In Training, Losing Out & Playing Darts!

Monday 16th January, I woke at 8am & had a shower, then I did my hair & make-up. I wore black leggings over my thick black tights & my black, skinny-rib, polo-neck, my black, Ugg boot style, boots, & shoved on my faux sheepskin gilet, and had a coffee & apple for breakfast. I then I put on my black, magic scarf (See below) plus my black gloves, my black, bomber jacket & my grey, faux fur, deerstalker hat. And set off in the bitter cold, for my I hour power walk, you could really feel its getting colder in the air, and I picked up the pace on the way home, getting a Sun paper en route.

Once back in the warm, I read the paper, munching on chilli Doritos and having a Diet Coke. The front cover was 'Rhodri Giggs Exclusive, Cheating Rat Ryan Took All I Had, Jealousy made him steal Natasha' Yawn Boring!!!..... This is old news, we heard all we needed to hear, when Natasha told all, ages ago!!! Also there was a bit about a Brit, who survived the Costa Concordia, cruise ship disaster on Friday. As the death toll so far has rose to 5! It comes after claims that, the speeding cruise ship, regularly sailed close to the shore so a crewman could wave to his wife!! The £390million 16 storey ship, with 4,200 passengers, may have been showboating, when it hit rocks around an Italian Island. Meanwhile the Belfast Telegraph, chose a bad place to advertise their competition prize!!

Well They Do Say, That The Irish Are Thick!!

The number claiming disability benefit have trebled, this does NOT surprise me, as when my sign-on day, clashed with my mums funeral in 2009, rather than give me another sign on date the DHSS forced me to sign off & go onto disability, even though I didn't want to (I'm sure Labour told DHSS staff, to shift people, on jobseekers, to disability when possible, to help massage the unemployment figures) 


Then due to their inept staff, constantly tapping in my bank info incorrectly, I had no money at all from them for 6 months, making me ill with depression & hunger, from lack of food. I had to use my rent money, for some scant, emergency, food & paying some bills if I could to prevent being cut off. And I got huge bank charges, when I had no money in my bank for my direct debits, for my bills, or being charged a fine due to paying bills late! Which ate up all the money I was owed, when it eventually got paid, what I was owed & due fortnightly, 6 months later. Three years on I am still trying to catch up with my rent arrears & all of the debts that 'THE DHSS SICKNESS BENEFIT' Caused ME, by the DHSS forcing me to do something (Going on Sick Benefit) That I had no desire to do!! 


Now nearly 3yrs later, despite informing them, of all the debt their failure to pay me the money I was due, FOR 6 MONTHS, has caused me (As I had £0 savings, as when I was working once I'd paid private landlord rent, bills, council tax & food out of my wages I was lucky if & had enough left to have 1-2 nights in the pub with the girls a month, let alone save any or have a holiday!) I put all that, in a letter to their complaints department. I have had NO compensation paid to me, for the incurred debts & stress caused to me, by their inept, negligent staff, not even an acknowledgement of my letter!! Disgusting!!

Kathy Burke

I had a vegetable Cup-a-Soup then I had to head out in the icy cold, to head for Luton, for one of those pointless, Intraining programs, that the last government set up, to make it look like they were doing something, to help the unemployed, at huge cost to the tax payer. I went in spoke to the nice, ginger haired, woman, called Sharon, who looks like Kathy Burke (Above) for about 5mins tops. 


She gave me an appointment for a course on Wed 1st February, then they refunded my train fair (What a waste of time & money!!) Why didn't they just call me or write me a letter to come in on Feb 1st?? What a totally pointless enterprise! Plus it would of saved them having to fork out for my train fare!! I just don't get their logic??  Hungry & with half price vouchers for 'Burger King' I popped in Burger King & had a veggie burger & fries, with a Diet Coke. A couple of teens at the next table, were laughing about Jedward, stripping in a video to "I'm Jexy & I Know It' you can see it HERE I then got a text from one of my agency's, to say I didn't make the final selection, for the part of the MP's wife, in a Drama series, that I was up for! Shame I was looking forward to that, if I'd got it! 


Then I popped in Primark, as I had some gift vouchers. I got a pair of beige Ugg look boots, nicer than the one's ruined by the potholed pavement, for just £5 (I could get 5 pairs of those for price of ruined £25 ones!!) I got a cheap black bra & coral top with chiffon sleeves for £2, a pair of grey feather earrings for £1 & a black ring watch for £1 & a navy & ivory 60's style dress for £4 (It will come in handy if I get any acting work based in the 60's) & a pair of 100denier black tights for £1. So I got some bargains with my vouchers. 

Some Of The Various Boot Styles, On Offer For £5

Then I headed back home, getting home, just in time, to see the 1st of the new 'Home & Away' shows hurrah!! Then I got a call from the woman, who had said last week on the phone, that I had been the successful candidate, for the boutique manager job (I thought I'd leave it out of last weeks blog & wait until I was given a starting date, before I put in my blog, that I'd actually got the job!) I thought she was calling with my start date, but NO!!.... She said she was sorry to tell me, But the boutique would now be closing down, so there will be no job (FFS! Just my luck!!) She said she was really story & would keep me in mind if something came up in the future!!! (Gutted!!) That's the 2nd lot of bad luck by phone today!! Bugger!!! 

I had a coffee & an apple while watching the soaps, then watched 'Celebrity Big Brother'  I then had Miso soup with 3 Rivita, a Diet Coke & banana, for dinner, while sitting through 'When Paddy Met Sally' (Can't stand either of them!!) Before watching 'CBBBOTS'  followed by 'Law & Order UK' going to bed at 1am with a 'Collagen Shot' made with orange juice (If you want to try the collagen shot product yourself, you can go to http://t.co/uJ1OS7q & if you quote promotion code EB1 you will get free P&P which IN THE UK ONLY saves you £2.50) (Calories consumed 1,704 whoops!)


Tuesday 17th January, I woke at 8am, I would of been on set by now, If I'd got the part of the MP's wife, I'll have to go check it out when on, to see what the person they chose was like. I had a banana & coffee. Dressed in long grey jogging bottoms, long sleeved, grey V-neck, Petite Bateau top, my white Reebok EasyTone trainers & my khaki, body warmer ,with a black puffer jacket over the top & my faux, grey, fluffy, deer stalker. Then set out for my hour power walk. It was bright out, but still very cold & I was glad to be back inside a hour later, my left shoulder was hurting like crazy too!! I got my newspaper & some painkillers on the way home too! 

I read the paper the headlines were, 'Exclusive: 2012 Scandal, Olympic Security Secrets Left On Train, Blundering cop loses Games dossier'..... Unbelievable, what an Idiot!! A secret dossier detailing plans for policing the 2012 summer Olympics was left on a Train!!! Luckily a Honest Commuter & NOT a Terrorist found it & handed it in to The Sun! The Shamed senior cop, was carpeted for leaving secret documents, detailing security tactics, for the Olympic's, on the train. Worryingly along with the tactics names & mobile numbers of constables, sergeants & inspectors are included! Also are a list of complaints from officers about radio's not working properly! The documents were found by a commuter on a train in Dartford Kent on Jan 5th. You'd not get me anywhere near the Olympics, even if I was interested in it (Which I'm soooo NOT!)

A damning tape reveals that the Captain of the Costa Concordia left crew & passengers to fend for themselves on Friday, as He fled the stricken ship! Captain Francesco Schettino 52 was told to by a Port Official to supervise the rescue hours after the ship keeled over, with 100's still trapped. a transcript shows the official told him "Now You go to the bow, you climb up the emergency ladder & co-ordinate the evacuation!!" "What are you doing? are you abandoning the rescue?" "Captain this is an order, I am the one in charge now. There are already bodies!!" Schettino replied "How Many?" The official said "That's for you to tell me! What are you doing?" 


There was a repulsive picture (Below) of a entire family posing for a holiday snap, next to a beautiful Giraffe they'd just shot dead, for sport on safari (Vile, Repulsive, Family!!) Sadly tourists like these are paying tens of thousands of pounds, to legally hunt giraffe's. Many sickeningly, take the heads home, as a sick trophy of their African Adventure! Some sadly come from the UK, but most come from North America, Germany, Russia & Scandinavia. It is no wonder the giraffe population has halved since 1988, while this barbaric behaviour continues.

Evil, Sickening & Unnecessary!! 

Six suspected UFO's were captured in two snaps (Below) in neighbour counties, they were taken 30 miles away from each other in a UFO hotspot. The 1st was taken in Chatham, Kent, 10 days ago on sat 7th Jan at 1pm while Ernestas Griksas 21 snapped a cherry-picker outside his window. Two white disc's were spotted in the sky. The 2nd on Friday 13th Jan at 7am when car salesmen spotted 4 bright white objects in the sky, hovering in pairs, as he drove through Loughton in Essex. Josh also 21 said "I nearly crashed. I stopped to take this picture wit my mobile. It was like the UFO's were surfing the clouds, they were there for 15 seconds then vanished! I wasn't believer in UFO's but this made me think again" UFO expert said the South East (Where I live) is now the hotspot for UFO sightings! Which is quite exciting for a Sci-fi nerd like me!

I fixed brunch of a Salmon Light Lunch, spread on 3 Rivita's, and a Diet Coke. I sorted out some of my cupboards & threw out a load of rubbish. Then I went online & applied for 32 retail jobs & then 18 auditions, on a bunch of job & casting sites. Then I watched a bit of 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County'  before popping out a bit later to get my free Subway Sandwich, and a Zero Coke, with my points, on my Subway Card, to have for tea, as I have hardly any food in at home, until my Asda delivery arrives tomorrow. 

Then I got on with some housework & watered the plants until it was time for the fab 'Home & Away' which at the moment the only decent soap on UK TV with excellent story lines, great writers that keep you on the edge of your seat, and some fantastic acting!! Watched EastEnders (Boring, the new Ben is a lousy actor, he hasn't improved any either since he 1st came on!!) Then I watched the Excellent 'The Fat Fighters', followed by 'The Biggest Looser' must get into the weight loss mindset more!!!! 


A bit peckish, I had my last Miso Soup & an apple with 3 Rivita's & watched 'Celebrity Big Brother' it's nominations tonight, but the twist was EVERYONE who was nominated, was up for eviction whether they had one vote, or eight!! Which has really put the cat among the pigeons!! As Gareth is the only one not up, surely that boring Irish model, plus prize plonker's Kirk & Frankie have to go, unless the young female's of Britain, really are morons!! Then I had a coffee, a small banana & apple while watching 'Desperate Housewives' then went to bed with a 'Collagen Shot' made with semi skimmed milk (OK like a weak flavoured milkshake, better in juice!) (If you want to try the product yourself go to http://t.co/uJ1OS7q and if you quote promotion code EB1 you will get free P&P IF IN THE UK which saves you £2.50) along with a small frozen banana. (Calories Consumed 1,188)


Wednesday 18th January, I woke up at 8am, listened to my Paul McKenna 'I Can Make You Thin' CD to spur me on not to be such a lardy bitch!! I got washed & dressed the same as yesterday & did a light make-up. I had 2 Rivita's with honey & a coffee for breakfast, then had my 1hr power walk, my left shoulder & arm in pain again today! I went out into the cold strapping on my ankle weights 1st. On my way home I bought my Sun paper, once indoors, I read the paper. The headline was 'Picture Exclusive: Back Together, Rhodri Giggs & The Wife Who Betrayed Him With His Brother Ryan UNITED' .... Bored already!! Yawn!!.... Meanwhile the death toll, on the stricken Costa Concordia, Cruise Ship, has gone up to 11, but officials say the chances of finding the other missing 24 passengers & crew alive, are fading! Among those is a beautiful Italian bride Maria D'Introno 30 & handsome groom, Vincenzo Rosselli 40 (Below) The Captain was last night under house arrest!

Missing Presumed Dead, Maria D'Introno & Vincenzo Rosselli 

EU arseholes have ruled that foreign hate preacher Abu Quatada (Below) CAN stay in the UK!! (F**k Right Off... Can we accidentally kill him instead then?) The ruling meant that Quatada, Osama Bin Laden's right-hand man in Europe could be free'd from detention within days! MADNESS!! He may even be allowed to stay here FOREVER after winning his latest round in his battle to avoid deportation, thanks to EU morons. (Maybe we can make an appeal to the Human Rights people that it's against his human rights to stay here as it's dangerous as most of the UK would like to Kill Him!!) A Tory MP correctly said "Once again we have unelected European Officials, interfering in the sovereignty of the UK!"  Meanwhile the EU did make one decent decision that life should mean life for notorious murderer's

An ancient bacteria that survives Siberian winters, COULD slow down the human aging process, scientists say. Bacillus F was found in permafrost in Yakutia Russia that dips below -50 oC in winter. Tests on mice found it boosted metabolism, eyesight & helped them live longer. I will no doubt be old & decrepit before it is on the market sadly!! My Asda delivery arrived & all but 6 of my 30 eggs, arrived smashed, so they were taken off my bill, I put the 6 eggs in my fridge & salvaged some egg from the smashed eggs which I put in a tumbler in the fridge I can use it to make omelette's & scrambled egg with. Once everything was in the fridge, freezer & cupboards I made myself a mushroom stir fry for lunch, with 3 Rivita's, which was very tasty, washed down with a Diet Coke. 

I did some household chores (Boring!!) had a snack of chilli Doritos, an apple & a Diet Coke. Watched 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' then later watched 'Come Dine With Me' very funny, then 'Home & Away'  I had 3 Rivita's with cottage cheese for tea, with a banana & apple, washed down with a Diet Coke. Evening TV was rubbish on the normal channels, so between 7 & 9 I watched '5USA' which was 'CSI NY' & 'CSI Miami' then turned over to Ch5 for 'Celebrity Big Brother' The boring Irish model (below) went out of the 1st of 2 evictions, this week, on Wednesday (About time, as apart from when she had a go at Kirk she was 100% boresville!!) Apparently, Peter Andre is interested in her, proving men only go by a fit body, not personality (As she showed NO personality on the show, whatsoever!) 

Then it was 'Kate Thornton: Anorexic - My Secret Past' which was quite boring!! Then I had a tomato Campbell's Cup Soup for a snack with 2 rice cakes & a apple (Oh dear, it is vile!!) I'd of been better off getting Asda's own or Batchelor's as the Campbell's one has no body or flavour!! I thought Campbell's was meant to be a high quality brand?? I do hope the rest of the Campbell's soups I got, are not this bad!!  

Revolting, Tastes Like Coloured Wallpaper Paste!!

Thank god for the apple, to take the floury, wall paper paste like taste, out of my mouth! Yuck!! Then I watched 'CBBBOTS' & had 2 rice cakes with peanut butter & a orange juice 'Collagen Shot' then went to bed (Calories consumed 1,492) (If you want to try the BRAND NEW Collagen product yourself,  go to http://t.co/uJ1OS7q & if you quote promotion code EB1 you will get free P&P IF YOU LIVE IN THE UK which saves you £2.50) 

Thursday 19th January, I woke at 8am I got on the scales I have gained one & a quarter pounds (Bugger) even though I have eaten under 2,000 cals all this week & under 1,500 for two of those days! Mind you my stomach has felt bloated & painful this week! I had 2 rice cakes with mashed banana & honey & a coffee for breakfast. Today I wore a black vest top & my 3/4 gym trousers, my black velour hooded jogging top, my Reebok EasyTone trainers, plus my black puffer jacket & went for my 1hour power walk. I got a paper on the way home & once in, I had a Diet Coke & read the paper. 

The front page had the sickening picture of a long haired yob, with tattooed neck & arms, in a  suit hands aloft in celebration (Above) with the headline. 'The Face Of Soft Justice, Cheering yob walks free after kicking man unconscious' About Daniel Chrapkowski 24 who laughed in the face of Britain's soft Justice, after being amazingly, let off a charge of, kicking, a passing good Samaritan, unconscious!! All he got was a 12month suspended term for GBH & was tagged. Victim Joseph O'Reilly 24, was in hospital for a month with a fractured jaw & bleeding to the brain! Joseph's injury's were so bad he needed a metal plate fitted to his face! Disgusting!!


Daniel's, Vile, accomplice, Thomas Lane, flicked a "V" sign at the photographers. Joseph was walking home with his girlfriend, when he saw a group of yobs kicking over bins & scattering rubbish. When he said "What on earth are you doing?" they set apon him as one of the gang boasted "I've Just been let out of prison for GBH" (The fact that he then did more, shows how our softly softly system, does NOT work!!) Daniel then punched him in the face & tripped him to the ground. He was knocked unconscious, as he was punched & kicked while on the ground! Daniel was given the light sentence because, moronic, judge, Martin Steiger (Who should be ashamed of himself!) Said Daniel "Wasn't involved in the kicking to his head" Well It was his punch & tripping up of Joseph, that put him on the ground & available for his head to be kicked, whether he kicked the head, or other areas, of Joseph's body!!


Poor scared 6yr old Shekinha Terry, was abandoned in a freezing, scruffy, council house, covered in cat mess, for 5 days living on water & Monster Munches. Then when her heartless mum, was challenged by police, she coldly said "I neglected my daughter.... end of!!" Shekinha got up on a cold November morning, in 2010, to find her mum not there. The bewildered girl waited a while & then took off her school uniform & watched TV. She got by eating pickled onion, Monster Munch & yoghurt & drinking water. Finally shaking with terror she knocked on a neighbours door & said "Mum has left me for 5 days & she hasn't come back!!" The Vile mother was sentenced to just 18months for child cruelty!


Ironic news is in, that the Titanic theme tune, was being played, in the restaurant, on the Costa Concordia, Cruise Ship, when it hit rocks, near an Italian Island! Spooky!!

Vile Carl Whant, You Can See The Pure Evil, In His Face!

Vile, Evil Carl Whant 27 (Above) raped & murdered his close friends pregnant girlfriend & then set fire to her bed, to cover his crime. He plunged a knife into the belly (& child) of Nikitta Grender 19 (Below) The knife penetrated the liver of her unborn daughter! He also stabbed Nikitta in the neck, severing an artery. He then set light to the bed, to make it look like she'd died in a house fire! The scum had also killed their pet dog. Nikitta was just 2weeks away from giving birth! She & boyfriend Ryan Mayes 18 (A friend of Whant) had already named their daughter Kelsey-May. Ryan Idolised Whant & saw him as a father figure, as they worked together as salesmen for a window company. But Nikitta didn't like him & thought him a bad influence. Whant denies murder! (Of course the lying scum does!) 

Beautiful, Innocent, Victim, Nikitta 

An illegal immigrant who made 15 appeals to stay in the UK (No doubt using free legal aid, paid for by tax payers) Can finally be deported (Hurrrah!!) The Pakistani 38, spent 10yrs, on the asylum merry-go-round, after being ordered to leave! For once those damn human rights, failed to win the day for the immigrant! Thank god!!

I watched a bit of morning TV, then had a 6" Tuna Subway, with some fruit salad, with Total, Greek yoghurt, for lunch at 12.15pm. Then had my personal training session with Rob at 1pm at Fitness First. He said my back was in a really bad way & was suffering lack of muscle & muscle damage, in my upper back. He was amazed I could feel no pull in my back & arms during certain routines, with weights, Swiss ball & apparatus, only in my wrists (That are weak!!) He said my car crashes & falls have taken it's toll on me & he said it was no surprise, that at times I feel like I have the back of a 70yr old! I had my session with him, then did some more on the treadmill, bike, cross trainer, and power plate before heading home. I'd burnt 151 cals on the exercise machines, plus what ever I burnt with Rob. I have bad stomach cramps today, but it's not from the gym even though I did stomach crunches!! It is like period pains (But I don't have those since the menopause 5yrs ago!) 

After the gym I went to the post office & posted off my eBay sales. Then I watched 'Come Dine With Me' & 'Home & Away' then I caught up with a bit of blogging!! I had a tomato soup (Not the Campbell's Cup Soup, thankfully) with 2 rice cakes. Then I had a shower & got changed into my black polo neck, black leggings & black boots, dried my hair straight & wore grey feathered hoop earrings & was picked up by Edgar to go to 'The Cat' pub, to go to his darts match, with Jennie, as usual without knowing beforehand Jennie & I had somehow manage to dress very similar. 


We got chatting to some American woman, who was on the opposing team, with short hair & who looked like she may be a lesbian. She was quite hostile to us when we 1st sat down, as I think she had preconceived idea's, of what we were like, before she'd even spoken to us, but at the end, we were like her new best friends! I saw Danny, I'd met at Edgar's 50th, who is also a FB friend & we had a bit of jokey, flirty banter. I had 2 half's of cider & then some tall 6ft 5" guy, who was my age, had a bit of a chat & bought me a Vodka Slimline, a few of the darts team said, I should come down with Jenny & Edgar more often. I got dropped home around 12-12.30am. I got in feeling peckish, so I had an apple, plus a handful of wasabi peas & a Diet Coke. Then went to up stairs to bed (Calories consumed 1,580, minus those 151 burnt in gym = 1,429)

Friday 20th January, I woke at 7.45am and listened to my Paul McKenna CD, then I had 2 rice cakes, with peanut butter & a coffee, for breakfast! Yum Yum!! I had a wash scraped hair up in a French pleat & did a light make-up & pulled on last nights clothes (Minus the feather earrings) & my black puffer jacket & went for my 1hr power walk, it was pretty cold out Brrrrrrrrrr!! I bought the paper on the way home, as usual. I got in & grabbed an apple & Diet Coke & I read the paper, the front cover was 'Cowell: I Got It Wrong, I became too cocky & smug, BGT simply not good enough, I poached Alisha to hurt Strictly' About how TV troubles in 2011 have brought him down to earth! With ratings falls for 'Xfactor' 'Britain's Got Talent' the row over 'Red or Black' & US Xfactor's failure to net 20million viewers! 


He said "I got a bit too cocky, we got a big wake-up call'" He added he poached Alesha to hurt BBC1's 'Strictly' To be honest I don't think Alesha leaving will make an iota of difference to 'Strictly' Alesha is a nice lass, but she adds absolutely nothing to the show, she is best when she is a bit pissed, on chat shows, to be honest!!! He said this years 'BGT' winner could perform in space! Hope they don't find they suffer due to the lack of atmosphere there lol! 


Joyous news in the form that, Daniel Chrapkowski, the thug seen celebrating outside court, after battering good Samaritan, Joseph O'Reilly, has gone into hiding yesterday, amid outrage at his acquittal! He is holed up in his parents house, refusing to answer the door, he even had the cheek, yesterday, to beg police to protect HIM!! (Not so much of a big man now...are you? You cowardly scum!!)

I had some Weight Watchers, Country Vegetable Soup, by Heinz for lunch, with 2 rice cakes, spread with Marmite, which was actually surprisingly tasty! I watched 'Loose Women' & 'The News' then did a load of job applications online as per usual! I blogged some more. Then peckish I snacked on a handful of wasabi peas & some carrot batons. I watched 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' then I did some of my personal training exercises on my Swiss ball & with my wrist & ankle weights & dumb bells. I did some chores, wrote a bit more of my blog, then watched 'Come Dine With Me' & 'Home & Away' At 7pm I had dinner, roasted Mediterranean vegetables, with 2 rice cakes, with cottage cheese on, followed by a banana & mango, fruit salad & a Diet Coke. 


Then I watched the evening episode of 'Come Dine With Me' very amusing then 'New Girl' with a wedding setting, vaguely amusing! Then it was time for two more evictions on 'Celebrity Big Brother' surely it had to be morons Frankie & Kirk out!!  First out.... Kirk (Yay!! I thought some 'TOWIE' fans might be stupid enough to vote to save him!!) He did a naff interview showing off his lack of intellect despite going to a private school! 

Half of Dumb & Dumber, Kirk Norcross

Then I watched 'Celebrity Wedding Planner' there were two celebrity's this week Raef Bjayou & Stuart Baggs. Yet much as I fancy Raef & find Stuart amusing, it was quite boring! Then it was 'Celebrity Big Brother' & time for eviction No2 with boring Irish bint gone on Wednesday, and Kirk out earlier, it just had to be Frankie!!..... But NO!!! WTF???? It was Natalie!!? I don't get it? I was sure, that she would make it to the final 3 & even possibly win!! I can only think the public, like me, assumed she was safe & didn't vote to save her. Madness!! Peckish I snacked on more carrot batons, dipped in 2tsp of crunchy peanut butter & a Diet Coke. I watched 'CBBBOTS' then read a bit of my Marilyn book before going to bed (Calories consumed 1,515)

Saturday 21st January, I woke at 9am, listened to my Paul Mckenna CD & did a bit of dry skin brushing, to increase circulation & flush out toxins. Then I had a long soak, in a hot bath, to try & ease my bad back. Then I had a fresh fruit salad, with some Total, Greek yoghurt, for breakfast, with a decaf coffee. I pulled on my jeans, a white shirt & silver cardigan & popped to the shop for my Sun newspaper. I came home & settled down with it on the sofa, I read the headline 'Sun Gets Mobster Nicked: We bag a butcher of Bulgaria in Bermondsey' A brutal Bulgarian gangster, notorious for slicing off victims fingers & ears ('Reservoir Dogs' style!) Was caught by the Sun, working in a Bermondsey Gym! Tihomir Georgiev 43 (Below) a murder suspect, was on Interpol's most wanted list, after fleeing a trial in Bulgaria.

Amanda Holden backed 'BGT' new judge Alesha, with a nasty side dig, at lovely Kelly Brook, saying "Alesha is like Kelly.... but with a brain!" oooh Miaooooooow!!! Saucer of milk for Amanda please!! Watch out for Karma, biting you in the arse for that, later Amanda!!

Moronic parents, Beck Laxton 46 & Kieran Cooper 44, brought up their son Sasha (Above) as 'Gender Neutral' for 5yrs! Oh pleeeeze!! They kept his gender a secret, from friends & family for 5yrs & have finally revealed, that he is a boy. Friends & family, were kept guessing, as his clothes alternated between boys & girls (FFS!) But his parents had to give his new school, his sex when he joined, an infant school. Why all the madness? Why not let everyone know he is a boy & just let him choose what he wants for toys, be it a lorry or a Cindy Doll? And let him chose his fancy dress outfits, whether it be a cowboy, or a fairy!! Then if the unlikely happens & he comes to you one day, saying he is gay, or transsexual, just be there & be supportive!! All this other secrecy & gender neutral claptrap, is a load of stupid, pointless, bollocks!!


IRA's Brian Shivers 46 (Below) Was jailed for life yesterday, for the evil murder of 2 British soldiers. As the unarmed soldiers, picked up take-away pizza's (Showing the gutlessness of the IRA, they attack unarmed soldiers, as they don't have the guts to take their chances, when things are equal, when the soldiers are armed!!) But the family's of handsome & brave, Patrick Azimkar 21 & Mark Quinsey 23, wept when a 2nd man, Colin Duffy 44 was cleared despite his DNA being in the get away car! The good news though is, Brian Shivers is dying of cystic fibrosis, so hopefully will die in jail!

Jailed, Cowardly, IRA Man, Brian Shivers 46, Shoots The Unarmed

I did a load of laundry & mopped the kitchen & bathroom floors, then went through a load of post. Then I did a bunch of job & audition searches & applied for a large bunch of both. Then I had a Campbell's leek & potato Cup Soup with 2 rice cakes, sadly this was also bland & tasteless!! So I had to add a load of low salt & pepper, to it, to make it half palatable!! I made a big mistake there, buying a load of Campbell's Cup Soups (I won't be buying them ever again!!) I will stick with Asda's own or Batchelor's in the future!!! I also had a handful of wasabi peas!!

Campbell's Cup Soup 

Don't Waste Your Money, They Taste Vile!! 

I did a load of hoovering & watered the plants, changed the bed linen and a load of dusting, I haven't seen the tiny black mouse/baby rat for some time, I hope it found it's way out, else I'm worried it has died of starvation (As it will not find any food in floor level kitchen cupboards & cant get in fridge & freezer!) Then I watched 'Jurassic Park III' As I have loved dinosaurs since I was a little girl (Below)

Me Aged 5yrs 

Then I watched the News & then had some tuna on 3 crispbread's & a handful of wasabi peas, with a Diet Coke, with a small banana & an apple to follow. Then I watched 'New You've Been Framed' & 'Harry Hill's TV Burp' followed by the very funny 'Take Me Out' It was "NO Lighty" from me for all 4 guys tonight!! Then I watched 'Celebrity Big Brother' while writing some blogs. Then I had 2 rice cakes with Marmite & 2 with peanut butter, while watching 'The Jonathan Ross Show'  

I did a load of blogging until midnight & went to bed with a 'Collagen Shot' mixed in Orange juice. One of the two lines above my right eyebrow (The finer of the two) has completely gone!! It will be interesting to see, if it returns when I run out & if so, how quickly, or if it actually stays gone?? (If you want to try the product yourself go to http://t.co/uJ1OS7q and if you quote promotion code EB1 you will get free P&P IF YOU LIVE IN THE UK which saves you £2.50) (Calories consumed 1,562)

Sunday 22nd January, I woke at 9.45am in a lot of pain, with my neck & left shoulder & arm. I got on the scales & I have gained another quarter of a lb, WTF!!?? I haven't eaten enough calories to be gaining weight?? My stomach is still bloated & my breasts are feeling heavy, if it wasn't for the fact I'm menopausal & have no sex life, I'd think I was pregnant!! I had an apple & a coffee for breakfast & did a whole load of chores, while blasting out Muse, Stereophonics & Kings Of Leon, on the stereo. I also sorted a whole bunch of new stuff to list on eBay (It's how I'm paying my bills..... just!!) 

Lunch!!!

I made myself an omelette (Above) with plain cottage cheese & a side of watercress, with some of the salvaged egg from the smashed Asda eggs, which was very tasty!! Then I cleaned the windows (Well the inside of the upstairs ones, as I can't do the outside, of them) I had snack of a small banana & a coffee. Then relaxed with my Paul McKenna CD, as it worked for me in 2008!! Then later at 5.40pm I watched the 'News' & then 'Dancing On Ice' it had a film theme this week (Click on my 'Dancing on Ice Critique' blog on this site for results & a review of tonight's show!!) I had a Campbell's Mushroom Cup Soup, with 2 Rivita for tea (Yet again, it was bland and tasteless, but the best out of the 3 variety's so far, which isn't hard!) plus I had a small banana. 


Then before the results show I watched the brilliant 'The Hotel' so funny, my best friend Candie is moving back to her birth place, Torquay this year (I'm going to miss her a lot, even though I can't afford get to London, that often, to see her!!) She loves the show & I just know, she will be going round to to that hotel as often as possible for a drink or meal, to be entertained by the madness. Then I watched the results show of 'Dancing On Ice' I snacked on some carrot batons, dipped in 2tsp, of crunchy, peanut butter, with a handful of wasabi peas & a Diet Coke. I watched 'Celebrity Big Brother' Then I spent the rest of the evening reading my Marilyn Monroe book & later had an apple & a 'Collagen Shot' made, mixed with orange juice & went to bed at 1am (Calories consumed 1,348) (If you want to try the BRAND NEW Collagen  Shot product yourself go to http://t.co/uJ1OS7q and if you quote promotion code EB1 you will get free P&P which saves you £2.50)  IF YOU LIVE IN THE UK

Remember Remember The 5th Of November!!

Monday 1st Nov, Had a really complex but interesting dream, but I forgot to write it down, so I can now no longer recall the details, Had apple & raisin Oat So Simple with sliced banana in & a coffee for breakfast, my neck is really stiff again today, I really must book some acupuncture sessions, popped out for a Sun paper & got some free Match Attax cards in WHS, with vouchers from The Sun (will put in Nephew's Xmas stocking) and some free chocolate coated toffee's from Thornton's, with a voucher from The Sun & went to get a free 2ltr Zero Coke from Tesco's with a Sun voucher but they were sold out (surprise, surprise)


I saw the gorgeous St Bernard dog I saw when I was out Sat, spoke to the owner I thought the dog was a half grown St Bernard as it wasn't as big as most, but it turned out that she was a rescue dog that had been badly treated (awe bless) apparently she was one of 200 dogs in a breeding farm, the owner went a bit loopy & did a runner leaving the animals to fend for themselves 5 or so sadly died!! But its good to see this big soppy dog now has a happy home (all my pets came via rescue organisations) with bonfire night coming up a lot of animals are going to be spooked by fireworks this week!!

I did a load of dusting etc in my bedroom and cleaned out my make-up draw, took some pain killers as I was beginning to really ache! My friend Nicky text at 2pm saying "Xmas Market in Brogue Sat 11th Dec day trip by euro tunnel! let me know if you want to go. Limited tickets available" I had to laugh I haven't got money for Xmas presents let alone for travel to France!! I'm sure when you say your broke, people think you mean, you only have a few hundred or a few thousand in the bank, when I say I'm broke it means I have £10 - £40 in the bank tops!!.....


Sauteed some marinated Tofu & had it with watercress salad in a gluten & wheat free pitta, for lunch with the toffees I got free for desert, did some ironing and boring house chores then took a coffee break to watch Home & Away on fiver at 6.30pm, Andrea text at 8.45pm to say She was having a Red & White themed, Pre Xmas Party on Dec 3rd so to put it in my diary! Later when I felt hungry I had some macaroni cheese.


Watched The Ghost Whisperer (I have had lots of ghost experiences one day I will do a blog on them, I have a half written book on them) Then caught up on "V" which I accidentally missed last week. I think the Baddie female leader looks a lot like my niece Teresa!! See bellow....

 "V" Baddie

Niece Teresa 

Later I watched the wonderfully tacky "A Shot At Love With Tila Tequila" The arsehole Jay from Jersey got dumped & proved what a tool he was by his response, which only showed how right she was to ditch him!!


Read The Sun more about the al-Qaeda scum & their plans to use cartridge bombs to blow up cargo planes over certain western city's, we are too easy on terrorism in the UK all "proven" active terrorists should be executed, only the other day the piece of shit known as Abu Izzadeen was allowed to rant against the poppy appeal, he says Muslims are being murdered & tortured, well his suicide pals are murdering innocents off all religions & hacking off the heads of non Muslims, people like him (& I use the term people loosely in his case) cause problems for normal decent Muslims, who in some cases get the backlash caused by the actions of the fanatics, I have Muslim friends & Muslim in laws and they are disgusted by al-Qaeda & their sympathisers (who are as guilty as the perpetrators if they raise money for or do not snitch on active cell members) The fact that Many Muslim Mosque leaders, do not speak up against the terrorists smacks of cowardice or sympathisers, It seems free speech in this country, is only for fanatics spouting hate & inciting mass murder, speak up against it, and you soon find your freedom of speech quashed, and yourself called a racist!!


I remember when I was 1st looking for somewhere to move to in 2001-2002 I looked at a flat in Victoria St, St Albans, The Estate Agent let me in & the flat smelt weird kind of like a hairdressers but with a bitter under taste to the smell, I went into what seemed to be a lounge with a sofa bed and there was a large, white semi translucent, plastic, barrel that stood approx 5ft high, it was apparent the aroma was emanating from the remaining 2" deep of liquid in the barrel, it smelt like peroxide bleach or perming solution, but there was another smell I recognised but couldn't place at 1st, then it dawned on me it was the semi opaque white crystal fertilizer that was used on the dairy estate, that I use to live on in Buckinghamshire. At the time the scenario felt odd & I had a bad feel about the place, it had a bad vibe about the place & so I declined renting. I asked the estate agent, what that was? that had obviously been left behind by the last tenant, & she just shrugged her shoulder's in a blase manner, I thought "aren't you curious about what the hell your ex tenants been doing? or concerned that whatever it is, is stinking the flat out? It was only years later I learnt via the media that both peroxide & chemical fertilizer is used to make suicide bombs etc,

Lots on Xfactor gossip in papers & Now Magazine, quite frankly I couldn't care less who's in a relationship & who isn't & which housemates are getting it on BORING!! Yawnnnnnn!!! Wagner could be shagging the whole of One Direction & Belle Amie for all I care!!

Also in the papers was Deuces being burnt down, so I was wrong Sunday it was genuine (BUT they must of staged the back of the bar with bottles of alcohol for the filming) if the fire burnt the bar top, the way it looks on TV, the searing heat would of definitely made the flammable bottles of booze on the shelf behind explode!! FACT!!! I have worked in Bars & in Clubs in the past!!..... one fact left out of The Only Way Is Essex is that it wasn't just Mark Wright's Bar it was joint owned with Jack Tweedy. Police think it may be down to a Turf War between rival gangs (more likely someone with a grudge against Tweedy!!)


Tuesday 2nd Nov, had a really intense dream, that I was holding this huge party friends & boyfriend & relatives past & present was there, there were costumes & I was talking to my friends Anna & Candie, it turned out they had both been in a relationship, with the ex love of my life & was telling me the weird things he did to woo them, I thought that's so not like the man I use to know & love, what the hell happened to him to make him so odd? I was chatting to lots of people but guys kept giving me odd looks, then when I walked past a mirror I saw I had the huge lashes on I wore for Halloween. I was sat on a sofa after putting food in the oven to cook for the party & was looking through magazines that had been in a big clear zip fasten plastic envelope, I ripped out a few pages with fancy dress costumes patterns on, from a Woman's Own magazine, then I realised they were my friend Nat's magazines & thought that's not the kind of magazine Nat or I would buy, it's more for old people, wondered why I pulled out the patterns as I don't have kids & thought "I guess I planned to upscale them for adults" I took a roast dinner out of the bottom of the oven & then cup cakes out of the top half, then I woke.


Had Breakfast & popped out for a newspaper & discovered a set of dumb bells put out for the rubbish, so I had those!! Popped to Jennies for a Coffee, made a big fuss of Stanley with lots of cuddles, had a slow walk round the park & really wished my camera wasn't broken, the yellow, orange, copper & red leaves on the trees against the purplish grey sky looked stunning & would of made a great photo. Went back to Jennies again for another coffee & she said to come over Thursday night, for a chilled evening in front of the TV when Edgar goes out with the darts team to play a match, I will be back the following Thursday with flowers, for Amy's grave, (Jennie & Edgar let me bury Amy in their garden as I couldn't in my courtyard) as it will be a year on Nov 11th since she died. Jennie headed out to pick up the kids for school & I headed off to pick up more Match Attax cards with my voucher from The Sun from WHS.

Had Fajita Quorn Strips in a wheat & gluten free pitta with humus, for lunch followed with Total Yogurt with sliced banana & peanut butter in. Read The Sun & was in Tears reading about the poor, sad eyed, bear, in a filthy cage outside at a cafe, in Gabala, Northern Azerbaijan, Starving & forced to drink Cola from a 2ltr bottle, for the amusement of the cafe patrons, two days later the poor darling was dead, and quickly replaced by another one, the vile cafe owner said "we just catch a new one up in the mountains!" I hope next time he is mauled to death by one, the evil scum!!....... (video of it's torment below)

The Poor, Starving, Sad Eyed Bear, Drinks Cola

Did some more housework, still angry & hurt about the bear, I love animals & animal cruelty breaks my heart! There was a bit about a waster who doesn't want to work, in the paper yesterday, who the BBC had portrayed as a victim (like they also do to terrorists, which is why I never watch the BBC news as it is so biast & New Labour driven, news should be impartial)  James Van-Cliff quit because his weekly pay of £93 was not enough (now if his weekly rent was £150 like mine I could understand a bit as he'd need a 2nd job to pay rent & bills) but his rent was £9 a week!! BLOODY HELL!!!!!...... that's £39 a calender month compared to my £650 a calender HOLLY COW,  if my rent became £39 a month tomorrow I would think all my Christmas's & Birthday's had come at once & I'd have a job & a sense of security within 24hrs!! he is whining because his benefit is going to be reduced by £9 FFS!!!! with rent that low you shouldn't be claiming benefit you should be off your arse looking for work!! especially as he shares the flat & rent with his Girlfriend, so that's £4.50 rent a week or £19.50 a month!! My god he couldn't be in a more easy place to get work, how the BBC could portray him as a victim of the new government & their cuts (due to the BBC's darling Labour)

Poor Work-shy  James & Girlfriend

Don't they just ooze intellect & charm!

Meanwhile I have been on the waiting list for 30yrs for affordable housing & no higher up the list, as I don't have enough points to get higher up the list (which I could get by being, a criminal, a druggie or spawning a brood of illegitimate children!!!) so I have to pay private landlord rent of £650 a month & when I find myself out of work due to company liquidation, I am competing in an industry where 5000 and sometimes more can be trying for the same job, which increases with every retail outlet that goes under!! not only that, but I am limited in my options, as I need to ensure that the job will be able to cover my rent, my bills, my travel to the job, and food & other essentials, let alone enough for a treat or occasional holiday!! How the Fuck can this guy feel he is hard done by? I bet he doesn't put a dressing gown & beanie cap on over clothes indoors in winter to delay having to use the heating, or only have the lights on in the room his in, or live on porridge for weeks to pay winter bills!! makes you sick!!...


Talking of which no response from jobs I reapplied for yet, but Oaklands College did contact me, Re me doing a featured minor part for free, in their St Albans Film, but the auditions are in Oaklands in Welwyn Garden City on Nov 5th, NOT Oaklands St Albans, so not sure I can afford the fare to go? especially as I'm trying to see if I can get to Candies for her fireworks party.

Did some washing up and other household chores, then watched The Vampire Diary's. Sold another item on ebay for a few quid, so I will put in the post tomorrow. Then Chilled with the paper, and some home made salted popcorn, The Sun contained more on the scum trying to blow up aeroplanes with ink cassette bombs, ironically its Guy Fawkes Night, on Friday, when we celebrate him trying to blow up a corrupt government, in The Houses Of Parliament (rather like New Labour) I wouldn't be surprised if Scum Fanatics tried to attempt the same this Friday!!.....

Did some more job searches & sent off 30 job applications & 6 audition applications, I am betting I can count those that reply on one hand!!......watched Numbers & the brilliant Flashpoint and then crashed for the night!

Wednesday 3rd Nov, Dreamt I went to a huge club with Ian & (BB8) Jonty as guests of honour & went down a huge curving staircase into the throng, I recall Jonty getting spanked by someone & being outside later, doing something (which I cant recall) & having to walk down a pitch black path having to feel my way along, and I felt a body it didn't move or make a sound & I felt it must be dead, then I was in a house having some kind of disagreement with my brother Bill, also I seemed to be packing up stuff in a room.


Grey and gloomy out popped to the shop to get a Sun Newspaper & a few home essentials, then had a plain Oat so Simple & banana, and coffee then popped out & got my free 2Ltr bottle of  Zero Coke from Tesco with my voucher, then popped to WHS and got my free Match Attax Binder & cards with my other voucher & bought a Closer magazine. Saw the Dwarf city bin refuse collector & street sweeper that I often run into & had a chat, he has his own Facebook Supporters page bless him!! Then famished I went home for a Jacket potato & chili backed beans Yum!!


Read the sun paper and flicked through Closer Magazine, they had an article on Lauren Goodger from The Only Way Is Essex, They described her as the vulnerable one we can all relate to!!!..... Errrrrr NO!!! Not me I think she is a vile, vindictive, up herself, unprofessional, petty, spiteful, bitch!!!  who walks round like she is something special, and has a bad smell under her nose!!

 

She was Vile to poor Lucy I don't know if some of it was staged for the show or not (I'm guessing not, as you would not willingly agree to do, something that makes you look like a bitch, if your not!! unless your extremely stupid!!) although she doesn't come across as very intelligent to be honest!


If your pissed off your ex has moved on fair enough!! If you need to be catty (even though it makes you look pathetic!!) be catty to him, not his new girlfriend who has done nothing wrong by dating your ex!!


She has slagged off poor Lucy every opportunity she had, saying she looked like a teenager & that she is ugly (knowing Lucy will watch the show & see that, as will Mark) Lauren is jealous (or Jell if you want to use Essex speak) because Lucy is younger, slimmer & prettier than Lauren is, with her wide, flat, sour face!!

Lauren Goodger

If her actions were not staged then she was pathetic, petty & unprofessional, especially when she left Lucy off the Essex Fashion Week posters, when her designs were on the catwalk, & then, despite saying to Lucy she would keep things professional  (after a talking to by her far to lenient bosses) but then left her off of the catwalk, when she put all the other designers on the catwalk at the end, to thank them all for their fashion contributions. Also she slagged off Lucy & her clothes to Amy & Sam when she got them to model them (funny, as she liked them enough to choose them, before she knew who Lucy was....... pathetic bitch!!)


If The Essex Fashion Week bitchiness to Lucy was not staged for the show, then her bosses in the rag trade (if she really does work for them are fools!!) If I had been them I would of fired her!! (she should at the very least have got a official warning!) I have worked in the fashion & beauty industry for 30yrs as a Model, Designer, Illustrator, Stylist, Sales Assistant & Retail Manager, If I had let my private life interfere with my integrity at work in any of those positions, even once I would of been picking up my P45, If those to guys really do have a fashion business & have allowed cameras into it, then if they had any brains, they would of held a meeting before filming started, and told all staff that they represented the face of their company & at all times they should be setting a good example for the business!!


Lauren's actions could loose them customers & clients, when they see somebody with a "supposedly" high position in the firm, omit a client from advertising/promotion, exempt them from recognition & thanks publicly and on camera & slagged off their clothes in front of others just because they are dating an Ex of hers (I certainly wouldn't want them to have any of my business in case I as a client got the same treatment!) Her actions will have cost them business!!


Also in Closer mag was a article on a Swinging Gran, Carol Bone (apt surname) who has had 200 one night stands, with toyboys. I thought regular sex was meant to keep you youthful yet at 62yrs Carol looks more ancient than my mum did at 79yrs!! Proving yet again its no accident Swingers rhymes with Mingers!!.... she said she doesn't like overweight people, but she has a quite a chunky torso & belly herself on top of her thinnish legs, she looks like an old Joe Pasquali, in cheap lingerie, with a peroxide crop!! I wonder how attractive the toyboy swingers are? She makes my present over 2yrs of celibacy look positively frigid lol

Swinging 62yr Old Carol Bone

Then there was the article on vile mother Joy Watson, who lets her 14yr daughter Sophie Watson have permanent tattooed make up, drink (I grew up from 7yrs having the occasional small glass of wine with Sunday dinner or at Xmas or birthday celebrations to teach us responsible drinking as not to go crazy once at legal drinking age) go clubbing (I was allowed to from 11yrs with certain rules to adhere to!!) & put her on the pill knowing she has been having sex, (four so far!) I went on the pill at 11yrs due to having agonising periods from 9yrs & I remained a virgin (through choice) into my 20's!! Sophie is determined to become famous (a famous what, SLAG??) her mum Joy said "I laughed once when she grumbled once that she had, had a crap shag!!" adding "that doesn't make me an irresponsible mum!!" (oh yes it fucking does you stupid cow!!! you should be horrified that your daughter has racked up 4 sexual partners at 14yrs NOT F**KING LAUGHING!!) She drew the line recently though, when she found her daughter in bed with a girl & boy of the same age, but Sophie claims she "ONLY" had sex with the boy!! (oh that's OK then!!!) Sophie who is dating a 17yr old says she goes out on a Thursday night & her mum won't really see her again until Sunday!!! (yeah your not a irresponsible mum are you Joy!!!) My parents would be pulling their hair out with worry if I was 15mins over my night curfew let alone be gone for days!! Joy says Sophie is Very mature & acts within the boundaries she sets (what fucking boundaries??? that will be NONE from what I can tell!!) she use to drink 5-8 pints of larger a night, but now has half a litre of vodka a couple of times a week. She once threw up in the sink when drinking at home & the pic was put up on facebook before heading out clubbing  which her caring mother was aware of!! (my parents would of never let me get into that state at home, and wouldn't allow me to go out clubbing after being sick due to too much drink, in my 20's let alone at 14!!!) I did use to go to over 21 nightclubs at 13yrs because I looked older & I'd have enough cash for 3 rum & blacks my drink of the time, but my dad drove me there & would be parked directly opposite the exit & for the leniency of my parents, the rules were the minuet the last dance ends I was to get my coat & go directly to the exit to my dad in the car, no going off anywhere with anyone & I never did. I lived in a small village that had nothing but fields & livestock & houses, and I was into fashion & dancing, so my parents trusted me to go out & indulge in my love of dancing, but nothing else, and I never wanted to disappoint them!! Joy knows Sophie has slept with 4 boys & doesn't think it's too many as her 13yr old friend has slept with 20!!! fuck me do these young girls of today have no self respect?? (my parents would of been horribly disappointed with me if I'd slept with one guy at 14 let alone 4 & if they found out one of my younger friends had had 20 sexual encounters, they would not allow me to hang out with her anymore!) That girl will end up either dead from either booze, or drugs, before she hits her 30's or Raped/Murdered or on the game! Tragic!!

 Vile Joy & tragic daughter Sophie

Watched the inept morons on The Apprentice (if this is the cream of the crop from the applicants, what kind of useless tossers got rejected??) This week it was a fashion retail task (one I'd excel in!!) So it was a case of  who had the task sewn up & who Over-locked what was needed to win!! one collection made me laugh a dress was sold for £400 that was made from men's ties sewn together, I made a skirt out of my dads old ties when I was 16yrs old in 1980, maybe I should rake it out of my fancy dress box & sell it lol!!!


Watched The Only Way Is Essex, Harry was in his pants & shower cap having a spray tan, I knew he was thin but OMG!!! he is emaciated, he looks like a victim from Belsen Nazi Concentration Camp. That can't be healthy!! Amy's other little fat pug was on today (the black one) is probably heavier than Harry!! Lauren was as sour faced & unpleasant as usual, and Kirk his normal nice but dim self (which makes it hard to believe he owns/runs a club!) The nicest guy (even if a bit cheesy!) is Arg.

Harry Clip From "The Only Way Is Essex" 

Chilled while sending off some job applications, while waiting for RuPauls Drag Race to Come on, I'd been offered an audition to be in a new quiz shows pilot, but they only pay travel expenses when making the pilot as your not paid for it, but not for audition, so I can't afford to do that at the moment.


Watched RuPauls Drag Race BRILLIANT!! ...... it was Dragmothers theme tonight, very good sadly the very funny Pandora Boxx was told to Sashay Away (I'd of preferred "The Other Tyra" to go, she is pretty when done up, but just a Beyonce wannabe, but without any of the Sasha Fierce-ness!!) I think it will be Raven, Juju Bee & Tatianna in the final three!!

 Ravishing Raven

 Juicy Juju Bee

Tasty Tatianna

Pandora Boxx, Gone But Not Forgotten

Thursday 4th Nov, Had another of my odd dreams, connected to TV & party's again. I'm having a better social life in my dreams than in reality!!!...... Woke with a rough sore throat, knew it was coming (despite trying to avoid it with warm clothes & scarfs) I popped out to the post office to send off a parcel & popped into WHS for some more Match Attax cards, & popped to see Aku & give him some fuss & a cuddle, as the fireworks going off are scaring him, as he sleeps outside in a kennel, I'd have him round mine (even though I'm not allowed to have my pets here) this week but I'm going to be out Friday night at Candies Firework Party, when most will be setting off fireworks round here & I have lots of breakables that could get ruined if he went a bit crazy due to fear of the noise, or wee'd or poo'd in my flat due to fear!! or ripped up soft furnishings, if I was home at the weekend I would of stolen him away to be with me, I'd hate to think of him being scared! so he got lost of kisses & cuddles.

Went home made a hot toddy (JD, lemon juice, honey & hot water) to soothe my throat & clear blocked sinuses &  bought some lockets to suck on, also went to buy a Now Magazine & saw they were doing a 2 magazine offer, so I bought that & when I got in I found the other mag was Woman (which is a bit like woman's own in my dream, I'll laugh if there is a dressmaking pattern in it that I pull out!!) had some pea soup for lunch then made a big batch of my Spicy Winter Warmer Soup, with lots of Chili, Ginger & Garlic in, that should hope attack my sore throat/cold germs!!!

Around 6pm Fireworks started going off, already? I thought & then realised it must be Diwali today, that always gets a lot of fireworks set off round here over the past 5yrs (guess the Asian population in St Albans has increased over the past 5yrs) thought of poor Aku I hope there is not any going off near him, poor baby.

Had some of my homemade soup (very good) then went round Jennies for a chilled girly night in front of the TV, while Edgar played darts, Watched Drop Dead Diva & Nikita (think Living is one of the few stations I'd consider paying for if I had the cash) Then I watched Celebrity Juice which was excellent this week but I was shocked to discover Jennie had never seen it before!!! I guess she is out watching Edgar play darts most Thursdays.


Went home after a coffee when Edgar got home, and watched True Blood (it just keeps getting better!!) Read some of The Sun Paper, this country is way too soft Police allowed Islamic's to protest over attempted murderer, Roshanara Choudhry


Friday 5th Nov, despite not falling asleep until some time between 7-8am I was awoken at 9am by a screaming brat, kicking off about having its haircut downstairs & he continued to screech on the top of his lungs for at least 15mins, obviously not wanting his hair cut. What the hell was his parent doing? I would of got a slap or at least the threat of one if I'd shown my dad up in public like that!! I was tempted to go downstairs & wring the brats neck myself!! Throat so sore & voice gone there is no way I'm going to be able to do that audition in Welwyn today, even after another hot toddy & locket lozenges. Got some sad news by phone at 10am meaning I definitely wasn't going to be able to make it, I was just about to text the Oaklands student when he text me, I replied I was unable to come explaining why, then popped out to see a friend.


The sky has been dark since 10am, looks like today will be an eternal evening, also its piddling down with rain outside, hope that doesn't put a dampener on Candie & Costa's fireworks....... packed an overnight bag for Candies & made a jacket potato with homemade ratatouille on it for brunch.


My Aussie soldier friend who is moving back to Australia soon (now his tour of duty in Iraq is over) is meant to be coming to stay the weekend (arranged weeks ago) but he hasn't been in contact recently, so I bet he has forgotten (and I'm not the type, to chase after a man to see whats happening, I always work by the rule of never letting a man become your priority, while allowing yourself to be his option!!) If I'm not important enough for him to remember, he is not important enough for me to hang about for or to remind!


Washed & dried hair though don't know why as it will be ruined by the rain & wind, did a smokey eyed with pail pink lips make-up. Wore capped sleeved, cowl necked, military styled, black, sweater dress, with a long sleeved black T-Shirt underneath, with thick black tights, and knee high KG pull up boots, put my black sequined knitted beanie/beret in my big black sequined shopper bag, Pulled on my Cream Cashmere Tommy Hilfiger Coat & grabbed my Black & white Versace umbrella & headed into town in the pouring rain at 4.20pm popped to WHS to get some more free Match Attax cards, then waited for the 712 bus to London, it was due at 5pm but arrived at 5.15pm due to traffic, then changed at Brent Cross for a 102 to Muswell Hill. London to my surprise unlike St Albans, was not chucking it down with rain!!


I got to Candies at 7pm & was greeted by an excited Xavier, and an equally excited Costa showed me his huge array of Fireworks for the evening (think he may put an organized event to shame, think he has enough to blow up the houses of Parliament) chatted to Candie in the Kitchen with some Mulled wine as I was the 1st to arrive.  Candie asked if I'd be spending Xmas with them? I said "Yeah if that's OK & your not going to be in Torquay" She said "Yeah I just thought maybe your sister or brother might of asked you to spend it with them" I laughed & said "There's no chance of that happening!!" soon after Candie's Policewoman friend Jenny arrived, with her two boys, then some more neighbours shortly after.

 Jenny

I had some more mulled wine (good for bad throat) Nat & Terry arrived & I caught up with the gossip & what had been happening with them, had some of the cheese, salad & pesto pasta from the buffet Candie had prepared, with some red wine. Chatted to Nat & Terry about the fantastic Season 2 of RuPaul's Drag Race, we think Raven is very much like, the fabulous Shannel from Season 1.

 Raven

Raven

 Shannel

 Shannel

Shannel

Candie's Film making next door neighbours arrived, and also her soon to be divorced neighbour & his two kids (one boy, one girl) Despite bagging herself a new man in France, Policewoman Jenny (who is soon moving to France, with her kids near the Swiss boarders) set the soon to be divorced daddy in her sights & it was a master class in seduction, as she cock blocked him, and manipulated him into being in parts of the house away from other people, with a lot of touchy feely rubbing of his arm, leg, waist as they spoke!! The only fly in the ointment was his daughter (older of the two kids) who kept looking daggers at Jenny (and to me when I spoke to her dad) apparently although she is happy for her mum to be in a new relationship with a toyboy, she thinks she is the only female that needs to be in her dad's life! Nat, Terry & Candie were making me laugh saying I'd let them down by not bagging the eligible soon to be single man in the room!! adding "Pipped to the post by Jenny of all people who already has a man!! tut tut your losing your touch!!" I laughed I wasn't even looking to pull & he is shorter than me anyway!! chatted briefly to the divorcee to be.

Chatted to Candies Fun friend Stuart (who was at the burlesque fundraiser the other week) and Candie & I were telling him our (before we are 50) plans to have a Vajazzle & had to explain what it was, then I joked I might get a Penis Fly Trap done, he asked what that was? & I joked it was the same as a Vajazzle but instead of using rhinestones, you just slick very long eyelashes at the edge of each lip, opposite each other so it looks like a Venus Fly Trap lol......

We also said about our other (before we are 50) plans to do burlesque classes together, and to be life models, for art classes, makes a change from being the art student taking the classes!!

One Of My Life Drawings, When A Teenage Art Student

Stuart made me laugh when he said we could get our Vajazzles before we do our life class, that would certainly be a surprise for the art students, lol!!.... I said you could get a plain or multi coloured vajazzle & I thought I'd go with the plain, Stuart agreed that the multi coloured ones would look tacky!! & then we cracked up again, as if either would look classy!!

The excellent Fireworks show went off, Costa definitely got some excellent fireworks!! The house was full of smoke from the gunpowder from the fireworks let off in the garden, and Candie took rounds of Camembert out of the oven which we had with chunks of fresh bread & more red wine! Chatted some more to Stuart, like my friend Ozzy he is moving back to Australia, with his wife & two kids, she & the kids have gone ahead & he is tying up a few loose ends before following them on Tuesday (or at least he should be, but plane problems in the news lately has meant he may have to have his scheduled flight delayed) Jenny was getting more pissed and getting more full on flirty & she managed to get the soon to be divorced daddy's telephone number (you go girl!!) Nat & Terry gave me "that should of been you" looks which cracked me up!!

I could see Costa sat talking to Stuart was inebriated as his eyes were looking tired and heavy, when the Numbers had lessened to only a few kids & mostly close friends Candie put the music on & at one point was dancing on the table, while her son Xavier (Mr I love doing the clearing up) was putting bottles in the recycling & wiping surfaces & mopping the floor Costa was video tapping the bunch of us singing along to 80's hits, and I started to laugh & said he should send it into you've been framed, as you would of seen a bunch of boozy adults singing & in the background a 9yr old in a hi visibility jacket mopping the floor, it would look like child labour lol.....

But then he got over excited with an audience & with Candie dancing on the big wooden dining table he wanted to clean, Xavier shoved Candie & she went flying off the table into the large fireplace (luckily with no lit fire) hurting her back on the marble hearth!! OUCH! (She could end up with back problems like me now!!) after checking she was OK (Xavier was rapidly dispatched off to bed!!) We joked could she do it again? now that Costa had the video camera with him again, as we could make £200 for that on "You've Been Framed!!" 

The gang chatted some more & I went on the Cognac (good for throat) I coughed & ended up with a mouth full of phlegm (gross!!) so had to make my self scarce to rid myself of it (but Terry had clocked what happened by the look of horror on my face) Nat was looking fantastic, he'd lost more weight & had gained muscle, he said I looked better for gaining weight as did Terry, saying I looked so much better with some weight on!! I said I still wanted to lose the 1.5 - 2st I have gained, they said not to! Nat said it was when he looked at some pictures recently that he realised how skinny I'd got before.

 A Much Thinner Nat

A Bigger Nat, With A Slimmer Me

Saw Jenny in her coat wheeling a bike out the door, and assumed she was wheeling one of her boys bikes home, before coming back for the kids, a while later Candies phone went, Costa answered & there was some drama involving Jenny & Xavier's bike, that Candie & Nat had to go into the NOW pouring rain to sort. Super nosey Xavier heard his bike mentioned & stormed downstairs demanding to know where his bike was!!? He was dispatched back to bed & a while later Candie phoned my mobile, apparently Jenny had taken Xavier's bike to go to the garage for cigarettes & pain killers for Candie's back. As a policewoman you would of thought she would know she she shouldn't be on a bike while under the influence & especially a kids bike while pissed. 

Apparently she was covered in blood after coming off the bike & needed her kids distracted not to see her, well one was asleep on the sofa the other absorbed in poker game on the PC so it was not difficult to usher up to the bathroom unseen by them, she had a lump on her temple, a cut knee a cut elbow, the stockings she was flashing earlier were now shredded, eventually a Cab came & Jenny & kids were dispatched into the night. 

So then there was 8 of us and we let off the 2 giant flying lanterns off in the garden (that Nat & Terry had brought with them) the 1st Red one got caught on the shrubs underneath the boys bedroom window so Candy Knocked it down with a broom handle before it caused a blaze (in spite of the rain) the 2nd a white one sailed off like a rocket in the sky. Eventually everyone left except me & another of Candies friends & we crashed out on the blow up bed in Candies spare room. So with the excess of fireworks, Candies tumble off the Dining room table & Jenny's somersaults over the handlebars Candies Nov 5th Party definitely went off with a BANG!!!

Sunday 6th Nov, got up around 8-8.30am when I heard Candie up and about, her back is still very painful, I am sure she will find she will have troubles in the future with it!! I said Xavier would go ape when he sees the tate Jenny has got his bike in (he only had a few minor repairs a few weeks back) Chatted about the party & laughed about the goings on in the evening, and some neighbours networking each other like it was some cooperate suaray!! Showed Candie some old pics I found amid mums stuff in my back room, of me as a kid and my parents etc to scan

 Me & Monkey

 Me & Vicky

Me & Whisky

 With Mum & My Sister Julie

 Mum & Dad, At A Party, In A Bar

 

Me Aged 6yrs 

Had a Coffee plus Haloumi & Tomato roll for breakfast, Xavier came down and went into melt down over his bike (as I knew he would) and Candie was none to pleased when she looked and saw just how much damage Jenny had done. Costa headed off to his office for a bit & at 1.40pm I headed off to get the 102 bus as the last two 712 buses on a Saturday are at 3.30 or 6.40pm so decided on the 3.30pm one. Got a Sun paper from news agents en route to 102 stop & the bus arrived as soon as I got to the stop (great timing!) got to Brent Cross a hr early at 2.30pm so thought I'd pop to WHS for more free Match Attax tickets & have a nostalgic wander round Brent Cross. I was shocked when I lived in London I use to go to Brent Cross occasionally on a bus from Bounds Green, I use to think it was a big shopping centre but today it seemed tiny, The Harlequin in Watford dwarfs it!! it doesn't even have a Primark I thought ALL shopping centres did!? 

Got the 712 to St Albans & went to WHS in St Albans & got a 2nd lot of Match Attax tickets, then went home, could feel cold coming out more. Warmed up some of my spicy soup & downloaded some of my scanned photos into my facebook,  family tree album. then chilled in bed, still dressed, watching the TV as I felt Cold (having a cold didn't help) had a few texts from Nat, Candie made me laugh on Facebook.... saying....

Costa's excelled himself tonight I was just tucked up in bed when who knocks on the door ? Oh just the people he invited over to dinner, he'd forgotten about it and not mentioned a word to me!!! And although was great to see them I may actually properly kill him this time!!!!

Had to laugh that's typical Costa!!.... I asked if that's what he meant, when he said he had made arrangements with Stuart tonight? she replied.......

Oh no he would have gone out and left me with my surprise guests by myself if stu hadn't cancelled !!! 

That's so funny & with Candies ability to sleep through a bomb blast ..... literally!! (I once went to visit her in her flat in Cadagan Place, Knightsbridge, there were police & firemen & camera men everywhere the house 3 doors down from hers had been victim to a bomb attack, it had exploded & the firemen were putting out the flames, I was smashing on her front door & sitting room window <where she had fallen asleep on the couch> for 45mins before I managed to wake her!!) I said to her Lucky Stuart did Cancel & Costa was there, or your guests would have been hammering on your door to no reply!!!


I watched Harry Hills TV Burp, then The Xfactor..... I had to Twitter people to find out what this weeks song theme was & I found out it was American Anthems, well from the choices tonight, that really was not apparent!! For once I Don't like Dannii's dress tonight the colour was too washed out for her & she looked like a badly wrapped Xmas present  (even though Gok Wan was raving about it on Twitter) nor Cheryl's look she looked like she was playing dress up with a black childish Doyle like bow on her head!!

This Weeks Personal Critique Of The 10 Xfactor Finalists

Matt Cardle :- Good Voice, but not his best ever performance, bloody awful styling though!! That Air force Blue Mandarin collar shirt & Mustard strides should NEVER be seen together again!!! looked like some nerdy electronics shop floor worker!!


Rebecca Ferguson :- Her Vocals are good, not keen on her eye make-up, dress OK, she didn't set my world on fire though!


Mary Byrne :- Yet again the severe hair, but they have swapped the black clothing uniform they give her, for purple, BAD song choice, her worst vocal in show thus far. Didn't like it, was in wrong key for her,made her look like a bad singer!! She could be in trouble!!


Paije Richardson :- F**k me the stylist's have styled him as The Nutty Professor tonight!!! Fun but not "Crazy" about it!! No Pun intended!!


Treyc Cohen :- Good Make-up, Nice clothes & hair (for someone 20yrs older than Treyc) Good Vocals but not amazing!!


Aiden Grimshaw :- He is back to a song that suits him, good performance despite a few odd facial expressions, looking handsome from chest up, styling from waist down still bad!!


One Direction :- Good God its the Glee kids minus the non cheerleader girls, Cheesy performance, not their best performance, stylist was channeling High School Musical!


Cher Lloyd :- Good make-up & hair, the prettiest she has ever looked so far, eyebrows so much better, good vocal, but not crazy about it! Surprisingly a tad Karaoke rather than original, Clothes were better this week too!!


Katie Waissel :- Oh Dear Cheryl, each week the judges (especially Louie) Compare Katie to Gwen Steffani & so this week, you choose No Doubt's "Don't Speak" so a predictable choice & a BIG FAT FAIL!! she doesn't have a strong enough voice to project that song!! Katie is in trouble again this week!! FACT!!.... on the plus point, the only styling I liked 100% and the wig hid those ears & roots again!! Don't Speak is one of the songs I use to sing out of the Covers I did with Evil Barbie & The Ken-Dolls


Wagner:- Well what a surprise 2 songs cut and shunted together again, can't he remember the lyrics of one song all the way through?, bad, the 1st half worse than the last half, my friend Jake was bang on the money, when he said that Wagner looked more like Evil Kenevil after the crash, than Elvis, in that Rhinestone Jumpsuit, he should be out tomorrow night, but whether he will be is yet to be seen!!


The Xtra Factor, the show this week was pretty boring, BUT I found out two things, 1. that vocal coach Savan's face can continue to get stranger!! & 2. That Katie's 1st successful outfit was due to her completely ignoring Xfactors SHIT stylist Grace & doing her own thing!! (Well done Katie!! I take my multi coloured perspex hat off to you!!) That in mind seeing that Cher Lloyd is musing over sounding more Street by becoming Cher-L, how about Stylist Grace doing the same she could become Dis-Grace, as that aptly describes most of her styling attempts & which in turn means that most weeks I'm left with no choice other than to Diss Grace!!...


Caught the end of Million Pound Drop, Nicky wants me to enter for it with her, as we have a good source of general knowledge between us!! Then Dark Blue on Fiver USA then crashed out for the night, not many fireworks tonight so hope if Aku isn't indoors he is not scared!


Sunday 7th Nov, Had a odd dream that I was with Xfactors Katie Waissel & a black girl and we were being part of a 3 part girl group with a black girl I couldn't recognise from my dream, Katie was done up in a cross between her Halloween outfit & last nights Xfactor rock chick look, I was in Evil Barbie mode with big 18" blonde Beehive, the black girl had long hair & looked edgy & funky too!!! I was helping Katie make a Collage like poster as we killed time while camera's were being set up for either a photo shoot or pop video!


Woke with a sore throat, singing Friday night no doubt didn't help!! so stayed in bed drinking hot lemon & honey until 1pm trying to sweat the bitch out!! Then I got up washed & dressed & popped out for a News Of The World Paper a packet of Lockets for my throat & a mini JD to go in my hot toddy's for my cold!!...

I got on the scales I'd gained 2.5lb since Thursday, I knew I would as I ate bread & drank wine at Candies, Fri & Sat. Had Oat So Simple for brunch & later I had two quorn burgers with mustard & beans with lots of chili & curry powder in (to sweat cold out more)

Watched Coach trip while wrapped up like a Mummy trying to sweat out cold, I met the gay Hairdresser Pasquali when I auditioned for Coach trip, my friend Gemma & I got through but they changed the time period we were originally slotted into & Gemma couldn't get those dates off work, I ran into him again for another audition for a game show about a year later, still bunged up I had more hot toddy's.......Read the Sunday paper (didn't win the lottery with my 2 lucky dip lines!!) bugger another broke week next week then!!

Watched The Xactor Results Show, Dannii looked stunning in her figure hugging black dress, Cheryl cute in her beige number, Simon his usual self, but Louie looked stupid in his bow tie, the look just doesn't suit him, after the work done to make him look more youthful that look ages him!!!

The joint contestant song started Pinks "Rock Star" the girls looked OK but yet again the stylist's gave Mary severe hair that made her look even more like the picture below

Xfactor Stop with the pulled back piled high hair look for Mary PRONTO!!!!.... It's not flattering & unlike all other female contestants its bloody repetitive, like constantly dressing her in dark colours!! 

Shayne Ward was on & was looking a bit gaunt & looking at his styling tonight, I wouldn't be surprised if he is the next ex Xfactor contestant, to take a step out of the closet, oh dear what has happened to him?, I use to find him handsome, not tonight!! Song was also a damp squib, I wont be rushing out to buy it!! 

The Other Fab Minogue, Kylie was up next, Kylie looked pretty & cute in her little red mini dress, but for once not blown away by her new song, catchy, the kind of tune to blast out as a girl, when driving along in an open topped car, on a sunny day but more an album track than a single track!!

The break arrived and I felt Katie, Mary or Wagner could be in trouble, when the show came back it was results time!!!..... time to see where the public axe fell!!.... Aiden SAFE, Rebecca SAFE, Matt SAFE, One Direction SAFE, Paije SAFE, Cher SAFE, Wagner (amazingly) SAFE, it's now down to 3 Mary, TreyC & Katie, will the public's love for Mary Save her? or will my prediction of Mary & Katie come true? or like my dream will it be Katie V TreyC (the unknown black girl with long hair <TreyC's hair is down tonight>) Mary SAFE, OMG my dream was prophetic, as it was Katie & TreyC in the final sing off, so singing together, only my presence is missing (though at home watching!!) Katie sang 1st, Singing don't give up on me, not her best vocals quite weak again!! TreyC was next with Unbreak My Heart, a great song, but again her vocals were not at their best tonight, not quite sure who will be saved or maybe it will go to deadlock, then probably Katie will go! Hmmmmmmm?

Cheryl was gutless & refused to vote on either of her two acts so it was down to Louie after Simon Saved Katie & Dannii Saved TreyC & he predictably saved Katie!!! Which I thought was a cop out as Cheryl didn't vote it should of gone to deadlock!!

The Xtra Factor, dull show other than a caller telling Louie he looks like a Young Liberace, Konnie Huq is rather boring to watch tonight! Bland & Beige presenting yawn!!

Watched "The Only Way Is Essex" wondering if Cheryl Cole got her red hair look idea from Amy, the only difference being it suits Amy!! Arg bless him looks so shy judging the boxing ring card girls who were auditioning. Lydia is being pathetic, over Arg auditioning the girls, leave Shy, sweet Arg alone. I was with the footballer & property guy cracking up at Sam & Amy when they asked where North London was!! But nice to see them do the old secret code re guys on date or at a party, that my girlfriends & I have used over the past 24yrs we even used lip gloss as one of them, at one legendary Party I went to with Anna, Andrulla & Andrea in my Gori girl days!!! Kirk is on his date with the Ex Model DJ Lauren. She has a good tall slim body, and thick long hair but she is Fugly man!!! her big forehead and egg shaped head makes her look between a cross between an Albino Somalian or one of the classic Greys (in Alien sightings) & has that common accent!! PML Amy thought Guy Fawkes died on Nov 5th what do teachers teach in schools these days? to turn out so many people in their teens & 20's that are so ill educated?

Read some more of NOTW big double page spread on Christine Bleakley by Dan Wootton, didn't read it as She is boring enough to watch as it is, let alone to read about, don't get the Christine B hype at all, average looks, boyish body, average presenting skills & zero charisma!! YAWN!!!.....

Browsed through Now Magazine, Kirk is in it in his pants (turns out his dad owns Sugar Hut nightclub, so that's how he got to be a manager!!) Also an article on Noel Biderman's dating website for married people ashleymadison.com 

Watched The Real Housewives Of  New Jersey,  divinely Bitchy!! Teresa's daughter Gia is a spoilt, vain, precocious little brat!! But Teresa is an up herself, pain in the arse, so it's no surprise her kid grew up so annoying. Can't stand Caroline, or Teresa's husband  Joe either. Daniel has a hard as nails face (not helped by some too severe cosmetic work) but with her life story that's not surprising and of all the housewives of New Jersey she is actually the most likable, and has the best well adjusted kids, and Christie made a very pretty model. 

Went to try to sleep after that as I have a meeting I have to attend at 11am, don't know what it's about but as I have been emailing re money I should be reimbursed, after money I was due wasn't paid by mistake into my account, meant a direct debit couldn't be paid & I got £25 bank charges after I sent my bank statement as proof, the idiots wrote to me asking me to send it, after I already had!! I emailed them this NO REPLY I have continued to email them for 3 months STILL NO REPLY!!  You can bet your bottom dollar that, if it was me owing them money, they would be answering me back inept useless assholes!!