Operation's What A Pain In The Neck

Monday 24th September, I woke at 7am, after a restless sleep, mainly thanks to, pain in my neck & shoulder, plus the cats. I had a shower & washed my hair. The septic blister, on my left big toe, it mushy and painful still (I've never had a blister, go like this before sexy NOT!!) I dried my hair & did my make-up, it is a hideous weather outside, blowing a gale & pouring with rain. So I wore jeans & my black, long sleeved, scoop necked, Petite Bateau, T-shirt, plus my black, Petite Bateau, Velour, hoodie, with my khaki, hooded, body warmer over the top & my black wellies. I took my laptop with me, in case the hospital has free wifi, to pass the time on & after feeding & taking care of the cats needs, I set off for the tube (No breakfast due to having my Op) I got to Southgate tube & got my return ticket to Northwood. I then got, the Piccalilli line, train, to Kings Cross & then got the Jubilee line, to Northwood, then I waited for a bus, out in the pouring rain, just outside the station.

I got the bus to Mount Vernon hospital (Bishops Wood private hospital, above, is behind Mount Vernon) I signed in & I was taken to my ward, which I was sharing with 4 other women. All of them there, for the same op as me. I was given the wifi code, for their internet. But the signal was too weak on my ward so that was a no go, bugger!! I thought I'd get some work done, and kill two birds with one stone, as I hate wasting time, that can be filled, by doing something. I filled in a load of hospital consent forms, then I changed into my hospital robe, paper knickers & their foam hospital slippers, oooh sexy not!!!! Then after the nurse, put my name tag, on my wrist. I put back on my black, Velour, hoodie, over the top, as it was very cold. Then I got into my bed & finished my book 'The Angel At No33' Which was quite a sweet, funny, story & covered my old haunts, of Muswell Hill, Alexander Palace, Camden & latest haunt St Albans.

I text Simon & Ian, that I was in my hospital bed, awaiting theatre & they wished me good luck. Simon is just back from LA & Ian is filming on set today. I went down, into theatre on my bed & once in there, the surgeon asked me, yet again, if I was allergic to anything? to double check before proceeding & so I joked "Only unattractive men" and he laughed & said "Your in luck today then" & I laughed too, as they were, in fact, ALL good-looking!! So that's the perks of Private over NHS!! I was moved across onto the operating table, and lain on my left side & local anaesthetic was administered. This is where the op, vastly differed, from the one I had on the NHS a year ago. With the NHS I laid face down with my head/face through a hole, like on a massage table, & the very large needles, were put in my neck & spine, mainly via guesswork.

But this was done with, a kind of live action X-ray machine over my neck & back, where the surgeon, could actually see, the very large needles, going in my neck & spine, via the X-ray like, machine, and manoeuvre them, into the exact spots, where they needed to be, in both my neck & back. I felt a lot of pressure on my neck & spine, plus an ache in my left arm. It was finished 45mins later, by 2.15pm & I was wheeled back to the ward in my bed. Then about 2.30pm they brought me my lunch (So different from NHS) A starter of Heinz mushroom soup, with a brown roll, then a Tuna Jacket Potato, with salad, plus honey & ginger Jersey ice-cream & a pot of coffee & a jug of milk. 

With my book finished, and my laptop unusable, I lay there for a few hours, listening to my iPod, to pass the time. Meanwhile all the other women who'd had the same op before & after me were moaning & groaning & pushing buzzers for the nurse & throwing up!! Bored, I text my buddy, ex Capital Radio DJ, Mark Fox, for some amusing banter, to pass the time. I also got him to paste on my Facebook wall, that I was out of surgery & OK, because I had no wifi, to do it myself. He said he had done so & also taken the piss out of me, at the same time (As I had expected he would do, all along!) 

 DJ & Nutter, Mark Fox 

At 6pm Ian text me, to say that my 'knight in shinning glitter' was on his way, so at 6.30pm, I had a pee (As I knew, enough hospital, etiquette, to know, that I could not be discharged, until I went to the loo, after my op!) So once I was discharged & dressed, I didn't have long to wait, with my cappuccino, in reception, before Ian arrived. We then set off to the bus stop, and it had thankfully stopped chucking it down. We got the tube home & Ian produced, my belated Xmas prezzie, of a Evil Barbie, Barbie Doll (An old Barbie doll, decked in my kind of outfit, also with an array of shoes, a pair of black & silver PVC type leggings, a top, and some funky jeans) Which made me laugh. 

I looked through the script of the film Ian was filming today & he looked at my script, for 'The House That Hell Built - The Medals' Then when we finally reached Southgate, we walked back to Anna's, house, both dying for a pee!! Which made the journey to Anna's seem 10 times as long!! We both got in, had a pee & then after showing Ian, the movement's needed, for the Alien audition, for the 'Worlds End' film, Ian was gone.

So I settled down in front of the TV & watched the simply brilliant 'Revenge' Love, love, love that show!! Just as it finished I got a text from buddie Rob, saying he hoped all had gone well today & to rest & heal. which was really sweet of him, as I know he is a busy bunny, so meant a lot. Peckish again, as I'd had no dinner, I grilled two slices of Haloumi & had it on two, Kracker, Crazy for cheese & tomato, crackers, and washed it all down with a decaf coffee. 

I checked my Facebook, I had a lot of nice, Facebook, messages, from my friends, saying to get well soon, including one from my friend, Imad Handi, who is the best friend of David Gest, you will probably of seen him on screen, if you have watched any program, that includes David. I haven't seen him in ages & the last time he text me, was to say good luck from both him & David Gest, re my Big Brother auditions, so it was good to hear from him. 

Imad & David 

Then I vegged out, watching 'The Greatest Celebrity Body Shockers' until about 11pm, laying on the couch, fighting to stay awake, while trying the outfits, Ian gave me, on my Evil Barbie Doll (Big Kid) But I couldn't get the PVC leggings on, Barbie has obviously piled on the lbs like me! I couldn't find the jeans either, I have a horrible feeling, that, they may have fallen out of my bag, en route home, not sure how, unless when it was when I pulled out my script, to show Ian? Surly I'd of noticed that though?? Eventually gave in to tiredness & went to sleep. (Calories consumed 1,623)

Tuesday 25th September, I slept on & off, in bed until 3pm, feeling very weak & poorly, with a very high temperature, and a banging headache, plus feeling nauseas too! Martin text me, at 1.27pm, asking what time he should come to pick me up? I said 'Any time from 8pm onwards, if that's not too late?' So it would give me time to socialise with Anna, once she is back from Milan & also to pack my case. I eventually forced myself up, out of bed, at 3pm, despite feeling rough. As I knew Anna was due back from Milan around 4pm. I had a wash, fed the cats & pulled on my jeggings & my long sleeved, scooped necked, Petite Bateau, T-shirt. Then made 2 slices of wholemeal toast, with 2 grilled slices of Haloumi & added some Brandston pickle. 

Milan

I was just eating my brunch, when Anna arrived home early, at 3.30pm, laden down with luggage from Milan. We had a chat, while watching, her recording of 'Xfactor' which I'd seen. With me under a duvet, as I was ice cold, and shivering, but my forehead was burning up & felt like it was being battered with sledge hammers!! I felt rough in bed earlier & was rapidly going downhill, which was odd, as I was absolutely fine yesterday!

Grilled Haloumi 

I was now, really relieved, that Martin was coming down for me, if I'd felt like I did yesterday. I'd of said 'Don't bother!!' & make my own way, even though, lugging my case, on public transport, wouldn't of helped my back/neck any. But I just feel, so, so rough today, I don't know how, I would of coped, if I had to make my own way home, on public transport. Even the thought of packing my case, felt daunting. Anna went to get her daughter from school & was going to go, via the Greek take-away, to get dinner as she was tired from travelling & hungry, she asked me what I wanted? I told her nothing, as I felt too rough to eat. They came back & the smell of their food, made me want to heave & I came out in a cold sweat. Then Sue came round, to collect Chloe, to take her to Greek School, and I looked so rough, that Sue didn't even recognise me at 1st.

Anna & Chloe 

At 7.13pm Martin text me, to say he was on his way, so with a lot of effort, I dragged my sickly carcass, off the sofa, to pack my case. The whole simple scenario, seemed so daunting, as I felt so weak & ill. I packed my case slowly, through bouts of nausea (I hope this Op works, to make all this unpleasantness, worth it!!) I was just adding the last items, when Martin arrived at Anna's at 8pm. 

He put my case in the car & after saying my goodbyes to Anna & Chloe, I ambled off, out into the night & into Martin's car. I chatted to Martin, as best as I could, on the trip home. But I was burning up & my head was pounding & I felt sick as a dog. Just as we hit St Albans, Anna called, she'd found my Birthday present to her, that I'd hid under her pillow (I like giving surprises) She was delighted with it, which pleased me. Then I was back, I was so happy to see my own flat eventually. I dropped my case in the middle of the kitchen floor, to unpack at a later date, when I felt more myself. Then I popped to my local shop, to get a load of Diet Cokes, as I felt, very, very, dehydrated. The 2 guys from the shop, were really shocked, by just how rough I looked & said "Are you OK???" I said that I'd had an operation, on Monday, and was feeling a bit ropey.

Midsomer Murders

I went back home & put the heating on, then went to bed, as although my head was burning up & pounding like crazy, I was ice cold!! I put on ITV +1 to watch 'Midsomer Murders' to see if I could recognise, any of my friends in it? But I felt so awful, I just really lay there, listening to it, more than watching it, so I spotted no friends. I forced down a few Marmite rice cakes, plus some Diet Coke, while Midsomer was on, then it was lights out, as I just felt so dire, I just wanted to sleep. (Calories consumed 554)

Wednesday 26th September, I dreamt a mixture of dreams, that contained my brother Bill & my late mum & dad. My fever broke at 4am & my bed was soaked, with sweat, so bad, I had to change my bottom sheet & duvet cover, in the wee hrs, as it was soaking wet. It was like laying on a wet towel, with a wet towel draped over me, which was not fun, while feeling rough. I was meant to go to Hemel, for an interview, for the Amazon, warehouse, job I wanted today, at 2pm. As it was shift work, which would fit nicely around filming work, but I felt too rough, to go, which was very frustrating. At 3pm, I had a couple of Marmite Rice Cakes, as I couldn't face much, as the smell of food, makes me feel nauseous.

I answered a text, from my friend Nat, who was back from holiday. I had felt too ill to look at it, when it was sent to me, last night. I also answered a text, I'd got from my lovely actor friend Simon Cole, who was back from LA & was asking how I was? I watched 'The Real Housewife Of Orange County' I really don't like Vicky's new man, Brooke, he seems well dodgy, slimy, fake & totally disingenuous. I'm sure he saw her, on TV, saw she was vulnerable & so he rolled up & just showered her, in meaningless flattery, that she would lap up! I bet he is out to bleed her dry!! My gut instinct is he is a wrongun & my gut instinct, has yet to be wrong!! I'd hate a man who showered me with fake, sickly sweet, compliments 24/7, I'd prefer a man who's compliments were rare, but you knew, when said, that they were 100% heart felt. 

Vicky & Creepy Brooke

I watched 'Come Dine With Me' then at 5.20pm, I dragged myself out of bed, pulled on jeggings & a long sleeved T-shirt & hoodie then went to the shop & got 4 Diet Cokes, a Sun paper, a packet of Doritos & a Closer magazine. Then I came home & went back to bed, I began to feel freezing cold again, so I got out of bed & put the heating on, then dived back under the covers, teeth chattering. I watched 'Home & Away' ate some Doritos, then lay back down again, feeling awful. 

The Braxton's Home & Away

My head was boiling up, like yesterday, but I felt ice cold & my head felt, like it was being whacked, with sledge hammers. I typed a Facebook & Twitter status, around 7pm, then collapsed on the bed again. Martin text me to see how I was, which was sweet of him, he is a good hearted guy & we had a bit of a text natter, while I was laying down. Ellie, who I know from 'Big Brothers Bit On The Side' was also very sweet & said on Twitter, that if there was anything I needed, to let her know & she'd call by, which was very kind of her.

Lovely Simon Cole

Later, ex Hollyoaks buddy, Simon, called me at 8.35pm, while I was half watching 'Top Dog Model' When I was feeling, super lousy, he said if I wasn't doing anything next weekend, he'd come stay with me, to catch up with me & also cheer me up. I said I'd love that. He asked me if my throat was sore? I said "Yeah my tonsils!!" He said he could tell it was, from my squeaky voice. Mid convo, he suddenly vanished, which made me chuckle (Despite feeling shit!) As I knew either his battery, or his phone signal, had gone. Moment's later, he wrote on my Facebook wall 'Hold on! batt died...the usual (note to self. Charge ya fookin phone!)' Yep no battery, I thought so!!!... I said no worry's, as I was having trouble talking, with my sore throat, anyway! He replied 'Aww babe! well you focus on getting better and I look forward to seeing ya next week!! Cuddle up with ya big lion and have a good sleepies!! mwah! big hugs and kisses!! xxxx' Bless him, I love Simon, he is such a sweetheart (He share's my late mums birthday, August 16th, so how could he be anything else but lovely!!) I laughed as he meant 'Big Tiger' not 'Big Lion' but close enough.

My Big Tiger (Not Lion)  'Homes' 

I took a load of prescription drugs for the pain, then watched, or rather, semi watched, 'Dallas' propped up against my 'Big Tiger' called Homes. I felt dreadful, I might have to watch the repeat to grasp, all that's going on. Then I turned to ITV2 +1 to watch NEW dating show, called 'Girlfri3nds' Presented by Big Brother's Emma Willis. Three girls (One blonde, one brunette & one red head) Get to choose 6 dates, from a choice of 100 men, good luck with that, if the first 50, are anything to go by. Which were mainly a mixture of, boring dullards, geek's, nerds & freaks. It certainly is not an advert for quality English men. But at least they turned down, the nerdy guy who'd had a huge lottery win (I'd of had no respect for them if any had chosen him, not a fan of gold diggers)

The only one, who was acceptable, wasn't even British he was a French guy, called Ken, who looked like a younger, more attractive, Craig Fairbrass. The Brunette girl, proved that she obviously has a few chromosome's missing, as she chose, this absolutely boring, evasive, jack the lad, tosser, in a turquoise polo shirt, as one of her dates, she apparently loves a bad boy. I wouldn't of dated the arsehole, if he came wrapped in Million Dollar Bills!! There was also some heavily tattoo'd, muscle, munter, horror. Jeeeeze do the film crew do any research on the girls types? They just seemed to have gathered together 100 random men, which judging by the 1st 50 are 95% losers!!! If I was one of those girls, I'd not be happy with the poor selection on offer, you'd think there would be, lots of possible Mr rights, from 100 guys.... but oh noooooo!!!

 Girlfri3nds

By the end of the show I had a high temperature, but the headache & nausea had thankfully gone & I was feeling perkier!! I even managed, to post some tweets about 'Girlfri3nds' I am now, half wondering, if the temperature, is connected to my septic, left, big toe? Or to Kidney stones?? (Which I think I have) I managed a decaf coffee, without heaving. But I had no appetite, despite only eating a couple of rice cakes, at this rate I will be back to a size 8 again, in no time lol. I read some of my 'Closer' magazine, I'll attempt my paper tomorrow & went to sleep again, that's all I feel I have done, since Monday. (Calories consumed 799)

Thursday 27th September, I woke at 8.40am, due to rumbling thunder & sharp coccyx pain, if my operation is successful, I will ask my Doctor, if it can be done on my coccyx (Even the horrible side effects, of these past few days, would be worth it!! If it ended the pain!!) I had an odd dream, where Natalie Imbruglia was crying, about being treated badly, by Ricky Martin, backstage, and I was cutting long hairs, from up my nose, with scissors WTF?? God only knows, what that was all about. I'm blaming it on my fever!! I was very hot & clammy with a bit of a temperature, but I felt a lot better than I did on Tuesday & Wednesday. I had a shower to get rid of all the clammy sweat, I got on the scales & I'd lost 2lb & then slipped on, my leopard print, baby doll nightie, fluffy slippers & long military Primark coat & popped to the shop.

I got a Sun paper, decaf coffee, honey, lemon juice, a mini Jack Daniels, Marmite rice cakes & some Rivita crispbread's, which shockingly came to over £13, for 7 small items, the price of food today is shocking. I came home & had lemon juice, honey, JD & hot water for my bad throat, due to Op. Then I had two, small, avocado's, on 4 rye crispbread's, for brunch at 12pm, which I was mild enough not to make me feel sick. By 1pm the hot toddy did the trick & my throat felt a lot better!! I had a bit of a temperature, but felt a lot better than I did on Tuesday & Wednesday. 

#RHOOC

I watched the fab 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' Alexis really irks me, big time!! She is so Fake & Ostentatious, even her twin daughters birthday, was sickeningly, all about her, and her hospital drama's, when she gave birth to them, guess she must of contracted ME, as with her it is all me, me, me (She made the most cringeworthy, embarrassing, speech ever!!!) A Princess, Puppy Party, what the hell was she thinking? How are those two, poor little mites, going feel when all the puppies, are then all taken away, from them, after the party is over? Bloody cruel, if you ask me, when they both have been asking her, for puppy's. Ugh & don't even get me started on her vile conceited husband!!

Self Obsessed Alexis & Her Vain, Munter, Husband

After I watched that, I had 2, sliced, hard boiled eggs, on two Marmite rice cakes (My appetite is back damn it, so I must be on the mend!!) Then I watched 'Come Dine With Me' a Moron called Chris, who cooked tonight was simply unbelievable (He cooked Asparagus & cut off the heads & threw them away & served the tough stems PML!!) Then I watched 'Home & Away' followed by Ch4 News. At 7.45 I was hungry again, so I had 2 Quorn burgers with mustard on, with 2 red sweet chilli's & coffee. 

At 8pm I watched 'Xfactor USA' like the UK version it was full of too much filler, it wasn't until 15mins in that the 1st person sang (Yawn!) I watched the 1st hour. Brittany wore an ill advised, red dress, that had, a sheer mesh, plunging front panel. I don't know if she wore tit-tape? But if not she needed it & if so she needed better, stronger, tit tape, or a decent invisible bra, instead. As her tits seemed to be, hanging down on her waist, as she sat at the judging desk. So she should sort out her styling, before she is renamed Tit-On-Knee Spears!! 

Brittany In Pink Version, Of Red Dress 

(But With Stronger Tit-Tape)

Then I turned over to watch the brilliant 'Making Faces' about the people that make prosthetics (Amazing stuff!!) then I turned over to ITV2 +1 and rejoined 'Xfactor USA' exactly where I left off. This very pretty lad, in his teens or early 20's, called Vincent Thomas came on. He was a bit cocky & full of him self & he looked the part of a teen heart throb, but sadly his singing left a lot to be desired. He should try modelling or acting & give up on the singing, because he really doesn't cut the mustard vocally. Then I watched 'Celebrity Juice' where Joey Essex, yet again, showed what a dunce he is, and they also showed, the embarrassing video message, Alex Reid posted on-line, begging Chantelle to work things out with him. Cringe! Then I had a Decaf Coffee & read the paper. 

Adrian & Catherine 'Am I bovvered' Tate 

The front cover was about a supposed romance, between grumpy faced, Adrian Chiles & comedian Catherine Tate, their not a pair you'd put together. Apparently they were dating secretly for most of this year, I thought she was still with 'Take That's' Jason Orange!!? Also a gangsters moll the widow of a Manchester Crimelord won £1Million on the lotto (& they say the lord works in mysterious ways!) the day after her scumbag murdering nephew, Kiaran 'Psycho' Stapleton, 21, was jailed for life. 

Celebrity Big Brother's Rhian, is today's page 3, looking very sexy. Comedian, Justin Lee Collins, is in court at the moment in, St Albans, charged with, putting someone (His girlfriend) through fear of violence. There was a bit about the UK giving £Billions in foreign aid to country's, that need it less, than we do (I have been carping on about this for years) I wonder just how much foreign aid, our British people will get?? After flood waters (Below) washed away their homes foundations, making them inhabitable. I won't be holding my breath, while waiting to count it! 

 Wonder How Much Foreign Aid, The UK Will Get For This??

Talking of so called allies, the French police Interpol, will NOT help with the search for the 15yr, school girl, Megan Stammers who ran off with her married 30yr teacher. Leaving her parents at their wits end!! They say it is not a crime when aged 15yrs in France, so will do nothing unless the parents accuse the teacher of kidnapping (Which I would, if I was them!) Teacher Jeremy Forest was told he was to be suspended, the day before he ran off. I'd be going out of my mind with worry, if that was my daughter/step-daughter. Meanwhile, over in the USA, PM David Cameron, was on the US 'David Letterman Show' & the host, took the rise out of the PM. 

 Wilfed & Sex Buddy Bear.... Don't Ask!!

 One Licker & One Sucker!!! 

Then I watched the very odd, but also rather funny, in a twisted, sick kind of way, American show,'Wilfred' (Above) on BBC3. Then I went to bed at 2am... Yes 2am!! Obviously I'm feeling better, when my libido comes back, as strong as my appetite (annoyingly) has, I'll know I'm back to normal (Calories consumed 1,370) 

Friday 28th September, I woke at 9am feeling good, but with a bit of a temperature, and my sore throat back (Bugger) guess it is time to call in the artillery (A packet of Fisherman's Friend, or two) I removed the wadding at the back of my neck from my Op, I was surprised just how soaked in blood it was, it looked like a vampires teabag! I jumped in the shower & washed away the clammy sweat & washed my hair. I also tried scrubbing away, the glue, from my dressing, the stuff is hard to get off (The residue from the tape round my rings and over my belly button stud, was hard enough after 45mins, and that was in front of me, where I could see it!!) On my neck where I couldn't, after several days, was a lot harder. Then I hard boiled two eggs & sliced them & laid them on 2 Marmite rice cakes, for breakfast. I also had a coffee followed by lemon juice & honey in hot water, for my sore throat. Then rubbed the back of my neck with a surgical spirit soaked, cotton wool pad, to try rid myself of the surgical gum, residue, that's hard to shift.

I dried my hair & did a light make-up as skin is sensitive, and has bumps under the surface on my face, due to a reaction, to the drugs given to me in my Op. I can't find my Versace powder brush, I hope it got left at Anna's & I haven't lost it as that will cost around £30 to replace. I wore my F'Hole jeans (I'm such a child, that label on my jeans, ALWAYS amuses me!) Plus my 'Tickled Pink' Marilyn Monroe print, T-shirt (Below) which is a charity T-shirt for a breast cancer charity & my TrimSole thong mules. I popped to the shop to get today's paper then, came home checked Facebook & Twitter & email messages. I have 2 pencils put in my diary, for 2 adverts. 

Looking for ideas, for costumes, for Halloween, this year, I Googled, Halloween Hertfordshire, to see if there were, some local businesses, that did Halloween outfits? As there use to be a fab one, on Hollywell Hill, St Albans, but that sadly closed, shortly after I moved here (I was gutted, it had amazing belly dance costumes too!!) A Facebook page, called Halloween House popped up, in the search, which sounded interesting. 

So I clicked on it. The info said 'Every year the largest display is put up purely for the fun and enjoyment of Halloween, all for one night only' Which sounded great, if ever a year came & I didn't have a friends Halloween party, to go to!! But there is no website, or any details, of where it is, so I just liked it & subscribed, in case they inboxed info, in a group message, nearer the time. I also found some local, costume shops, like FunZone, but the Halloween, costume section, was shite! Guess I will have to improvise as usual! 

Then as it was almost 3pm I gathered my stuff together for my 4pm Luton, meeting, in In Training, and grabbed my fluffy cream River Island Jacket & set off for St Albans train station & once on the platform, I started reading my Sun paper, while I awaited my train & on it once it arrived. 

I got to the Luton offices & waited to see my advisor Cindy, she photocopied the paperwork, I gave all my constantly changing advisors (Why don't they keep it on file on my profile on their PC??) Then she showed me details of a job for a telesales manager, with a shit 13K salary plus commission, that commission better be good as it would only just pay my rent, let alone food, travel & bills.  I left at around 5pm, and popped into Primark, as I needed some thick, black, tights, with winter rapidly apon us (Did it ever really go away?) But of course being me I couldn't help but peruse the lingerie (As I wanted yellow, gingham, knickers, to match, a fab, bra, of mine) No luck, but I still ended up leaving with one cerise thong, a cerise bra & 9 varied briefs! OOPS!! Too many clothing vouchers, bursting to get out of my purse. 

Then I headed back to Luton station, for the journey home, I feel much more my energised, self, today. I got a croissant & medium cappuccino, in the platform cafe. My bad toe, is burning like a bitch today, I will have to see the doc about some antibiotics Monday, odd never had a blister go like this before, my bloody toe looks like it has the embola virus! Not pretty!! I got home in time to catch the end of 'Come Dine With Me' & 'Home & Away' I changed the lightbulb in my light on the upstairs landing. I went on my laptop & checked my hotmail & then Facebook & Twitter messages. I had a message from a an American, TV Producer, who works in the UK on the odd show or two I watch, and no doubt a whole load I don't. 

He'd started following me out of the blue & messaging me, a week or two back, not sure why? But being a typical Gemini, my instant response is, always suspicion, followed by curiosity! I think his 1st private message was about my presently defunked band Evil Barbie & The Ken-Dolls. Anyway I digress, he was asking how I felt after my Op? Which was nice of him & said he was working in Preston or somewhere similar sounding, and would be passing by my way to go home (Not being a driver, I have no idea, if that is actually true, or not??) So was I free, to catch a quick drink, with him, tomorrow? (The 2nd time he has mentioned having a drink, since he began talking to me!) 

I said I was doing nothing, so if he was coming into St Albans, yes, but I wasn't going to travel outside of St Albans, to meet him. So we settled on a rough pencil of 8pm in the Peahen. Then I will be able to look him in the eye & suss out, exactly, what this sudden, follow, chat & invite for a drink, is all about? Being a typical Gemini I have about 4 possibility's in my head, I will know which one of them, if any, is correct, when I look him in the eye on Saturday. It will also be a good opportunity, to network anyway & pick his brain about a few TV techniques, to use when I have a few presenting auditions. As always, I made sure, ALL my responses, were manner of fact, without any play flirting, whatsoever, or kisses in text, so he could not wrongly assume, tomorrow was a date.

Then I searched high & low for my Super Glue to mend the broken runner, in my chest of draws in my bedroom, so I can put the draw back in! I was sure it was in my sequinned Primarni Shopper, but no, so then I thought I must of taken it out & put put away. So I checked my tool box, NOPE! I checked my cupboard, that has stuff for fixing things, in, NOPE! I even looked in the covered shelves, of my lounges, side table, NOPE! Damn it!! I have probably lost that too!! I will have to buy some more & fix it tomorrow, Grrrr!!!

Damn it I hate it when I set my mind to do something, then circumstances prevent me from doing just that!! So over brimming with energy after being practically stuck in bed for 4 days (Sooo not me!) I did a load of chores & found things to sort or throw out or do but I was getting bored & TV was shite! So at 12.30am I decided to give up & let Supercasino entertain me, as it always does, when I am bored & there is nothing else on. I decided to watch it in bed but rather than strip off & jump into bed. 

To kill my boredom I decided to play a game of strip roulette as a kind of boredom game. So whenever a double number - 11 - 22 - 33 or 6 or 20 came up on the wheel, I would remove an item & I interacted this on twitter with hashtag's #boredomgame & #strip4bedroulette it didn't take long for my 1st dbl 22 to come up on Rob's shift, so one fluffy sock came off, then a 33 2nd sock was gone, a while later another 33 & one earring was removed on Bryn's shift, then a 3rd 33 so the other earring came out, by now other twitter users were playing along too. Then a 6 came out on Rob's 2nd shift, so that was my Marilyn T-shirt gone. Quickly followed by a 22 so that was my jeans gone, so I just had my white undies & a hair clip left to go. 

I got a twitter message saying ‏@Meeja_oo @The_Evil_Barbie I'm loving your #boredomgame and trying to work out a version of my own. Better than betting actual money! Puh! Which made me laugh, for once I can say a casino game had the shirt off my back, and be telling the truth! As I don't actually gamble except for the lotto occasionally, or on the horses at Royal Ascot on my Birthday.

Good Birthdays Can Be A Gamble

My game fan, continued, with yet another, message, on twitter saying @Meeja_oo @The_Evil_Barbie before #boredomgame supercasino only bored the pants off me - now it's a proper game and only one of us can win! Then a 22 came up, so a double 2 number, meant losing a double E bra, I was just laughing at that, when a number 6 came up, immediately after, so with only knickers & a hair clip left I opted for the clip. Then with the number 20 on Bryn's 2nd shift my pants were off & it was time for bed & sleep about 3.20am (Calories consumed 1,063)

Saturday 29th September, I slept briefly and woke at 8.30am, I was sure I'd put the Super Glue, I'd hunted for last night in my big sequinned Primarni (Joke name for Primark) shopper, so I emptied the entire bag out & run hands over internal lining. And ah ha!! I felt bumps & found a tiny hole, in the pocket lining, which both the Super Glue & my Versace powder brush, had slipped through. Sadly my Barbie dolls, jeans were not also in there. So I used the glue on the broken chest of draws runner, and by 9.30am all out standing DIY tasks were done. 

Cute Card!!?...... Look Closer!! 

I had a 'Get Well Soon' card from Nat & Terry come through the post, on the front was this really cute picture of a beige teddy bear, a bit like my teddy bear Rob, with a cute cream puppy snuggled up to it, and I thought ahhh, and Nat & Terry have Mellowed (As their cards are normally, sarcastic, insulting or obscene!!) & then I saw, the erect penis, drawn, between the teddies legs, and burst out laughing, typical Nat!!! I had a green tea with lemon juice in. Then did a bit of weeding in the garden, in my tracksuit, as it is a nice day. 

Then I laid under my sunbed, for 15mins to try get rid of this lump, that has come up, on the right hand side, of my jaw line, due to reaction to steroids in Op. Then I pulled on my jeans, Marilyn T-Shirt and TrimSoles & my D&G sunglasses & popped out, into town, sans make-up and to Wilkinson's for a few household essentials. As I approached the store there was this oriental woman, sat on a bench, holding this huge, giant, white, cuddly, toy dog or rabbit, on her lap, with big pink bows round it's ears..... 

Or so I thought, because as I neared her, I realised it was a real, white giant poodle (Without a poodle cut) or a poodle cross, the way it was so still, all cuddled up with her, was adorable, and its pink, bowed, ears, looked like bunches, it was the sweetest, poodle breed, dog, I'd ever seen!! Honestly, this dog, was sooooo sweet, it would of been a danger to diabetics!! I really wish I'd of thought, to take a photo on my mobile. 

I got my odds n sods, from Wilkinson's, then window shopped round the boutiques, trying to think of, something original, for Halloween. Then I went to my favourite local cafe, J.K. Palmers (Above) for a Diet Coke, Tuna Melt Jacket Potato & a Cappuccino. Yummy & I was greeted warmly by everyone as always. My meal was tasty & reasonably priced as usual. I popped in their lady's before leaving and some woman had left a beautiful silver costume jewellery ring, with a large square zircona stone, on the window ledge, above the sink. Where she must of removed it, to wash her hands & forgotten about it. So I handed it in to the cafe owner, in case, she came back. I know I'd be gutted if I was her, and lost, or came back & someone has stolen it, as it was very pretty. After that I popped a 100yds to American Nails, to get a fake tip, to replace my nail, that I broke yesterday. 

Their cute daughter Jessica, who is often in the salon, was playing her own game, with ripped coloured paper, for food, for a pretend party. One parent, commented on the bits of paper, scattered on the floor & spoke about "clearing up the mess!!" The cute little mite, then quickly piped up "It's not a mess..... It's a Celebration!!" Which made me chuckle a lot! Bless..... I will tell myself that, next time my lunge looks a mess & I don't feel like tidying up!! 

Simon

My lovely buddie Simon text me, saying 'Evil Barbie is a legend can't wait to see ya next week! Xoxo'  I text back 'Nor can I'  I finally got home around 5.30-6pm & thought, I'd better text Nick, an American, TV producer, who works on UK TV shows. As I had agreed, to meet, for a quick drink, tonight, as he was, apparently, passing this way, after working in Preston, or somewhere starting with P & I had nothing else planned. Plus I'm never one, to turn down the opportunity, for a bit of networking & picking the brains, of someone in the industry. So I sent the text asking if he was still on for a quick drink, or not? Then put on the heating, as although it was still sunny out, the temperature had dropped considerably. 

He text back asking the Peahens postcode, saying he was still at wherever, doing whatever it he was doing, work wise, saying it was going slow, which he thought was a pain in the butt. But is normal in TV & Film so I knew it would probably be a case of 'Take a rain cheque' which would be no big deal. I sent the postcode & asked if he was working on his usual TV show tonight? Then did a bit more weeding. He text back he wasn't working tonight so I was stuck with him, then asked what my plans were? I said I had none I'd just stay home & veg watching TV & doing some chores, if he wanted to take a rain cheque? And seeing him for a drink, if he didn't want to cancel! 

He said they were just wrapping & would work out how long it would take to get to to St Albans, he has an uncle living here or something. Then asked how late would be too late to meet? As he was already behind & didn't want to let me down. So I replied 'When the pubs shut is when it's too late, other than that I'm flexible' To which he oddly replied 'Crap then I have got to drive back! Noooo. Hummm should of planned this better' I mulled that over in my head, what's the driving problem? He must have to drive home very late after his normal night time TV show?? So that would be nothing new to him! Plus around 11.30 - 12am, would be early for him. Was he hedging to stay at mine? If so, he was Soooooo wide of the mark, he was in a different time zone! I didn't reply, while I mulled all that over.

While busy Mulling he text again, saying would I hate him if he said Tuesday instead? As that way he could enjoy a few drinks, without having to worry. Adding 'Sorry to change plans, that's not cool' saying 'What do you think, as you know I do want to see you' It was fine by me, I looked in my diary & I wasn't pencilled for anything, so would probably be free. And it's no skin off my nose, we were just meeting for a quick drink, as he was passing through. It's not as if, I have spent anytime today, getting ready for a date, that has now cancelled, that's far more annoying, than this!! 

I replied 'No Big Deal, Tue's seems OK unless I get a casting come in, between now & then, I'll pencil you in' Cool so vegging out & catching up with chores, it is tonight. It gives me time, for my toe to heal, some more too. So I was confused when he then replied that, he didn't want to change plans, as he was dying to meet me & all the cats.... Err OK!!?? Adding he was going to rush & do his best, but if anything changes my end he'd understand..... ?? Adding he owed me extra drinks whenever he saw me.... Why? I'm not bothered!! It's fine!...

Now I was confused, I thought I was chilling out tonight, but now it looked like I was going out again! So I replied 'I haven't got any cats, my lease doesn't allow pets (Sadly) Confused now, are you saying you ARE coming now, or will be rushing Tues??' To which he replied 'Oh you don't have any cats? Oh there goes my plan to come back & see them! Ha Tues for sure & rushing to make tonight also' 

OK, right, so I'm not chilling out, I'm having a shower!? This guy is more changeable/indecisive than a bloody Virgo! So I text back 'Even if I had cats, you'd not see them, NOBODY, Male or Female, gets inside my home until I know them very well! No Exceptions' So he knew, what hymn book, I'm singing from & was under no misconceptions! 

He replied 'Great Rule' I replied 'OK let me know asp the eta tonight, so I know if I'm slobbing out or jumping in the shower' As the only thing, that is likely to fuck me off, right now, is this constant, hesitant, yes/no about tonight. If it's yes great, if it's no great, but just pick one & stick with it!! He replied that he was glad about the nobody back to mine rule (Why?) & that he was looking forward to meeting me, he said tonight was going to be rushed & he felt bad for that. Adding 'Is Tuesday OK? Hate to cancel on you' He felt bad about what? That tonight would be a quickie drink? (That's all it was to be anyway?) Or was he saying it was off & he felt bad to cancel? His messages are not clear!! (Thank God he is a Producer not a Director! Because the direction of his messages are all over the show!!) 

I decided to just reply as if it is cancelled, then I have finalised it or we are just going in circles. So I said 'Yeah that's fine, I would never recommend rushing, having been in 7 car crashes myself. Tues is fine unless something comes up!' He said thanks for understanding as its not on to postpone, but wants to have time to enjoy a drink or two! I replied 'Ha ha don't worry, I won't be reaching for the razor blades, things don't always work to plan, that's the way life is. No point stressing tomorrow is another day & so is Tuesday' 

Then I grilled two slices of Haloumi, mashed one avocado & spread on 2 Dark Rye crisp breads & laid a grilled slice of Haloumi on each, Yum!! Then took it with a can of Decaf Diet Coke to watch the 'Xfactor' at the judges houses (Boring) then 'Xtra Factor' (Equally boring for once) Then I did a whole lot of blogging, watching 'The Jonathan Ross Show' then the film 'Sliver' which was not all that. Listened to my Paul McKenna CD then went to bed at about 3am (Calories consumed 845)

Sunday 30th September, I had a real restless mishmash of a dream, which I can't really recall, or make head nor tail of, on waking. I got up had a shower & pulled on my pink PJ's, I was half thinking of going to Watford, to watch local team, Cassiobury Revolution play, to give them all, a bit of support, as I was up early. But I had a load of stuff to do & I didn't think little o'le me, would make much of a difference to them. So instead of wrapping up warm & whooping enthusiastically at the side of a Watford pitch, I did load after load of laundry & a stack of ironing. Not as exciting, but necessary! I watered the plants, my pink orchid, is so beautiful right now, I took a few pictures, but none do it justice. 

Then I did a bit of dusting & hoovering, it is overcast & grey out, so maybe the boring chores, was the better choice, out of doing chores & watching footie. By 2.30pm I was feeling really hungry & it was then I realised I'd not eaten today, in fact I'd not even drank anything! That Paul McKenna CD last night must of kicked in. So I mashed a avocado spread it on 2 Rivita & put a slice of grilled Haloumi on each & had 8 cherry tomato's on the side, with a Diet Coke to wash it all down. 

I heard via Twitter that the local Watford team lost their game, I will try not to blame myself for my lack of support today! I didn't bother getting a Sunday Sun paper today, as half of it is usually full of articles I'm not interested in pretty much from the centre page onwards. Plus I couldn't be arsed to get out of my PJ's. So I read Wednesdays paper that I'd not go round to

Then I did a load of blogging then watched the 'Xfactor' where the judges chose their final 3 out of the 6, which was pretty boring. Nobody excites me again this year, I can't even be arsed to do a blog about it this year. At 8.23pm I got a call on my mobile, from a number, neither my phone or I recognised 075*****037 Who hung up, as soon as I answered!! So either it was an accidental, bum dial, a wrong number, or a girl/guy going through a guys phone & wondering what sex, the owner of my number is? (If I am just entered in by my initials) Hmmm?? I didn't call back! 

Peckish but not hungry, I had, 2 Quorn burgers, sandwiched between, 4, Marmite rice cakes spread with English mustard. Eating to keep energy high, but calories low!! Next week, it is a full on, gym assault, in readiness for, a photo session, at the end of the month. I've got to get back to the old me, now that my back, is thankfully, feeling much improved. I watched a Jodie Foster film, 'The Brave One' what a slow boring movie, I wish I hadn't bothered, 100% Yawnsville. 

So I was grateful for Supercasino & Rob Lamarr (Above) to add a bit of fun, wit & cheekiness, to my otherwise boring TV screen, with his quick sense of humour, plus a pinch of, just the right side of, near the knuckle, humour for it not to be lewd or crude. For those of you, like me, who are a bit of an insomniac, and only have Freeview, or the main 5 channels, and are sick of nothing decent to watch in the Wee hrs. Getting sick of all the shopping channels, like 'The Store' showing constant repeats, give Super Casino a go, even if you have no interest of playing, it is still a good laugh, and you can interact via email, twitter or Facebook.

All the SC presenters are good, but if your a newbie to the show, I recommend your 1st show is one of Robs, you can find those days out, via the Supercasino.com website, or check in on twitter or Facebook. As I said all SC presenters are good, but I think of them all, Rob is best & in a league of his own, he exudes energy & brings life & fun to the screen, and if you start off watching the show, feeling down, after a bad day, I bet you feel a lot chirpier by the end of his shift on SC (His joyful exuberance, is very infectious) & if you are a fan already of Casino type shows like Jackpot247 on ITV, then why not give Ch5 a go, for a change, I bet you will be glad you did!! OK so that's my free Ad for the show over lol. 

Anyway the show tonight was amusing & full of banter as always & kept me entertained until 3am, while finishing writing this blog, then I discovered to my delight 'The Event' was on E4 +1 Whoop whoop! So I watched that before crashing out (Calories consumed 1,170) 

Is It Just Me? ....... But........

Monday 14th March,  I dreamt, but can't recall what about? Woke at 9.30am to a bright sunny day, lovely! This Monday feels so much more positive, than last Monday, with it's Sunday Migraine hangover & the bitter taste of family disappointment. In a week I have gone from deeply Hurt, to Angry & then onto 'You just can't reason with Ignorance!' So I've decided to stop caring, you can only hit your head against a brick wall, for so long! If he can't love, or respect me, for who I am, or appreciate, my tough situation, then I am afraid it is his loss..... even if he is too pigheaded to realise it!! 

I had a wash & washed & dried my hair, then twisted it up into a French pleat, I did a light make-up, then Bob text me, to say he had been chosen for the Endimol pilot of the new show 'Is It Just Me' too, so he'd see me Wednesday. (I'm The Cougar & He's The Cockney Geezer!) lol typecast much???....


I dressed in 3/4 dark grey gym trousers, with white side stripe, black/white TrimSoles, light grey, V-neck long sleeved Petite Bateau T-shirt & white body warmer, then popped out for my 2hr walk round the park (in nice weather for a change!) I got chatting to a quite hunky, tall, rugby type, South African, with a cute Springer Spaniel, that was all over me (Which was how conversation started) I got home & Put a black wash in the machine, then made myself  a veggie burger with 2 Quorn burgers & some salad in a bun & then headed off to Iceland & got £25 worth of shopping, with £25 of vouchers, as my fridge & freezer was empty, that should last me 1-2weeks (depending on hunger pangs!!) 

I got in & did a job search, but only found 5 new ones, that I'd  not already applied for already, today. I applied to all of them. Then I watched The Brilliant 'Real Housewives Of Orange County' which I first saw on Bravo, on Candies TV, when I was decorating the interior of her home for her. Now its on ITV2, it's an old series but it means I get to see when, my favourite Housewife, Gretchen, when she joined the show, and try & suss out why the other Housewives are so bitchy to her? So far, as far as I can see, its Jealousy, as she is younger and prettier (She is 30 they are in their 40's) Candie says Vicky's mannerism's & some of her attitude reminds her of me, which is quite funny, as Jeana, who is Vicky's best friend, reminds me in some ways of Candie!!

Gretchen & Vicky (Me?)

Jeana (Candie?)

I watched 'Come Dine With Me' I thought this was a new series, but you can tell this is shot on cheaper film, the whole look is different, as is the picture quality & lighting. So this must be an old series. I filled in my Census Form, I was expecting loads of questions & in total it asked less than half as much, as a housing benefit form! And why they want to know, if anyone will be visiting you on March 27th I don't know? What if you say NO & then somebody pops round on the 27th unexpectedly (Most odd!!) I watched 'Home & Away' and had a snack of salt & vinegar crisps, plus a Diet Coke. Then I began writing, last weeks blog (As thanks to my darling brother, after originally getting up to date with my blogs. I was too upset & in too much pain, from a stress induced migraine, to write last weeks) I watched the soaps, then 'How To Live With Women' followed by a double bill of, the brilliant 'The Event' really glad it's back I love my sci fi. Then I read the paper. 

There was more on the Tragedy in Japan, in the paper, after their devastating Earth Quake & Tsunami. But there was one bit of joyous news, a 60 year old man was found alive clinging to what was left of the roof of his house, for two days, 10 miles out to sea. Meanwhile in the West Midlands UK, a 3yr old kid has been treated in hospital for alcoholism (WTF) It is thought he was given booze repeatedly for 6 months (Why..... to knock him out?) 

Burger King's, Global Chief Executive, has told students in Chicago, that in the UK, the food is terrible, and the women are not very attractive (I was curious as to where in the UK he had actually been??) It seems Warwick was the answerer (While he was at university there) Never having been there, I can't comment on his opinion.

 I'm Not Sure about Warwick 

But Liverpool Has Some Stunner's!!

More on useless New Labours money wasting contracts, this time £17,000 spent last year on watering NHS HQ's pot plants, that works out as £140 per a pot plant (Madness) if the office workers can't water them themselves, then remove the pot plants from the offices. The over priced contract, was negated by surprise, surprise New Labour. I watched the Final of the 'American Apprentice' then had some fun, chatting on Twitter with @ClareAtCan (A spoof of Claire at CAN Associates) & then went to sleep (Calories consumed 1,576)


Tuesday 15th March, I dreamt that, I had moved into a house with big, roomy rooms, the kitchen was very large & the big kitchen table had left over food on it, from former tenants, pizzas etc... People who seemed to be helping me move in, were picking at it. So I threw it away to stop them, as I'd seen flies landing on it. But I kept food that was in the freezer and still fresh, the house was in London & I thought, 'Wow I'm back in London again, that's going to make auditions & getting a job easier!!' I had 2 Irish Wolfhound dogs and some other dogs (Can't recall their breed) and a cat which was very affectionate to the dogs, washing their faces. I also had a donkey & rode it up and down the road, that I lived on briefly (God only knows what that is all about!!) Woke at 9.30am in a lot of pain due to neck, shoulders & back problems. I have yet another Acupuncture session at 5pm, I hope this has some affect it's not had any recently.

It's another bright day out, I put a green/blue wash in the machine, had a wash, put on some make-up then headed to the shop for some milk & a paper & then had some Alpen for breakfast. I watched 'Loose Women' took the blue/green wash out of the machine & hung it up to dry & put in a black wash. Did a job search Nothing New that I'm suitable for today, so I checked the New Auditions on StarNow, and I applied for 11 New ones. Then I watched 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' (I love ALL the Real Housewives Shows!) Other than jealousy I still don't know why, the other housewives are so unpleasant, to the lovely housewife Gretchen? She is lovely, she's my favourite & they really give her a hard time! Her Blog can be found on my Blog List, to the right!! ------->

 

The Lovely Gretchen

I had a home made ocean pie, with cod & king prawns for lunch, I had it with a green salad, very tasty even if I do say so myself. I then popped to Boots and got some MaXfactor foundation, with the last of my Vouchers (As the only foundation I have at the mo, is for when I'm tanned in summer) I'm so pasty at mo, I haven't even got under my sun-bed in ages! (Maybe I should, it might ease my neck pain!) Then I went up to my doctors, for my much needed acupuncture session. It really hurt, when the needles went in, today (Probably due to the fact there is so much stress in my body) 

My right hand side of neck & shoulder & right arm, were pulsating painfully, when the needles were in this time. I got home, hung out my black laundry & put a white wash in. Then I did the washing up, the kitchen floor badly needs mopping again, I decided I'd either do it later if my arm/shoulder/neck pain dies down, or Thursday, or after filming tomorrow! I caught a clip of myself, in a show promo Ad, for this weeks OMG on ITV2 at 9pm

I messaged my friend lovely Simon Cole (Who use to be in Hollyoaks) to say I was filming in London tomorrow & did he want to meet up with me & Ian after, for a catch up drinkipoos? As he is back over here from the USA for a bit (Where he has been working on his career as a Country & Western singer) He said he was in the UK, but not in London until Saturday & was I around then? I said it depends on if I had any filming then, if not, we'd catch up soon, anyway, as he is here for a while! I watched 'Home & Away' the best soap on UK TV. 

My Friend Simon & I In Piccadilly Circus

Then I made dinner, a marinated, grilled, Quorn fillet, with green salad, 6 cherry tomatoes, 4 pickled onions & a small packet of McCoy's cheese & onion crisps, followed by an apple. I did the washing up, then watched 'EastEnders' (Depressing as always) then 'Lion Country' (Brilliant as always) I chatted a bit online, then I watched 'Lilly Allen: From Riches to Rags' Quite ironic as the weekend before last, when my brother had badly upset me, I got it out of my system, by singing her song 'Fuck You' (Click on title to hear song, with music video) Singing it on repeat, on the top of my lungs, definitely helped!!......

Watched 'The Big C' that made me think of my Aunt again. Then 'Snog Marry Avoid?' It makes me laugh how the show is all about natural beauty, yet it's presenter Jenny Frost with her dark roots, fake tan & bleached or veneered teeth is totally fake & not natural. Then 'True Stories: Marilyn, the Last Sessions' I have loved Marilyn Monroe, since a I was a small child. I read the paper, a single, 37yr, Truck Driver, Matthew Breach, won £17.8 Million on Lotto rollover (I wonder how many gold diggers, start hitting on him?) Apparently, Peaches Geldof shoplifted a £70 dress (Obviously wanted a OMG!! headline)

There was a pic of some boots, that looked like horse hooves, they are a limited edition, zip up design, in both long & ankle length selling at £1,300, at The Cheltenham Festival, with the profits going to charity. Odd as it sounds, other than the price, the only thing I don't like about them is, the black zip against the cream boot. If it was cream I'd like them, and wear them, even if some people would think I looked a little foalish!! Ideal for Ascot Races lol. I went to bed at 2.45am (Calories consumed 1,518)

Wednesday 16th March, I woke at 9.15am, put on the TV & had a wash, had a Golden Syrup, Oat So Simple & a coffee for breakfast, then went & washed my hair! I massaged 'Satura Pro' into the front of of my scalp, then piled hair up with a bulldog clip, while I did my make-up, a subtle, aqua eyeshadow, with smokey grey smudged liner, and caramel lip-gloss, then dried my hair with a full fringe & then pulled up into a high ponytail, with wisps at the side framing my face & added my faux long curly ponytail, over my own, as they asked me to come in character as "The Cougar" 

It was Very Cold again today! So I went in 'Winter Cougar' attire as opposed to 'Summer Cougar' attire (Slinky dress & heels) So it was the peacock green, Jane Norman, jersey/satin blouse, over black studded leggings, under long black boots, with my aqua Jacques Vert jacket, on top, with diamanté jewellery. Packed my Moschino shopper, with The Sun paper, to read on the journey, 2 Diet Cokes & a couple of packet of crisps (In case I got hungry & thirsty out!) Plus my electric blue, pashmina, just in case I'm still not warm enough! 


My friend Kathryn (Check out her Beauty Lovers site on my blog list, to the right of this blog) Said, that there was a whole bit on a Sheffield woman, who has trailed 'Satura Pro' with one of the TV Execs at ITV (Like I'm doing) with amazing results, on 'This Morning' around 11.30am today. But that was too late for me, to be able to watch & ensure I got to my filming of the 'Is It Just Me' Pilot on time, at 2pm. Despite how vile my brother was to me, the other weekend, I still text him to say, to 'Watch This Morning at 11.30am if at home & possible, as there was a product I'm trialling on there, that may be very useful to you & is available via a local Sheffield woman on there!' Of course he didn't reply & I have no idea if he watched or not? But at least I know, that I wasn't petty & at least, tried to show him something, that could be of use to him, whether he chose to watch it or not! I made myself a veggie sausage & boiled egg sandwich, before I set off, as I didn't know when I'd next get to eat, probably 6 or 7pm if I'm lucky?


I set off at 11am, in my long black coat, drawing out £20 from the ATM to pay the £15 travel fare with, at the station. I got a receipt for the 1-6 Zones Travel Card, part of my journey, to be reimbursed by Endimol. I caught the 1st London train, a stopping one, reading the paper en route. I arrived at Kings Cross & then I got the Hammersmith & City line, to Edgeware Road & walked the long route down the Edgeware Road, then up Frampton Street, right down Capland Street, then on to Gateforth Street, to The Cockpit Theatre. I got there bang on 1.50pm & was given my release form to sign. Moments later Bob called me on my mobile, I said I had just arrived & he said he was just parking up, and did I want him to find a coffee shop & bring me a coffee? (Bob's such a gentleman, the sweetheart!) I said no need there was a coffee bar, just off the foyer, in the Cockpit Theatre. He said he'd see me in a tick, I said I was just popping to the ladies & I'd see him in the foyer. 

 The Cockpit Theatre Coffee/Bar Area

I exited the ladies, to see Bob filling in his release form, then we retired to the foyer bar area & Bob bought us both a coffee, and a double brandy chaser, to warm us up! We were chatting for a bit, when we saw the petite (About 4ft 10") American woman, we'd met, when we did the filming of the tour of Essex, with Jack Whitehall & Denise Van Outen. She was sat opposite waving & she  joined us at the bar. We'd found out from her last time, that she use to pole dance in a club in Vegas & that her dad was a Mafia, Hotel or Club owner, in Vegas & that she fled to the UK, after a Mobster attempt on her life (We have yet to discover why!?) Where she'd got shot (She'd have a fascinating Biography if she writes one) She has fake boobs & said she was planning more work soon. While chatting in the Foyer Bar, we further discovered she was actually a well known USA 'Porn Star' (That news perked Bob up lol) She was telling us about working with US Porn Star, Ron Jeremy & was showing us clips on her phone!! She got Bob & I to pose for a pic with her (She is tiny) & we looked like giant minders either side of her! She said she would add us on Facebook & tag us in the picture.

The Cougar, Boob Job & Cockney Bob

The foyer was really filling up & I was feeling quite hot & sweaty, when eventually, our bunch of 50 were called. Again I am not going to give you more than scant details of  what Endimol's show 'Is It Just Me?' is about. Even though there was some mention of it in Sundays NOTW (Despite it not being commissioned, as of yet!!) So as not to spoil it for you, when it's commissioned & is shown on Ch4 (Which after what I saw today, I am most certain it will be, as it was bloody hilarious!... I haven't laughed so hard in ages!!) I will tell you the host is, as of the moment, Comedian Rhod Gilbert, best known for his stand up on subjects such as 'Bedding' (Which you can view Here) or a 'Torch With The Power of A Million Candles' (Which you can view Here) Who is very funny & was suffering with a bad cold, so had a Vick's inhaler up his nose, a lot!! 

 Rhod Gilbert

Next to him is a panel of 4 comedians/quirky celebs. Then there is a wall of the 50 (This is where Bob, The Porn Star & I came in) Think of BBC1's 'Test The Nation' a wall of typecast/pigeon holed public, except instead of being a group of type, like in 'Test The Nation' the 50 are an assortment, such as (Essex girl, Boob Job, Cockney Bob, Cheeky Chappie, Yummy Mummy, Just some Bloke, Computer Geek, Life Coach, Gym Bunny, Cougar etc) The wizard guy, that was on 'Take Me Out' on the Saturday I was upset by my brother, was one of the 50 too! Then there is also a studio audience. 


When we (The 50) were called upstairs en mass, we were given the run down, of the pilot run through. And given out badges, 'Cougar' for me, 'Cockney Bob' for Bob, 'Yummy Mummy' for 'OMG cougar' Ruth (Who was also there) & oddly 'Boob Job' for our Porn friend, rather than Porn Star!? We had just 5mins to pee, before we went into studio. So I quickly popped down to the ladies in the foyer. Through a group of people that were to be the audience. A group of young guys (Late teens to mid 20's) let out an amused murmur, amid the word cougar, with a giggle, after obviously clocking, my Very Large Badge. Back in the holding area the 'Cheeky Chappie' said to Jay "Are we going to be sat in coordinating groups? like The Cheeky Chappie & The Cougar?" Giving me a sideways glance & a raised eyebrow, causing all of us to burst out laughing! Then we headed down to the studio.


Bob, the Porn Star (Forget her name) & I were sat at the front, of one of 'The 50's' sections, that faced the comedians/celebs & the audience. Each of 'The 50' also had a handset with a Yes or No button, plus a Red & a Green card, the celeb/comedian panel had a Yes & No handset too, plus a light in front of each that could go either Red or Green (But to know why, you will just have to wait for that show to come out!)

Today's Comedy/Celeb panel was an inspired mix, Comedian Jarred Christmas, Comedian Holly Walsh, Actor/Presenter Joe Swash & Funny Presenter/DJ Iain Lee. 

 Jarred Christmas

 Holly Walsh

 Joe Swash

Iain Lee

The warm up guy interacted with me, the Porn Star & some of the audience & we had some banter, at one point he asked me "As a  Cougar what do you do, to attract a younger guy?" I replied "Watch ITV2 at 9pm tonight & you will find out!!" He pulled out a young lad of about 21-23yrs, with a student like bum fluffish beard, saying how about him? (I think he may of been one of the young group of guys in the foyer, when I went to the ladies) I said "He's quite cute, but I don't like beards!!.... but I guess I could straddle him & shave it off!" The warm up guy said "That sounds like a Rapist not Cougar!" I smirked & then waggled my right palm, side to side & joked "Hmmm the the two are quite close at times!!"


The Show started & so now, I can't tell you much, except, it was hilarious. I haven't laughed so much in ages, Jarred Christmas did something, that involved a video tape & a flashers Mac, Holly Walsh did something very unpleasant, orally with Rhod, Joe messed about with a young boy & Iain told his old work mate of 12+ years, something shocking over the phone! That was quite uncomfortable to watch & I was (& still am) in two minds about whether it was real or not? But what I will say is, if he was faking, he has a 3rd career in acting looming, as his reaction & tentativeness, to person on phone, his interaction with Rhod during & also interaction with fellow panel after, was very convincing!! 

I can also say Joe was very intrigued by the Porn Star & I (Both re our boobs & as to whether we worked together!! Once he knew that she was a Porn Star, when she told him) He even said to the Porn Star, Bob & I "Are you 3 together & can I join in!!?" He was also intrigued 'Surprise, Surprise' by 'Pretty Girl' & 'Essex Girl'. Iain Lee also interacted with us a bit & one of 'The 50' (The Welsh Guy) said I was abnormal being a Veggie, and seconds later as the convo moved on. I kicked myself for not saying to The Welsh Guy "Well you don't expect me to eat Lamb, after you Welsh buggers have been shagging it do you??" (Damn it coming to me, seconds too late) There is also a 3 person, story choice, with the chance for them to win 50grand. Plus The 50 will be a permanent weekly panel. More than that I can't tell you, or it will spoil the novelty of a brand new show for you, but its good ohhh so good!! 


We wrapped at about 5-5.30pm & Bob rushed to his car to check the metre hadn't expired & I rushed to get my coat & bag, ready to collect my £8 towards expenses. Bob came back in as he still had 5mins left & we got chatting to funny, but charming, Iain Lee. Though at one point he said to me "Sorry but I can't help staring at your breasts!" Which wasn't his fault, as in 'Cougar' attire they were pretty apparent & Iain is so tall that, looking down to talk to me (Despite me being, a tall girl myself) The Girls couldn't help but be in his eye line!! Bob & I looked for the 'Porn Star' to get her Facebook name to add her & get pics she took. But she'd vanished.

Bob had to rush off, before he got a ticket & I headed off, as I was heading out the door, Ian Mann called me, on my mobile, saying to meet him in Piccadilly before heading home. So I jumped on the Bakerloo line to Piccadilly & met up with Ian, at around 6-6.30pm, Ian was a bit peckish, so we popped into 'Yo Sushi'. Fresh Sushi but at 'Rip Off' prices, two 50p size round pieces of Sushi & 2 coated orange segment sized bits of pumpkin & a glass of water for £7.85, when you can get a tray of 8 pieces of Sushi in Tesco's for £3.99 or less!!! Madness!!!

Yo Rip Off

We chatted for a bit & I told him how funny 'Is It Just Me?' was, then when he'd finished eating, we headed off to Ku Bar for a drink (1pnt Cider) & then onto The Retro Bar (Another Pint of Cider) where another guy said, that I reminded him of Catherine Tate (Yet again!!) Does a look alike career loom? The bar was pretty packed for a Wednesday & we sat on stools, at a kind of DJ area & it looked like I was sat behind a bar & Ian took a picture. 

9pm came (When the Cougar edition of OMG was starting, with me on it) Then my phone went CRAZY with texts, lots from Nicky & one from my friend Alan (One of Sid Jameses sons) Saying "  U looked Amazing on OMG well done June"   Which made me think, 'maybe it wont be too cringe worthy then!' 

Ian & I chatted to the barman for a bit, then at around 9.30-10pm Ian Jumped on his night-bus & I got my tube to Kings Cross & then my train home & managed to get home in time, to catch myself on OMG on ITV2+1 & cringed when the 'world peace' line was left in, the camera was also shooting from below, when I was stood on the stage (Not the most flattering of, up the nostrils angles!!) But I was reasonably amusing, plus got the most camera & talk time of the cougars & name checked, so might get something out of it. 

But wont hold my breath as the show is such a dud!! I had another veggie sausage & egg sandwich, as I was famished, then eventually crashed out at 1am, after reading Facebook & Twitter messages about me on the show (Calories Consumed 2,383 WHOOPS!!)


Thursday 17th March, woke at 8.30am, had a odd dream, where I had moved home again, to a big house. I was out somewhere with my late Mother & my Brother and they said "wait there a sec" & then went off somewhere. I was stood for ages alone & it got cold & began to snow on me, in the end I went into an entrance to shelter & keep warm thinking 'They know my mobile number, if they need to find me!' But when I stepped inside, I discovered it was a shopping mall & as I wandered around, I saw my mum & brother sat in a cafe, in the mall, drinking coffee & eating cake, laughing, surrounded by bags of shopping. I was stunned & thought 'How could they say wait a minute, then go off shopping & having coffee & cake knowing they have, left me out in the cold? How could they just abandon me like that?' I couldn't believe my mum of all people would do such a thing, it was so not her!... I got up had a wash, I got on the scales, I have gained 1 1/2lb (That will be all the bread & crisps yesterday!)

I had some Golden Syrup, Oat So Simple & a coffee for breakfast. Scraped my hair back in a pony tail & wore what I wore on OMG without the hat & accessories! Slapped a neutral make-up on & popped to shop, to get a Sun newspaper. Got back in, collected my dry laundry off the radiators & separated it in 2 piles (1 put away & 2 iron) I put away the put away pile, then decided to hang my 18" Beehive wig upside down, as on the wig head stand, it is shrinking lower & poofing out wider! 

Santander have finally sent me my online banking details, or rather they have finally arrived (Thanks so much Royal Mail!) So I can now log into my account (The years backlog of bank statements, never arrived as promised though, so I guess I will have to trawl through it all online now!!) For regular readers wondering...... NO my keyhole surround, has not been put back on my door yet, after being promised to be done, about 4 weeks ago & despite the fact, that it's almost been a year, since the inept maintenance guys, of my letting agency, painted the door and removed the keyhole surround & NO after eventually putting a sealant on my window ledge, it still hasn't been painted! Useless Arseholes!!.... I HATE INEPTITUDE!!!


Had lunch of 2 marinated Quorn cutlets (Cooked then allowed to go cold) with a green salad, 4 cherry tomatoes, 4 pickled onions & some coleslaw. With a mini pack of cheese & onion crisps on the side. Did the Washing up then hoovered the lounge. Then I had to re organise, the back room, after it got messed up a bit after searching through things, to get to my Hat Box, for my photo shoot with Automatic Weapons, for Award winning photographer, Philip Gatward, last week. That was fun, but boy are those Automatic Weapons heavy!! Pic Below

Watched the 'Real Housewives Of Orange County' did a bit of plant watering & took out some rubbish & then it was 'Come Dine With Me' time, then I caught up with Yesterdays 'Home & Away' that I missed while out, on Channel 5, then today's, on Fiver, then it was dinner time. So I had Grilled marinated Quorn fillets with green salad & sun dried tomatoes with feta & apple for dessert & Diet Coke, Then watched 'EastEnders' (Depressing & rubbish as always!!) 

I then watched the unpleasant Yorkshire Villagers on 'Love Thy Neighbour' bitch about, two new pairs of contenders, for the cottage, in their village. An awful bunch of bigots, that should keep any UK tourists from their village. this week it was a dull couple, versus a druid couple (Who are friends with the guy, who was dancing half naked, on 'Louie Spence's Showbusiness') Talking of which, most of the people I know, have stopped watching it. As they said it got boring and repetitive. So if I am on again (I wont hold my breath, as it seems they only want losers, to laugh at) I wont know, as no pals will be watching to tell me.

Then I watched 'Chuck' & 'The Mentalist' while writing this blog. Then I watched the amusing, animated, 'The Ricky Gervais Show', then had a decaf coffee. 

My Manager @ClareAtCan

She's Gonna Make Me A Big Fat Star!!

Then I chatted for a bit on Twitter, @ClareAtCan & I had a bit of rapport going & It was now playing out that, I was her new client & I'd received the Contract on KFC scented paper, which I signed in Mayo & Mustard. Which I sent back to her in a Kebab envelope, in a cab, along with the deep fried contents of my fridge (Including the deep fried fridge itself) as stipulated, in the said contract. In return, I was sent a crack pipe & a self harm manual & told to be in an abusive relationship by Mon, for the paps on Tues lol. Eventually went to bed, to sleep at 1.30am (Calories consumed 1,376)


Friday 18th March, I had a dream about living in some house, and my mum & dad were there, and it was my birthday & I accidentally found my present mum & dad had got me, it was a kit to make about 10 pairs of ugly lace gloves (By hand) that you then sell, to raise money for charity. I was a bit disappointed, but said nothing. I went out with mum down the high street & I was talking to mum about looking for work & we stood still a moment, I was saying, how  it was really hard, to get a interview for a beauty retail job, at the moment, despite being highly qualified for one & I said I really needed to get a job with a large Dept Store, as they paid better than smaller chemists like 'Boots' & 'Superdrug' As I said that, a guy behind me said "That's a shame I was about to offer you a job" I turned round to see, that we were stood outside of 'Boots' & the MD was behind us... oops!! I quickly said "No don't go, wait, I want a job what is it? I can start straight away!!" I went into the store with him, but by the time I woke at 8.30am I still had no clue as to, what the job was to be, or the wages!

Got up & had a Golden Syrup, Oat So Simple, for breakfast and did the laundry (A black wash) made a coffee & popped to the shop for a paper (Still no news of the death of the Crossbow Cannibal yet, sadly) I watched a bit of morning TV, while doing my job searches & applying for jobs & also for auditions. Then once I'd done that, I re manoeuvred, my large cheese plant, in the living room & tied up some of the leaves, as to not hang over the sofa & watered my plants. My Orchid has at least 8 flowers on it at the moment. Then I fixed lunch, a roasted Quorn steak, with sun dried tomatoes stuffed with feta, 4 pickled onions & some coleslaw, with some salted crisps on the side, washed down with a Decaf Diet Coke. 

A guy called P*** Rambo was chatting me up on Facebook saying he saw me on OMG & was hassling me to add him (I only usually add those I know) He kept going on saying to add him, adding that  "He's a nice guy!!" (My normal thinking is, if you need to tell someone your a nice guy, your probably not!!) But as he was friends with fellow OMG Cougar Brigitta & Heidi (Also on 'Take Me Out') & he seemed chirpy enough, so I gave in. Even though, he so wasn't my type & was coated with Tattoo's all over him (Which I'm so not into!) We had a bit of a chat, in between long gaps in conversation, during which time he'd clicked 'like' on a few of my pics. I chatted a bit & briefly looked at his profile & a couple of pics, he looked like, Mr fun, party guy! All chunky Rugby muscle type & coated with tattoo's, his surname is obviously fake & no info on profile, as to if he's single married etc, plus no info re work, he seems to be living up North Yorkshire way. 

From his Pics I would imagine he works in a bar, or club, or as a doorman. When I asked him what he did, he said he worked with disabled kids, but when I talked of an incident, I had while working with disabled kids, he never told me any 'working with kids story's' back, which made me suspect it was Bull Shit & only said to make him seem caring & deep! Anyway at some point, later in the evening, when bored, I decided to click on his profile & have another look, to suss him out & it was set to private again, as he'd deleted me as a friend, WTF?? I tweeted 'Why would someone beg for an add & then a few hrs delete you?' The common consensus among the guys who responded to my tweet was, that he was a 'Wank Bank' collector..... 

Apparently, these guys get you to add them, then they trawl through your pics, copying all those they consider wanking material, then if they get that your not the kind of girl, who is going to flirt back with them & get dirty online, maybe even have webcam sex, they delete you, as they have what they need for their next Wank!! How Fucking Sad!! Well he did ask 'What would you do to me, if i had been in the OMG audience, when you was on there as a cougar?' I said 'The same as I did to all the other cubs..... NOTHING!.... it was just a set up bit of fun! I was not remotely interested in anyone!' Guess that meant he knew that, other than his stolen Wank Bank, he was going to get bugger all else from me it seems! Saddo!


Hung out black wash to dry & put a white wash in, watched 'Home & Away' then made dinner, a Tuna steak grilled with coleslaw, pickled onions & salad with some cheese & onion crisps. Its 'Comic Relief' on BBC1 from 7pm to 2.35am, which I will be avoiding, as it's never funny & no doubt James Corden will be on, doing some self indulgent 'Smithy' shit sketch, which will just irk me! While his sycophantical tongue, is so far up celebs arses, he can lick their larynx. So instead I opted for 'Corrie' & perving over Pierce Brosnan in 'Die another Day' while writing last weeks blog. I had a coffee, then went off to bed at 1am, my neck & shoulders have been less painful since my last, quite sever, acupuncture session, lets hope it gets better after my one next week! (Calories consumed 1,775)


Saturday 19th March, woke at 9.45am if I dreamt I can't recall it, got up & had a wash, then had some Oat So Simple for breakfast, plus a coffee to start the day with. Wore Dark jeggings & my over-sized, Grecian like, draped top, massaged the Satura into my scalp & pulled hair back in a high tight pony tail! 

 In My Baggy Grecian Style Top

Popped to the shop & got a paper & a couple of decaf Diet Cokes. Then put a green/blue/lilac wash in the machine, before going on line to check my emails, Facebook & Twitter & then did my job/audition searches & applications. I had a surprise when I went into my Facebook messages, as I received one from a stranger (Lets call him *John) saying....

Hey June,

I hope you don't mind me messaging - I just wanted to say hi, that and that I thought you were great at Rhod Gilbert's panel show - you were definitely a highlight of the afternoon.Well, I took your recommendation and watched OMG (hence finding you on here), what an excruciatingly terrible hostess Peaches is!

Anyway, I hope you are well.

*John C

Which really surprised me, yet impressed me at the same time, he tracked me down quick a career in MI5 & MI6 looms!! We chatted for a bit & he seemed refreshingly normal (Most 'But not all' of those who contact me, after seeing me on TV, are a bit odd!!)  We chatted for a bit & he said if he was ever down London way he'd give me a shout, & If I was ever near/in Leicester to come say hi, I said will do, we chatted a bit & he said "Come to think of it how near Reading was I?" Adding he was working there Wednesday & we could meet up for a drink, if I fancied it? I said I'd check to see if there were buses that go there, from here. Once I'd discovered it was 35miles away, it would also depend on the bus fare & my finances too, as I'm broke still, we continued talking throughout the day. 

I know he was definitely at 'Is It Just Me' pilot as he spoke of things only someone there would know (& I'd not posted this blog) Yet his profile pic was so familiar, like I'd seen it before, but we don't seem to have any mutual friends Odd? I then did some online surveys. Mikes sink has sold on eBay, so once the money has gone into my paypal account & then into my bank, I'll pay him the money!

Quite nice out, so cleared some of the litter off of my courtyard that the bin-men & locals have dropped all over it (Lots of it all over my plants) I did a bit of weeding, will do more later when its more warm, my daffodils are out now & some of my mauve plants (Erysimum) that I got from mums garden, so ironic the name ends in Mum. Did a load of housework, listening to Capital Radio, then stopped to have lunch, Quorn & lentil salad, a Diet Coke & a chunky KitKat. Then I read the paper, 

Hung the laundry out to dry, did some more housework & the washing up then watched 'Harry Hills TV Burp' then I made dinner a thin crust vegetable pizza, with a Diet Coke, then it was the final 'Take Me Out' There was not any blokes I'd go for on tonight. I did the washing up, then it was 'CSI Miami' time & 'Stand Up For The Week' then I realised I'd missed the brilliant 'The Tudors' Shit!!... Then I continued writing last weeks blog, desperately trying to Catch Up! I had a decaf coffee & some Branston mini Cheddars as I had the munchies, watched 'The Ricky Gervais Show'. I then did more of my blog & had a bit of a giggle with @CatFunt_ and @ClareAtCan on Twitter before, applying 'Satura Pro' to my scalp & 'Satura Rosta' on my lashes & crashing out at 2am (Calories Consumed 1,839)

Sunday 20th March,  I fell asleep about 3am & was woken at 4am by my mobile going off, the persons name was not in my phone (Although it may have been in my damaged one!) & whoever they were, was chatting with someone & they had obviously sat on the phone & had bum dialled me. I kept saying "Hello!!"  But they obviously were oblivious, to me, so I hung up & eventually went back to sleep. I woke at 10am can't recall any dream, I got up, had a bath & massaged 'Satura Pro' onto my scalp, then slipped on a electric blue, velour, lounge suit & my TrimSoles, then popped to the shop to get my NOTW & looked at The Sunday Mirror, as TV Kev told me he was mentioning the cougar convention on OMG, I laughed when I read it. Got in & chilled with the paper a bit.


I had a cheese & coleslaw sandwich, with some Twiglets & a Diet Coke for lunch, then I cleared more crap off my courtyard, that had amassed over night. I found I had a message on StarNow from a film company, wanting to know if I can come for an audition in Feltham Tuesday? For a main role NOT an extra, that will film April-May for £120 a day? The Character they want me to audition for is Cleopatra, I really can't afford the £15 fare, especially as I need to come into London for the premier of 'Losing It' (Which I'm in) & to meet the backers who, will be backing the other film, 'The Fortune Teller' which Angus sent me a script for (For me to play Felicity) 

 Losing It!!

But can I really afford to not go? when I could get the part & earn some money (As they approached me, not vice versa, so obviously they liked what they saw, from my clips on my StarNow profile) I will have to go to Library tomorrow & print off my script & learn it if I decide to do it. I'm going to think on it over the afternoon, it's a long way to go & I have a much needed acupuncture appointment at 5pm hmmmm,  but they obviously saw something in me to contact me!? I definitely need the money too! As well as the satisfaction of having a job!

I put the situation out there, for my friends on Facebook & Twitter & they said to go for it, as there is a chance I might get it & I'd be kicking myself, if I didn't at least try. I watched 'Dancing On Ice' while writing my critique on it (You can read that HERE) Then during the break, before the results show, I made a King Prawn & lentil salad, with some coleslaw on the side, and made myself a coffee. Then watched 'Duran Duran: One Night Only' & then the 'Dancing on Ice Results Show' 

Then it was time for new TOWIE - 'The Only Way Is Essex' The Porn Star, from the 'Bus Tour' & 'Is It Just Me' said Wednesday that she was in the promo video for TOWIE (A kind of English 'Hills' for you American readers) But I couldn't see her, it's hard to spot someone, sometimes, unless you know where to look, it's amusing how nice 'Faces' interior looks on the screen, but the reality, when I filmed there, is it's actually a tiny, little, dive. 

There were two New characters, Car saleswoman Gemma, who was like a Young common version, of a Lobotomised Vanessa Feltz, who Kirk tried to fix up with his dad (He must hate his dad) & Chloe, a supposed Playboy Bunny (But I think this Bunny has Myxomatosis!!) A freaky looking stick insect, with fake boobs, with teeth like Janet Street Porter, after Veneers, false lashes so heavy that she can't open her lids properly, so she looks like she is squinting 24/7 & then there's the horrifically distorted, pumped up lips, that make her look like the female Gremlin from 'Gremlins 2' it's Freak City Arizona!! Lauren Goodger was as vile, and deluded as ever tho, Amy & Harry as dumb as ever, and Mark as cute but opinionated as ever, Arge has gained 3st, but he is still the nicest & most normal of the lot!

Amy Gives 'Bunny' Chloe A Spray Tan - TOWIE

Finally finished last weeks blog & posted it chatted a bit on Twitter & Facebook, then read some of my Marilyn Monroe book, I finally decided I'd go to audition Tuesday, in the end, so emailed them back & got a 3.20pm time slot. I will print off my lines to learn tomorrow, chatted some more to *John on Facebook, I said we'd chatted so much we might as well be Facebook friends, he agreed & so I sent him a friend request. It looks like a busy week next week. If I don't get expenses for travelling to my film audition, I may not be able to meet *John in Reading. Went to bed at 3am (Calories consumed 1,839)