Showing posts with label Gallstones. Show all posts
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Sunday, 21 November 2010

Film Premiers, Wigs & Fisherman's Friends!!

Monday 15th Nov, Woke from a complex dream (that I no longer recall) due to Mini (AKA Emily Louise) stroking my face saying "Dooooonie!!!" .....cute!!!...... mouth dry & throat feeling like it had been concreted & I had no voice!...


Nicky dropped me home around 1pm, I dropped my stuff off & then went to the shop for a paper & then dropped some bags of rubbish in the wheelie bin. Went for a walk around the park, as I was really feeling lardy from lack of exercise, due to my bad back/neck & now my cold, plus the extra calories taken in from all the honey & JD in the hot toddy's & all the throat lozenges!! I Popped out to get my nails done (they have gone over 6 weeks without being manicured) had them painted black with a fine multi coloured china glaze glitter on top, they look like a night sky full of stars!!


Got home & had some grilled Haloumi with salad as I was craving cheese (I use to eat lots of cheese, before I got gallstones & then for 9 months, until I had my operation to remove Gallstones & Gallbladder, I had to avoid it!)

 My 4hr Operation involved 4 keyhole surgery's 
one through the navel
 15mins after coming round, modeling my surgical stockings
 Showing off my name tag, feeling the best I'd felt in 9 months
 My 3 bruised incisions on my abdomen & 1 in navel
Navel stretched stomach bloated from being inflated with gas
But no more 9 Gallstones, Hurrah!!!!


Went to bed as I was feeling rough from this bloody cold (I use to be able to get rid of a cold after a few days of hot toddy's, but this bitch is lasting for weeks, colds now seem to be harder to shift, since I had double pneumonia a few years back)


Read a bit of The Sun newspaper, very sad about that poor newly wed Indian couple, who were carjacked in South Africa, the beautiful bride was raped & murdered, they didn't even  end up keeping the vehicle after all that, that beautiful girl died for nothing & that cute couple was destroyed for ever. Whats wrong with some of the people in this world!


Also more on Paul & Rachel Chandler, who had been held captive by Somalian Pirates for over year with them demanding a £million hostage fee (wrongly assuming the couple were wealthy) Its odd only a few days ago I was wondering what had happened to them? as we'd heard nothing about them for ages, then all of a sudden there they were released on the news (what a coincidence!!)


Watched Lost In Space (I had a small fling with Matt Le Blanc when he was in England filming that back in 1997/8) I forgot I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here was on! thanks to my muzzy head at the moment, then watched the Graham Norton Show, then crashed out feeling really rough!!! wish this cold would sod off!! I was offered a role as human statue in a film on Thursday, but just don't think I'm going to be well enough. So I sadly had to turn it down.


Tuesday 16th Nov, Dreamt but due to my restless sleep due to waking on & off due to being unable to breathe, I can't recall any of it! I woke with a mouth & throat as dry as the Sahara (no doubt due to sleeping with mouth open as I can't breathe properly, how attractive!!!....NOT!!) I pulled back my curtains & visibility was very small indeed, there seemed to be a smoke filled fug in the air & thought a neighbour must have a bonfire going!! But when I did get out of the house for a bit of exercise, round the park I discovered in was actually fog!! Wow how apt for the day of the Zombie Premier I thought!......
Foggy!!

Got home & heated up some of my home made spicy quorn casserole, put loads of Chili, Garlic, Ginger, Paprika, Mustard powder & Curry powder (to try & burn those germs out) but can hardly taste the heat, as my sense of taste is gone, due to being unable to smell anything, due to my cold!!


Then got ready, not feeling great in anything I wear, at the moment, as I'm piling on the weight constantly, thanks to, 1st my bad back & now my bad cold keeping me out of the gym! Grrr plus eating bread at Nicky's & Candie's recently (seems to be a stable food source for them both) which adds lb's to me even by sniffing the stuff. (wheat is certainly not my friend!!) Plus all the alcohol lately due to party's, or in the hot toddy's trying to soothe my throat & chesty cold, plus clear my nose! Tonight's another party & then that's it, once this cold is out of here, I am back to my usual 3-4hrs a day in the gym, to get old self back!! & if my back goes again, I will just have to drug myself to the hilt with pain killers!! I've had enough of feeling pudgy now!!
My Thighs, Hips & Tum  are getting Chubbier!!
So it's back to the gym, until I'm back to when I was much slimmer, than I am in this pic!!

Watched The News & Loose Women its all about Prince William announcing his engagement to Kate Middleton (well that was a while coming, but expected!!)  it will be in the summer of 2011



Started to get ready for The Premier of Houseparty Of The Dead 6 eventually deciding on studded black leggings, with a black & white lace corset look top, black knee high boots & my black sequined jacket. I felt too ropey to put in hairpieces or clip in hair extensions, so just had my normal boring wavy hair (which never photographs well) shoved on some diamante earrings, wrapped a sky blue pashmina round my neck & pulled on my cream Tommy Hilfiger coat to keep me warm & set off at 6pm. Got the train to Kentish Town & then the tube to Mornington Crecent, the Purple Turtle was 2mins walk from the tube.


 The Venue 

Saw fellow Zombie David Sellicks outside having a smoke in full zombie mode. Got inside & saw Zombie Photographer Paul McGraff, who Immediately said hello & we chatted about how fitting the Foggy weather was for the premier. My friend & fellow Zombie Nerissa Cole turned up & I had a few straight Brandy's to try kill this bitch of a cold off!!


 David Sellicks creeping up on Paul McGraff, Nerissa & I


Saw Paul Ewen who was the Zombie with the pole through him & we had a chat, Also the Zombie make-up artist Sophia Disgrace, who was also acting as Zombie Pole Dancer tonight. Then I chatted to Andy the Director & Brad Moore (who I Auditioned with as his wife!)
 Zombie Pole Dancer Sophia Disgrace
Brad, Nerissa & I


Watched the 1st band & went to look at the merchandise with Paul McGraff, who created one of the posters for the film. One lad looked out of place like he had one a competition to play guitar with the band, rather than actually being a member of the band.


At 9pm the film was shown, I was shown quite a bit, 2 parts with me licking blood off the car window screen, a few of me attacking and chewing on the main black DJ character, then a shot of me on the car bonnet trying to get into car & one of me being shot & sliding down the front of the bonnet.



Next was a Zombie themed Burlesque act & then the DJ played some wicked tunes from my youth, as our Zombie Pole Dancer took to the pole, there was a zombie puppeteer mingling with the crowd, making them laugh or cringe.

 Zombie Puppet creeping up on Brad & Nerissa
 Andy Introducing The Film & Acts


Then the band Bi Girl took to the stage. Andy said if I got my new Ken-Dolls Sorted by next year when they make Houseparty Of The dead 7 then we can have a gig at the next premier! Cool!!



I spotted my Sister-in-law had text me at 9.15pm saying "Hey, how is the Jungle?! We turned on out TV this eve with the kids & baby, there you are!! Xx" for some weird reason I remind her of Xfacters Stacy, god knows why? She's a lovely girl but not the brightest of sparks, I don't act like her, nor talk like her (thank god!) but I guess that's just how some Northerners see us Southerners??



I headed off for home at 11.45pm as I needed to get the last tube to Kentish town to Get my train home, caught the 12.20am Bedford train & chatted to a student lad, that was studying to be a travel writer & we spoke of places we had travelled to which we like.


Walked home getting in at 1.50am still coughing & spluttering (bloody stupid soddin cold!!) had a read of today's paper (as I'd had no time earlier) Xfactors Katie has had death threats (FFS lighten up, its only a talent contest you freaks!!)


Sickeningly the traitor Brits who claimed they were tortured in Guantanamo Bay are to get around £1million in compensation pay outs!! bloody disgusting!! Also more on that poor, beautiful,  murdered Indian bride Anni Dewani. Also the ludicrous story of a cute toy pig being removed from a farm set box, at Early Learning stores "for religious reasons" in case it offended Jews or Muslims (God give me strength!) Then I crashed out for the night, but had trouble sleeping due to being unable to breathe!!


Wednesday 17th Nov, After a restless nights sleep, due to fighting to breathe & violent coughing fits, I woke feeling more dead than a Zombie!! with a dry mouth & throat, and a foul taste in my mouth (great I can't taste food but I can taste that!!) The News papers & TV shows main topic of conversation is Prince Williams Wedding (getting bored of it already!!! and the weddings some time off in summer 2011) even Loose Women harped on about it, far too much!


Meanwhile Cornwall has had a flood chaos, as a 6ft swell traps 100's that's untold family's lives ruined by a natural disaster, let alone their Christmas & New year. Now lets see just how many country's (EU or otherwise) rush to raise aid funds for OUR victims of a National Disaster, the way our government, as well as its charitable people, do for every other nation (rich or poor) that has had a disaster, despite the UK practically being bankrupt itself!! How many do you think? I bet you can count them on one hand & 4 of them will be England, Scotland, Wales & Ireland!! will there be a 5th? I won't hold my breath!!


 Cornwall South England

I Had Some hot lemon with honey & peanut butter on polish bread for brunch, hoped the roughage would clear my throat. Coughing like some wheezy old man!!.... spent most of the day in bed


Watched "V" and then The Apprentice, this week the idiots were to make a background for playing on a green screen on a shopping centre for kids & parents to perform in front of to create their own video clips to buy. To help them they were to go to Pinewood studios, for ideas, when told they were meeting at Pinewood Studios (before learning what the task was) one female Doofus asked the other "Whats Pinewood Studio's??" the other Doofus (Sandishe) said It's a furniture shop isn't it!?" how can anyone be that dumb!! how could they NOT KNOW England's most Famous film studio? If they are are future business hopes god help us all, what a bunch of morons!! One team chose to do a ski slope backdrop the other a racetrack with toy car to drive in in front of screen, both were shoddily organised or thought through & neither a big success takings wise, the idiots didn't take cash up front so many discs were made without anyone coming back to collect & pay for!!! In the end the ski slope team won & Doofus No2 Sandishe got Fired (I'd not apply for any jobs at Pinewood if I was her!)



Had some more lemon & honey in hot water as I couldn't breathe & my throat was sore from coughing, then watched RuPauls Drag Race, it was a look back on all the past contestants from season 2, that had not made it, before one of the final 3 is crowned top Drag Queen next week, Raven, Juju Bee or Tyra Sanchez? very funny I'm going to miss it when it's over next week, then crashed out as I felt delirious.





Thursday 18th Nov, I had another awful night struggling for breath (I have difficulty breathing without a cold/flu due to adenoids that should have been removed when I was a kid, but the Dr's ummed & arred & in the end sod all was done) but now I spend each night & day feeling like a victim of waterboarding!! Also had terrible coughing fits that made me retch & bring up wallpaper paste like phlegm (how ladylike!! NOT!!) and water consumed off my lungs & stomach.


Had some honey & Lemon to drink & had some porridge as I was famished, but couldn't really taste it, but it managed to stop my belly rumbling, I popped to the shop for some Lockets lozenges & the paper & went back to bed covered in Vicks Vapour Rub & Olbas Oil, and dozed on & off!!


During my on & off lucid moments I snatched moments to read snippets of the paper before falling asleep again, A white van was stopped near Windsor & 4 eastern European men arrested & then 45mins later when they checked the back of the van, they found a man barely alive in a plastic sack, that had been kidnapped & beaten with a sledge hammer & stabbed (the savagery of foreign criminals in our country is sickening & sadly young home grown scum is learning to do the same from them) and twisted violent video games that seem the norm now (don't try telling me that they don't affect youngsters & desensitise them to violence!!) the victim died of his injury's shortly after despite attempts by the police to save his life. Those bastards better be deported to be jailed abroad, why should the UK tax payer pay to keep that foreign scum in a luxury jail (our jails are too soft, they should be like the US jails or better still Turkish Jails)


More on the royal engagement (yawn) apparently Tesco's launching a copycat version of Kate's engagement announcement dress for £16...... errrrr its got a V neck & it's same blue that's where the similarity ends!! Kate's has long tight sleeves, tescos has short flared cape sleeves, Kates is a A-line bias cut & Tesco's is pleated & full & flared...... so as copycat goes its shite!!!.........If you want a similar looking dress go to Ingenue at Chica Boutique or www.chicaboutiqueonline.com for £84 (OK £68 more than the Tesco one, but unlike the Tesco one this one looks like a copycat dress)
 Tescos £16 Look Alike Dress
Ingenue £84 Look Alike dress


Paris is apparently infested with a plague of bed bugs, that doesn't surprise me, I'm surprised it's not something worse after living & working in Paris in my youth, because for a country that produces so much soap, deodorant & perfume, the Parisians sure as hell aren't keen on using it!!! they reeked of BO!!


More on the flooded homes & businesses in Cornwall, one Pub/bar was waist deep in muddy water, and a bridal store hat thousands of pounds of wedding dress stock ruined!


Then there was the sickening news of the Evil sick Bastard Darren Newton, who unknown to his girlfriend repeatedly filmed himself torturing her 15month old son, Charlie Hunt, for his own sick viewing pleasure . Charlie died of severe head injury's was on several clips on his phone under titles such as "Crying no toys in pen, ahhhh" "Squeezing toe in cot" "Two minutes of pain" & "shivering no water" taken naked in an empty bath. Jurors held their hands over their mouths as they witnesses the clips as poor Charlies cries & screams rang round the courtroom, he hit him in the head time & time again, forced his finger in his ear, his devastated girlfriend is in shock thinking he was a quiet caring man. This Vile Bastard Darren is the kind of person the death penalty should be brought back for, the sicko watched those for his own sick, depraved, sadistic, sexual pleasure!


Also 5 Muslim boys aged 12 were expelled from school after death threats to a fellow Muslim pupil who posted a touching Armistice day tribute on Facebook. One claimed to be a terrorist (wouldn't surprise me as the sick bastards brain wash & use children) one little shits facebook profile was littered with extremist rants & a picture of him with a AK47 Rifle, I hope MI5 have been interviewing him & his parents/family.


Talking of vile scum sadistic robbers tied a hot iron to a pensioners back for 30mins scaring him for life (another example of how sick & violent criminals in the UK are becoming) you only heard of such violence before, when it was one criminal gang/mafia against another, when wandering on each others turf, not done to meek, elderly members of the public, they also threatened to pour boiling water over their sleeping 3yr old granddaughter (sick bastards) if he didn't give them the location of the house safe (which he couldn't as they didn't have one!) in the years New Labour were in power, this country has changed completely ......... for the worse!!!


The UK's barely recognisable the teens & younger, have become feral scum, plus the huge amount of young violent, armed, criminals of today, were unheard of in my youth, a bit of punk rock rebellion was as bad as it got. Now there are masses of people who grew up under New Labour, who see spawning huge numbers of illegitimate kids & getting a council house, plus see living off the state as a lifestyle, not a awful state of affairs, I spend every day, healthy or not looking at job sites & applying for copious amounts of jobs, where as they refuse to work, let alone look for it & just continue spawning brat after brat (that will do the same) yet are somehow allowed to get away with it! Whats even more annoying is that one of the Extremist scum who burnt a giant Poppy & chanted during the minutes silence on Armistice Day now has a police guard outside his home in Luton (the world has gone mad!!!) saying officers began to fear for his safety!!!......WTF!!!! what about our safety from Extremist scum like him? (give the British bulldog its bollocks back god damn it!!)


Then we have the British kill joys. A vicar enraged some of his flock by going to a vicars & tarts party as a tart. Good on him, a vicar would be a bit of a busmans holiday & predictable!! That's the kind of vicar I'd like to have & how unchristian were those of his Christian flock that complained, do they have no sense of humour? If I had a vicar like Rev Martin Wray I might end up going to church more often!! & I have to say he looked good as a tart & not over the top tawdry in any way!!


One uplifting thing in the news, was a plucky cat that whacked a alligator, who'd tried to steal its food & chased it back into the creek!!! go puddy cat go!!! My cat stripe attacked the face of a burglar who was trying to get in a window of my ground floor flat in North London years ago!! Sometimes they're better than guard dogs lol there was even footage of another cat seeing off two Alligators the link is in Yellow below




Was feeling rough & thought I must put my red wash in the laundry, as it contains my only pair of Pyjamas, which has a warm fleecy top with matching satin bottoms, but on searching my kitchen it could not be found, I have a horrible feeling that I threw it out with the rubbish, into the wheelie bin, either Monday or Tuesday, when I was feeling weak & run down due to my cold/chest infection & the lack of sleep I'm getting, in which case, as the rubbish is collected Wednesday I've lost my PJ's & prob all my pink & my red knickers & probably my red nose day sox (don't know what else was in the red/pink wash? it wasn't a big bag load?! )


Had some King Prawns in Garlic butter with parsnips & mangetout for dinner watched True Blood & crashed out feeling shattered from lack of breath & coughing fits.Is it feed a fever starve a cold or the other way round I can never quite remember?


Friday 19th Nov, Very, Very, VERY ill, I've spent all night vomiting up phlegm & fluid off my lungs, not that unlike how I did when I had double pneumonia. Don't recall any dream, at times I was hallucinating rather than dreaming, at some point the guy let himself in, to do a gas meter check, with keys from the landlord, no Idea what time exactly as I was quite delirious, I recall replying that I was ill in bed when he called up to see if I was in, no idea how long he took? or when he left? as I conked out again (very unlike me when there is someone in my home, that's not a friend, partner or family member) I had a few text messages come through but felt too run down & out of it to read them, let alone reply.


At 3pm I woke & dragged myself out of bed & put on my Ugg boot style slippers & pulled my big black wool coat over my dressing gown, and emptied out my piggy bank of coppers & 5p pieces, and scraped together enough  for the sun paper & a packet of fisherman's friends for my throat (which was very sore & dry) as I'd been too ill to walk into town to go to an ATM the past few days. Walked to the shop downstairs in the drizzling rain, and the shop keeper said to look after myself, as I didn't look well at all. Got back home & straight into bed, had some of the lozenges & passed out again, only waking intermittently to vomit phlegm & water off my lungs, before passing out again.


Came round again at 6.30pm just in time to watch Home & Away on Fiver. Had another coughing fit where I struggled for breath, sounding not unlike whooping cough, then threw up another lot of phlegm & water off my lungs, my eyes & nose were streaming from me fighting to breathe, in between coughs, but by 7pm I began to feel somewhat better & my nose less blocked, thankfully!! Also I was pouring with sweat "Like Gary Glitter in Mothercare" despite having no heating on for once, hopefully this means I'm turning the corner on my ill health. There is thick fog outside again like Tuesday, weirdly cant recall last time I saw fog before Tuesday? I think I must of been still at school.



Had some porridge at 8pm my 1st meal of the day with some green tea, with ginger & lemon, while watching Come Dine With Me" very funny. Then I'm a Celebrity, Gillian being a pathetic wuss as always, squealing at a few Lobsters/Cray fish in a tank & a few baby crocodiles (OK the BIG spiders fair enough but the others, child's play!) Then watched the Brilliant "The Event" and funny Film "Good Luck Chuck" before making another hot drink & crashing shattered for a bit.


Gillian No Jungle Bunny!!


Eventually checked my Facebook, checked my twitter intermittently too, also got round to reading my text messages. One from  Andrea saying the Red & White Pre Xmas Party date has changed to Dec 18th. My friend Nat saying "Hello hope your feeling better. We need to plan a get together, next time your down London for something, stay at ours he night before or after" shame I had to turn down M&S Ad (due to not being able to guarantee I'd be well enough) that would of been 3days of paid work & I could of seen Nat & stayed with him & Terry then. Maybe when I do a quiz show next Tuesday! Continued to hack up stuff off my chest, unpleasant & unladylike but if it means getting better ..... bring it on, bringing it up!!!....


Looked at the photos of wigs on Annabelle's wigs, they do very good wigs, at a cheap prices, being a Drag Queen trapped in a Woman's body, I love a Wig!! I have quite a few (proper ones & fancy dress ones, some expensive ones of over £100 each <from the days I was earning good wages> to cheap £2 fun ones) If I had a lottery win tomorrow, I'd buy a load from Annabelle's, plus other expensive ones & have a wig room like Cher!! For those interested to have a look, or to buy, a link to Annabelle's Wigs in Yellow below plus a few photo examples underneath!! Or for Drag Wigs look at my blog on MadSid McMad .....
























Read a bit of the paper, though I still felt weak & heady from coughing so much & not eating anything except for a bowl of porridge & a few green teas, but I felt so tired & sweaty, despite having no heating on, so I wasn't feeling much like eating!


More about the Royal Wedding (yawn) & more on Jason Manford, quiting The One show, over his scandal of having Cyber sex with 12 girls online (funny!!)


I see Jack Wilshere who plays for Arsenal (who all my brothers support) has been caught cheating, bad boy, but at least unlike most footballers it was with a very pretty girl, with a fab figure not like Rooneys ropey old hooker, or hairdresser! (not that it makes what he did any better, I'd never cheat on a partner!)


Emma Watson (Hermione in Harry Potter) says her new haircut was inspired by Mia Farrow, which is like her own mothers haircut, personally I'm not a fan, I think it makes her look like a boy!!


 Emma Before
 Emma After
Mia Farrow


It seems the murdered guy found in the back of the white van near Windsor owed a Tobacco Baron money, I know cigarettes kill but that's ridiculous!!


There is a Fab Grey Amazon Parrot in the paper today that is a Manchester United FC fan, he reminds me of my Green Amazon parrot Charlie who you could practically have a conversation with see Pigeon the Parrot in the link in Yellow below



I just Can't believe the news of a American couple who set up the sick site www.birthornot.com who put up scans of their unborn son called "wiggles" and are getting people on the site to vote on whether to abort him or not the biggest vote by deadline of Dec 7th wins. How sick, if you can let strangers decide your unborn baby's fate you can't have any emotional attachment to it, if its aborted the poor thing dies, if it doesn't the poor thing gets to live with them, and may one day discover his life was once in the hands of strangers, how much would that knowledge fuck you up!!??

Crashed out tired from all the coughing & retching, but at least I can breath a bit at last now!!


Saturday 20th Nov, I dreamt for the 1st time since I've been ill, a odd dream I was sitting on the edge of a curved edged bath, in a bathroom, peeing into it, instead of peeing in the loo, while talking to someone, I can't recall who though?? I didn't seem to be embarrassed that I was using the bath & not the toilet though? there was more connected to my work in the fashion & TV industry but I can't recall the details, stayed in bed dozing on & off until 1.30pm as I was still feeling weak & want to save all my strength as I'm going round Nicky's again tonight.


Had a shower & washed & dried hair, then popped out into town to draw out some cash & get a paper & some milk, & spotted a couple of things on the market to buy as Xmas gifts. Had my 1st meal of the day at 4.30pm (I was either sleeping or feeling too rough earlier) I had a Tuna Melt Jacket Potato with some salad & despite it being the 1st non chilli & spice laden meal I've had the past 2 weeks, it was the 1st I've been able to taste & was yummy!!


Got my overnight bag packed & picked up the 7 Disneyland day trip from £9.50 tokens Nicky asked me to collect from The Sun paper for her, checked everything was switched off, then set off when Nicky Picked me up at 6.45pm Mini was very sweet but very tired due to chesty cough & cold she has had for past 2-3 months. Mini went to bed around 7.30pm & Nicky & I chatted while drinking a couple of shandy's, while watching Harry Hills TV Burp then it was Xfactor time & The Xfactor theme this week is, The Beatles.


Dannii looks absolutely stunning, in her chocolate halter-neck Grecian inspired dress, Cheryl looks a chavy mess, in a a chain-mail dress, that looks like aliens have cut crop circles in it, but hair looked better straight, Simon has the same uniform look as ever, and Louis has pimped himself up in purple & grey, Dannii's hair looks fab as do her earrings, Cheryl with the larger grooming/styling budget, loses to Danni yet again! Apparently according to today's Sun paper, Cheryl was reduced to tears by Julian MacDonald, who was slagging off her red hair & chavy dress sense, at band mate Sarah's Harding's party, he may have been tackless due to drink, but he was bang on the money when he told her to sack her stylist, Xfactor should follow suit & do the same!!


 This Weeks Personal Critique Of The 8 Xfactor Finalists

Matt Cardle :- Great Voice as always, "Come Together" was a good song choice by hands on judge Dannii, nice to get a glimpse of the guns, but but still bloody awful styling from his squeeze Grace!! He looked like he was about to do a bit of his painting & decorating!! 

Rebecca Ferguson :- Her Vocals were shaky, on "Yesterday" I think this one of her worst performances, off key at times and a wobbly & nervous performance, lovely make-up & nice hair, but bloody awful red pant suit, looked like a 70's Santa outfit without the black belt & Fur trim. DIRE!!!

 Mary Byrne :- Yet again the severe hair, this time with a big hair band (bloody change it for once guys!!) and back in black again, though a bit of pattern with a B&W leopard print waterfall front Cardie, She was back on her vocal form singing "Something In The Way She Moves"

 Paije Richardson :- Last week the stylist styled him The Nutty Professor moonlighting at Butlins, tonight a young lounge singer, without another stupid bow tie thank god (which is a step in the right direction of sorts) he sang "Let It Be" well, but he still has no stage presence or star quality!! Dressed in Purple like Louie, maybe he hoped to be compared to him this week instead of a young Lenny Henry!!

One Direction :- Pretty much a carbon copy result as last week, a Safe song choice, but so lacking in dynamics I can't even recall which Beatles they sang now 10mins later (think it might of been "Come Together") consistent vocals, but backing was a bit off, by the Asian lad again, bland no stage presence, they all looked kind of static, stood atop those large cubes, used for 2nd week running, in spite of the fact they didn't work last week (sloppy Simon, did you think we wouldn't notice? have you run out of ideas?) Styling again not good & for once I can't blame Grace the awful stylist, as the boys put their own outfits together, much the same as last weeks styling (the school kids allowed to dress themselves for a wedding/funeral look & missing the mark) all in all bland & unexciting, I expected more from them!!!


Cher Lloyd :- Good make-up, Copy of Cheryl's side swept hair do, cute girly dress but more Cheryl's style NOT Cher's she looked out of place in it,Poor song choice, didn't do her voice any favours, a weak, limp, lifeless, performance of "Imagine" which was a John Lennon NOT Beatles hit! all in all, a weak, wobbly, lack lustre disappointing performance by Cher.


 Katie Waissel :- Awful hair colour (are you getting a backhander, every time someone sports that Loreal Red Cheryl?) & awful haircut!!..... she obviously saw Emma Watson (aka Hermione, in Harry Potter) at The Harry Potter Premier she went to last week, and decided to copy her new pixie crop new look!!  (NOTE TO SELF Katie an elfin Pixie crop is NOT a good look when you have Pixie/Elf ears!!!) The 60's Twiggy make-up also did nothing for her & as for that god damn awful Beige & black 60's ish baby doll dress, if your colouring is as insipid as yours Katie & you want a 60's inspired look, at least go psychedelic Pucci !! HELP was an apt an apt song, considering her hair & styling, but the performance was insipid weak & wishy washy & dreary, it will put her in the bottom two tomorrow!!


 Wagner:- Well what a surprise NOT 2 songs cut and shunted together AS ALWAYS!!!, this week we got 3 songs cut & shunted together!! "Get Back" "Hippy Hippy Shakes" & "Hey Jude" I guess he really can't remember the lyrics of one song all the way through?, Totally out of tune, off key, and flat, as well as timing being off, but in spite of that still his best vocal performance in the contest so far!!! on Halloween he was dressed as a Ring Master, the next week as Elvis & last week as Liberace moonlighting as a Ring Master, Tonight it was back to a Circus Ringmaster moonlighting as a concierge.


I have to say tonight's Xfactor has been the most lack luster, bland, disappointing episode since the Xfactor 1st began feel very let down, they have definitely cut down the clothing & set budget this year, a lot of it looks very down market & cheap!!


Then I watched The Xtra Factor & Yet again In a Word - Boring!!..... The reason ? .......  In two words - Konnie Huq, A performance as bland and beige as her & Katie's Frocks!! But I did actually learn that One Direction sang "All You Need Is Love" the perform ance was so unmemorable, I'd of never known without being told.


Watched a film called Inside Man, but Nicky & I talked through most of it, went to bed but was still awake at 4am, partly due to coughing & partly due to hunger I'd only eaten once the Jacket potato at 4.30pm & Nicky had nothing in to eat, not even milk for a milky drink, so luckily I had my Paul McKenna "I Can Make You Thin" CD in my bag so lay there in headphones listening to it! reading the paper, Apparently the murdered kidnapped guy in the back of a white van, was a Sri Lankan born "Business man" (neighbours said he was only at his £3million rented mansion (£9,000 a month) rarely, mainly popping in late at night, looking shifty & not saying much!!) A 2nd kidnap victim has been found tortured to death by gangsters in North London 48hrs before the Sri Lankan's death, but they are not linked.


There has been another mining pit disaster, not in Chili this time but in New Zealand. Four of the 29 miners trapped are British. Two English & Two Scottish.


A Romanian Gypsy who lived in luxury has been jailed (good) for a £114,000 benefits scam, blowing the cash on flash cars & motor cycles & quad bikes. He also built his family a 9 bedroom home in Romania while fraudulently raking in jobseekers allowance & child tax credits he got away with this unchecked for years (yet I get called in over a TV appearance I did for free, as a favour!!) he is said to be part of a gang accused of smuggling 181 children into the UK to be beggars & pick-pockets (lovely guy!!) he sought asylum in UK under a false name (we need better checks) buying land in Romania, a BMW, Audi, 4x4 motorbikes a plasma TV & other electrical goods with the cash. He is set to be sent back to Romania where 26 alleged gang members are already on trial (good I hope he goes to a shit hole of a jail!!)


Everyone is moaning about the 9% hike in gas bills in winter (when people use it more for heating) before Xmas, I'm glad I'm with EDF who won't be doing so until later next year, when it's warmer!

Sunday 21st Nov, woke on and off once I fell asleep some time after 6am eventually getting up at 11.30am Nicky was feeling rough with stomach problems again. I think she has either got a ulcer, IBS or the start of gallstones!! She said she was going to take her parents up to see the fair & our friend (Elvis Act) El Vince switch on the St Albans Lights, so she'd take me home then, I said when would that be? as I'd not eaten since 4.30pm Saturday & my stomach was having killer hunger pains, & there was no bread for toast or milk for a coffee or cereal, mini was being cute although she was suffering from a cold/chest infection too. We eventually set off at 3.30pm & I said I'd drop my overnight bag off get a bite to eat & meet them in town later. 

I got in at 3.45pm buying a NOTW paper en route & made a cheese & reggae reggae sauce sandwich as soon as I got in as I was too hungry to wait to cook something, Nicky text to say they had got a table outside the old town hall, near the stage & El Vince was on at 4.30pm then at 4.15pm she text "sorry gotta go. Dad & Mini playing up (well they are both poorly & its cold out) Popped out & saw El Vince's set then went home don't need to see lights go on, they are the same every year & someone always cocks up & the lights go on before the countdown gets to 1 every year too lol anyway its too cold to be standing outside when I'm still poorly!!

I got some cough lozenges from my local shop in case I have a coughing fit in the night, checked my 2 lucky dip lottery lines, no luck today, so no holiday, or new house with a wig room lol oh well *sigh*

Grilled a Quorn Veggi burger & roasted some potatoes & parsnips to have with it, did a white laundry wash & did the washing up, ready to watch the Xfactor Results Show. Dannii (the most honest & most hands on judge) looks cute, Louie in another bow tie that he doesn't suit, not sure about Cheryl's dress, the camera shots were mostly too distant to tell... hmmmm on a close up sat down shot, of Cheryl the top half of dress is a NO!! Hair & earrings look Chavy too!! not impressed concidering her clothing & grooming budget for the show!


Ollie Murs (more like Ollie Bores?) sang a stinker of a song, which if that's his new single wont break the top 40 if the UK has any taste!! I always thought Ollie had a big future ahead of him ........ BUT As the face of Ginsters Pies!!! Never rated him on Xfactor, he is as irritating to watch, as Robbie Williams is on stage.


Next the Help For Heroes, fund raising single called Heroes, made by all the Xfactor Finalists, A Great Cause, not such a great arrangement of David Bowies Heroes, with them all dressed in white (standing for peace I hope, not the surrender flag!!) they looked like an over sized Daz Doorstep Challenge Ad, my pal Jake made me laugh when he tweeted......


jake seaford JakeMSeaford When Wagner sings his bit of the song, can we blast that out at the enemy in Afghanistan? That would help. #Xfactor

Couldn't agree more!! Now its result time ........ Katie SAFE (Are you kidding me??) One Direction SAFE (thanks to teenage girl vote) Rebecca SAFE, Matt SAFE, Mary SAFE, Wagner SAFE (surprise, surprise NOT!!) so its Paije (as expected) and Cher (a surprise) in sing off !!......safe to say bye bye Paije now!!.....


Paije sang "You Better Stop" ironically styled the best he's looked on the show, except for his trousers tucked into his boots, not a bow tie or granddad waistcoat/cardie in sight!! though he sang well still no charisma or star quality to his performance.

Cher sang Twisted Sisters "Stay" which she sang at Halloween & got a good response from in her street gear

Simon sent home Paije , Cheryl sent home Paije, Dannii sent home Cher, so Louie do you take it to deadlock or do you send home Paije (who has no stage presence, or star quality) so Louie sends home Paije .... Like I said Bye Bye Paije!!! I thought he'd of left long before now, to be honest!

Watched "I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here", then "Desperate Housewives", how Eva Longoria's husband cheated on her is beyond me, what a schmuck!! He was already punching above his weight, the ugly idiot!!

I then watched "The Real Housewives Of New Jersey", fab car crash viewing!! Typical Soprano's Moll type, Teresa has given birth to a baby girl called Adrianna. Yet another daughter to turn into a vile, precocious, brat like the rest of her obnoxious brood of girls, like her unlikeable 9yr old daughter Gia, who could do with a damn good slap!! The most likable one of the lot with the best well adjusted kids is Danielle, (in spite of her too tight face lift)  ironically the one that all the other Housewives hate!!

 Arrogant Teresa
Teresa's Precocious Brood
 Neurotic, Paranoid & A Bad Face Lift
BUT
Danielle Is Still The Most Likable New Jersey Housewife!!
 One Of Daniels Well Grounded Daughters
Unlike Teresa's Brats!!

On the front page of NOTW (News Of The World) today they said A SHOCK POLE want Prince William & Katie as our next King & Queen, NOT Charles & Camilla..... errrr Helloooooo what is shocking about that? everyone was saying they'd want a King William rather than King Charles, when Lady Di was still alive, so where is the shock???


Also that Xfactors Katie Waissel's Gran is a 81yr prostitute..... well at least one of them is guaranteed a fucking career then!!! Apparently Katie Waissel had a secret affair with Storm Lee (not that I was interested enough to read any details)


Despite a restless night I didn't get to settle down to sleep until 4.35am wondering after 2 weeks of illness what next week would bring?

Wednesday, 27 October 2010

A Sick Count Down To Halloween, The Evil, Evil Barbie Hour!!!

Monday 25th Oct, Woke from a very weird dream where I stepped out of the home I was living in & when I turned round it had changed into another building & I couldn't find my home!! my mind is an enigma even to me!!.... This week is the lead up to Halloween a time that's normally as Weird as my dreams & one the big kid in me loves.
Rocky Horror Halloween!!


Very sunny out but very windy adding a chill to the air, my back was agony this morning, my exterior was calm but in my head I was screaming!!.... I can only akin the pain to toothache in my spine, its as if I have a mini spear head stuck into my nerve endings, When it is at its worse I want to make an incision with a Stanley knife & scrape the arthritic area away from the bone with a wire brush, then rinse it out & sew it back up, like a drill scraping away the decay from a tooth, or a toothbrush scraping away plaque, and then slooshing..... but of course I wouldn't it's a mass of nerve endings & I'd paralyze myself ..... but some times the pain drives you nuts!!


My buy now pay Oct 2011 Easytone Reebok trainers arrived in the post via Littkewoods at 9am (as I have no money now, so hoping I will have a decent job to pay for them in 12months in spite of the state of the country/economy) now I just need my back to improve so I can hit the gym!! but I guess I can wear them with my jeans when I am out & about etc.
Washed did hair & make-up wore black Jeans & black long sleeved T-Shirt & my loafers, my Parker coat & took the dogs for a run, in a vane attempt to ease my pain, and to get me out of the house, for some fresh air,  it was the one thing that kept me sane, when I had a bit of a break down, due to bereavement reactive depression last year, after my mum died, it's the only therapy the doc suggested, that actually had any effect on lifting my mood and stop me going stir crazy!!.
 Tallulah RIP


It was quite warm when the wind wasn't howling, I ran into my friend John in the park, who had a new female dog that looked like Tallulah, chatted about what I'd been doing since I last saw him, which wasn't a great deal, while Stanley tried romancing his new dog. He said he might come down to the premier of, Houseparty Of The Dead 6, in Camden at The Purple Turtle on the Tuesday 16th November.



Had Pasta with sun dried tomatoes for brunch, and did a bit of housework, no word back from the guy I have a soft spot for, since I replied to his message Saturday (lol guess it was the facebook inbox equivalent of a drunken text!) oh well that's the story of my life. I did a bit of housework & some more job searches, still waiting to hear back about Cosmetic Counter Manager job I applied for & I'm keen on getting!!  At 3.23pm I got a call from a gas engineer, to say they would be round Friday late afternoon to sort my cooker's, sticking, gas ring dials. Watched the soaps & had some Aubergine dip with Wholemeal Krisprolls for tea with a caffeine free diet coke.


Watched new Fiver dating show "The Love Bus" quite funny, and a bit cruel, I didn't get to be on "Take Me Out", as the show will be Airing around the time I'm on Showbiz (bugger) Made a big online Asda grocery order, used up what little money I had left in my bank account, as I will get more for my money doing one big shop with Asda rather than doing dribs & drabs in local stores & at least I can eat even for the next 3 weeks, even if I can't pay my bills at the moment, I got it to be delivered Wednesday morning, that should keep me fed for 3 weeks (hopefully if I use it wisely) all good healthy stuff.

I watched The Graham Norton Show, then the fantastically tacky, A Shot Of Love With Tila Tequila, then settled down in bed with The Sun Newspaper, while listening to Paul McKenna CD!!... back is still bad, ordered painkillers in Asda shop, but I can't order more than 2 boxes, due to some people using them for suicides, haven't noticed it rain today, if t hasn't it may rain in the night as the pain is too bad for it not to!!


There was a bit in The Sun, about the scum who murdered the kindly 89yr Widower Pensioner, who gave the homeless food & shelter under his own roof, he gave them food, cash & booze & the ungrateful scum battered the lovely old guy to death, obviously too nice for his own good, whoever killed Albert Feilding deserves the death penalty!! FACT!!


Tuesday 26th Oct, had a hugely complex dream with so much going on it was like a feature film, too much to even to begin to describe, woke in excruciating pain, got out off bed with difficulty, opening the curtains to a grey and rainy day!! knew it was coming!! Had some porridge with cinnamon & a coffee dressed the same as yesterday plus panda hat & gloves. Decided to go out to walk the dogs, even in the relentless misty rain (the kind that soaks you through to the skin) every step made me wince in pain, but I was determined to get out & get some exercise for myself & they'll reap the benefit at same time, it hurts but hopefully exercising some will stop it seizing up and getting worse, it also stops me being stir crazy, due to being stuck indoors bored day after day. Stanley was as good as gold as usual, but rapidly growing puppy Betty is still not trained to heel & still insists on pulling on the lead & jarring my back OUCH!!!!! which made me wonder if I should of stayed home & not botherd giving us all some excercise? Jennie, Edgar & their kids passed in their Range Rover & waved.


Got a Sun Newspaper later but was in too much pain to read it, in fact the pain made me feel nauseous it was so bad. In the end I had to take the last of my pain killers & go to bed, before I was in tears (Evil Barbie floored by her own spine!!!) not happy, very frustrated with my body's inadequacy!! So much for my idea about excercise easing it!!! by 5.30pm I was hungry but in too much pain to be cooking in the kitchen so snacked on 3 Krisprolls & some Aubergine dip & put heat pack in microwave to put on spine, to try ease the pain, which is becoming unbearable, while the bloody rain continued outside.



Spent the rest of the night in bed sick with pain, watching the odd bit of TV , What Katie Did Next, (we share quite a lot of Gemini traits Katie P & I)  The Vampire Diary's, then the Cheryl Cole Life Story's, program I missed on Saturday, as she described her Malaria, I was surprised how much it was like the Double Pneumonia I had (I was very lucky to survive that, I came very close to popping my clogs too, though I played it down to my late mum & family at the time, as I didn't want to scare mum)


I think mum guessed though I remembered how shocked she was when she ran into me unexpectedly in town, and didn't recognise who I was untill I spoke to her, when I'd gone to get my prescription, when I was coming out the other side of it. Lucky mum never saw me when I was in the deathly grip of Pneumonia, it would of caused her much fear & pain. The only difference from her description of Malaria seems to be the swollen up face! I watched Seven Days, as there was nothing much on. The supposed art pics were rubbish, but the actress girl seemed to think they were good. Tried again to see if I could read the paper later, as the pain had subsided a bit due to rest & heat pack!! But I didn't feel well enough to concentrate on it for long!


Wednesday 27th Oct, Woke in agony my back pain was so bad, I was near to tears, took me ages to get out of bed to go downstairs, to put heat pack in microwave, tried to ease pain with heat pack with no joy, got washed & dressed very slowly & carefully, had to dress as Asda Delivery was due in morning, the cupboards were empty and I was feeling weak, maybe due to not eating properly lately, due to struggling so badly financially, wish that bloody HRH agency would bloody get back to me re that job, I could do it standing on my head, I applied the day it was advertised 5days ago they would be an idiot to overlook me (bloody useless agency's if the company saw my CV I know I'd get an interview!!) as I got dressed (slowly) so I didn't scare the delivery guy when he arrived!!


The pain was so bad it was making me feel like I was going to throw up!! popped to corner shop for the paper before the delivery time (hopefully the pain will subside enough to read it & yesterdays paper properly this afternoon!!)  the delivery arrived, and I squealed with pain, as I tried to stoop to put things away in the fridge. I eventually got it done & couldn't believe how much it took it out of me (I felt shattered like the 3 years I'd spent in & out of hospital) not the lively person I was in May 2009, 6 months after my final op & just days before mum died. I'd ordered strong painkillers with my shopping & downed some as soon as I got to the bag they was in, like some junkie desperate for a fix!


Went to pop out to do a few chores at around 10.30am & put some rubbish in the wheelie bin, but the next thing I recall is waking up in hospital, apparently I must of collapsed in my courtyard after throwing away rubbish, as I was heading out into town, I don't really know what happened, apparently a neighbour found me & called ambulance (I have no idea who?) I don't know if I fainted or what? I have never fainted before if I did?


The doctors were doing a lot of tests as they didn't seem to know what the problem was, the possibility's ranged from.... 



Anemia (being a veggie I am occasionally slightly anemic) giving me some strong Iron tablets to boost my Iron levels


Or Malnutrition (admittedly I have been frugal with food past few weeks, because I am broke, I owe this months £650 rent & bills & god knows how I am going to pay them? thanks in part to Talk Talk, taking £80 they were not due, out of my bank account, making me unknowingly over drawn & costing me £100's in bank charges for an unauthorised overdraft, when I discovered by chance at a ATM that I was in minus not plus £, in my bank, I had to organise a overdraft, so that I was charged 50p per day, I was overdrawn, not the £5 a day I presently was, before I realised what Talk Talk had done, this was not helped by the fact they wouldn't refund the £80 they wrongly took, but only credit me the £80 to my Talk Talk account, so in doing so making me have no £ to pay off the bank debt they caused, plus another cock up with the government failing to make a payment they owed to me, costing me £25 for being unable to pay a direct debit, <neither being my fault> but even though money for food was scarce, and only then thanks to selling some of my own tatt on ebay, to afford a few bits, I thought I'd eaten enough veg & healthy stuff not to be malnourished??!!)


I mean its not like other times in the year when I've lived on porridge for breakfast/lunch & dinner to get by made with milk to start with, then water when what little change I had ran out, due tome  having nothing left money wise after paying rent, gas, electric & phone bills.Despite that I have always managed to blag that, I was doing OK & having the time of my life, to friends & family, and those around me though, Pride is a strange thing, and I don't do victim or asking for help well!


Or Stress (see same reasons as malnourished, plus at the moment it's a case of, lots of money going out & none coming in, it will be another bleak Xmas this year & a 2nd one without mum is not one I relish, I wish that bloody cosmetic counter manager job, I applied for, would respond!!)


Or Low Red & White Blood Cells, (Double Pneumonia, followed by shingles, followed by a tumour <fortunately benign> followed by 9 months with agonising gallstones, depleted my red & white cells & they were slowly increasing & then the shock of my mum dying hit me bad & health took a nosedive again, so maybe)


Or My Body Shutting Down to cope with the extreme pain of my spine recently (I have been saying the pain was making me nauseous) basically I think they don't have a bloody clue (I have little faith in UK doctors, or hospitals)


My dad died due to them not spotting his lung cancer (despite him complaining of chest pains for 2yrs) they misdiagnosed my menigism (a form of meningitis) once as a bad headache (thank god an ex insisted in taking me to hospital for a 2nd opinion) my Double Pneumonia was 1st misdiagnosed as asthma (despite me insisting that there was no family history or it & I thought I had pneumonia <I was right I knew better than the supposed trained doc> then it was misdiagnosed yet again as a chest cold) as I got worse & worse a pal rushed me to A&E where I was rushed into intensive care with Double Pneumonia. I was once told stomach pains were IBS, unconvinced I insisted on a ultrasound (that's when they found my tumour!!) I was also rushed into A&E screaming in agony by ambulance several times (thinking I was dying) before they eventually correctly diagnosed Gallstones.


Once about 10yrs ago I was treated like a hypochondriac by a Tottenham doctor, when I kept going back with a variety of systems & breaking down in tears in the surgery, when he said he could find nothing wrong, as all blood tests came back fine, when I knew something definitely wasn't right with me!! it turned out he was sending me for only a select few tests & not sending me for ALL available blood test options, a month later my gas central heating broke down, when the gas guy came to fix it, he went deathly white & said it was a miracle I was alive, apparently the system had not been serviced for at least 30-40yrs by his reckoning & the whole flu was blocked with leaves over 10" deep & all the fumes which were unable to escape, due to the blockage, were coming back into the flat, so I'd been breathing in pure carbon monoxide, he said he had no idea how I had survived the few months I'd lived there (my symptoms I'd been going to doc with, were apparently classic carbon monoxide poisoning symptoms!) I should of sued that landlord, he was so dodgy beyond belief & tried to screw me over when I left!


My beautiful mum had a few strange dizzy spells, which I made her go to doc about, they did a few blood tests & took her blood pressure & said nothing was wrong, then a month or two later she died unexpectedly of an aneurysm (it's always played on my mind, whether those dizzy spells were a warning sign of her aneurysm & the useless doctors missed it?) no doubt these tests will probably come to nothing, but we will see...... but I advise anyone if you feel something is wrong with you, and your doc fobs you off with something you don't feel is correct, get a 2nd opinion, or insist on an X-ray, or scan/ultrasound, or full blood test, no body knows your body like you, if you feel there is definitely something wrong do not be fobbed off by a doc playing things down, or acting like your wasting their time....  it could cost you your life!! it cost my dad his & nearly cost me mine 4 times!!!


I eventually was discharged & got home in the evening, with no conclusive answers, they said they would forward results to my doctor if they find anything & my doctor would then in turn contact me, I updated Facebook & Twitter statuses about being ill, then still weak & still in pain, I vegged in bed watching TV!! none of today's chores got done done, due to falling ill, I hope I feel better tomorrow and get to do them, it will be just my luck to get a response to the job I applied for & then be ill on the day of the interview & not on top form for the interview, it's getting me down that I have had no response from my application, when I would be brilliant at the job (even if I do say so myself!!) wish I knew who it was for so I could contact the company direct!!... but there is no info I can glean from the job listed on site.

Thought  maybe RuPauls Drag Race will cheer me up!?.... I managed to watch RuPaul despite feeling groggy it was very funny, glad Tatiana survived, then I crashed out for the night totally shattered!!

Thursday 28th Oct, Dozed on & off  until 2pm, I had a weird dream, where an unseen monster (that is often in my dreams) had lurked outside my home at night, in the day I looked into the back garden to see if there was any monster evidence (foot prints etc) and saw a negro woman who lived next door (in my dream) she confirmed she to had experienced the lurking monster before. I feel quite light headed, my back is still killing me, I'm wondering if it is a trapped nerve? as I have pins & needles in both my arms & hands, also woke with a sore throat too (oh bloody hell, body please don't give me a cold too!!)


I'm going to have lots of rest before Saturday, I love Halloween & I have missed too many Halloween do's due to ill health, over the past few years & I don't intend to this year!!.... had a golden syrup oat so simple with soya milk with a chopped banana in it & took a strong strength Iron tablet as suggested by doctor yesterday, as I'm quite anemic at the moment apparently (being a veggie I'm always slightly anemic, but apparently more so at the moment!) Ordered lots of spinach & green leafy veg on my Asda order, so hopefully my iron levels will be up soon.


I got a phone call from the people doing the music video I applied for, on Star Now Agency, she said they were interested in me being in it & the video, it is to be filmed in London this Sat afternoon, running through to the night. But I'm going to Andreas Halloween Party with Mike Saturday. I might of found a way round of doing it, if it was an actual paid job, but like most of Star Now Castings, it's unpaid (not even travel expenses refunded this time) I don't mind doing the free ones, if they pay travel (or else you are out of pocket £15) or if I can get a lift to it, as it boosts my acting CV & bumps up my performance numbers, to help me be eligible get an Equity Card, which helps you get good paid contact work, so I will do free ones if I'm not doing anything else except job searches, or taking a therapeutic walk round the park anyway, I can do either of  them any time I fancy, they are not like a time-tabled chore.


Shame, if it was on Sunday, maybe Mike would of given me a lift & maybe of done it with me for fun. I know years ago when I lived in London, I did a lot of free castings (I used my yearly travel-card for travel) and many of my really good well paid jobs (Like being featured background artist in "Bridget Jones Diary" and being on stage in numerous TV shows plus Bollywood Movies) came from originally doing a freebie and somebody on it liking me & using me on one of their big budget projects, or somebody spotting me in the thing I did for free & contacting me, to be in something their doing.  It certainly helped boost my day job wages. Hopefully It could happen  again even though I'm much older now.


It would be good to get some paid work before Xmas, still no word re Cosmetic Counter Manager job, it's pissing me off F**king useless retail employment agency staff, working in an office all their life, they never spot the potential of your CV if you don't have the right Buzz words in it (even if certain words in your CV mean the same thing, also the right Buzz words differ from one agency to the other, so you never know which one's to use!!) I think you shouldn't work in a Recruitment Agency unless you have worked in the industry you are recruiting for, for at least 3 years.


At 5pm when the pain killers had kicked in eventually somewhat, I got out of bed & pulled on a tracksuit (never normally seen on me, unless in the gym) an shoved on some make-up as not to look like the living dead, also looking cosmetically better, also has the placebo effect of making you feel better too, (as I learnt when giving my time for free for the "Look Great Feel Better" campagne, that involved free make overs & beauty kits, for Cancer patients in Hospital, when working in the beauty industry)


I went out to shop downstairs & got The Sun newspaper, they had thankfully not ran out, so later tonight I will try to read Tues, Wed & today's papers, then feeling more awake, I also called Asda & informed them they had charged me for 2 items they had not delivered! they said they will redeliver tomorrow, he asked what time I'd be in? I said I'm ill at the moment so I will be in all day. kept checking inbox for a email from RHR re Cosmetic Counter Manager but Nothing (gutted!!) returned my texts from friends saying they hoped I was better soon, I got a really sweet one from my local friend David, nice to know people care.
                                      
Turned on the TV & thought oooh there's Dance teacher Lauren from St Albans on The Weakest Link, she teaches Jennies daughter ballet. At 6pm I began reading today's paper (I will work backwards to Tuesdays one) Can't believe that vile woman, that murdered that poor Transvestite, by pushing him under a tube train at Kings Cross!! how horrific!! There was a fab pic of Kelly Osbourn painted gold to celebrate Sky's 50th HD Channel, I always said she was pretty & would look stunning without the puppy fat & that pic proved it!!
Link To Kelly Osbournes Golden Photos 
  
Had Danish Blue Cheese on Krisprolls & a fresh fruit salad for tea, while watching Home & Away, my Twitter friend  Ashley is in the Take Me Out studios, about to watch it, gutted I didn't make it onto the show but they decided not to use me, as the series Showbiz (which I'm in) comes out about the same time Take Me Out will be aired (maybe next year) shame as I haven't had a date in ages. Hope I end up getting some work out of Showbiz when aired (as that's the whole point!!) and they don't just use us to look like hopeful desperado losers!?.... no point letting them film me auditioning for work, if I'm not going to get anything positive out of it!!
 
My friend Greg text me but I had no phone credit to reply, also Candie Text me at 8.40pm saying she hoped I could come to their firework night on Friday (maybe I could get Mike to come with me & give me a lift?) too broke for two single fairs £15 Fri & £11.50 sat or a £15.50 return even. Maybe I could try the 712 bus that's £5 each way & runs on a Sat (not Sunday) that's still £10 when I have unpaid rent & bills, we will see. 

Got the munchies so I had some macaroni cheese for dinner at 9.30pm Watched the brilliant Celebrity Juice at 10pm followed by the fantastic True Blood!! which made me laugh when they used Leona's "Keep Bleeding" as a backing track to one of the scenes. Read some more of the papers including a bit about that Loser Charlie Sheen who was found naked after trashing his hotel room, high on drink & drugs, with a hooker locked in his wardrobe, what a total arsehole! I bet his dad & brother Emilio Estefez are so proud!! he looks much older than 45yrs even  with surgery (that's drink & drugs for you!!)

David Walliams model wife was in the paper, because she has won significant damages over unauthorised pictures of her in French Playboy, saying "No woman wants photos of themselves in Playboy without permission!" (for permission I think we can safely substitute payment!!) I think she should be flattered she is one hell of a minger, its amazing what make-up, lighting & airbrushing can do for a girl!!

There was a bit in Tuesdays paper about Cabbie Rapist John Worboys (above) they say he is officially the UK's worst sex predator, with at least 102 victims, I believe I was one of his intended victims. Because when I 1st read about it in the paper, March last year, it brought back memories of an experience in a black cab about 15 to 20yrs ago (when I was 26 to 31yrs old)  that I found odd & suspect. The experience went very much along the lines, that were described by some of his victims, the only difference being, that I was unwilling to drink anything offered by him, I can't say I recognise him from his picture in the paper (anyway he is about 15-20yrs older now anyway) but his MO is so akin I am sure it must be him (I have written it in a separate blog and posted it) I wrote to The Sun about it & the Journalist gave me a number for Scotland Yard line dealing with the case. I left a taped message with my number, but nobody called me back, maybe nobody was interested as I wasn't actually raped by him, but I thought my info might be able to show that he, may have been doing it for longer than was suspected at the time, I rang them a year back in March 2009.


Friday 29th Oct, had a complex dream which I can't really recall on waking but it was so full of action like a film, Called Asda again as I discovered they also charged me for carrot batons, but didn't deliver them, they said they would put the 3 missing items on a van for me to arrive between 2-6pm (it seems the guy I spoke to yesterday did NOT put the 2 missing items discovered yesterday, that he said would be delivered today, on a van, not impressed Hatfield!!)


I had a Golden Syrup Oat So Simple with a banana chopped in it & some crushed nuts sprinkles on top for brunch, got a Sun paper from local shop, moths flew out my purse at the till, I'm so broke, that if I found a penny & picked it up it would be for cash flow...... NOT Luck!!


Kept checking my Hotmail for a reply to my Cosmetic Counter Manager job application to RHR, nothing GUTTED!!!! today is the cut off day & they obviously are not going to contact me!! I'm livid I would excel at the job, and I have no idea who the company are that RHR are recruiting for?? so I can't go direct to the company!! Really want to scream!!!.... ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!


Ahhhhhh that's better (well actually its not!! I'm sick of applying for 100's of jobs a month & 90% of the time not even getting a reply, especially when I have a good CV & education!!) You see all these dole scroungers in the papers, not wanting to work, as they have a cushy life paid by the state, they can afford to smoke, have satellite/cable TV, iphones, Xboxes, Holidays, huge flat screen TVs, takeaways, a social life with lots of booze HOW??? I don't get it, does having lots of  illegitimate kids really pay that well??


I'm frugal with my heating/lighting & food & still struggle to pay my rent, gas, electric & phone bills, it's been years since I have had a holiday & nights out have to involve free entry, a lift & either drinking soda water all night, or poncing a few drinks, or living on porridge for a few weeks to afford the fare into London, or if I sell something on ebay for more than 99p- £2 then I might be able to have a treat, I don't know how these people can be on the dole & rake it in??


The guys came & fixed my oven at 2.45pm  (so not that late) kept checking my email preying for a interview with RHR no joy  but I did find a email from Davina McCall's new show Find My Family, saying the following......


Dear June,

Thank you very much for getting in touch with 'Long Lost Family' and telling us about the search for your half-siblings.

We have nearly finished making the first series of 'Long Lost Family' and are therefore reducing the number of searches we are currently taking on. Unfortunately we have decided that we may not have time to take on and conclude the search for your half-siblings in time for inclusion in the first series, and for this reason we're sorry to say we're not going to be able to help you find your half-siblings at present.

However, when we begin work on the second series of 'Long Lost Family' in early 2011 we would very much like to get back in touch with you to see if you are still searching for your half-siblings and if you'd still
like our help.

Many thanks for applying and best of luck with your continued search for your half-siblings. We look forward to speaking to you again in a few months time.

Kind regards
Annabel


Which was a nice Surprise, as I had given up hope of hearing from them, after contacting them at the start of the year (you will know if you have read past blogs, that I have been trying to find the two half siblings I have never met, for years)  At 5.50pm Asda delivered the items they'd charged me for, but not delivered on Wednesday. Put them away in the freezer/fridge & took the 2 quorn fillets I'd been marinading in Soy Sauce & Ginger out of the fridge, grilled them & had with watercress salad. 


Still no word from RHR so I applied to actually work for them (I think they need someone who has worked in retail, to recognise a good retail CV when they see one, as they haven't got back to me!) and I can't apply more than once on the InRetail site. I then had a brain wave & googled the job description & found several sites advertising the same job (though still no info as to which company it is, the only clue is a Vibrant Cosmetic Retailer) all got sent off to RHR but to a different person each time (maybe one will spot my potential even  if another doesn't) Also found one for Selfridges that looked promising too!!.... plus one for Benefit on Gumtree, I'm "Fed Up" with being broke especially with Xmas on the way!!!... 


I really am on a mission to get that Counter Manager job through RHR. I think it's because out of the hundreds of jobs I have applied for over the past two months, that one leaped off the page screaming this job is tailor made for you!! so not hearing back from RHR has made me bloody minded in my determination to get an interview this time, as I could do it with my eyes closed, standing on my head, with one arm tied behind my back!!!.... even if the recruitment agency's can't see it!!


Got the nibbles later so had some Humus with carrot batons (that arrived earlier) and a bit of 80% dark chocolate, with a decaf coffee, and watched "Come Dine With Me" very amusing!! Then the fantastic "The Event" (I LOVE Science Fiction!!) Some people say The Event is Good but confusing but I don't see why??  It's Quite Simple Aliens crash landed in the 50's half escaped & blended in with human population the others were captured & kept in a secure USA, UFO stronghold, as prisoners & were questioned about the others, one alien has infiltrated the FBI and so is privy on all they are doing to track other Aliens etc, the boyfriend of the lead captured Alien Female, is becoming a bit of a loose cannon due to her not being released for over 50-60yrs, the humans on plane were meant to be saved, the FBI infiltrating Alien knew this, but the rogue loose cannon Alien killed them, for reasons yet unknown, the ones that stole the guys GF have an agenda either 4 or against the Aliens (we won't know which until we know whether her captures are Alien or human!!) at the end the suposed dead humans started to come back alive (thats funny as at the end of the last show I half wondered if that would happen!!)


My friend Mike called he said he is taking me to another friends Halloween Party after Andreas Saturday, the theme is Vampires & Virgins (so Vampire it is Lol) my friend Nicky invited me to a Halloween Bash in St Albans but I already had plans, she text me today saying did I want to go on Davina McCalls "The Million Pound Drop Live" with her if she applied, I said hell yeah that would change my fortune if we won big!! (to be honest even £200 would change my circumstances at the moment, let alone £1,000 or £1Million!!..... in fact I'd be grateful for £10-£50 at the moment!!)


Watched The Gorgeous George Lamb & his Dad play on The Million Pound Drop for charity, they made it through to the end, Georges face was just so cute as he cringed waiting to see if they were going to loose every thing due to their choices, I use to fancy his dad Larry years ago, when he was in Triangle, now years later when I'm older, I fancy his son George, Phwoooooor!!!  funny!!........















My friend Ian Mann is at The Buffy Halloween Weekender with his costume being Little Red Riding Hood, can't wait to see his pictures of it should be a scream in more ways than one!!.......


My What Big Hands You Have!!


Saturday 30th Oct, woke to a surprisingly bright sunny day, not quite so aching today, later I planned to go out to the market/shops to see if there was anything to add to my costume tonight. I got a letter in the post today, asking me to go to a appointment on Monday 8th of November, at 11am, no idea what that's all about?, but I guess I'll find out in just over a week! Had Golden Syrup Oats So Simple for breakfast, with some chopped nuts on top & a coffee. Pulled on Jersey Trousers & T-Shirt my lofa's & my cream Coat pulled back hair in pony tail (haven't washed hair for a few days, so it will smooth down & not show under black wig better tonight!)


Popped out to the shops, I thought I'd see if the long Grey wig, like the black one I got for £2 in Wilkinsons, was still there & maybe gone down in sale as they don't want to be left with stock after Halloween, yep they had reduced items & BLIMEY the shelves were practically empty & hoards were scavenging over the remains, passed by Anne Summers & saw a FAB Vampire Cape in the window, it had been reduced from £10 to £5 so I treated myself (even though I'm broke, as Mike is taking care of any expenses tonight) as it will go well with my theme of Burlesque Vampire Witch, and it will be great for future Halloween's too!!. Sadly I won't have a camera to take with me, as mine broke filming Houseparty Of The Living Dead 6, and I'm just too broke at the moment to have it fixed, or buy another one, even 2nd hand on ebay!! So will have to hope Mike, Andrea & Sarah bring theirs!


Lot's of cute dogs in town today including an adorable St Bernard, I LOVE them their like big cuddly teddy bears, I miss the days when I lived in West Sussex when I had 2 dogs, 6 cats, 3 buggies, 1 Green Amazon Parrot, 2 Hamsters & 2 goldfish. Local kids use to ask if they could come see my zoo lol (well there were horses, a donkey, sheep & wallaby's on the estate too) sadly some passed over time & more were added, but much a I love my flat, I hate the no pets clause, that meant I had to give my pets away, to Friends, Family & Strangers, but at least I could still visit & play with & walk those I gave to friends & family, but I do often wonder how Paris, my Pedigree Persian Cat, that I had to rehouse via the Cats Protection League is? 
 Paris June Symphony at Bath Time


Mum took in my cat Amy, so I saw her regularly, But nobody took Paris a she was a Persian & took lots of grooming & washing etc, which was really sad as she was such an affectionate cat, I often wonder who got her & if she is happy? It broke my heart, when my Amy died 6months (to the day) after mum died, but at least we secretly had 6months together! 






My Beautiful Amy RIP


It was my doc that told me, after I was extra low after losing Amy too, to spend more time getting out of my flat with my dogs, or my friends & their dogs, as I am so animal orientated & miss them like I do my late parents. 


Charlie


I often wonder how Charlie my Parrot is he was in his 70's when I had him & they can live well over 100yrs he had such a vocabulary after all those years, you could practically have a conversation with him, I loved him so much, we really had a close bond, I gave him to my Boyfriend of the time Ricky, in Brighton as when he wasn't in his band he worked in a pet shop, so Charlie use to travel to the pet shop with him in the car on his shoulder, or sat on the back of the passenger seat, & sit on a perch in the shop, chatting away to everyone (and hopefully not swearing too much!! lol, he was so funny & always swore in context!!) so hopefully he was happy in his new home & at the pet shop.


Had a Quorn fillet marinated in Soy Sauce & Ginger, with a Jacket Potato & Watercress Salad for Lunch. Then it was time to start getting ready, decided on being a burlesque like Vampire Witch, as 2nd Party was a Vampire's and Virgin's theme & Andrea's more your traditional Witchypoo's type, female Vampires are often depicted in Victorian corsetry & modern Vampires are often depicted as quite raunchy & erotic so think a Burlesque underwearish themed costume is apt (have gone as numerous, Witches, Ghouls, a Bat & once as a Rocky Horror Character in the past) So this one is a bit different for me this year.


Most girls when they do Halloween Witches or Vampires they always do Pretty make-up rarely a green face or truly pail gory Gothic, (not exactly the point, Halloween has nothing to do with being pretty) not me I'm not worried about pulling & looking attractive, for me it's all about the fun of getting into character!!...... So while watching "Strictly Come Dancing" (who had great tunes for their Halloween based show) my transformation started by me scraping my hair back with in a tight low pony tail, and then slipped a black stocking over it like a cap, wrapping the rest round my head & tucking under at the back to hide my blonde hair, stopping it showing through wig. I then applied a pail ivory foundation base, a powdering of talc, then over that I powdered "Versace's Lights All Over" Luminescent powder, which gave my face a white pearlized sheen, then I shaded my cheek hollows & temples in grey, then outlined my eyes with black, and applied black eyeshadow & penciled in black eyebrows as my blonde one's would look odd with black wig!! I then applied a brilliant red lipstick then patted fine red glitter (used by drag queens) all over it so my lips looked like Dorothy's Ruby Slippers, and sparkled as if made of jewels (sadly this effect doesn't ever seem to pick up in photographs) finally my make-up was completed with my over sized duo of Black, and Pink spotted Evil Barbie Lashes, giving a dramatic look with a slight burlesque twist. 

Next the outfit, going with the Vampire, Underwear Burlesque theme, I wore a vintage basque-esque looking lacy slip as a dress, and fishnet tights, but the waistband showed through slip, so I wore a wide leather belt to cover it, I'd tried stockings but the suspender belt showed up worse under it!! then I added a necklace I'd made out of bits of broken jewelry with a diamante skull on it, no point in earrings as the ling black wig, and high collar of cape would hide them anyway!! then I tied my vampire cloak at the neck with the bow at the back, Then I pulled on the long black wig (Very Cher!!) then added a jaunty mini witches hat on a band (very burlesque) The look was almost completed, I then  went to get my Patrick Cox Wannabe, black pointy knee high kinky boots (very catwoman like!!) 


I went into my wardrobe and took them out, only to find each had a sticky honey/resin like residue at the top of each inner leg, don't know what that is?? only clothes hanging above & other boots next to them in wardrobe!! tried using my Skin Therapy cleansing wipes to remove but it only made it worse,  making some of the rubber coating come away (SHIT shit shit  they're £300 boots) it also made the coating tacky all over, with fluff from my bedspread sticking to it,  making them look coated with cobwebs (good news for Halloween, bad news for one of my top 3 pairs, of fave boots!!) they are fucked .....shit!!, washed them down with a water soaked flannel, maybe I can get them cut down to mid calf length, or to ankle boots, bugger ..... mind you I have had them over 10yrs now & they have served me well!!


Mike arrived and I went to the car to meet him & the Turkish guys from the shop & the hairdresser girls, said I looked amazing & they'd never recognise me!!... Even Mike said he wouldn't of recognised me & he has known me 25yrs!! We got to the Venue "The Green Dragon" Winchmore Hill, and spotted Anna outside in a pink wig & halo as we pulled into the car park, Andrea had done a great job of doing up her half of the bar, with cobwebs, skulls, bats, skeletons, ghouls, pumpkins and fab Mona Lisa Paintings which turn into a Vampire Mona Lisa when you move side to side. 





Andrea looked great as a vampy vampire & the girls ranged from Morticia to naughty nun, witches, Mrs Freddie Kruger, vampires, with Sarah coming as a Pumpkin. 


 The Girls
Sexy Devil
Witchipoo's (look at all the spirit orbs to the right!!)
Mike Pops In For A Bite 
Lucky Sarah Is A Pumpkin & NOT A Blood Orange 
Elvira 
 Is That A Bone In Your Pocket?
Or Are You Just Pleased To See Me??
Burlesque Vampire Witch, Meets Burlesque Nun 

Chatted to Anna, Sarah, Andrea, Mike & the rest of the gang!! Mike bought me a few Vodka & Slimlines & a pint of Cider (classy or what!!) Anna kept going on about how skinny I was, I said "Thanks Anna, but I'm not, I have put on 2st since mum died last year!!" she said "Maybe but your still very slim!!" (thanks for that Anna) She said she is disgusted at herself for putting on so much weight, I said to try Paul McKenna's "I Can Make You Thin" CD as I found it a really easy way to drop weight & I've just started it again myself! she said to send her the link for book at a reduced price of £4.99 (the link is below for anyone else who wants to try it)



She said she would give it a go, I said I bet she finds herself surprised with the results, funnily enough after that the Halloween Platters came out chicken drumsticks with a red sticky coating & potato fritters with hot spicy red sauces. Being a Veggie Vampire I went for the fritters (guess a veggie vampire would live on blood oranges) At Midnight we left to go to another friends party, on the outskirts of London, as they kept texting that it was packed & really buzzing. We went to a late night off licence just as it was closing & Mike got a few cans of cider & beer as it was a bring a bottle party, and Mike wasn't drinking as he was driving, and I didn't fancy any more vodka, or wine. 

We got to the party & it was packed and it was full of an array of costumes, lots of Virgin Brides, one guy was a Vampire version of The Child Catcher, which was good, the house was massive and one room was done up like a dungeon with stocks & an electric chair etc which was fun, the electric chair was really comfy to sit on & the arm handy for standing your drink on. It was massive I joked it was my Vampire Throne, I clowned about with Mike (who went as my virgin dinner, with two fang marks & blood on his neck) Saying "Fetch Your Vampire Mistress a Virgin Gimp Boy to drain of blood!!!" and we joked in character for a bit especially when we saw two very short guys with great physiques in virgin slave costumes, and I Bellowed  fetch me my Gimps!!! Everyone was very friendly and chatty, even the people we didn't know. The music was good and Halloween appropriate. 


We left at around  2.15am which with the clocks going back became 1.15am & I got home at 3.10am (2.10am with clock change) just in time to see Xfactor repeat on ITV2 +1. Disappointed in Dannii's and Cheryl's outfits not very Halloween & Simon & Louie could of had a more Count Dracula looking shirt & Jacket

This Weeks Personal Critique Of The 11 Xfactor Finalists

Matt Cardle :- Good voice, but his least successful performance so far, not a good song choice, the fact it has blood in the title hardly makes it a Halloween song, styling boring again!

Rebecca Ferguson :- Her performance left me cold this, week not sure why, styling apt for theme, though not sure having wicked in the title, made Chris Issak's song theme appropriate (seemed like yet another theme cop-out!!)

Mary Byrne :- Yet again the lacking imagination stylists dressed her head to toe in black, and the same severe hair, but with horns this time, good voice, but I feel again the Take That song never reflected Halloween, just having Magic in the title does not make it a Halloween song, the hair yet again made her look like (below)




Paije Richardson :- His best performance, thus far but still didn't set the world on fire, again having black in the title does not make Back To Black a Halloween Song (Strictly Come Dancing were better at choosing their Halloween music) Styling much improved, even if a bit old for his age.


Treyc Cohen :- Good Vocals, a Take That Song yet again, not exactly Halloween, but more so than others on the night, unlike the hooded red dress & black lipstick outfit was a lame Halloween attempt, plus the lipstick was unflattering, either do a totally scary unattractive Halloween look or don't, The lipstick was off putting.


Aiden Grimshaw :- He still wasn't doing it for me again this week, he managed to make a fun lively song like Thriller droning & boring, very Emo, styling was so so


One Direction :- Good performance, good song choice, good vocals, Naf Styling


Katie Waissel :- Fare vocals, fun and apt for theme song, kooky spooky make-up was fun & wild wig hid those roots & ears nicely!!


Belle Amie :- The styling was much improved  and looked more coordinated, and apt for theme as was song, better vocals than before but still not outstanding!!


Cher Lloyd :- Good to see her not rapp for a change, her best singing performance thus far, song was perfect for theme! As was styling for once.


Wagner:- Well I wasn't far off with my Halloween song predictions, with predictable Louie, he did choose Bat Out Of Hell, Just for Wagner not Mary as I guessed, also a mish mash of 2 songs (as always!) for Wagner, can't he remember one song all the way through? Odd Styling like a Circus Ringmaster with one eye bleeding red sequins, and surely backing dancers should of been Bat's not Skeletons!!.... Think he & Aiden are in trouble this week 

The Xtra Factor, Again the bloody stylist looked awful, also amazed gawky Singing Coach Savan can get them to sing, as he appears to have trouble, talking coherently on camera. BUT I pissed myself laughing when The "Supposed" Stylist took Mary out clothes shopping, to make her feel more current & up to date!!! and ended up with a BLACK jumper, with a dated red outlined Ziggy Stardust flash across the front, frumpy, shapeless, dated & BLACK yet again!!, that stylist hasn't a clue!!..... That was NOT, CURRENT & UP TO DATE!! I'd not wear it a its too frumpy & I'm 4 years younger than Mary & neither would my teenage niece's, nor my niece's in their 20's & 30's It's the kind of thing Waynetta Slob would wear after a win at the bingo, or someone who buys those Wolf fleece jackets on QVC would wear!!

 Waynetta was thrilled by her Xfactor Stylist Make-Over

Crashed out around 4am while watching the Xtra Factor.... 

Sunday 31st October Halloween, Woke at 10.30am, and got up to make a coffee and got on the scales dreading a weight gain after the two party's last night........ but to my surprise I have lost 2lb since Thursday (Good ole Paul McKenna) WOW how much would I have lost without the partying?? Had some Cottage Cheese on Rice Cakes, and popped out to get a News Of The World, and watched the repeat of The Xtra Factor as I drifted in & out of sleep watching it in the wee hrs, didn't recognise any of the celebrity guest judges except Titchy Strider, then made lunch of a jacket potato & baked beans, (good Halloween/Guy Fawkes food) Then watched The Mummy on ITV2 seen it so many times even have it on DVD but I absolutely Adore Egyptology & find Mummy Imhotep sexy!! Andreas boyfriend had taken some pics at the Halloween Party & Put them on Facebook there were quite a lot of spirit orbs in the pics (Spirits love the positive energy of party's & are drawn to them, I bet they even get the irony of a Halloween one!!) but one had the hugest array of spirit orbs clustered together in one picture that I have ever seen!! I counted over 50 of them before I gave up (below)


Chatted a bit on Facebook & Twitter before watching The Xfactor Results Show, not wowed by the female judges outfits, Dannii's made her top half look broad, Cheryl's clashed with her hair, Bon Jovie did a great set with minimal help from the finalists, I had almost forgotten how cute John Bonjovi was with short hair!! Jamiriqui was also excellent, Rhianna's voice was good, and she looked pretty in spite of the horrid red hair, though not one of her better songs, not a single I'd buy. Surprised Aiden & Wagner wasn't in the bottom two, not surprised Belle Amie are, Surprised Katie was, as hers was Kooky but good, Belle Amie were out by the 1st three opening lines of their sing off song!, Katie was better than the girls, yet for a sing off song it was, not as good a performance as she was on last two weeks songs!!... Louie chickened out of voting Belle Amie out & opted for Katie making it go to deadlock but Belle Amie were still goners!!!.....

I was just about to watch this weeks "The Only Way Is Essex" when I got a Text out of the blue from my sister-in-law Karen saying "Question for You June....Have You Seen The Only Way Is Essex? Xx"

I replied "Yeah it cracks me up they are so dumb! x" 

to which she responded with "Ironic as I was going 2say how much they speak like you!! Ur Mum Wud of made a cracking Nana Pat! U OK hun? Xx

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry or be insulted, I was totally dumbfounded, Is that really how she thinks I sound? Thick & common, when in fact I'm very linguistic & eloquent, in fact one ex called me his posh totty due to my pronunciation, where as they can hardly string a sentence together & everything they say is peppered with "shaaaaaatup!" "He's so Jel" "Fanks" "Wotevahhhh" "innit" does she really see me as some common incoherent imbecile? I'm totally shocked!!

Or as a Northerner is that how all us Southerners sound to her? I truly was miffed!!.... last year she said Stacey Soloman from Xfactor reminded her of me!!! so I guess she does see me as a ditsy, incoherent, air head!.... I am far from flattered!!

I replied "OMG 1st Stacey & then this lot of lobotomised! you must see me as thick and common, lol OK I guess but I'm thinking of investing in elocution lessons now!!... xx"

She asked if I'd seen much of Nat & Terry lately & what I'd been up to? 

I said no I have been to broke to go to London unless, I have an audition that pays travel expense's, mostly I have been at home sending out constant job applications daily, to no avail, but had been to a few friends birthday event's that I couldn't  really afford to do, but I didn't want to let my friends down. I asked how things were for Bill & Her & Baby Alex?


She said "Fine Chick, Bill has gone self employed last month, so we have no income yet either, I start work again after maternity leave from tomorrow, Alex is fab we love him so Much.

Spent the rest of the night reading The News Of the World, it's Fabulous supplement & Now Magazine!! before my head hit the pillow!!