Yalda, from Beauty Secret, sent me the video, of one of my favourite, Greek, dance tracks, today, which was really sweet of her, I must get the album Geia, by Despina Vandi (below) as I'm always, singing along & dancing around my flat, to it's title track!! 

Thursday 17th April (Week 5, Day 32)

I slept on & off, in a bitty, wake up every 60-90mins, type sleep!! Which made me feel, tireder, than when I had none (or next to none) yesterday!!! Knowing what I had to wear today (The same as yesterday!) meant, that getting ready, was a breeze. I was ready nice & early, for when Felicity arrived at 6am. I put my puffer jacket over my costume, as it was so cold yesterday on base, before the sun heated up!! I got in the car, to see Felicity had done the same, with a warm coat & warm boots, as the frosty/dewy grass gave her frozen feet, before the day warmed up, yesterday. 

We got to set at 6.45am, wardrobe double checked the SAs that had been on set yesterday, just to check our outfits were identical to yesterday (which of course they were) then it was another cooked breakfast (I'd left cookies at home again.... Oops) There were some more SA's today, more good SA friends I'd not worked with in ages!! Like Pam who it was great to see, plus Feih, who rushed over & hugged me, which was sweet. Another friend Alin, was also in, with his wife, Alin & I, normally just miss each other, normally we are on the same production, but always, somehow on different days!!  

I enjoyed catching up with my SA friends, then it was all off to base for today's scenes. The 1st or 2nd AD, took a group picture of us all, on Atul's phone camera (Above) The comedic actor, James Lance, was on set today. The day was fun & went fast, I was actually placed, so I got to interact with James Lance, in one scene. We had a bit of a laugh, with it, throwing in some jokey innuendo & double entendres, banter for good measure. 

It warmed up outside, as the day went on, but hazy cloud meant that, it was nowhere near as scorching hot as yesterday!! For lunch, I had fish pie, with green beans & cauliflower. Then a very yummy, naughty, banoffee pie for dessert, yum yum!! (Sorry Cookie Diet!!) Then it was back on set for more scenes, I was getting very positive feedback, from the ADs which was nice. There were lots more cute dogs, to play with & fuss over, when back outside & not needed on takes! One of the SA's was talking to actor James (Or Jimmy as the director was calling him) about his comedy role, involving pushing a piano in '2.4 Children' and asked for his autograph, which James was very accommodating, in doing.

I'd never do that, I think it's a bit cringey!! But the SA was a young lad, so being star struck, is more understandable. I chatted a bit to James, about when he played, Patsy's Toyboy, in 'Ab Fab' plus us both doing the same scenes in 'The Look Of Love' some time back, with 'David Walliams' We both agreed it was a fun shoot. The autograph getting, young SA, took a pic of me with James (above) Just as we were wrapping at 6.30pm. I was chatting to James at the time & asking if he was doing scenes, the following Thursday, wherever that would be, when a lot of the same people were back? He said he was & he wished me, a "Happy Easter" as I was heading off (to get signed off) which was nice of him. 

I'd been chatting to another lovely SA, I'd never met before called Renee, who told me, that she follows me on Twitter & loves my BLOG... Yes this one!! (Pauses, while my hater, GLP, chokes on their bile!!) She said she came across it, by accident, when trying to find two old school friends, from St Peter's school, in Belgravia & it popped up, so she read it & loved it & followed me on Twitter & now, here we were, on set together, small world ehhh!!? So once home I followed her back on Twitter & we added each other on Facebook. I got home around 8.40pm & bought a paper & some mineral water from the shop next door, then fixed myself a prawn tikka masala, for dinner, watching 'CSI & Body Of Proof' eventually going to bed, at 10pm, exhausted, back on the Cookie Diet track, tomorrow!! 

Friday 18th April, Good Friday (Week 5, Day 33)

I woke at 6am, I'd had a weird dream, I dreamt that while I slept, someone had tattooed the whole of my legs & feet, my outer legs, were tattooed, as a soldiers trousers, red with a white stripe, down the leg, with the end of a sword, scabbard, running down my thigh, on one leg, and black boots tattooed on my feet. The front of my feet were tattooed as boots, then the rest of the front of my legs, had multiple designs, like a sleeve of tattoos, I was absolutely horrified & enraged!!!! I thought "I'd rather amputate my legs, than live with these, repulsive tattoos!!" Then I fell asleep again & dreamt I was working in a supermarket & sorting out a customer with some half price fabric (Peacock blue brocade) plus another customers complaint, about their spring lamb. (My dreams are bonkers!!)

I woke at 10am, and had a wash, plus a coffee & two maple Cookies, for breakfast. I checked out some casting sites, for auditions/jobs, then I had a second coffee, as I changed for the gym! I wore grey 3/4 yoga pants & my fluorescent, coral, FCUK, t-shirt & white, Reebok, Easytone trainers. I put my hair up with a clip & applied some mascara & lipgloss then headed for the gym. 

Before I went on my way, To the gym, I popped to the shop, bought a Sun paper & two diet cokes, then I grabbed my puffa jacket & bag & headed to Fitness First, getting a small soya cappuccino from Costa Coffee en route, to have with my snack Cookie. I got in the gym, threw my bag & jacket in my locker, then filled my gym, drink bottle, with the two caffeine free diet cokes. Then I headed onto the gym floor, I did my usual, 30 mins on the bike, some exercises on the powerplate, I had another snack Cookie, then the usual routines on the hip abductor & hip adductor, before another 30 mins on the bike & some squats (I'm concentrating on my thighs) as they are responding the least to 'The Cookie Diet' & Bailine.... 

As my hater GLP could tell you (I have been told, by my readers, who were slagging off my troll) that GLP commented on my "Flabby Thighs" on my last blog!! (Exactly what was said, by GLP, I don't know?) As my NY Resolution, this year, was to delete GLPs comments, without bothering to read them 1st, as their opinion, is irrelevant to me!! So only have a rough idea, due to messages, from my enraged readers, about GLP. They said, they thought, that GLP, was a petty, idiot & of course ANY "Before" pics in a "Diet Trial" blog, would be bound contain, some less than flattering, bulgy pictures, adding the GLP comments had been pathetically laughable. ALMOST made me wish I'd read the comment, before deleting. I had my 2 lunch Cookies at 4pm

I got back from the gym, at 5pm & chatted for a bit, online, on both Twitter & Facebook. I'd watched my best friend Candie's husband Costa & her son, Xavier, on BBC1's 'Parking Mad' via iPlayer, earlier today. At 6pm I had 2 snack Cookies, by 8pm, I was famished & had a Quorn curry, with 'Good 4U' Super Shoots, lentil pea & bean shoots & 'Tesco's Finest' tomato, olive & rosemary salad, all washed down, with a litre of mineral water, with a drop of lemon juice & Fountain (Above) in it!! I watched 'NCIS' at 9pm & at 10pm I had the last snack Cookie with more mineral water, as I watched 'Gogglebox' on plus 1, then 'NCIS LA' on Ch5 +1, which is good, but not a patch on the original NCIS. Then I ran myself a bubble bath. I had a nice soak, which eased the aches, from the gym. After I watched a bit of Supercasino as I got ready for bed & while doing a few bits online, I also had a bit of fun banter on Facebook & Twitter & texting a friend, before going to sleep some time after 3am.

Saturday 19th April (Week 5, Day 34)

I woke at 8.45am, and watched a bit of TV in bed, while I checked my Email messages, Facebook & Twitter. Then it was a shower & two chocolate breakfast Cookies with a coffee. Then I got dressed, in my turquoise jeans, lemon, v-neck, t-shirt, plus turquoise & white, Roxy Life, trainers (below) Today I have an open audition to go to in London, the weather is sunny, but there is lots of rain clouds about. So it was puffa jacket & my holdall of leggings, for the dance part of the auditions & headed off for the station. I was glad of my puffa jacket, as it may have been sunny, but it sure was COLD!!!! 

I had a snack Cookie, while on the platform at St Albans station, and my 2nd snack Cookie, as I sat awaiting to go into my 1st part of audition, which seemed to go well. There was a couple of hours until the dance part, so a few of us went to McDonalds, and feeling very hungry & needing energy for the dance half, I decided to have lunch as my main meal & save the Cookies for dinner. I ended up having 935 cals oops!! (235 cals over) Well I'll hopefully dance some of that off!! Then it was back to, a lot of sitting around, waiting to be called, for our turn, at the dance half, of the audition. 

Eventually it became my turn & it must of gone well, as I was told to stay behind, as I'd gotten through to the second part of the dance audition. More sitting around, so I had my two dinner Cookies, with a coffee at 8pm. I was called in at 9pm & did my 3rd audition of the day, then I was to go take a seat, back in the smaller waiting area. 

At 9.30pm one of the audition team, came into the room & said that all of us in that room, had made it through, to the audition short list, HURRAH!! So now it's a waiting game, to hear. So I changed out of leggings, back to my warmer jeans & headed home. I got a soya cappuccino from Costa, on the way home & got in at 11.30pm. I got changed for bed, then watched the 1st bit of Supercasino as I checked my Emails, Facebook & Twitter, then crashed out at 1am, without even having my last 3 snack Cookies. 

Sunday 20th April, Easter Sunday (Week 5, Day 35)

I woke at 10.30am, after a weird dream, I dreamt I was in Katie Prices home, helping her rearrange her lounge, as she had too many couches in it, in a mix of coloured & styles!! I also dreamt I visited a male friend had another child, and he dressed him in a mini version of his own football kit. 

Then in my dream, I went to my holiday home, in Cyprus, my friend Candie was staying with me & we had a threesome with a guy I know, my place was amazing with a huge bedroom, with a panoramic window looking over the island & sea. I was in a bar when a stunning guy said we were neighbours & he could see into my bedroom from his. I thought "OMG!!! I hope he can't see me pottering around in the nude!!"... Then I was on a plane to my other holiday home in Jamaica with one of my older sisters, Julie, my kitchen was stunning & huge, I was showing her my new kitchen stools, that I seemed very proud of..... The subconscious is a mad thing!! Talking of mad things, look at this chap, imagine him eating soup or drinking coffee in your dining room.... With a WHITE carpet!!!! 

After my wash, I got on the scales, I've not lost any more weight this week..... But I have not GAINED any either!! So I'm still 9lb down. I had a coffee & the two chocolate Cookies, not eaten yesterday, for breakfast I wore my turquoise jeans with a pale grey t-shirt & pale grey, cardigan, with pale grey, pearled collar & turquoise & white Roxy Life, trainers (above) Today is a day of a marathon watch of my "V" video's (below) with a friend!!! As there is just rubbish, on TV, over Easter, mainly!! Plus typically the Easter weather, is it's normal cold rainy self!! 

I had a snack Cookie from yesterday's leftovers, at 1.30pm with a diet coke, as we took a "V" break, to watch 'Spiderman 3'. We had a 105g of Minstrels (527 cals) each as we watched the movie (Well it's Easter & I've not had an Easter egg!!) so I skipped my 2 lunch Cookies & 2 snack Cookies. Then it was back to "V" the DVD marathon, until 7.45pm, when we stopped for some curry for dinner, 638 cals, while catching the tail end of Catchphrase & Off Their Rockers. We were about to go back, to the "V" DVD marathon, when 'Toy Story 3' came on. I'd not seen that one, so we watched it. Sweet Movie!!

 At 10pm I wandered home, with my DVDs, hungry, I didn't bother opening a cookie bag, for my 3 evening snack cookies. So I had a soya & linseed bread, super food, sandwich. I will get back on the Cookie bandwagon tomorrow! I slid this week as it is rather boring & repetitive & I'm not a fan of, same ole, same ole!! I read the Sunday paper, some EVIL American mother, killed her 4 year old son, smashing his head in, because she thought he was gay!! Because "He walked & sounded like it!!" WTF??? How butch can a bloody 4yr old boy sound? What is becoming of this world?? Meanwhile, a 65yr pensioner (But looks, much, much older) Calling himself, Roxanne, is demanding a £20K sex change on the NHS. Roxanne (below) says "Sorry guys, I know I'm pretty, but I'm a lesbian!!" No offence Roxy, but I think, that just maybe, laser eye surgery, is more urgent for you, first!!! 

I watched 'Fargo & Heat' on Ch4 +1, two good movies, on at Easter for a change. I can't wear any contact lenses next week, as I have a pre laser op, eye examination the following week. I can't wait to have normal sight, it's my birthday present to myself. I'm not going to be 50 & 50% blind!! It will be life changing, even if I will be paying instalments for a long time. I could get it done on the NHS but that could be ages & my eyes have really deteriorated, since their pneumonia damage, a few years back. Talking of NHS, that VILE piece of garbage, Josie Cunningham is in the papers again. Last time it was about her getting a boob job on the NHS after lying, she was broke & her small boobs made her DEPRESSED!! The truth was she was a prostitute, who could afford to pay for the Op herself, and wanted a boob job, to increase her clients & do glamour modelling!!! With that face??? (Below) 

Now the low budget slag, is pregnant, from one of her punters (So she is a nice, no condom, Aids/STD risk too!!! Classy!!) It now emerges, that the skank, now wants to abort the baby, to court fame, going in the Big Brother House. Is there no depths this little slut, won't sink to? She will be one of the most hated women, in the UK, long before she enters (If they are mad enough to have her, plus, that low life 'Big D' from 'Benefit Street') More exposure, will just make her further despised!!! She is beyond repulsive, I wonder if her parents are hanging their heads in shame, or if they are, the same level of scum, as her? I went to bed at 1.45am, a busy week of auditions & interviews ahead. I will try to get back on, the cookie diet, again next week, but this week, trying to stick to it was absolutely murder!

Cookie Monster??

Monday 24th March (Week 2, Day 8)

Today, I got up at 12.20am, rested, but with no sleep, since I went to bed, just after 8pm on Sunday. I got on the scales, as soon as I got up, as it is now exactly a week since I began. I'm another 3/4lb down, so that's a loss of 3.3/4lbs in a week. I got dressed, checked my costume case, then wrapped up warm & set off into the cold night air at 1.50am. I caught the 2.21am, Thames Link, train, boy are commuters at this hour miserable!! I was tempted to sit there, grinning inanely, just for my own sick amusement, at their discomfort & alarm!! Once at Blackfriars I waited 20mins for my 3.28am night bus. I got to set at 4.15am, frozen & starving, so had the night time snack Cookie, I'd not be awake to eat Sunday night!! It was a Chocolate one & I washed it down with 2 black coffees to warm & wake myself!! I managed to wait until 6.30am, to have my two breakfast Cookies, 1 chocolate & 1 maple, washed down with a caffeine free, diet coke, as I was ravenous by then!! I had a Cinnamon snack Cookie at 8.30am & another Cinnamon snack Cookie, at 10.30am. 

I was very hungry by lunch at 12.30pm, so I had a milky coffee with my maple & chocolate Cookies. I had my Maple snack Cookie as I travelled home, after filming at 2.30pm (Shattered!!) I collapsed on my bed ready to sleep, at 3.30pm, but the hairdressers downstairs (that is normally closed on a Monday) was opened at 4pm, just as I was drifting off & turned on their music & was scraping stuff across the floor (FFS!!!!!) Bloody typical!!!! In the end, exhausted from 32hrs with no sleep, I text the owner, of the hairdressers, complaining about the noise. She turned down the music, but being a light sleeper, I didn't fall asleep, until she finally left at 5.30pm. But I woke 2hrs later at 7.30pm & so I had dinner, a super wholefood salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast with honey 637 cals. I watched the brilliant Revenge at 9pm on E4 & then had my final Cinnamon snack Cookie at 9.30pm, then at 10pm after Revenge finished I went back to sleep. Another poop free day!! I fell asleep quickly thankfully, as I have another early start tomorrow. 

Tuesday 25th Match (Week 2, Day 9) 

Today I have a meeting, with UKs, top character model, agency, so I was up at 7.30am (thankfully after around 8-9hrs sleep, after a sleep deprived day yesterday!!) I jumped in the bath & washed hair, and made a so so offering, to the "Stool Gods" but NOT of the consistency that Dr Gillian McKeith would be pleased with (but it's a start) this diet definitely affects your bowel movements, Julie is having the same problem. I got on my scales, according to them, I've now lost another 1/2lb so that's 4 1/4lb in total so far. Today Breakfast was 2 cinnamon Cookies, with a black coffee, one had absolutely no flavour again (the cinnamon ones, seem a bit hit & miss flavour wise!!) I dried my hair, did makeup & got dressed, then I checked Facebook, Twitter & Email messages, before I set off for London. I have practically lived there again, these past two months, at least filming for the next two days, is local in Elstree Borehamwood! On the train I had a snack chocolate Cookie, with a takeaway cappuccino, and read the paper. The guy sat opposite me was the double of Freddie Flintlock, maybe it was him? I got to Kings Cross & got the tube to Wood Lane, I got to the agency early & gave the staff a couple of bags of Haribo (I touched none) as they are always wanting sweets. I had some crazy photos done & did a solo video, then did a joint video with a magician. Then I got back on the tube, travelling 3 stops to Hammersmith, to get a few bits I need. While having my 2nd snack Cookie 'maple' en route. Shopping done, I contacted L'oreal, re some info needed, before getting the tube to Kings Cross, and the train home, eating 2 maple lunch Cookies on the way. 

I went to Wilkinsons, once back in St Albans, to get some essentials & then I popped into. my local beauticians, Beauty Secret for my 3rd Bailine session. Yalda said, that as I already had a high pain threshold (some women wimp out & say they can't take it & turn the power down, she turns mine up, as I'm fine) she said, she'd do it to the advanced level, you normally go to, AFTER the 5th session. Yalda did my abdomen again today & it will be the legs again on Friday. I finally got home, only to discover, one of my photos from today, was already on the model agency's, Facebook & Twitter page!! Now that's quick!! I had another chocolate snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke. Then started preparing my outfit & 2nd outfit to pack for filming in Elstree tomorrow. I had dinner instead of my 2nd evening snack Cookie at 6.30pm, a salmon salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast, with honey as desert 678 cals then did some housework. I had a chocolate snack Cookie at 8.30pm, while watching myself on an old Midsomer Murders series. I found out, through the grapevine, that Sharran had gained over 7lb in weight, on the Cookie Diet despite strictly sticking to it & was having the same "No Poop" problems, I feel for her, that's what happened to me with Vi!! I messaged Luna, her weigh in was meant to be today, but she has not responded, maybe she's not had a good result either? I had my final cinnamon snack Cookie at 10.30pm, while getting myself ready for bed with a pint of water & milky decaf coffee. I laid  my stuff out for tomorrow, answered a few text messages & Facebook messages, then went to bed..... TIRED & desperate for sleep!!!!! But I was not to sleep, not even for a minute, instead I was to endure 11 hours of exhausting TORTURE!!!!

Wednesday 26th March (Week 2, Day 10)

I lay in bed, music booming & keeping me awake, at 1st I thought it was the pub, just up the road, having live music on. But when it was still blasting out at midnight, I went into my lounge & checked the pub, the lights were off & it was shut. So I realised it was coming from the hairdressers, I popped downstairs to my bathroom ear against wall (Yep definitely the hairdressers providing the booming music!!) I text the owner at midnight, no response, I tried again at 1.30am, plus I called the hairdressers, incase they were having a staff party (though odd on a Wednesday) by 4am I'd taken 3 Nightall & tried stuffing cottonwool in my ears & covering with earmuffs & I could still hear the booming base of the music clearly!! I was tempted to call the police, but I'm sure their response would of been slow & knowing my luck, if I did manage to fall asleep, they'd wake me knocking on my door around 6pm. I thought about calling the owner on their mobile (but oddly felt bad about waking them at that hour!!! Mind you the phone would probably be on silent or off if she was not getting the texts!!) I took 4 more Nightall to try & sleep but no joy. By 9am I was so exhausted & angry, due to music being left on all night, in the hairdressers, preventing me to sleep, I could cry!!!

I needed all the rest I could get, last night, as today, I was going on a TV game show as a contestant, with my friend Ian, that morning and I needed my mind to be clear & sharp, but instead it was pounding with a headache muzzy & beyond exhausted!! I could kill whoever left the music on!!! How could you not notice, as you lock ups, that the music is still on?? If it was just a CD left on, the noise would of eventually stopped in the end... But it was obviously on REPEAT mode, so boomed out for 11 hours!! If it had been pop music, it may not of disturbed me, quite so much, but it had a heavy base, that boomed out for 11hrs, as I tried very unsuccessfully to sleep!! It was like torture, even cottonwool in ears & ear muffs did not keep the noise out & 7 sleeping tablets (Nightall) had no effect, which added to my frustration & turmoil!! 

I got on the scales at 9.30am I've lost another 1/4lb that's 4.5lb in total!! I had breakfast 1 chocolate & 1 cinnamon Cookie. I got dressed in a yellow shift dress & wore gold pumps & put my beige heels, plus my 2nd outfit, a navy dress & black heels, in a holdall. Then headed for the train to the TV studios in Elstree, eating my chocolate snack Cookie at 11.30am on the train. I met Ian at Elstree station & we got to the studios at noon & were whisked off to the green room. I explained I was sleep deprived & why, hoping I'd be chosen for tomorrow's filming & not today's (so getting some sleep tonight!!) I had my 2nd snack Cookie (maple) at 1.30pm, and some flirty, jokey banter, with the young runner lad, Liam, which helped to keep me awake, when I was physically exhausted, with a banging headache. I took a load of painkillers, to try feel human. On the plus point, the complements were flowing re my yellow dress. 

I checked twitter while in the green room, Luna has had her weigh in & last week lost 3lb! Sharran the sumo wrestler, who had a gain, despite sticking to the diet rigidly, has gone quiet online. I really feel for her, because my weight leapt up by almost a stone, in a week, while sticking rigidly to the Vi diet, I then I resorted to replacing all 3 meals, instead of 2 with Vi out of desperation & then I still gained another 7lb!!! So I stopped using it & I instantly dropped the 21lb, so I'm stuck with a few £100 of Vi stock, which is of no use to me!! (So if Vi works for YOU, or you are a Vi rep, and want to buy a load of shakes come find me!!!) It may be that the Cookie Diet is not suitable for Sharran, like Vi wasn't for me, or it's just a 1st week set back!! 

By 3pm we were still in the green room & I was fading fast!! We had lunch handily at 3.30pm I had the mini, margarita, calzone with a spoonful of hand cut chips & stir fried veg. Elstree catering leaves a lot to be desired, the chips were fine, but the calzone, a lump of stodge, with some cooked tomato. I left the stir fried veg, as they tasted of washing up liquid. Whoever washed the wok or pan it was cooked in, didn't rinse it well after washing & it obviously had a detergent coating, when it was used next. Ian & I were chosen to film today, despite me telling all involved I was sleep deprived (bugger) we did quite well to start with, but then there came a question, I knew the low scoring answer I wanted, it was the name of an artist. I know him well & my nan owned a painting of his, as did the owner of the stud farm, we lived on in Nottingham. But due to now being without sleep for 32hrs, I was exhausted, and I had a mental block & couldn't think of the artists name, it was frustrating me as I stood there, as I knew the artist well, my dad & I often discussed his work (when my dad was alive!!) I racked my brains, trying to think of the name, which I knew was a SHORT name, I pleaded in my head, to my dead dad, to come to me & remind me of the name!! But it wouldn't come & time was running out, as the presenter came to me.

I was left with 3 alternatives, all that seemed obvious & high scorers to me, just what I didn't want, but unable to come up with the artists name, I had to opt for one of them, I opted for the oldest historic person of them all, hoping a lot of school kids were surveyed, as these days they seem, very ignorant of history. It was a bad choice & we were out of this show, but still in for the second show. I hoped that would be, due to timing, get filmed tomorrow (when I could rest) but no such luck!! At 5.30pm I had a chocolate snack Cookie, and changed into my navy dress, with dragonfly print (above) plus my black heels. Ian & I went into the studio again for the 2nd show, I was now 34hrs without sleep & absolutely shattered!! This is where, my tiredness, really hit me.... I only had one contact lense in, as my left eye had puffed up this morning, from tiredness, and I couldn't put my lense in it, so that combined with tiredness, meant I had difficulty viewing the board. One answer, the one I could see & was going to go for, had the initials OW. Exhausted and frightened of my mind forgetting, like on the artist question, I kept saying to myself over & over "Oscar Wild, not Orson Wells, Oscar Wild, NOT Orson Wells" So what happened, when they got round to, an exhausted me? Yep I mistakenly blurted out Orson Wells, I realised, the second it came out of my mouth, I'd said the wrong one, the very one, my mind was telling me not to say!! But it was too late, as they take your 1st answer. So my exhaustion screwed over Ian & I, thanks hairdressers, you stitched me up good & proper!!!

So when it airs, I will look an idiot, on TV, due to my tiredness (which of course the TV audience will be totally unaware of!!) but by then, I was just relieved, It was over & I could now go home to bed, as I was beyond exhausted. I walked with difficulty (in my flat pumps again) to the station, each step was exhausting!! Ian got on his train to London & moments later mine came, on the train, I realised, I didn't have my yellow dress, in the holdall. It had been hanging up next to my white coat, I must have been really exhausted, not to see such a bright dress & pack it in my bag, when I put my white coat on. I contacted the TV crew & they said they'd post it to me. How I managed to walk from the station, home, god only knows? I passed the hairdressers at 7.45pm & popped in & asked the owner, if she now knew, who had locked up last night, leaving the music blaring out? She said it was one of the hairdressers Danny. I get on well with Danny, we have silly, jokey banter, but he certainly isn't in my good books right now!!! I eventually crashed into bed exhausted after 36hrs without sleep, way too tired, to eat my last two, cinnamon Cookies. 

Thursday 27th March (Week 2, Day 11)

I woke up at 2am, needing to spend a penny (Cookie Diet side effect) still dizzy & sleep deprived, from Wednesday, I toddled naked from my bedroom, to go to the bathroom, downstairs. But my stairs are dangerous at the best of times, steep, and undersized depth wise, only 3/4 the depth of my smallish size 5 feet (so toes hang over the edge, even when my heel is at the back of the step) Being shattered & so less overly cautious, of my stairs, as I'd usually be. My foot slid on the stair carpet, at the edge, and I flew backwards, crashing down the whole flight on my arse!!! OUCH!!!! Carpet burns & bruising tomorrow lovely... Another mishap, to add to my disastrous day, due to, the hairdressers keeping me awake. I checked Facebook & Twitter messages, then went back to sleep, my bladder woke me again at 5am, but with my arse still smarting, from my last wee hours, bathroom journey, I ignored it & went back to sleep!! I woke finally at 9am, due to the noise of the hairdressers opening up downstairs (as usual!!) 

I got up & gingerly, I went down the stairs, to the bathroom, only to discover I now had cystitis, OUCH!! Great just what I need, I must of really done some damage, to my bladder & kidneys, in that fall!! I got on my scales, I'm now down by 5lb, in 11 days. I had a shower & had two maple Cookies for my breakfast with a coffee (with milk) then I did a few household chores that needed doing, my internet has been down, since the 12th March, which is screwing me job/audition search wise. I had my two maple snack Cookies at 11am & 1pm then headed for the gym. I got in Fitness First, and did a set of exercises on the power plate, then I did 10 sets, of 10 reps, on the hip adductor & the same on the hip abductor on 40kg. I had a vending machine cappuccino, as I felt tired & did some squats with the Swiss Ball & a few more on the power plate. Then I passed Frank Bruno, on the way to the exercise cycle, I was about to start exercising on the cycle, when I had agonising cramps in my stomach, and in my kidneys, I broke out in a sweat, it was like when I had a gallstone attack (which is said to be 9 times more painful than childbirth!!) 

I put my legs up on the bike, with my knees under my chin, in the recovery, position, that I learned with my gallstones. The pain was excruciating & I pulled gargoyle like grimaces, as I struggled, not to scream out, like I was being murdered!! Sweat poured off me & my legs trembled, as my kidney area, went into seizures. Nobody came to my aid, though it must of been obvious, to those on the bikes, either side of me, that all was not well. When the pain had passed enough, for me to move, I walked (doubled over) into the changing room. Where I knelt on a stool & half laid over the table area, in front of the mirrors. As another wave of pain attacked me, and I groaned like a woman in labour. A woman came to check on me, and asked if I was ok?? I said "I think I have kidney stones, or a urine infection, caused by a fall & needed to go home!" when this 2nd attack passes. I eventually left, still doubled over, going into Boots en route, buying some medication for Cystitis, asking the pharmacist if the fall, could of caused a urine infection? Plus would it cause these, stone like symptoms? He said yes, but to go to hospital, if symptoms persisted, after the medication was finished? 

I had 2 lunch Cookies at 3pm & laid on the bed, I had another bad attack & screamed the flat down, as if I was being murdered!! Which proved the noise pollution from the hairdressers only goes one way, or they did hear me screaming, but didn't care enough to check if I was ok!! It was a long time before I could face, or felt brave enough to eat. I had a Quorn curry with rice & slice of buttered wholemeal bread (for roughage to try help me go to the loo) plus 6 Riesen chocolate sweets for dessert. That totalled 766cals 66 cals over suggested amount, I spent most of the rest of the night curled in bed feeling rough, taking cystitis medication & the final 3 snack Cookies. Going to sleep at 11pm totally shattered!! 

Friday 28th March (Week 2, Day 12)

I woke at 6am, wanting to go to the loo, for a wee, but resisted after my bad accident yesterday at 2am, when I woke, bladder full, and fell down my stairs, top to bottom, going to go to the bathroom. I went back to sleep & woke again at 9am, when the noise, of the hairdressers downstairs, disturbed me! I got up & went to the loo, looks like the cystitis thankfully gone. Hopefully the cramping in gut & kidney area, will have stopped too (I obviously damaged my butt, bladder, coccyx & kidneys in my fall) I grabbed a Cookie bag for the day (I couldn't be arsed with the hassle of mixing up a few bags) so I had 2 chocolate Cookies, for breakfast at 9am, with a coffee. I got on the scales I'm now 5.5lb down in 12 days. My bum really hurts, it was bad enough the diet making me want to pee a lot, but now burning cystitis, makes me feel like I want to go, every two minutes!! I pulled on my Union Jack leggings & Marilyn Monroe t-shirt & did some housework, and had a coffee & snack Cookie at 11am & another at 1pm. At 2pm I went to my Bailine session, today it was thankfully on my leg/hip NOT torso area today (I think my kidneys would be too sensitive still, for the electric shocks!!) Yalda complimented me on my lemon coloured underwear today. I was so chilled out in today's session, I was checking my Facebook & twitter as I lay there, listening to Heart Radio on my iPad. 

Yalda says I have such a high PAIN threshold, that she is upping power & combination that she would do AFTER 5th - 6th session on my 3rd & 4th I'm going to include arms next.... Even though that's also meant to be AFTER the 5th session. I was going to go to the gym after, but after my bad kidney attack in the gym, yesterday I was wary & opted to wait until after the weekend!! I had two chocolate Cookies for lunch at 3pm with some water. When the hairdresser who kept me awake Wednesday, due to leaving the music on, and blaring all night, apologised to me, in a somewhat unusual fashion. Funny old world!! I did a few chores & some shopping. I had a snack Cookie at 5pm while putting away some underwear gifts, I'm running out of storage for underwear & bikinis. Then I watched Home & Away from 6pm to 7pm, when I had my 2nd snack Cookie & finally at 9pm, I had a seafood curry, with Japanese rice & a slice of buttered bread, at 614cals (under the top calorie limit) I haven't done much today, yet I feel utterly shattered (I am usually full of, too much Hypa activity!!!) I'm sure it's this diet, sapping my energy!! I had my final snack Cookie at 11pm then zonked out in bed shattered!!! Without going to the loo, yet again!! 

Saturday 29th March (Week 2, Day 13) 

I got up at 9am & had a bath plus my two chocolate, breakfast, Cookies at 9.30am. I packed my costume case (Disco Diva) all outside shots have been done, so it's indoor night shots today, at a reasonable hour, thank god, no more night busses in the wee hours (phew!!) I put on my blue satin disco pants, then pulled my jeans on top (in case changing area, is limited on set) plus my bright blue t-shirt, my sister got me for Xmas. It's a lovely day out for a change, so I wore my gladiator sandals (below) I wore my lightweight Betty Barclay puffer jacket & packed my bodywarmer & butterfly scarf in my case, along with the rest of my costumes, as it will no doubt be colder tonight, when my filming ends! I grabbed my Prada sunglasses & dragged my case to the train station, to catch the 10.30am train. 

It was a beautiful day which really lifted my spirits, but sadly didn't bring out the sunny disposition of my fellow commuters (below) I had my 1st snack Cookie at 11am, just stuck with the chocolate ones, I couldn't be arsed, decanting & mixing them again. While on the platform, I heard via the station announcer, that the trains to Richmond, on the District line, were not running, west of Hammersmith to Richmond!!!... Great that's where I was heading!!! There were rail replacement busses, from outside Hammersmith. Great, so no night busses this time, bloody rail replacement busses instead. While on the platform, I bought myself a Cappuccino, to have with my snack Cookie, on the train into London, with the grumpy commuters. 

I changed at Kings Cross & got the tube to Hammersmith & then the Tube Replacement Bus, to my destination. The bus thankfully stopped, practically outside set & I had a 2nd snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke at 1pm, as I got into, my full costume. I was bent over, doing up my strappy heels, when a Facebook message, popped up on my iPad. I laughed when I opened it, it was from my fellow SA Mandy, saying she loved the "Disco Pants" not sure if she'd got my best side, when she spied them lol. Actually the blue trousers, were a bit of a hit, a lot of people, complimented me on them & my long legs!! (36" trouser) but I'm not sure, if my legs, would of got those same compliments, if they were still trussed up, in those Bailine straps!! In fact I'm pretty sure they wouldn't, my friend Simon said I looked fantastic, in my 'Car Wash' disco diva, attire. He's coming to stay at mine again soon, I can't wait!! I had my two lunch Cookies at 3pm, with another caffeine free, diet coke, while all around me, scoffed soup, or burgers. My bum is really hurting today, I really bashed my coccyx badly, falling down those stairs. 

At 5pm I had a snack Cookie with a coffee, as I needed one I was starting to flag, despite a late start. I was peckish, when I had another coffee & my 2nd snack Cookie at 7pm, and I was glad for, my on set, veggie burger in a bun & a diet coke, plus a slice of wholemeal toast & honey, for dessert, at 9.30pm, coming in at 718cals, 18 cals over, but too hungry to care!! At 10pm I set off home, more busses to Hammersmith, then tube to Kings Cross. I got a large, skinny, decaf, cappuccino, for the train journey from Costa & got on the semi fast train home, eating my final snack Cookie at 11.30am. I got home at 11.50pm pretty shattered, and washed & got ready for bed, before watching a snippet of TV, before crashing out for the night, shattered at 1am (which as I put the clock forward, for British summer time, is now 2am) Still constipated, apart from constant peeing, I didn't go to the ladies once today, AGAIN!!! (That can't be healthy??) then I was out for the count!! 

Sunday 30th March (Week 2, day 14) Mothers Day 

I laid in until noon, which with the clocks going forward last night was 1pm... I got on the scales I have lost 3lb again this week, that's 6lb since the diet started two weeks ago. Not bad I guess? But I'm still suffering constipation, peeing like crazy & I am very tired, which I don't think is ONLY down to my lack of sleep!! I had 2 cinnamon Cookies for breakfast, then I had a shower & pulled on my jeans, my white, Reebok, Easytone, trainers, plus my blue t-shirt, I got from my sister for Xmas (below) I wrapped my butterfly scarf round my neck. I pulled on my metallic blue, Betty Barclay, puffa jacket & packed scissors, water, my cookies, plus debit cards, in my small Moschino, rucksack & set off for the cemetery at 3pm. 

I bought some orange roses, from Tescos, en route, during my hour long walk, to the cemetery, thinking of the happy times, spent with mum, on the journey. I got there at 4pm, I had my 2 lunch Cookies (I saved the 2 snack ones, for later, as breakfast was so late) and removed the remnants of the Christmas visit, wreaths etc, then pulled up the weeds & used the scissors to cut down, overgrown grass. Then once it was tidied up, I filled the planter with some water from my bottle & trimmed the orange roses & arranged them. Then I sat crossed legged in front of my parents grave, and talked to their headstone for roughly an hour until 5pm. I was saying what I'd been up to, since my last visit, joking to dad, for not helping me to remember, the name "Stubbs" on Wednesday, when I was so tired & needed the help, on Pointless, plus wishing mum a Happy Mother's Day & saying how much I missed her!! 

I set off home at 5pm, with a sore bum & aching legs. Thinking about mum & how much I miss her, on my hours walk home. Once home at 6pm, I had a SMALL prawn curry with rice & two slices of buttered bed, which went 33cals over meal limit, at 733 cals. But I am not too concerned, the two hours walk & a bit of pruning at the cemetery will have worked off more than those excess 33cals. I spoke to Sharran, she said she had one LARGE, but HEALTHY meal, along with the Cookies, but gained & like me (With Vi) the weight dropped off again, when she stopped with the Cookies. So she is going to see her doctor, about it. I asked if the LARGE meals, were within the 500-700cal limit set? She said a typical example, would be a steak with LOADS of vegetables, which should be fine! BUT of course, that depends on the cut & size of the steak, plus if it was grilled or fried?? Also it depends if the vegetables are boiled/steamed or cooked another way & also if those veg are high in carbs, like potatoes, swedes, parsnips etc, as that could tip the meals well over 700 cals. Also if their is gravy or any sauce had with the steak? 

Maybe taking a photo of each meal, to show her doctor, would help? Because some people, like in Secret Eaters, don't realise just how many calories, can be in vegetables & it can be a lot, depending on type of vegetable & the way it's cooked!! But she also may be Spot On calorie wise, but the sugary Cookies, play havoc with her metabolism? I hope she gets some answers soon, I know just how frustrating, sticking to something & still gaining weight is!! I had 2 decaf diet cokes & my 2 morning snack Cookies (cinnamon) at 8pm. I finally went to the loo at 9pm & it was hardly a nappy filler, this is deffo a side effect of the diet. I was regular as clockwork, 3 times a day, before The Cookie Diet. I had two of my evening snack Cookies at 10pm, when I felt shattered, despite my lie in this morning!! Another side effect of the diet, I think!! At 11pm my bowels moved again, maybe thanks to the rice & the spices in the curry? Not a huge amount, but at least twice a day, is closer to the norm & better than the none a day of late!! I finally went to bed shattered (as I have been all day) at 1.30am, when I finally finished this blog!! 

A Very FRIENDly, Balanced, Week!!

Monday 15th April, I managed to fall asleep around 2.30am, when there was a lull, in Mikes snoring, in the lounge. I woke at 7am, when Mike left for work, then I fell asleep again, I had an odd dream (Don't I always!!) I dreamt, I was somewhere, with my younger brother Bill, and I was heading off somewhere (No idea where?) & would be meeting up with him later. As I was about to step out of the porch area of the door I just closed, onto the pavement. I saw two guys, spraying mace in the face, of either a policeman or a Securicor guy. So I stepped back into alcove in the porch to hide, not wanting them to know there was a witness. But to my horror, they headed for the door I'd exited, so I faced the corner of the alcove, hoping not to be seen, or if seen for them to think I had not viewed what they looked like. One was blonde with a floppy curtains like fringe & black leather jacket & jeans about 30, the other older with long shoulder length hair, with jeans a white bomber jacket & red baseball cap pulled down hiding most of his face. 

They were smashing at the door, of the building, my brother was in & I hoped there was a rear exit, they could flee from, before the door was broken in. I felt the blonde one come up behind me, with a baseball bat raised & I thought "Any minute I will be either knocked out, or dead, with my head caved in!!" and I braced myself, ready for the inevitable. But instead he put his hand in my pocket & pulled out my 2 Chub keys, to open the lock with (Like the two I need to copy for Mike today, as Jennie can't find my spare key's, that I gave her!! Which is typical, as I only gave them to her, in case I ever lost my original keys & was locked out, as she is local. Which is fuck all use, if she can't bloody find them!!) They got in with them & I used that moment to run out of the alcove, onto the street & round the corner & dialled 999. For once in my dream my phone worked when I dialled, but my call was diverted by those connected to the bad guys, they told me my brother was dead in the building, and as I'd tried to call the police, they had slaughtered my mother in her bed!! 

I woke at 8.30am, when Mike text to say he'd left something at mine, so I got up & unlocked the kitchen door, then went to bed & after Mike had been & one I fell asleep again, oddly continuing my dream, where I'd left off. Wrought with guilt, that my mother was dead, due to me & my brother being dead too, due to them getting my keys. I was on the run, I knew if they knew who my mum & brother was, I could not go home, as they must have my address. I had spare keys to a friends & hid there, while making arrangement's, via a network of friends. Somehow I manages to get myself, a huge penthouse, suite, in a hotel, who's decor was mustard & black. I wondered if I was safe & why these people, wanted to do harm to those I loved? I also was holding & petting, a white cat, with a operation scar running along his/her shaved belly, from throat to groin. Then I woke at 10am, thinking "What the hell was that all about?"

I had a bath, then washed & dried my hair, & wore lemon undies & my jeans & a lemon T-shirt. I toasted a bagel & had some egg-mayo on top & a coffee for breakfast. I did some housework listening to 4Music. Then I popped to the shop for a Sun newspaper, I got in & settled down to read the paper with a Diet Coke. The front page, was about, the three thug, Millwall FC supporters, at the centre of the violence at Saturdays FA Cup, Semi-final. The scum are 'Tony Shannon' 27, 'Liam O'Kane' & 'Billy Mower' The UK was hotter, than Sao Paulo, or Corfu, yesterday, with a temp of 21C (71F) but tomorrow, is set to be 10C, cooler, at 12C (54F) Crazy English Weather!!

Fame seeking, pikey loving, borefest, egotist, 'Sally Bercow' (Apt name, half Berk, half Cow!!) Say's she is shunning 'Margaret Thatchers' funeral on Tuesday (Give a F**k it will be better, without her ugly, smug, face <Above> in the crowd anyway!!) She said she is not obliged to join her Commons Speaker husband, John. Funny how she didn't feel that way for the Royal Wedding in 2011, or the opening of Parliament! Bloody lefty 

A Jewish drug baron, jailed for trying to smuggle, £35Million of cocaine into the UK, is laughably trying to sue, prison chiefs for not providing kosher food, or choice for what he is served. I'm sure being a drug baron is far from kosher, and he lost his right to choose, anything, when he chose a life of crime. The cheeky git Orthodox Jew, wants £2,500 in 'Exemplary Damages' & legal costs over his treatment in 'Frankland Jail' near Durham. Lets just hope some idiot, soft, (Possibly Jewish) Judge, doesn't take pity & side with the scum, with numerous, prior convictions!! 

Page 3's Sabine, 20 from London is a beauty. Meanwhile the ex of beauty 'Kelly Brook' has changed his phone number & email address to cut her out of his life so she can't keep contacting him. If Kelly did chose 'Danny Cipriani' over Ex 'Thom Evans' I don't blame him, it must be gutting, to be dumped for someone so inferior! Where as the model in the Sun Woman, Fashion section, 'Bright on, sister' had the most revolting twig legs I've seen in a long time!! They were thinner than, most slim women's, arms YUCK!! My stars for Gemini said 'Communicator Mercury makes it easy to get along with anyone today. Strengthening friendships & making useful contacts. your love profile is deep & intuitive, so you can read a partners mind & know if it's time to ask a special question (Lol my intuition says NO!) Single? Check out an L name!!' (PML) 

I did a few chores then went to the Job Centre & looked at the latest local jobs & then I went & got two spare keys cut for Mike (£15 the same, huge amount, I paid for the ones, Jennie has lost/misplaced) Then met my friends, 'Amanda & Jennie', in Costa Coffee for a catch up. I had a Large Cappuccino & Nutty Flapjack, with Amanda, while we waited for Jennie's arrival  (She's notorious for never being on time) When Jennie arrived I had a Diet Coke. We chatted catching up on loads of stuff (I'd not seen Amanda for years!!) Amanda said she was doing the 'Vi 90 day challenge' 

I said I'd heard about that, from friends in America & they'd raved about it, but I thought it was only available in the USA?? She said it was but it was now in the UK (Excellent) There are several types of product (Balance) is the  one that boosts your health (Which I am interested in) it strengthens nails, makes hair grow thicker & increases your health, energy & vitality, with an added bonus of it has shown to boost metabolism too & help with weight loss. Then there is a weight loss meal replacement option (Shape) for fast but healthy weight loss (See pic above) & a 3rd fitness package (Boost) for people who are weight training, gym bunny's, or body building competitors which helps build muscle & reduce fat making them ripped. (See top picture above!)

I was keen to try the health (Balance) package (Above) as my body took a real battering with Double Pneumonia, followed by Shingles, a Tumour, then Gallstones, followed by the shock of mums, sudden unexpected death. My red & white T Cells were at a very low & dangerous ebb at one point. So This Vi (Balance) Health Maintenance package, could do wonders for me & if it thickens my hair & aids weight loss too, that is a bonus. I have heard that it has turned the lives around, of people suffering with ME, so it should certainly boost my system. 

Amanda said she was on the Maintenance (Balance) program & her hair is thicker & has a lot of new growth, plus just by swapping her breakfast for the health shake, she lost 10lb in 2 months. No dieting or extra gym, she said it just fell off!! Sounds promising, she said if you do the 90 day challenge (Health, Weight or Fitness) & if you get 3 friends to do it with you, you get your products for the challenge FREE!! Result!! (See Above)

 Jennie said she would do the weight loss one, with some of the Mums from her kids school & I know at least 3 fellow SA's, who want to lose weight. So the (Shape) package (above) would be great for them!! Also one male SA wanting to gain muscle & bulk. (So the Boost would be great for him) Jennie had to go to get the kids, so Amanda & I had yet another, yummy Cappuccino & I signed up to the 90 day challenge if you want to give it a go, or learn more & you live in the UK, USA, or Spain view the video by clicking Here >>>>> Body By Vi Challenge  Amanda & I  chatted a bit more & she said she would do a party, round mine Saturday week, if I had any other friends interested in trying the 90 Day Challenge. 

Mike called me on the mobile & said "how about we have, an Indian tonight?" I said "Yeah why not!!" he said he'd be at mine at about 7pm & we'd go over to the Indian takeaway then. I got home checked my emails, Facebook & Twitter & chatted until Mike got home. One he got to mine, I gave him the keys, I had cut for him & we went over to the 'India Garden' I had a Poppadom, a Garlic Naan bread, an Onion Bhaji, & one of their specials, a King Prawn Delight (Which was bloody delicious!!) Mike had a Poppadom, a Peshwari Naan Bread, an Onion Bhaji, Oriental rice & a Lamb dish (Can't recall the name) but he asked them, to hold the Almonds & Prunes. Mine was lovely, but Mike said, his Lamb was tough & over cooked. 

We watched 'Revenge' & 'Made In Chelsea' then I made up Mikes bed in the lounge & retired to watch TV in my bedroom, while he turned in for the night. Within no time he was snoring loudly (Much louder than yesterday!) It sounded like I had two giant warthogs fighting in the lounge!! (Oh no I will hardly get a wink of sleep, being a light sleeper!!) I read the magazine on the Vi 90 Day Challenge, Amanda gave me then watched 'NCIS' and a couple of 'CSI's' before turning out the lights (Calories consumed, 1,570, 240cals OVER today's target Whoops!!)

Tuesday 16th April, Again I didn't fall asleep until 7.30am, can't recall any dream if I had one? Woke at 10.30am after only 3hrs sleep. I had some hot water with lemon juice & had a wash, I sliced a bagel in half & toasted the two half's & spread them with egg-mayo & drizzled with 'Blue Dragon' Sweet Chilli Sauce. Then I put on my hot pink undies, and wore my torn jeans, hot pink top & white Reebok, EasyTone trainers & headed out to my local off licence for a litre of milk & a Sun newspaper. 

I read the newspaper, the front page of course, was about the Boston Marathon, bombings, that was all over Twitter & the news last night. A boy of 8 is among the 3 dead & there are at least 130 injured. More devices  were found & made safe by police via controlled explosions. There was also a bit in the paper about 'Margaret Thatchers' funeral today, which I missed due to sleeping in, due to lack of sleep. While all the 'Lefty Morons', shout & bitch about the 'Conservatives' wasting money on pomp & ceremony, for 'Maggie's' funeral, to up their political profile. It was in fact their OWN 'Left Wing, Labour' members 'Tony (Insincere, Fill My Boots) Blair' & 'Gordon (Spunk Your Money) Brown' who organised & approved every detail of MT's funeral.... Years ago!!! So up yours!!.... To all you Lefty whingers!! 

A pregnant 23yr mum, 'Fiona Anderson' has killed herself & her 3 kids, after writing 'No one wants us' how awful & tragic. She jumped 40ft from a Suffolk car park, police found the 3 children, aged 3yrs, 2yrs & 11 months, dead at home half a mile away in Lowestoft. Friends say she left a string of despairing Facebook messages after, the father of her children apparently left her for someone else. One read 'No 1 wants us. No 1 will help us. The people who are supposed to help us, just tell lies & try & take my baby's away. I keep trying but No 1 will listen. Craig is all we had & now he is gone (Where were her friends? Parents? Siblings?) He hurt us & left us on our own. Were trapped here we can't get away. Everyone wants to hurt us. Their daddy the love of my life wants to hurt us. I can't make it stop. I want it to all go away but it wont stop. I need to hug my babies while they are sleeping & keep them safe & never let go' 

Today's page 3, Sam 27 from Manchester was a beauty. Not so beautiful is nutter 'Katherine Thurston', 47 (Above) She looks a lot older!! The nutter who stalked 'Hugh Jackman' to his NY gym throwing an electric razor full of her pubic hair (Euuuuwe) at him, screaming "I love you" (Yeah that's the way to a married man's heart) She said the razor was symbolic as "I hated him having those whiskers" The mad stalker approached him in San Francisco last year & also his wife near their daughters school, saying "I'm going to marry your husband" Following her arrest for the gym attack she said "It's not against the law to have two wives!!" Yeah like he'd marry you, you stalky nutter, he wouldn't touch a headcase like you, even if you were HOT which your soooo NOT!!

Murders - Connor, Brandon & Simon

Two teen brothers & an equally vile friend (Above) were jailed for the sickening crime, of killing a homeless man for a dare!! 'Connor Doran' 17, 'Brandon Doran' 14 & their friend 'Simon Evans' 14, targeted homeless 'Kevin Bennett' 53 as he slept rough, outside a Liverpool, Iceland, supermarket. Vile Connor goaded Simon, saying "I bet you haven't got it in you to do him in!!" Kevin suffered a fractured eye socket, a collapsed lung & a broken rib cage, which sickeningly detached from his chest. He died in hospital 6 days later, from his injury's. Simon told a friend "I started kicking him, I booted him, and now he's dead!" The younger brother Brandon 14, acted as a look out for the other two, on August 17, 2012, in the wee hrs (What the hell, were kids that age, doing out in the wee hrs??) 

Worthless Mother - Linda Doran

(What kind of feckless parents do both sets of teens have??) Leader Connor 17 got a minimum of 12yrs (Not enough) Simon 14 at least 8yrs (Not enough) & Brandon 14 six years (Not enough) The Brothers repugnant, excuse, for a mother 'Linda Doran' (Above) was also jailed for 30 months for (Nowhere Near Enough!!) For giving false alibi's for her sons, and perverting the course of justice. The vile waste of flesh is obviously a terrible mother, if you can use the 'M' word to describe her!!? Her Eldest son 'Ryan Doran' 23, was jailed last October, for murdering a 42yr old, at a Takeaway, in an unprovoked attack. Plus another son 'Jordan Doran' 21, was jailed for manslaughter. So 4 sons, in jail, for the deaths of others, I wouldn't hold my breath, for a 'Mother Of The Year Award' if I was her. 

'Ozzy & Sharon Osbourne', are having marriage problems, and are living separately, Ozzy blames Sharon's obsession with the showbiz lifestyle, which he say's he hates. My stars for Gemini said - 'Venus shines a light on secret feelings (Oh I'm just full, of secret feelings lol) & you can see more clearly what a partner wants & needs. Single? You see the love potential in a business-like newcomer (Lol the only business-like people I know are women!) A chance to work with people you like, means more than money. Luck is building for you & an older Leo relative' (The only Leo relative I know/knew, was my late mother)

Paper read, I shoved my gym leggings & a T-shirt in my rucksack, along with my ankle & wrist weights & my water bottle, then headed off for the gym. I did my usual 30min Bike, 100 reps, on the hip Adductor & 100 on the hip Abductor, plus 20mins on the cross trainer, plus the leg extensions & leg curls, also the Power Plate was working again. After 2 hours of working out, I showered & changed & headed home. Hungry, I heated the 2nd Onion Bhaji, that I didn't eat last night, in my microwave & sliced it in half & wrapped it, in the warmed, half of Garlic Naan bread, not eaten last night, with some of the minty green sauce, the meal came with. Quite a tasty combo. Then I did a load of laundry, housework & hoovering. Before settling down to watch 'The Real Housewives Of Atlanta' 'Millionaire Matchmaker' & 'Home & Away' then I packed my bag with a note book, pen etc for my radio presenter training later. 

I grilled 2 Quorn burgers & had them in a crusty roll, with egg-mayo & sweet chilli sauce, washed down with a Caffeine Free Diet Coke. Then headed off for my Radio Training, at Dagnall Street, Baptist Church, Upper Dagnall St. There were 11 of us there a whole bunch never turned up, judging by the name badges left over. There were about 4 women out of the 11 trainee's & there were a range of ages, backgrounds & ethnicity's, it was mainly a power point presentation, with questions & answers today. We finished at 9.30pm & I walked home. Mike was still out when I got in, I think he is watching footie down the pub. So I stripped had a wash, slipped on my dressing gown, then made myself a coffee & retired to my bedroom to watch TV. I had a Cadbury wholenut bar with my coffee & watched '666 Park Avenue' then 'Dallas' heard Mike come home, said "Hello" before he hit the sack in the lounge. I watched 'CSI' then crashed myself (Calories consumed, 1,413, 186cals UNDER target Good!!)

Wednesday 17th April, I know I dreamt & I know it was complex, I'm sure my brother & mum were in it again, I think Mike may have been too? & a dog or wolf? But annoyingly, my memory of it, has faded  now, it was so clear, when I had just woken. Heard Mike leave at 6am & slept again until 7am, then I did a load of business plans, to take in to Luton, Thursday, to enquire about, how I could get a business off the ground & what help I could have, in the 1st year or two, if any? I had a wash & put my hair in a ponytail & did a light make-up & dressed the same as yesterday but with peach underwear. Then I popped to the shop to get a Sun newspaper, and some Galaxy Counters, I got back in, made a coffee & settled down to read the paper & have the Galaxy chocolate buttons with my coffee. 

I read the Sun newspaper, the front page was the Boston Marathon bombing's, two victims, 8yr Martin Richard, ironically, holding, a hand made poster (Below) saying 'No more hurting people - Peace' plus 29yr restaurant manager, Krystle Campbell. The FBI are still trying to identify who planned the blasts. President Obama vowed to find them! The bombs were made, from common, pressure cookers, stuffed with ball bearings & nails to maximise harm (Evil Bastards) Cute Martin Richard 8, died in the blast, his 6yr old sister Jane, lost a leg, his 12yr brother Henry escaped unhurt, as did his dad Bill, but his mum Denise has undergone a brain op! 

The Newcastle FC, scum, 'Barry Rogerson' 45, who punched, a police horse, in the nose, after Newcastle FC lost 3-0 to Sunderland FC, is a probable benefit cheat, who is claiming £150 a week in disability benefits, he quit working 8yrs ago in 2005 due to a lung condition. Yet the hefty thug, had no problem delivering hefty right hooks. He admitted yesterday "To hit a horse like - bloody hell, I don't know what came over me!" (Violence, that's what came over you, you scumbag!!) 

Talking of worthless scum bags, cops found a stash of drugs worth nearly £2Million in the back of a van, after it's criminal driver, crashed it, trying to avoid a pheasant (Give the bird a medal!!) Drug Dealer filth, 'Brendan Kinlan' 42, swerved the VW Caddy to miss the bird & struck the M1's central reservation, near Wakefield, West Yorks. He walked away from the wreck, cops towed the van, to a garage. Where suspicious  staff (After Kinlan, kept asking if he could get the "pots & pans" in the back) searched it, finding 384lb of amphetamine, shrink wrapped in packages. The criminal scum was jailed for 8yrs. 

Today's page 3, Danni 25, from Coventry is cute, Madonna could be banned from Russia for backing the imprisoned 'Pussy Riot' singers (Doubt that will put a dent in her bank balance!) who are anti 'Vladimir Putin' like most sane people. Meanwhile gig organisers of her Moscow & St Petersburg gigs last year could be fined £10,500. My stars for Gemini today say - 'Pluto, the planet which benefits you in unexpected ways, sees that long ago kindness, done by your family, is repaid many times over (Yeah, that will be the day!) Don't calculate what each partner gets from love (I don't...... EVER!!) - simply enjoying the moment, deepens a bond. Single? Your new love, is a sexy, mysterious, Libra' 

Reading over, I grabbed my gym kit & did the same 2hr gym session as yesterday, working up a real sweat. I got in & fixed lunch, I had half a toasted bagel, with M&S Deli, Mozzarella & Casalinga Tomato's, plus essential Waitrose, Very Berry Trifle washed down with a decaf Diet Coke. Then I watched 'Millionaire Matchmaker' before jumping in the shower, I washed & dried my hair & did a classy subtle make up. I changed into, fresh, baby pink, underwear & slipped on my indigo boot leg jeans & my baby pink, soft, fluffy, angora, V-neck sweater, plus my tan, leather, ankle boots. I added a few clip-in extensions, to give my hair, a bit more body & a tad more length. If the Vi health shakes, do their job, I hopefully wont need that, soon. I put some diamante studs in my ears & put my purse, diary, and make-up bag & pen in my navy Chanel handbag. 

I sprayed on my Cavalli perfume & Mike arrived, back from work around 7pm, just as my 3 samples of Vi Shake & info package arrived via courier. I said "Hi & bye" to Mike as I headed out to meet the girls, for a long night of chat. I got to the station & jumped on my train into Kings Cross & got the tube to Vauxhall, where I got another train to Surbiton. I met up with the girls & we had a real good natter & I told them about the Vi 90 Day Challenge they sounded quite interested & 2 said they'd look it up. One of the girls, JJ, saw a baby pink, cowgirl hat, on the side & plonked it on my head, saying it went with my outfit tonight. We all had a bite to eat, I had a coffee & a toasted, tuna melt, sandwich. We had a real laugh, talking about guys & their odd chat up lines, plus tomorrows business meeting, etc & after what seemed like 30mins, but now in the wee hrs, it was time to get my train back home. JJ gave me a lift to Kings Cross, as she was headed that way & I got my train home. Walking home with the birds tweeting, what a dirty stop out. (Calories consumed 1,623, 258cals UNDER today's target, Good!!)

Thursday 18th April., Mike, had thankfully, stopped snoring, when I got in, but I was still so pumped from my evening with the girls, that I still didn't fall asleep, until around 8am, long after Mike had left for work. I fell asleep until 11.30am & woke up feeling quite refreshed, despite having only 3.5hrs sleep tops. I had a shower & put on red lingerie. I fixed a cappuccino & had some smoked salmon & scrambled egg, on wholemeal toast, for breakfast. I back-combed my hair, to make it fuller & did a 50's make-up, with red lipstick & some black, liquid eyeliner. I wore my indigo bootleg, jeans, with my red, short sleeved, 50's style, shirt & red, sling back, shoes. Then I bought a Sun paper, from the Off Licence. Then I came home, and went online, to check my emails, for replies to my job & audition, applications, plus I checked my Facebook & Twitter messages, while having a Diet Coke. 

Then I read the Sun newspaper, it had a tribute, almost poster, cover of her coffin being carried with R.I.P  MRS T & a quote from the Bishop Of London, on it & 13 pages were naturally dedicated to the great woman's funeral. And page 3, cutie, Hollie, 23, from Manchester, got moved to page 17. Meanwhile the FBI have identified a suspect, in the Boston Marathon, bombings. After CCTV footage emerged of a man dropping a black bag at the scene of the crime. The bombs were made with pressure cookers inside bags. It's just so disgusting, that this was done, at a charity event!! 


Another disgusting act, connected to charity. Comes via vile, volunteer fundraiser 'Christopher Copeland', 50, from Copplestone, Devon. Who was yesterday charged with pocketing £561,000 meant for the 'Help For Heroes' Armed Forces Charity, between 2009 & 2011. What a truely, weak, disgusting, individual, he is!!! He siphoned off money meant to help some of our heroes, into his own business account! He will appear in court on May 8th. 

There was an awful picture of 'Kylie Minogue' where she looked a lot older (Above) in the TV Biz section, taken I think, from a new, TV, short film, she is in 'Hey Diddly Dee'  from  fellow Gemini Kylie, to my Sun, Gemini Stars - 'Jupiter contacts the moon & you can find the words & ways that make family life run smoothly & get two stubborn people talking again. Love makes progress now partners work from the same set of rules. Looking? Your destiny partner has a voice you know well'  Paper read it was time to head for my meeting in Luton, with Donna & to discuss my business plan. 


The weather is weird today, one min HOT sunshine, the next min, rain or hail!! The rain stopped, just as I put on my coat & headed out for the station. Once at the station, on the platform, it poured with rain. Once on the train, it continued to rain. I picked up a  Metro paper, to read, off of the seat opposite, it was mostly about 'Margaret Thatchers' funeral, plus stuff I'd read, in The Sun. My stars for Gemini said - 'It pays to keep your wits about you if a friends situation disappoints you. Make sensible choices & especially if a health matter demands your attention (My neck?) Consider trying something a little out of the ordinary' (Don't I always?)  

The rain had stopped, by the time I got to Luton, but started again, once I was 2mins away, from the Luton office doors. Once inside, I met up with Donna, who was as lovely & bubbly as ever (So unlike vile Cindy) I told her about my business idea & she thought it was a good, well thought out idea, that could be very successful & gave me some paperwork, that tells you a bit about, starting your own small business. She also booked me in to see someone on April 30th who is a bit of a small business mentor, who would be able to help me further.  

After I left Donna, I popped into Primark, to get, two, thin belts, 1 black & 1 navy, for £2.99 each, in size S/M (8-12) Plus a white cardigan, as I needed something for spring, when it's warmer, but still a bit nippy. Then feeling hungry, I had a McDonalds, veggie burger meal, before catching the train back home. Once home, I watched 'Millionaire Matchmaker' then I had a bath. Once dry, I got ready, as Mike & I, are off out to dinner tonight. I changed into black undies & black nylons, and wore a navy lace & chiffon, mini, shift dress, with the navy belt, I bought today & my black, high heeled, court shoes, plus navy jewellery & my navy Chanel bag. & I put my hair back & added a faux ponytail. 

Mike arrived home, around 7- 7.30pm & jumped in the shower & got ready & we headed out, around 8pm ish. I wore my long black Primark coat & took my B&W, Versace, umbrella, due to the very changeable, weather. The temperature had really dropped & the wind, was blowing a gale. We decided on the 'Little Marrakech' as I'd not been there & Mike had, he said the food was good, plus there was a belly dancer tonight!! I had a Vodka Slimline & Mike had a beer & for starters, I had Deep fried Camembert, with pineapple & cranberry, Mike had calamari (Below)

For our main, Lamb shank for Mike & Swordfish for me, with fries to share, as I'd rather of had fries with my swordfish, as I cant eat a lot of rice & there was a lot under my swordfish (As like pasta it upsets my stomach) Mike loved his Lamb, and my Swordfish was very tasty.

A change in music, denoted, the belly dancer, was about to start, she wasn't quite, the glamorous vision, I had in mind, in a spangled colourful costume. In fact, she was a bit like like 'Benidorm' actress, 'Janine Duvitski'.... With a rather plain, dowdy outfit, which I am guessing, was home made, but she was fun, though nobody put any money, down her costume... I was shocked, as back in the day, that's where you made your money, I only had a debit card on me, so I couldn't shove, a fiver down her skirt, I felt a bit sorry for her. 

She got people up dancing, including me & two other guys, I was good & resisted the dessert & just had a cappuccino & then Mike & I went over to the Peahen, for one final drink & to people watch. The Peahen was 80% women & 20% men, tonight, it seemed, which eyes on stalks, Mike, seemed pleased about, as he ogled away lol. Oddly too 100% of the women, were blonde. One group of five women, walked in. They all had poker straight, below shoulder length, blonde hair, parted in the middle (Gwyneth 'Bore' Paltrow style) They ranged from approx dress size 6 to 16, like one woman had been cloned, in various sizes (One to suit every man's taste, EXCEPT, redhead/brunet/afro fans!) There were 4 guys, in their 40's to 50's, who I think were actors. One in particular, looked very familiar, a bit like actor 'Ricardo Montalban' he had the ideal face, for Roman, historic, type films. I had another Vodka Slimline & Mike a Sol Beer, then we headed home, in what felt like, a tornado, the wind was so strong! Once home, we both retired to our beds & I read some more, of my book (Below) before lights out. (Calories consumed 2,257, 112cals OVER today's target, oh oh naughty!)

Friday 19th April, I must of had a sound sleep, through Mikes snoring, thanks to Dr Vodka, as I didn't even wake, when Mike got up, or when he left for work. In fact I slept through until my alarm went off at 9am!! Result!! I had a shower & decided to wear the same as yesterday, to meet with, some lads mag, models, that said they would be up for getting involved, if I got my business idea off the ground, some of who, I spent time with on Wednesday. As it looks girly, but still a bit business like. I fixed a veggie sausage buttie, with brown sauce & mustard, for breakfast, washed down with a coffee. I put on, fresh black underwear & hosiery & dressed the same as yesterday, but put my heels, in my bag & wore black pumps for the commute, as the ridges in escalators, on the tube, ruin your heels! Then around 10.30am, I pulled on, my long black coat & set off for the station, buying a Sun paper, en route. I got to the station & got a ticket from the machine & waited for my train to arrive. 

I read the Sun paper on the train, the front page headline was 'World Exclusive, Rolf Harris Sex Abuse Arrest' I actually knew about this about Rolf (Above) back in March, via Twitter, I wondered why, it had not been in the papers?  He'd been arrested, on March 28th, 2013, after his home, being raided earlier, on Nov 24th, 2012, when he was not in. Meanwhile, cops say, vile 'Jimmy Savile's' victims could number, as many as 1,350!! Talking of scum, there was a picture, of two suspects, for the 'Boston Marathon' bombings! Both in base ball caps, carrying rucksacks. Talking of explosions, there were photos of the devastation, caused by the explosion at a Texas, Fertiliser Plant. 80 homes were flattened & at least 15 are dead. The blast was heard 50miles away!! 

 Boston Marathon, Bomb, Aftermath 

Texas Explosion Aftermath

Today's page 3 'Staci', 23 from Preston is a stunner, where as there is a pic of waste of molecules 'Dappy' looking stunned in a hotel corridor, at 11am with white powder on his nose (Idiot) He said it was talc from a make-up girl who was trying to make him look like 'Scarface's' 'Tony Montana' yeah sure! There was an amazing, graphic image, of the futuristic home (Below) that £45Million 'EuroMillions' winner 'Matt Topham' is having built, which they are calling 'Serenity' & will cost £5Million..... I LOVE it!!..... It is exactly the style of home, I would chose to have, if  I had the money!! It was inspired by character 'Tony Stark's' home, in 'Iron Man' it will have an underground garage that can hold 10 cars, that is hidden by a waterfall, botanical gardens, a pool & cinema. It is designed by London based 'Baca Architects' & still needs planning permission. 

 My Kind Of - Serenity 

Vile Hate Cleric 'Abu Qatada' may be prosecuted in Britain, due to evidence seized, when he (Unsurprisingly) breached his bail conditions. That means being in one of our cushy jails, for longer, thanks to those arsehole EU judges not letting him be sent to Jordan. Grrrrrrrrr!!! Talking of trash a CONVICTED 18yr old, teenage paedo, 'Opemipo Jaji' raped a 11yr old girl, straight after going to see his probation officer (He should of never of been free) He stalked her on a bus, then dragged her into an unlit park, assaulting her for 3hrs, while  telling the frightened girl "I'm this close to killing you!" He denied the attack (What a surprise) despite the young girls blood, being found on his clothes, which forced her to have to go through testifying, via video-link, at The Old Bailey (Cowardly Bastard!) But he was unsurprisingly found guilty, and facing Life behind bars (I hope it is LIFE the vile animal) Why he was out of jail & able to commit that rape, when 6 months earlier, he'd been caught, downloading sick images, of children. Plus a year earlier he sexually assaulted a 12yr old girl on a housing estate, after shoving her school tie in her mouth!! 

Talking of terrorists, four, vile, British, terrorists, Zahid Iqbal, 31, Mohamed Ahmed, 25, Umar Arshad, 24 & Syed Hussain, 22, were jailed for a total of 44.5yrs (Should be longer) for plotting to bomb an army base, using a toy car. The remote controlled device, was to be packed with explosives, then driven under security gates, then blown up once beneath a parked vehicle. All of the 4 bits of scum, came from, local Luton, Beds. They planned to attack Luton's Territorial Army Centre (How Brave... NOT!!) They also spoke of targeting MI5, a shopping centre, plus The English Defence League. The vile bunch, had originally planned suicide bombings against UK forces in Afghanistan (Where I know numerous soldiers) but switched to UK when they lost contact with an al-Qaeda leader, in Pakistan. Zahid & Mohamed got 6yrs 9months each, plus Umar & Syed got 5yrs 3months each.

More scum in the form of 4 NHS carers, 'James Hinds' 59 'Susan Murphy' 44, 'Julie Burge' 49 & 'Michael Barnard' 50, who abused the disabled in their care, dragging some by their hair. 17 victims were often locked in a cupboard & jabbed with a sewing needle, at 'The Solar Centre' (Nothing sunny about their attitude) in Doncaster, South Yorkshire. The abuse went on for 2yrs before the alarm was announced in 2007. It is claimed the vile four also intimidated other staff! 

My stars for Gemini said - 'There is strength inside you & this is the moment to let it show. When you do it has such a positive effect on your life. And with inspirational Neptune in your success chart, your idea's are smart (Aren't they always!!?) If you are single, your new love has the same name as your 1st crush' (Robin Philpott??) 

I got to Kings Cross & grabbed a Cappuccino, from Costa Coffee & then I got the tube to Vauxhall (I seem to pass through there a lot, whether to meet friends, or for auditions, or job interviews etc) lately. Then I had a 20min wait, for my train to Hersham. Where I met up with, a group of 6 girls, that do, Loaded, Nuts & Mayfair magazines. I told them, how my Luton meeting had gone, the day before & about my appointment, to talk to a small business mentor on the 30th. Then we discussed, what they wanted out of their involvement? & also what they wanted from the business, I had in mind! We also discussed, what we thought was needed most, in the gap in the market, that I'd found. We chatted for ages amongst ourselves & on the phone & time flew. 

We had lunch & I had a cheese & spring onion sandwich, chilli Doritos & a few Diet Cokes, We chatted some more, about my business idea, men, bitchy women, and I also mentioned, that I was trying out Vi, which is now over here, from America. A couple of them, were interested in hearing more. So I gave them my 'Vi 90 Day Challenge'  magazine, that Amanda gave me, for them to thumb through. We spent the rest of the afternoon/evening chatting & laughing & drinking coffee's & Diet Cokes. Hungry again, some time later, I had a tuna, triple club, sandwich & a raspberry yoghurt, while the other girls, had an array of fattening junk food (How they keep so tiny, is a mystery?) 

Eventually all talked out, around 8.30pm, I headed for the station, the temp had dropped dramatically outside, brrrrr!! As I climbed the stairs to the platform, I saw a girl, sat on the arm, of a bench, staring at her feet, as if in a daze, looking most odd!! Suddenly, a young guy, reeking of hash, came up & said "Come on lets go" & her odd demeanour, suddenly, became clear (Stupid druggies!) I sat on the windy, station, platform & flicked through the Metro. There wasn't much, new, news, but I looked at my stars for Gemini, which said - 'Surprises abound today. A friend could make a last minute change, or you could find yourself becoming militant, if the boss asks you to do yet 'another' good turn for them. If you have a quirky sense of fun (Yep!) it can shine'  

Soon after, 3 people ranging in ages, from around 26, to 32, came onto the platform & sat on the next bench along. Then my ears were assaulted, by the puerile, inane, drivel, that spewed forth from their lips. It was beyond childish, a 8yr old would of been embarrassed, to come out with such idiotic verbiage!! One thing is for sure, they will never be accused of using 'sesquipedalian verbiage' Their never ending, stream, of brain dead, uttering's, grated on me, to the point I was imagining various way of throwing them on the tracks/under a train (In a 'Dexter' mixed with 'Ally McBeal' way) As I don't suffer fools gladly & these were A1 morons!! 


I have all the time in the world ,for the mentally handicapped, or the physically handicapped, but when people have a fully functioning brain, but are to lazy to use it, it irks me, BIG TIME!!! Honestly, this bunch could of sold their brains, on eBay, under the section 'Unused' They were such vegetables, if I'd bitten one, I'd of got all 5, of my '5 a Day' So to distract me, from going over & shouting "Shut the fuck up!!"  in their face, I text a few friends, about my frustration, until the train arrived & I could get in, a separate, 'Sound Proofed' carriage.... Thank God!!!

Vauxhall

I got the train to Vauxhall, musing over writing a book, about a female serial killer, who just kills idiots, like those, on the train platform..... That would clear up the council house, waiting list, in the UK & drop the unemployment rate. I got the tube to Kings Cross & jumped on the train home. I got in around 11pm, Mike had packed all his stuff & left for London, to stay in a hotel, ready for a friends wedding tomorrow. He had locked the door & posted the spare keys through the letter box. It was really great to see him, we always have a laugh, but I really, wont miss, the snoring, or the bathroom, smelling like a urinal (Ughh!!) 


Still peckish I had 4 crab sticks, that Mike had left in the fridge (Why do they call them 'Crab Sticks' when they are made of fish scraps, NOT crab & they don't even taste remotely of crab!!?) Then I caught the end of 'The Graham Norton Show'  Luckily, I missed the 'Gwyneth Paltrow' bit, which would have, no doubt, been, a total borefest. Mind you, it might of helped, send me off to sleep!! Then I watched 'The Matt Lucas Awards' for the 1st time, OK, so so, a bit room 101. Stupidly I didn't watch 'Butterfly On A Wheel' as I didn't realise 'Pierce Brosnan' was in it until too late!! (LOVE Pierce Phwooooor!!) I watched the film 'Kiss Kiss Bang Bang' instead (Oh what a fool) going to bed at 2am (Calories consumed 2,183, 38cals OVER today's target, whoops but not too bad!)

Saturday 20th April, I had a deep sleep & a lay in (First time all week) but even though I know I had a long complex dream.... I can't recall it. I got up at 11am & bleached the bathroom floor, as it smells like a urinal in there, after Mikes stay! (44yrs to perfect his aim & yet, still it seems, he shoots his man hose & it's contents, hit my floor!!) I had a wash & changed into, some white underwear, my ripped jeans & my grey, studded, tiger print, 'Primark' T-Shirt & 'TrimSole' leopard thong sandals. It is a beautiful, warm, sunny spring day, out today, so I thought I'd use it, to weed & tidy, my tiny bit of garden, which the cold & my bad neck, had deterred me from, since Xmas. Pulled up loads of weeds, and put weed killer on the brick courtyard, to kill the weeds between the brickwork. It was nearly 4pm when I realised I'd not eaten, so I popped to the shop to get a Sun newspaper & 2 Zero Cokes, as they were out of Decaf Diet Cokes. 

I took a break & made myself my 1st, Vi Shape Nutrition Shake (Made to the, Peanut Butter Cup, recipe, Above) which was very tasty!!! If you want to learn more about, Vi & the 90 day challenge, click the link HERE!!!! I will look forward to doing the 'Vi 90 Day Challenge' when I receive my 1st months supply. Then I sat down, on my garden chair, in the sun, and enjoyed my shake, as I read the Sun newspaper. The front page was about the vile, repugnant, cowardly, Chechen, immigrant, terrorist, bombers, who bombed the Boston Marathon. Scum, 'Dzhokhar Tsarnaev' 19, has been captured alive (Shame he is alive, but MAYBE he will later give answers, as to why?) After escaping a shoot out in the city, in which his evil brother 'Tamerlan' died (Good!!) after shooting a cop dead! The dead brother was a boxer who loved comedy character 'Borat' & the survivor, a Harvard life guard (Oh the irony!) 

Meanwhile moronic QPR (Queen Park Rangers) FC, player, 'Jay Bothroyd' has a stupid & Very Ugly, Gangsta, Tattoo, of a Gun, a Grenade, a Flick Knife & an Automatic Rifle, down the side of his torso (Above) which when laid on his stomach spells LOVE. Talking of  A1 morons, dad to be & Uba Twat, known as 'Martin Middleton'  26, from Bolton (Below) Has injured his face & blown his fingers off, making a 'Pipe Bomb' at home - For Fun!!! (WTF!!??) Well I wonder, how much fun, having no fingers is?? Idiot!! That's one extreme way, of getting out of changing nappies!! 

There was news on 83yr, Rolf Harris's two Ch5 shows ('Animal Clinic' plus 'Olive The Ostrich') the being axed from TV after news of his arrest, in connection to the Savile enquiry! He deny's allegations & has been quizzed twice by cops. Nickleodeon also shelved 'Olive The Ostrich' which Rolf narrates. Asked about the accusations Rolf said "No Comment!!" Rolf is the 11th person arrested in connection to the Savile case.   

There was the 1st pic of 'Kim Kardashian' looking good, in her LA attire, while pregnant (Above) Compared to the other monstrositys she has worn, while pregnant. Her hair & make-up were good & despite wearing jeans, plus a camisole top, with a lacy section, that showed off her swelling, pregnancy, belly. She looked slimmer & more shapely, than in her other hideous outfits of late! Not much else of interest (The weekend Sun papers, have nothing of interest, for me, past the centre pages, I only buy them, for the TV guide on Saturday & supplement, on a Sunday!!) My Stars for Gemini said - 'Venus drives into the secret part of your chart & helps you solve a mystery of what a partner wants, and needs from you. Still looking? When you feel you recognise someone - though you haven't met before - it's love. But it's a calm statement of the facts that gets the family support you need' (I have got by, with no family help so far, I can do without it now!) 

Peckish, I had a bowl of strawberry mini Weetabix, then continued gardening, for a bit & I got quite a tan!! Then I came in to watch 'You Have Been Framed' plus 'Britain's Got Talent' doing a bit of Tweeting as I watched. The very attractive, female impressionist, 'Francine Lewis' who comes from my old haunt, Southgate, was very good, at 'Stacey Soloman, Amy Childs, Katie Price, Holly Willoughby' & 'Cheryl Cole' she will do well whether she wins or not. I put some salmon & mangetoute in the steamer, then watched 'Britain's Got More Talent' then fixed my evening meal of steamed salmon & mangetoute & spinach in a lemon & herb, butter sauce. 

Then I watched 'The Jonathan Ross Show' They had 'Will.i.am' who irks me on, plus 'Steve Coogan' who was on to plug the film 'The Look Of Love' about 'Paul Raymond'. I made a coffee & had with some 'Galaxy Counters' chocolate buttons. Then I watched the highly sexual & highly gory 'Spartacus Vengeance' & as I was clicking channels, to see what was on, I saw Rob was on 'SuperCasino' so I watched that for a bit, as I blogged, until 'Would I Lie To You' came on, which was very funny.  

Earlier, I'd had spam mail, sent to me by Carl, someone I knew years ago, when I was a regular on 'Big Brothers Little Brother' hosted by 'George Lamb' when 'Big Brother' was on Channel 4 (It didn't continue, when Ch5 bought Big Brother) So I replied, that he had been hacked & was posting spam & for him to change his password. So I was surprised when at 2.22am, I received the email below.....


Hi babes

Long time no talk :( any way hope ur all good n all that. You replied to me saying it was spam. I didnt send it out and those other cc i dont even know them !!! Fuck thats strange :(

Anyway dunno if u remember me but i bumped into u at the studios a few years ago n we sat together through one of the bb little bro recordings. Do you remember me? U better u sexy minx xx yes i said it ur sexy n u know it. Actually i must confess that day you sat next too me you gave me a hard on babes. Honest wicked buzz/chemistry i felt from you well nice. Wouldnt mind feeling it again? Sorry for being a naughty lil fucker but had too tell you how i felt back then. Its goid too share at times !!!

Keep in touch hunny. Reply on this email. Yer yer i know its hottie !!! Flmao
Xx

Carl


OMFG!!....... What the hell???? I didn't reply, what an odd email!! I most certainly, felt NO CHEMISTRY & I'd really, rather not know, that he had a hard on, while sat next to me, in the studio (Yuck!!) I chatted a bit, on Twitter, bantering with the girls & laughing about my email above, then eventually went to bed, just before 4am (Calories consumed 1,527, 140cals UNDER today's target good) 

Sunday 21st April, I know I dreamt, but my dream, was disturbed by a call, from Carl (BBLB 'Hard On' Carl) At 9.33am (Calling BEFORE 11am on a Sunday...... Fuck Right Off!!!) I didn't answer it! I chilled in bed, listening to 4Music, until 10.30am, then dragged my carcass into the shower. I dressed the same as yesterday, but with lime underwear. It is a pleasant day out, but nothing like yesterday, sadly!! It looked like, it may threaten to rain, any moment. I hoped that the weather, was more clement in Esher, Surrey,  for 'Evie Mae's' Charity event, which 3 of my buddies, Victor Ebuwa, Lewis Clay & Rob Lamarr, are playing a charity, celebrity, football match, for. You can visit Evie Mae's Blog >>> HERE!!!! Or if you'd like to donate, to help the little girl, with 'Cerebral Palsy' her site, where you can donate is >>>> HERE!!!!!! (Just click on the word HERE)

I made a breakfast of, strawberry, mini, Weetabix & popped to the shop, to get a Sun newspaper, which came with a 2 sided 'One Direction' poster, which made me think ,of my friend 'Maxine Webb' &  laugh. There was also a pic of 1D's 'Niall Horan's' hot new Girl Friend 'Zoe Whelan' There was also a picture inside of a naked 'Harry Styles' on a Segway, it wasn't an attractive shot, at all and was made even less appealing, by his stupid, mismatched, ugly  array, of  tattoo's. The front page, was about those, Vile, Boston Marathon, Bombers. Who had a celebration party, to celebrate their evil act (So they think killing a innocent 8yr old boy & blowing off his 6yr old sisters leg, is something worthy of celebrating??) Causing 3 deaths & 176 injured!! Evil Scum!! Meanwhile 1,000's danced in the Boston streets & high five, cops after the suspects killing & capture! Now that partying I approve of!! 

There was also a bit about how 'Big Brothers' late 'Jade Goodie's' estate is facing bankruptcy, after being hit with a £1Million tax bill, leaving her 2 young son's nothing. Meanwhile 'Natasha Giggs' is divorcing 'Rhodri Giggs' after her long term affair with his scumbag, munter, brother 'Ryan Gigs' wouldn't snog him, let alone shag him, or his brother, if you paid me!! Yuck!! There was a bit on 'Francine Lewis' The hot, female, impressionist, from last nights 'Britain's Got Talent' Apparently, she's a sex mad, ex model, who has spent the night, with 'Leonardo DiCaprio' in 1999, when she was a hostess, on 'The Generation Game' She is also rumoured, to have had, a fling, with 'Eastenders' actor 'Michael Greco' 

Sexy, Francine Lewis, Makes Quite An Impression

She once said "I'm so sexy no one man can satisfy me" (Not that surprising, not that many men, are all that, or very exciting, in bed, to be honest!.... Most are, at BEST, distinctly average!!) That's why, despite having plenty of offers, I rarely, take anyone up on them! As if your going to have casual sex, casual, once in a while, sex, is No Good!! As once you start having sex again, you want it, more & more often! So if it's going to be, a casual thing, once every 4 to 10 weeks is no good, it still needs to be, sex 1-2 times a week, at least!!... 

So then, there is the next difficulty, of casual sex, finding someone, who's personality, your attracted to enough, to want to see casually, at least once, or twice a week. Pretty boys, with amazing body's, are NOT hard, for ANY  Woman, to get regular, casual sex, from. But sadly HOT LOOKS, is usually ALL they have, and they need to work out, their personality, and technique out harder, than they already do, their body's!! Also they are often, all brawn & no brain. I'd rather be with, an averagely attractive guy, with an average body, who is fun, interesting & intelligent to talk to & HOTER in the sack, than in looks, who I can have a laugh with. The mantra Gemini cant cum, if your dumb, is spot on!!

The Grandfather of 'Justin Bieber' who lives in squalor, says "Justin is worth £70Million, but we haven't seen a penny & we are desperate" Now I don't know how close he is, to his grandparents, on his fathers side? But with that much money, just buying them, a decent, modest, home & putting a few quid, in his granddads bank account, wouldn't kill him! I have to question also why Justin's dad hasn't helped his father, or suggested Justin does. If I won the lottery, I'd help out my sibling's, even though at present, they are all better off, than me! Plus I'd help my friends too! 

My stars for Gemini said - 'It's time to discover more about yourself as the power of Mars helps you recognise hidden strengths & skills - be sure to make a plan to use them (Oh I am, I AM!!) A Love seems meant to be, when you just have to think of someone, to get that longed-for call (That use to happen, with my soul mate, Angelo, all of the time!) Is a love choice ready to be made?'

 Winona's - Jo March

 My Namesake - June Allyson's - Jo March

I sent Good Luck/Have a Great Day, messages to Victor, Lewis & Rob, for the charity footie match, today, then I did a few household chores & watched a bit of 'Cheaters' on Really TV. It always makes me laugh, before watching the REMAKE of 'Little Women' I was named after the Actress 'June Allyson' who played 'Jo March' in the ORIGINAL (Above) who 'Winona Ryder' plays in the remake (Top Above) I like the fact, that my namesake, played the most fun, feisty & independent, character in 'Little Women' I'd hate to have had, a soppy, weak, needy, character played by a namesake, lol. I had a Vi Chocolate, health flavour mix, Slim Shake for lunch, before the film started (Find out more about Vi, the health/diet sensation, that has finally come, from the US, to the UK >> HERE!! )

I did some laundry & washing up, then watched 'Catchphrase' I got ALL the catchphrases, easily!! Then I fixed dinner watching the end of 'The 5th Element' ace movie. I wasn't really hungry, so I had 4 crispbread's, with Tesco cheese & onion sandwich spread, with a coffee. Then I enjoyed the fab 'Once Upon A Time' which has now got up to speed, after the rather slow, 1st episode, of the 2nd series. Then I watched 'Person of Interest' followed by the film 'Blood Work' then did a load of blogging until 2am when I hit the sack after a brief chat with a USA girlfriend on twitter. (Calories consumed 1,598, 268cals OVER today's target Bad Girl!!)