Windsor & Cookie Diets..... Which Is Murder??

Monday 14th April (Week 5, Day 29)

I woke, at the start, of a new week, at 8am, I had a meeting to go to, so I jumped in the shower, my eyes are red raw, due to having my contact lenses in, all day, to try spot, my pals, running in the London Marathon, yesterday. I shouldn't off bothered, I never spotted a single one!! Role on laser surgery, no more sore eyes then. So as well as jeans & dark blue t-shirt, I wore dark blue, sandals & sunglasses, to shield & hide my manky eyes (sexy!!) I had two chocolate Cookies for breakfast at 8.30am, then went to my meeting at 9.30am. I had a call asking if I was free for 3 days for a drama series, filming in Windsor, knowing a friend wanted more work with them, I said I was free, but only if they could also cast my friend (If he's free) as he's local & we could car share, plus share petrol costs, making travel easier for me & travel costs, cheaper for us both!! 

After the meeting, I got a takeaway cappuccino, to go with my two snack Cookies, at 12.30pm, and headed home with todays paper. At 2pm I went to Beauty Secret, for another Bailine session, Yalda, said she had heard, that Simon had come in, on Saturday & that he was very handsome. Today it was time to do my torso again!! I had my 3 tone, dip dye, lilac underwear set on & Yalda said it was very pretty & I looked very brown. We had a chat, over a black coffee, after & as we did, I followed her new Beauty Secret, account, on Twitter @yalda1360 they are a lovely bunch of girls, so I hope they do well. 

I had my 2 lunch Cookies, 45min late at 3.15pm & did 30mins on the cycle & 30mins on the stepper, in the gym, then headed home. Having not heard from my friend, by 4.30pm, I text him, to see if the drama series, had contacted him? And if so, if he was free on those dates? He replied to me shortly after saying "I said yes, then realised, I'm not!!" Awe what a shame, that would have been a right laugh!! Oh well, that's showbusiness!! 

Hungry I had a snack Cookie at 5pm, I applied to a few auditions, and chatted to some friends on Facebook & Twitter, after checking, my emails. By 7pm I was ravenous, I'd of eaten my own leg & for a piscaterian that's saying something!!! The 1st 3 days, are meant to be the worse on this diet, but today, it's absolute murder, I'm so hungry!!! I could almost eat meat I'm so hungry!! So I had dinner, plum tomato & mascarpone soup, plus two slices of soya & linseed bread!! 702 cals, But by 8pm I was still gagging for food, so I had the 2 remaining snack Cookies. By 9pm, I was still feeling famished, so I had two more slices of soya & linseed bread (No spread) plus my can of K cider, that has sat in the fridge, for days!! A total of 500cals (oops!!) eventually my stomach stopped growling. I watched some TV & tried to finish, last weeks blog, going to bed at 2am.

Tuesday 15th April (Week 5, Day 30)

I had a lay-in until 10am, it's another bright sunny day out, will do a bit a spot of weeding later. I got on the scales, after my bit of a blowout weekend with Simon, and was surprised to see I've lost more weight, 9lb in total, according to my scales!! I had a wash, and had two, breakfast, maple Cookies, with a coffee. Still waiting for a call time, for a drama series tomorrow. A fellow SA from Hemel, Felicity, is picking me up, and we are going on to Windsor together. Now we have to await call time & costume. 

I finished off last weeks blog & posted it. I had more Cookies at noon, then did a bit of weeding. Then I did a couple of classes in the gym. I had my lunch cookies at 2pm & another snack one at 4pm. In a complete change to normal, I was constantly on the loo today.... It's like I'd been slipped an ALLI capsule!! I got a newspaper & a few bits, from my local shop. I then had a call on my mobile, from a top agent, who was putting me forward, for a part I'd love, with The Royal Opera!!! I'm auditioning for them next Wednesday, he said with my personality, he thinks I'll blow them away & get the role. The rehearsals will be, for a few weeks in May!! I hope the rehearsals, if I get it, don't clash with my laser eye surgery date, as I'd love this opportunity!!! 

My friends Martin & Terry, told me, that they too, were offered, the same dates, on the drama series as me, but neither could do Thursday. Both said to me, that they were gutted, not to be working with me, as they miss me, as we always have a laugh. Terry said to demand to be on his ward, on Holby City soon, as it's been absolutely ages, since I've worked with him, on there. 

Renny messaged me, laughing about my mention of him, in last weeks blog. He asked me, when I'd be able to fit him in, for a St Albans visit? I said when my life gets less audition manic! He said he needs to, get with more agents, as it's been too long since we last worked together, I said that I'd put a good word in for him!! "Cookie Diet's" fellow Guinea Pig, Julie, messaged me, saying she liked last weeks blog (Unlike my hater GLP!!) Wardrobe called & the costume brief, was muted summer colours. I can do that no problem (lucky that I changed my winter wardrobe, over to a spring/summer wardrobe, so finding apt stuff is easy!!) 

At 7pm I had a Birdseye, prawn curry (Note to Birdseye, your prawn curry is 90% rice 7% sauce & 3% prawns!!) But it still managed, to somehow sate my hunger, along with two slices of soya & linseed bread!! At 8pm I had a diet coke & a snack Cookie, watching 'CSI' then 'The Mentalist' before a earlyish night, going to bed at 10.30pm

Wednesday 16th April (Week 5, Day 31)

I am not sure, if I actually slept last night, or if I'd just rested, when the alarm went off at 4.30am? But if I did, it was only briefly!! I got ready for the day, washed & dried hair (dryer fused) and was ready with alternative costume choices all packed. At 5.45am Felicity arrived & we drove to Windsor to set. I realised, as we drove to the location, that as Felicity was 15mins early, in my hurry to leave I'd forgotten my cookies!!! Oops!! So full cooked set breakfast it was. Then it was costume checks, they chose from my selection what they wanted for me & I changed in one of the SA trailers. It was meant to be a hot day, but at 7am to 9am it was bitter cold out & I wished I'd brought my puffa jacket!! 

The set, was a lovely Windsor, Tudor Mansion (Below) which is the present setting, for a famous, American Drama, being filmed in London & around the SE. It's Ideal for a Halloween party, but with too much dark wood, inside, for my tastes. Not somewhere I'd actually, choose to live, even IF I could afford to!! I wondered how many generations, had died there? Either in their bed? Or by accident? Or other means, over the 500 years, that the Palmer family lived there? I wondered, if there had been any murders there? Or if it was, mainly at Windsor Castle, that people lost their heads, or were brutally murdered, in Tudor times? I also wondered, if the inhabitants, ever experienced any ghosts? 

There wasn't a huge amount, of SA people about, but I knew 85% of those, that were. The 1st & 2nd ADs, were lovely & unlike on 'other TV/Drama shows' they gave you a pep talk, before each scene, what was going to happen next, plus when you did well with your, continuity, they were very vocal & complimentary! Also a nice change!! By the afternoon it was boiling out & I was baking in my synthetic blouse, that wardrobe opted for, for me. So I opened a few buttons & caught a bit of sun.... Atul sunbathed between takes too!! (Below) 

I saw from the scene sheet, that one of the actors, on the episode, was James Lance. I've admired his comedic acting, since the 90s, when he was in 'Ab Fab' as Patsy's Toyboy, then later in things like 'Smack The Pony' I was actually in the same scenes, with him on 'The Look Of Love' a while back! I didn't see him on set today though. The sunshine, was super hot, today, it was beach & bikini weather, I hope tomorrow is the same. With no cookies on me, I had the catering lunch, of tagliatelle & ratatouille, with an ice lolly desert!! I spent a lot of my lunchtime, throwing a tennis ball, for a cute, cross eyed, collie dog. 

Then it was back to filming again, by 5pm, the temperature had dropped somewhat & it was a bit nippy, if you were sat in the shade, between takes. They brought out some sandwiches & I was good, I only had 1/4 of a cheese & pickle sandwich & a coffee, plus a orange juice. We wrapped bang on 7pm. Felicity & I drove home, after first finding a petrol station, as her car was very low on petrol. I got home, just in time to watch 'Secret Eaters' on +1 at 9pm followed by 'NCIS' also on +1 having 3 snack cinnamon Cookies, with a coffee & going to bed at 11pm. 

I met two fab SA's on set today, who I'd not met before. Mohinda (below) a really sweet, Indian lady who actually had me weeping with laughter, when she was telling me, about working as an Extra, on 'Robin Hood' when she said "I really wanted to be raped & pillaged, in the rape & pillage scene..... But nobody wanted to rape & pillage, an old Indian woman!!!" It was so unexpected, I roared with laughter!! It didn't take long after that, to find she was a right "game for a laugh ole girl" she was a sweet, little devil!! There was also a lovely blonde girl, with the most amazing jewel coloured, green eyes, called Nib, who was lovely too. The woman who owns/runs the manor house got us to sign the guest book too, which was nice!! 

Yalda, from Beauty Secret, sent me the video, of one of my favourite, Greek, dance tracks, today, which was really sweet of her, I must get the album Geia, by Despina Vandi (below) as I'm always, singing along & dancing around my flat, to it's title track!! 

Thursday 17th April (Week 5, Day 32)

I slept on & off, in a bitty, wake up every 60-90mins, type sleep!! Which made me feel, tireder, than when I had none (or next to none) yesterday!!! Knowing what I had to wear today (The same as yesterday!) meant, that getting ready, was a breeze. I was ready nice & early, for when Felicity arrived at 6am. I put my puffer jacket over my costume, as it was so cold yesterday on base, before the sun heated up!! I got in the car, to see Felicity had done the same, with a warm coat & warm boots, as the frosty/dewy grass gave her frozen feet, before the day warmed up, yesterday. 

We got to set at 6.45am, wardrobe double checked the SAs that had been on set yesterday, just to check our outfits were identical to yesterday (which of course they were) then it was another cooked breakfast (I'd left cookies at home again.... Oops) There were some more SA's today, more good SA friends I'd not worked with in ages!! Like Pam who it was great to see, plus Feih, who rushed over & hugged me, which was sweet. Another friend Alin, was also in, with his wife, Alin & I, normally just miss each other, normally we are on the same production, but always, somehow on different days!!  

I enjoyed catching up with my SA friends, then it was all off to base for today's scenes. The 1st or 2nd AD, took a group picture of us all, on Atul's phone camera (Above) The comedic actor, James Lance, was on set today. The day was fun & went fast, I was actually placed, so I got to interact with James Lance, in one scene. We had a bit of a laugh, with it, throwing in some jokey innuendo & double entendres, banter for good measure. 

It warmed up outside, as the day went on, but hazy cloud meant that, it was nowhere near as scorching hot as yesterday!! For lunch, I had fish pie, with green beans & cauliflower. Then a very yummy, naughty, banoffee pie for dessert, yum yum!! (Sorry Cookie Diet!!) Then it was back on set for more scenes, I was getting very positive feedback, from the ADs which was nice. There were lots more cute dogs, to play with & fuss over, when back outside & not needed on takes! One of the SA's was talking to actor James (Or Jimmy as the director was calling him) about his comedy role, involving pushing a piano in '2.4 Children' and asked for his autograph, which James was very accommodating, in doing.

I'd never do that, I think it's a bit cringey!! But the SA was a young lad, so being star struck, is more understandable. I chatted a bit to James, about when he played, Patsy's Toyboy, in 'Ab Fab' plus us both doing the same scenes in 'The Look Of Love' some time back, with 'David Walliams' We both agreed it was a fun shoot. The autograph getting, young SA, took a pic of me with James (above) Just as we were wrapping at 6.30pm. I was chatting to James at the time & asking if he was doing scenes, the following Thursday, wherever that would be, when a lot of the same people were back? He said he was & he wished me, a "Happy Easter" as I was heading off (to get signed off) which was nice of him. 

I'd been chatting to another lovely SA, I'd never met before called Renee, who told me, that she follows me on Twitter & loves my BLOG... Yes this one!! (Pauses, while my hater, GLP, chokes on their bile!!) She said she came across it, by accident, when trying to find two old school friends, from St Peter's school, in Belgravia & it popped up, so she read it & loved it & followed me on Twitter & now, here we were, on set together, small world ehhh!!? So once home I followed her back on Twitter & we added each other on Facebook. I got home around 8.40pm & bought a paper & some mineral water from the shop next door, then fixed myself a prawn tikka masala, for dinner, watching 'CSI & Body Of Proof' eventually going to bed, at 10pm, exhausted, back on the Cookie Diet track, tomorrow!! 

Friday 18th April, Good Friday (Week 5, Day 33)

I woke at 6am, I'd had a weird dream, I dreamt that while I slept, someone had tattooed the whole of my legs & feet, my outer legs, were tattooed, as a soldiers trousers, red with a white stripe, down the leg, with the end of a sword, scabbard, running down my thigh, on one leg, and black boots tattooed on my feet. The front of my feet were tattooed as boots, then the rest of the front of my legs, had multiple designs, like a sleeve of tattoos, I was absolutely horrified & enraged!!!! I thought "I'd rather amputate my legs, than live with these, repulsive tattoos!!" Then I fell asleep again & dreamt I was working in a supermarket & sorting out a customer with some half price fabric (Peacock blue brocade) plus another customers complaint, about their spring lamb. (My dreams are bonkers!!)

I woke at 10am, and had a wash, plus a coffee & two maple Cookies, for breakfast. I checked out some casting sites, for auditions/jobs, then I had a second coffee, as I changed for the gym! I wore grey 3/4 yoga pants & my fluorescent, coral, FCUK, t-shirt & white, Reebok, Easytone trainers. I put my hair up with a clip & applied some mascara & lipgloss then headed for the gym. 

Before I went on my way, To the gym, I popped to the shop, bought a Sun paper & two diet cokes, then I grabbed my puffa jacket & bag & headed to Fitness First, getting a small soya cappuccino from Costa Coffee en route, to have with my snack Cookie. I got in the gym, threw my bag & jacket in my locker, then filled my gym, drink bottle, with the two caffeine free diet cokes. Then I headed onto the gym floor, I did my usual, 30 mins on the bike, some exercises on the powerplate, I had another snack Cookie, then the usual routines on the hip abductor & hip adductor, before another 30 mins on the bike & some squats (I'm concentrating on my thighs) as they are responding the least to 'The Cookie Diet' & Bailine.... 

As my hater GLP could tell you (I have been told, by my readers, who were slagging off my troll) that GLP commented on my "Flabby Thighs" on my last blog!! (Exactly what was said, by GLP, I don't know?) As my NY Resolution, this year, was to delete GLPs comments, without bothering to read them 1st, as their opinion, is irrelevant to me!! So only have a rough idea, due to messages, from my enraged readers, about GLP. They said, they thought, that GLP, was a petty, idiot & of course ANY "Before" pics in a "Diet Trial" blog, would be bound contain, some less than flattering, bulgy pictures, adding the GLP comments had been pathetically laughable. ALMOST made me wish I'd read the comment, before deleting. I had my 2 lunch Cookies at 4pm

I got back from the gym, at 5pm & chatted for a bit, online, on both Twitter & Facebook. I'd watched my best friend Candie's husband Costa & her son, Xavier, on BBC1's 'Parking Mad' via iPlayer, earlier today. At 6pm I had 2 snack Cookies, by 8pm, I was famished & had a Quorn curry, with 'Good 4U' Super Shoots, lentil pea & bean shoots & 'Tesco's Finest' tomato, olive & rosemary salad, all washed down, with a litre of mineral water, with a drop of lemon juice & Fountain (Above) in it!! I watched 'NCIS' at 9pm & at 10pm I had the last snack Cookie with more mineral water, as I watched 'Gogglebox' on plus 1, then 'NCIS LA' on Ch5 +1, which is good, but not a patch on the original NCIS. Then I ran myself a bubble bath. I had a nice soak, which eased the aches, from the gym. After I watched a bit of Supercasino as I got ready for bed & while doing a few bits online, I also had a bit of fun banter on Facebook & Twitter & texting a friend, before going to sleep some time after 3am.

Saturday 19th April (Week 5, Day 34)

I woke at 8.45am, and watched a bit of TV in bed, while I checked my Email messages, Facebook & Twitter. Then it was a shower & two chocolate breakfast Cookies with a coffee. Then I got dressed, in my turquoise jeans, lemon, v-neck, t-shirt, plus turquoise & white, Roxy Life, trainers (below) Today I have an open audition to go to in London, the weather is sunny, but there is lots of rain clouds about. So it was puffa jacket & my holdall of leggings, for the dance part of the auditions & headed off for the station. I was glad of my puffa jacket, as it may have been sunny, but it sure was COLD!!!! 

I had a snack Cookie, while on the platform at St Albans station, and my 2nd snack Cookie, as I sat awaiting to go into my 1st part of audition, which seemed to go well. There was a couple of hours until the dance part, so a few of us went to McDonalds, and feeling very hungry & needing energy for the dance half, I decided to have lunch as my main meal & save the Cookies for dinner. I ended up having 935 cals oops!! (235 cals over) Well I'll hopefully dance some of that off!! Then it was back to, a lot of sitting around, waiting to be called, for our turn, at the dance half, of the audition. 

Eventually it became my turn & it must of gone well, as I was told to stay behind, as I'd gotten through to the second part of the dance audition. More sitting around, so I had my two dinner Cookies, with a coffee at 8pm. I was called in at 9pm & did my 3rd audition of the day, then I was to go take a seat, back in the smaller waiting area. 

At 9.30pm one of the audition team, came into the room & said that all of us in that room, had made it through, to the audition short list, HURRAH!! So now it's a waiting game, to hear. So I changed out of leggings, back to my warmer jeans & headed home. I got a soya cappuccino from Costa, on the way home & got in at 11.30pm. I got changed for bed, then watched the 1st bit of Supercasino as I checked my Emails, Facebook & Twitter, then crashed out at 1am, without even having my last 3 snack Cookies. 

Sunday 20th April, Easter Sunday (Week 5, Day 35)

I woke at 10.30am, after a weird dream, I dreamt I was in Katie Prices home, helping her rearrange her lounge, as she had too many couches in it, in a mix of coloured & styles!! I also dreamt I visited a male friend had another child, and he dressed him in a mini version of his own football kit. 

Then in my dream, I went to my holiday home, in Cyprus, my friend Candie was staying with me & we had a threesome with a guy I know, my place was amazing with a huge bedroom, with a panoramic window looking over the island & sea. I was in a bar when a stunning guy said we were neighbours & he could see into my bedroom from his. I thought "OMG!!! I hope he can't see me pottering around in the nude!!"... Then I was on a plane to my other holiday home in Jamaica with one of my older sisters, Julie, my kitchen was stunning & huge, I was showing her my new kitchen stools, that I seemed very proud of..... The subconscious is a mad thing!! Talking of mad things, look at this chap, imagine him eating soup or drinking coffee in your dining room.... With a WHITE carpet!!!! 

After my wash, I got on the scales, I've not lost any more weight this week..... But I have not GAINED any either!! So I'm still 9lb down. I had a coffee & the two chocolate Cookies, not eaten yesterday, for breakfast I wore my turquoise jeans with a pale grey t-shirt & pale grey, cardigan, with pale grey, pearled collar & turquoise & white Roxy Life, trainers (above) Today is a day of a marathon watch of my "V" video's (below) with a friend!!! As there is just rubbish, on TV, over Easter, mainly!! Plus typically the Easter weather, is it's normal cold rainy self!! 

I had a snack Cookie from yesterday's leftovers, at 1.30pm with a diet coke, as we took a "V" break, to watch 'Spiderman 3'. We had a 105g of Minstrels (527 cals) each as we watched the movie (Well it's Easter & I've not had an Easter egg!!) so I skipped my 2 lunch Cookies & 2 snack Cookies. Then it was back to "V" the DVD marathon, until 7.45pm, when we stopped for some curry for dinner, 638 cals, while catching the tail end of Catchphrase & Off Their Rockers. We were about to go back, to the "V" DVD marathon, when 'Toy Story 3' came on. I'd not seen that one, so we watched it. Sweet Movie!!

 At 10pm I wandered home, with my DVDs, hungry, I didn't bother opening a cookie bag, for my 3 evening snack cookies. So I had a soya & linseed bread, super food, sandwich. I will get back on the Cookie bandwagon tomorrow! I slid this week as it is rather boring & repetitive & I'm not a fan of, same ole, same ole!! I read the Sunday paper, some EVIL American mother, killed her 4 year old son, smashing his head in, because she thought he was gay!! Because "He walked & sounded like it!!" WTF??? How butch can a bloody 4yr old boy sound? What is becoming of this world?? Meanwhile, a 65yr pensioner (But looks, much, much older) Calling himself, Roxanne, is demanding a £20K sex change on the NHS. Roxanne (below) says "Sorry guys, I know I'm pretty, but I'm a lesbian!!" No offence Roxy, but I think, that just maybe, laser eye surgery, is more urgent for you, first!!! 

I watched 'Fargo & Heat' on Ch4 +1, two good movies, on at Easter for a change. I can't wear any contact lenses next week, as I have a pre laser op, eye examination the following week. I can't wait to have normal sight, it's my birthday present to myself. I'm not going to be 50 & 50% blind!! It will be life changing, even if I will be paying instalments for a long time. I could get it done on the NHS but that could be ages & my eyes have really deteriorated, since their pneumonia damage, a few years back. Talking of NHS, that VILE piece of garbage, Josie Cunningham is in the papers again. Last time it was about her getting a boob job on the NHS after lying, she was broke & her small boobs made her DEPRESSED!! The truth was she was a prostitute, who could afford to pay for the Op herself, and wanted a boob job, to increase her clients & do glamour modelling!!! With that face??? (Below) 

Now the low budget slag, is pregnant, from one of her punters (So she is a nice, no condom, Aids/STD risk too!!! Classy!!) It now emerges, that the skank, now wants to abort the baby, to court fame, going in the Big Brother House. Is there no depths this little slut, won't sink to? She will be one of the most hated women, in the UK, long before she enters (If they are mad enough to have her, plus, that low life 'Big D' from 'Benefit Street') More exposure, will just make her further despised!!! She is beyond repulsive, I wonder if her parents are hanging their heads in shame, or if they are, the same level of scum, as her? I went to bed at 1.45am, a busy week of auditions & interviews ahead. I will try to get back on, the cookie diet, again next week, but this week, trying to stick to it was absolutely murder!

Keep Taking The Biscuit

Monday 31st March (Week 3, Day 15) 

I woke at 8.30am, as I had a local meeting at 10.15am, I got on the scales, my total weight loss for the two weeks is still 6lb. I had a wash & had two maple Cookies, for breakfast at 9am, with a coffee (not decaf) I'm so shattered lately, that I've actually had to buy coffee, that is not decaf, to wake me up & to give me some energy (no wonder they say not to exercise on this diet!!!) Normally I'm on the decaf coffee & decaf diet cokes, as I'm so full of hyper energy, I can't sleep & suffer insomnia & excess energy!!! No danger of that on this diet... I could happily hibernate, wake me in summer!!! I had another snack Cookie at 11am, after I got back from my short meeting, I had it with a pint of water & I had my 2nd maple snack Cookie, at 1pm, with another coffee, as I'm still very exhausted!! Then went for my Bailine session, at 2pm. I was weighed today, I'm going to be measured Friday, on my 6th session. I have been coming twice a week, for two weeks, and started the same time as I started the Cookie Diet, so had same starting weight. According to their scales I have lost 5kg, that's 11lb (So nearly double the 6lb, I thought I'd lost, going by my scales) well I'll be interested to hear my measurements on Friday!! 

My session, was torso again today, and it was more tender just under my breast area, but my kidneys are still not fully recovered, from my fall down my stairs Wed/Thur, or the resulting bladder infection, that caused, so that is no doubt why!! I had my main meal, for lunch today, a Quorn steak, with a big fresh salad, dressed with lemon juice & balsamic vinegar, with a blob of Coleman's mustard on the side, 580cals. Washed down with a diet coke. I heard from a top model agency, today, that I've been accepted, on to their books, so I'm going into their offices to sign contracts next week!! Excellent!!! I got home & watched "The Real Housewives Of New Jersey" I really, really, can't stand, that vile, skank, Teresa, or ANY of her family!!! A Vile Brood!! I was so tired by 5pm, I had to have a lay down, on the bed (so unlike me!!) after I had my evening snack Cookie. 

I was still, laying on my bed, feeling shattered, when I had my next maple snack Cookie, at 7pm. I was chatting to Julie online, she was full of energy, unlike me, but she did have a day off the diet, for Mother's Day, yesterday. I actually bought some Exlax today, as this constipation (which I never normally suffer with) can't be good for you & could be why, my abdomen was more tender, during my Bailine session today. We will see if it shifts much? As so far, I haven't been today again!! While out, a local character I know said "Hey June, you've lost weight, don't be losing too much, we won't see you!" So I guess the loss is noticeable.

I had my 2 maple, dinner Cookies, at 9pm, while watching Revenge, with a coffee, and despite taking some Exlax after lunch, there is still no bowel movements (odd) At 11pm I had my last snack Cookie, I've felt shattered all day, I hope I feel livelier tomorrow, as I'm filming again, thankfully it's not an early start. I packed my green & black costume, ready for tomorrow & was in bed by 11.30pm. I chatted a bit on Facebook & Twitter, plus played a bit on Google Maps, catching Pokamon, which I'm sure is a April Fools thing. There was a lovely picture, of my favourite dog, on twitter (above) I love Chow's, they're like cuddly teddy bears!! I took a Exlax chocolate segment, at midnight & shattered I went to sleep! 

Tuesday 1st April (Week 3, Day 16) April Fools Day 

I had a lay in until 10.30pm, as filming isn't until 2.30pm today, it's nice & warm now I'm filming, typical. I went to the loo instantly I got up, thanks to the laxative last night, a decent 2 weeks backlog (at last) I had 2 breakfast maple Cookies at 11am with a coffee & 30 mins later, I was back on the loo again & I feel a lot better for it!!! (Constipation is definitely a draw back, side effect for this diet!!) I had a shower & washed my hair & dried it into a straight bob. I did my make-up and packed my brown trouser suit & white blouse & grey trouser suit & pink blouse, as we are filming office scenes today. 

I pulled on my dark blue, skinny jeans, pale grey t-shirt, thong sandals, with big buckle & jazzed it up, with my butterfly neck scarf. I popped a snack Cookie, in my mouth, at 1pm & put on my Prada sunglasses & Betty Barclay, lightweight puffer jacket, then dragged myself & my costume filled case, to St Albans station. I bought a newspaper in W.H Smiths at the station & then a large, cappuccino, from the place next door. Then got on the platform, to await my train to London. I read the paper on the train as I enjoyed my cappuccino, then I got off at Kings Cross out of habit, instead of Blackfriars!!!..... Bugger!! 

Stupid cow!!! So I made my tube connections, a whole load more more awkward, with two changes instead of the original none, then there were delays, etc, on the district line, due to earlier signal problem at earls court!! Great!!! Then I realised, that my Prada sunglasses were not on my head!! Shit!! I racked my brains... Wondering if I had actually put them on? Or if they were on the kitchen counter still?? I was sure I did? So if so, when did I lose them? Did I put them down on the counter, when buying my ticket, newspaper, or cappuccino? I was trying to recall, if I had them on, when chatting, to the lovely, female station guard, who I often natter to? If not, it MUST of been while buying my ticket, paper or coffee, but if I had them on then, I must of lost them on the train seat. I was hoping I'd left them at home. I left a 'Great news I'm pregnant' April Fools, trick status, on Facebook & Twitter.... A few people fell for it!! 

I got to base, by the skin of my teeth, and quickly changed into my 1st suit, ready for filming. I put some cookies in my suit pocket, so I could eat on set, when cameras were not running. I had my 2nd snack Cookie at 3pm & 2 lunch Cookies at 5pm. I had my evening snack Cookie (they are all maple today) at 7pm, on a camera reset, with a diet coke. We wrapped at 7.50pm & some of my fellow SA friends & I were so hungry, that when we changed trains, at one station, at 8.10pm (My next snack Cookie would be due at 9pm & dinner at 11pm) We all went to Pret to eat & I had a salmon wrap & a coffee (Not a cappuccino) plus some Riesen choc sweets 684cals in total. 

Then I got the tube to Blackfriars & the train home. I got in at 10.30pm, sadly my Prada sunglasses, were not on the side, so I lost them.... Bugger!!! They were my only sunglasses, that didn't cause me headaches after 30mins wear. I will have to check W.H Smith & coffee shop, Thursday when I'm filming again. I had my last two snack Cookies at 11pm. I felt much more awake today, I'm sure I have felt sluggish, over the last two weeks, due to constipation, caused by 'The Cookie Diet!!!' I got ready for bed & unwound in bed watching 'Body Of Evidence' while replying to some tweets & Facebook messages. I checked my emails, to see if there were any new audition's, to apply to. Then it was lights out & head down at 1am!! 

Wednesday 2nd April (Week 3, Day 17)

After not sleeping until after 4am, I set my alarm for 11.30am, so I could hopefully get around 7.5hrs sleep, before the EE contractor comes between 1-6pm to fix my landline/internet, but no such luck! A little brat, woke me, screaming it's lungs off, in the hairdressers downstairs, it was so loud, it cut right through me, as if some screaming, toddler, was lying in the bed, with me. It was 25mins before the screaming creature, either shut up, or left... Why does it take parents, so long,  to make their kids shut the f**k up, these days??? Brats downstairs, often disturb me, with their screaming that goes on forever!!!! If any of my siblings, or I, did that, as kids, we'd be told to shut it instantly, or feel the back of my dad's hand!!.... We soon shut up!!! My alarm went off, just after the brat, noise pollution, stopped!! 

I had a wash & got on the scales, according to beautician scales, I've lost 11lb so far, 7lb according to mine. I had a coffee & two cinnamon, breakfast Cookies at noon & was on the loo 30mins later, thanks to laxative help, last night (I think that's why I'm no longer so tired) I think all the toxins, trapped in my body, while constipated for two weeks, were making me sluggish!! I dressed in jeans, crop top & shrug, plus thong sandals (below) & tied my hair back, in a ponytail. 

I had my two, cinnamon, snack cookies at 2pm (My late start, made it unrealistic, to stretch lunch out until 6pm) Then the EE engineer turned up. Very cute!! Hellooooooooooo!!!! He fixed my phone line/broadband in minutes, why EE didn't do that straight away? Instead of fannying around, with line checks, every few days, since March 12th. Why do that? Rather than send someone out, within the 1st week!!! After that, I dropped my Betty Barclay coat, into the dry cleaners. On the way, back home, I could smell the BO, of someone walking towards me, when they were still 3ft ahead of me, let alone when they passed me!!! Jesus how can you smell that bad? Surely they must be able to smell themselves? I can smell myself, even if I'm only just slightly ripe, in the gym!! At 4pm I had a prawn, pasta salad, for lunch, with a slice of buttered wholemeal bread, plus a diet coke (With a tsp of fountain.... Below) to wash it down. 

I did some washing up & sorted a load of dry laundry, to be put away. My yellow dress was returned, in the post today, from Elstree TV studios, thankfully. My bottom is really hurting from my bad fall, down my stairs, a week ago, I think I have broken my coccyx! I need to book a doctors appointment, I think I need an X-ray!! My left knee is playing up too, last nights & today's rain, is not helping matters!! 

I watched home & away & had 2 snack Cookies (cinnamon) at 6pm. At 8pm, I had my two dinner Cookies, with a diet coke, while watching 'Secret Eaters'. I'm sure I saw my friend, Miriam Virgo, in the scientific experiment, section!!.... I watched 'NCIS' then 'First Dates', I've had some odd dates in my time, but the things these couples talk about, on a 1st date are weird. Maybe it's due to the TV cameras, maybe they don't want to share their real self, to the viewing public? I had last snack Cookie at 10pm & watched 'CSI & Law & Order SVU' going to bed, at 1am. 

Thursday 3rd April (Week 3, Day 18)

I woke at 9am, and jumped in the bath, as I had a busy time ahead, an audition, a photo shoot & a bit of quality time, with my friend Ian, at a football stadium!! I got on the scales, according to it I have lost 8.5lb. Good!! I had two chocolate Cookies for breakfast, then packed some clothes, for photo shoot, three different looks, casual, smart & cougar. I had a snack Cookie at 11.30am, with a large cappuccino & another at 1.30pm, while at my audition, it was a quick audition but successful (The best type!!) So it was off to my photo shoot, to capture three different looks, for one of my casting agents books. Having two more chocolate Cookies, for lunch at 3.30pm. Photos over, it was off to meet Ian, at The Den, Millwall FC. It was great to see Ian, but while all around were tucking into chips, burgers & hot dogs... I just had my chocolate snack Cookies (at 5.30pm) when Ian had already left & gone to the gym (Luckily, more pals were around, to keep me amused) & another Cookie at 7.30pm. I was super hungry, by dinner time, at 9.30pm. So not wanting to wait, until I got home, I had a takeaway, vegetable curry, to eat on the train (Luckily there were carriages, with tables, on the train) which came in at 661cals (according to the menu) washed down, with a can of diet coke. While on the train, I checked my Facebook & Twitter. A tweeted photo, of a Lassie type, collie dog, with a corker of a caption, by @CrapTaxidermy, had me weeping with laughter. 

The whole train carriage, stared at me, as I giggled & howled, uncontrollably, with laughter. I had just about, composed myself, when I just thought of the caption again & just collapsed in giggles all over again!! I even spent 40 minutes, giggling, all the way from the train station, home. The journey took longer than usual, as I had to keep stopping, as I was laughing so hard, I thought I'd wet myself!! I got in around 11.30pm, still in a silly mood, I messaged a few people on Facebook & Twitter & was getting ready for bed, just as 'Supercasino' was coming on. I was still in, a silly, giggly, mood. Supercasino, made me think of when, I use to have a laugh playing "Strip For Bed Roulette" with 'Supercasino' in the winter of 2012. So in a silly mood & back to being wide awake (after Exlax, counteracting, the constipation, caused by the Cookies) I decided to play it again.... 

The rules of "Strip For Bed Roulette" are simple, you just, pick 6 numbers & each time one comes up, you remove an item, until you are naked & ready for bed. It was funny & others joined in. It all timed perfectly, with the last item coming off, just before the show ended at 3am. I had eaten, my last snack Cookies, while playing too.... With a coffee, then it was lights out!!... Sometimes a bit of silliness is needed in life, life can be too serious & tense at times!!! 

Friday 4th April (Week 3, Day 19)

I had a lay-in, until 10.30am, I had a shower & two chocolate Cookies for breakfast & slipped into, a champagne & silver underwear set. I pulled on my jeans & Marilyn Monroe t-shirt, plus my white, Easytone, Reebok, trainers. At 12.30pm I had my snack Cookie, then did a grocery shop. At 2pm I went into Beauty Secret & had another Bailine session. Today I was re measured & weighed again. I have lost 8.5lb I have lost 3cm off my ribs, 4cm off my waist, 5cm off my hips, 2cm off my upper arms & just 1cm off my thighs!! I could feel, that it was my abs & waist, that were tightening, the most. As it is, the area, I store the least fat/water. So we concentrated, more on my thighs, this session (below) 

I had my 2nd snack Cookie late at 3pm. Then popped out for a sunbed session, ready for more agency photos on Monday. I did some chores, then had my two lunch Cookies at 5pm. A while later I popped in the bath for a long soak & a hair wash, as I'm off to my friend Nicky's, Birthday Drinks, at the Peacock tonight. At 7pm, I had a very tasty, Prawn, Red Thai, Curry, with lemon rice, for my dinner 759cals (A tad over 700cals, but super tasty!!) I wore my bright yellow dress & beige heels. I put on my khaki leather coat, grabbed her birthday present & card, then packed, the last of, my remaining, 3 snack Cookies, into my Gucci handbag.

With Birthday Girl Nicky 

With Martin (Above) Tom & The Push (Below) 

My friend Tom's band "The Push" were playing, tonight, at 'The Peacock', and they were setting up, as I arrived. Emma, Lisa, plus my friend Martin, arrived & shortly after them, the birthday girl, Nicky herself. I was very good, I only had a double vodka & soda, plus a brandy & diet coke. Then I stuck to diet cokes, the two alcoholic drinks, came to 165cals. I didn't have the 3 evening snack Cookies, which would have totalled 158cals, so I only exceeded that by 7cals, plus the 59cals over for dinner only made me 66cals over (I can live with that) I had a laugh, it was good to see the whole gang again & I got in at 1.45am & went to bed, after checking my emails, Facebook & Twitter. 

Saturday 5th April (Week 3, Day 20)

I had a lay in & woke up, after having, the most perverted dream!!! Very unlike me!!! Must be frustrated lol. I had a bath & had two of yesterday's remaining chocolate Cookies, for my breakfast. I did some chores, then dressed in my gym gear, grey 3/4 gym trousers, my Marilyn t-shirt, plus my white, Easytone, Reebok trainers. I had the last of yesterday's chocolate Cookies, for my snack Cookie, at 1pm. Then after a few more chores, I spent a couple of hours in Fitness First, having a vending machine, cappuccino, with my maple snack Cookie, first. 

I decided to concentrate on my legs again (As my abs, are coming along nicely!!) I went on the bike for 30mins, then did 10 reps of 10, on the hip adductor, on 40kg & the same on the hip abductor & some squats & exercises, on the powerplate. My left knee is killing me, at the moment, thanks to the damp climate!! My coccyx is still painful, from my fall over a week ago!! I had two lunch Cookies at 5pm & at 7pm I had tofu in black bean sauce & a slice of Burgen soya & linseed bread at 801cals (Oops!!) but I did enough, in the gym, not to worry too much! I watched 'Saturday Night Takeaway, NCIS, Hostages & film Colombiana'. I had my snack maple Cookie at 9pm & the last two at 11pm. I think it will soon be time, to swap my WINTER wardrobe, over to my SUMMER wardrobe. I watched some 'Family Guy & Mock The Week' & went to bed at 1.20am.

Sunday 6th April (Week 3, Day 21)

I had a restless sleep, all night, after not falling to sleep until after 5am. I woke at 11am, and had a wash & had two chocolate Cookies for breakfast with a coffee at noon. Sharran has been quiet for 3 or 4 days, I'm not sure if she is still having trouble, and gaining on the Cookies, or if she has seen her doctor & he/she advised, that she should quit the trial?? I got on the scales, I'm still at a 8lb loss. I packed my bag for my day in London, then set off at 1pm. Texting a few pals en route. 

I had a disgusting cappuccino, from Pumpkin, on St Albans Station, platform. They badly need to train their staff, how to froth the milk.... I think there is only one member, of their entire staff, who knows how to do it!!! 90% of the cappuccinos I have from there are VILE!!! So why did I buy one?  Because I needed another coffee & because, I'd not been served, by the girl there, before, and I hoped she was a NEW staff member, who actually knew what she was doing!!! Sadly not!! I knew disaster loomed, when she put the milk jug, under the hot air spout & not a gurgle was heard, FFS!!!

I got on the train & all was well, until, we were suddenly stuck, sat at City Thameslink, for ages, before eventually moving on, to the next stop Blackfriars, that I wanted. The train doors were all locked at City Thameslink, so you couldn't get off & there was no driver announcement, as to the cause of delay! No response, to the emergency call button, either, it was just as well, that nobody, with claustrophobia, was trapped in the carriage!! I asked Blackfriars staff, why the delay? when I got off. I was told they were meant to change drivers, but the take over, driver, didn't show up, FML!!!! So now I was going to get to my appointment by the skin of my teeth!!!!! Grrrrrrrr!!!!! Or be late!!!! GRRRRRRR!!!!!! Why did the 1st driver, not wait until the crossover driver (Or replacement) arrived & keep us informed re delay, surely leaving us locke in a unmanned train was a health & safety issue? What if a fire broke out on the train we'd all be trapped unable to escape!! 

Also when a replacement driver, was finally found, why didn't they apologise for the delay & us being trapped inside? And explain why? If we could have opened the doors, onto the platform, we could have taken, an alternative route, instead of being, stuck there, as captives!! I was 5mins late & ready to kill that no show driver, by 2.05pm!!! I ate my 1st snack cookie, at 2pm, then my next at 4pm, with a coffee. I was ravenous at 6pm, when I had my 2 lunch Cookies, and hungry, by my snack Cookie at 8pm. So at 10pm, it was, sod my 2nd evening snack Cookie, instead, I had a McDonald Veggie Burger, with fries & a diet coke, at 741csls (41cals over, the top end of meal calories) but I'd done so much walking, today, I was not about to chastise myself over it!! Then I headed back to St Albans, having my final two snack Cookies early, at 11pm!! As hunger waits for no man.... Or woman!!!! I got in at 11.30pm & got ready for bed, as I'm back, at my new model agency, again tomorrow, for another photo shoot!!! Busy busy busy.... I watched 'The Graham Norton Show' in bed!! Next Saturday, is my official 1st weigh-in & measuring, for The Cookie Diet Trial. So Watch This Space!!! 

Cookie Monster??

Monday 24th March (Week 2, Day 8)

Today, I got up at 12.20am, rested, but with no sleep, since I went to bed, just after 8pm on Sunday. I got on the scales, as soon as I got up, as it is now exactly a week since I began. I'm another 3/4lb down, so that's a loss of 3.3/4lbs in a week. I got dressed, checked my costume case, then wrapped up warm & set off into the cold night air at 1.50am. I caught the 2.21am, Thames Link, train, boy are commuters at this hour miserable!! I was tempted to sit there, grinning inanely, just for my own sick amusement, at their discomfort & alarm!! Once at Blackfriars I waited 20mins for my 3.28am night bus. I got to set at 4.15am, frozen & starving, so had the night time snack Cookie, I'd not be awake to eat Sunday night!! It was a Chocolate one & I washed it down with 2 black coffees to warm & wake myself!! I managed to wait until 6.30am, to have my two breakfast Cookies, 1 chocolate & 1 maple, washed down with a caffeine free, diet coke, as I was ravenous by then!! I had a Cinnamon snack Cookie at 8.30am & another Cinnamon snack Cookie, at 10.30am. 

I was very hungry by lunch at 12.30pm, so I had a milky coffee with my maple & chocolate Cookies. I had my Maple snack Cookie as I travelled home, after filming at 2.30pm (Shattered!!) I collapsed on my bed ready to sleep, at 3.30pm, but the hairdressers downstairs (that is normally closed on a Monday) was opened at 4pm, just as I was drifting off & turned on their music & was scraping stuff across the floor (FFS!!!!!) Bloody typical!!!! In the end, exhausted from 32hrs with no sleep, I text the owner, of the hairdressers, complaining about the noise. She turned down the music, but being a light sleeper, I didn't fall asleep, until she finally left at 5.30pm. But I woke 2hrs later at 7.30pm & so I had dinner, a super wholefood salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast with honey 637 cals. I watched the brilliant Revenge at 9pm on E4 & then had my final Cinnamon snack Cookie at 9.30pm, then at 10pm after Revenge finished I went back to sleep. Another poop free day!! I fell asleep quickly thankfully, as I have another early start tomorrow. 

Tuesday 25th Match (Week 2, Day 9) 

Today I have a meeting, with UKs, top character model, agency, so I was up at 7.30am (thankfully after around 8-9hrs sleep, after a sleep deprived day yesterday!!) I jumped in the bath & washed hair, and made a so so offering, to the "Stool Gods" but NOT of the consistency that Dr Gillian McKeith would be pleased with (but it's a start) this diet definitely affects your bowel movements, Julie is having the same problem. I got on my scales, according to them, I've now lost another 1/2lb so that's 4 1/4lb in total so far. Today Breakfast was 2 cinnamon Cookies, with a black coffee, one had absolutely no flavour again (the cinnamon ones, seem a bit hit & miss flavour wise!!) I dried my hair, did makeup & got dressed, then I checked Facebook, Twitter & Email messages, before I set off for London. I have practically lived there again, these past two months, at least filming for the next two days, is local in Elstree Borehamwood! On the train I had a snack chocolate Cookie, with a takeaway cappuccino, and read the paper. The guy sat opposite me was the double of Freddie Flintlock, maybe it was him? I got to Kings Cross & got the tube to Wood Lane, I got to the agency early & gave the staff a couple of bags of Haribo (I touched none) as they are always wanting sweets. I had some crazy photos done & did a solo video, then did a joint video with a magician. Then I got back on the tube, travelling 3 stops to Hammersmith, to get a few bits I need. While having my 2nd snack Cookie 'maple' en route. Shopping done, I contacted L'oreal, re some info needed, before getting the tube to Kings Cross, and the train home, eating 2 maple lunch Cookies on the way. 

I went to Wilkinsons, once back in St Albans, to get some essentials & then I popped into. my local beauticians, Beauty Secret for my 3rd Bailine session. Yalda said, that as I already had a high pain threshold (some women wimp out & say they can't take it & turn the power down, she turns mine up, as I'm fine) she said, she'd do it to the advanced level, you normally go to, AFTER the 5th session. Yalda did my abdomen again today & it will be the legs again on Friday. I finally got home, only to discover, one of my photos from today, was already on the model agency's, Facebook & Twitter page!! Now that's quick!! I had another chocolate snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke. Then started preparing my outfit & 2nd outfit to pack for filming in Elstree tomorrow. I had dinner instead of my 2nd evening snack Cookie at 6.30pm, a salmon salad, with two slices of wholemeal toast, with honey as desert 678 cals then did some housework. I had a chocolate snack Cookie at 8.30pm, while watching myself on an old Midsomer Murders series. I found out, through the grapevine, that Sharran had gained over 7lb in weight, on the Cookie Diet despite strictly sticking to it & was having the same "No Poop" problems, I feel for her, that's what happened to me with Vi!! I messaged Luna, her weigh in was meant to be today, but she has not responded, maybe she's not had a good result either? I had my final cinnamon snack Cookie at 10.30pm, while getting myself ready for bed with a pint of water & milky decaf coffee. I laid  my stuff out for tomorrow, answered a few text messages & Facebook messages, then went to bed..... TIRED & desperate for sleep!!!!! But I was not to sleep, not even for a minute, instead I was to endure 11 hours of exhausting TORTURE!!!!

Wednesday 26th March (Week 2, Day 10)

I lay in bed, music booming & keeping me awake, at 1st I thought it was the pub, just up the road, having live music on. But when it was still blasting out at midnight, I went into my lounge & checked the pub, the lights were off & it was shut. So I realised it was coming from the hairdressers, I popped downstairs to my bathroom ear against wall (Yep definitely the hairdressers providing the booming music!!) I text the owner at midnight, no response, I tried again at 1.30am, plus I called the hairdressers, incase they were having a staff party (though odd on a Wednesday) by 4am I'd taken 3 Nightall & tried stuffing cottonwool in my ears & covering with earmuffs & I could still hear the booming base of the music clearly!! I was tempted to call the police, but I'm sure their response would of been slow & knowing my luck, if I did manage to fall asleep, they'd wake me knocking on my door around 6pm. I thought about calling the owner on their mobile (but oddly felt bad about waking them at that hour!!! Mind you the phone would probably be on silent or off if she was not getting the texts!!) I took 4 more Nightall to try & sleep but no joy. By 9am I was so exhausted & angry, due to music being left on all night, in the hairdressers, preventing me to sleep, I could cry!!!

I needed all the rest I could get, last night, as today, I was going on a TV game show as a contestant, with my friend Ian, that morning and I needed my mind to be clear & sharp, but instead it was pounding with a headache muzzy & beyond exhausted!! I could kill whoever left the music on!!! How could you not notice, as you lock ups, that the music is still on?? If it was just a CD left on, the noise would of eventually stopped in the end... But it was obviously on REPEAT mode, so boomed out for 11 hours!! If it had been pop music, it may not of disturbed me, quite so much, but it had a heavy base, that boomed out for 11hrs, as I tried very unsuccessfully to sleep!! It was like torture, even cottonwool in ears & ear muffs did not keep the noise out & 7 sleeping tablets (Nightall) had no effect, which added to my frustration & turmoil!! 

I got on the scales at 9.30am I've lost another 1/4lb that's 4.5lb in total!! I had breakfast 1 chocolate & 1 cinnamon Cookie. I got dressed in a yellow shift dress & wore gold pumps & put my beige heels, plus my 2nd outfit, a navy dress & black heels, in a holdall. Then headed for the train to the TV studios in Elstree, eating my chocolate snack Cookie at 11.30am on the train. I met Ian at Elstree station & we got to the studios at noon & were whisked off to the green room. I explained I was sleep deprived & why, hoping I'd be chosen for tomorrow's filming & not today's (so getting some sleep tonight!!) I had my 2nd snack Cookie (maple) at 1.30pm, and some flirty, jokey banter, with the young runner lad, Liam, which helped to keep me awake, when I was physically exhausted, with a banging headache. I took a load of painkillers, to try feel human. On the plus point, the complements were flowing re my yellow dress. 

I checked twitter while in the green room, Luna has had her weigh in & last week lost 3lb! Sharran the sumo wrestler, who had a gain, despite sticking to the diet rigidly, has gone quiet online. I really feel for her, because my weight leapt up by almost a stone, in a week, while sticking rigidly to the Vi diet, I then I resorted to replacing all 3 meals, instead of 2 with Vi out of desperation & then I still gained another 7lb!!! So I stopped using it & I instantly dropped the 21lb, so I'm stuck with a few £100 of Vi stock, which is of no use to me!! (So if Vi works for YOU, or you are a Vi rep, and want to buy a load of shakes come find me!!!) It may be that the Cookie Diet is not suitable for Sharran, like Vi wasn't for me, or it's just a 1st week set back!! 

By 3pm we were still in the green room & I was fading fast!! We had lunch handily at 3.30pm I had the mini, margarita, calzone with a spoonful of hand cut chips & stir fried veg. Elstree catering leaves a lot to be desired, the chips were fine, but the calzone, a lump of stodge, with some cooked tomato. I left the stir fried veg, as they tasted of washing up liquid. Whoever washed the wok or pan it was cooked in, didn't rinse it well after washing & it obviously had a detergent coating, when it was used next. Ian & I were chosen to film today, despite me telling all involved I was sleep deprived (bugger) we did quite well to start with, but then there came a question, I knew the low scoring answer I wanted, it was the name of an artist. I know him well & my nan owned a painting of his, as did the owner of the stud farm, we lived on in Nottingham. But due to now being without sleep for 32hrs, I was exhausted, and I had a mental block & couldn't think of the artists name, it was frustrating me as I stood there, as I knew the artist well, my dad & I often discussed his work (when my dad was alive!!) I racked my brains, trying to think of the name, which I knew was a SHORT name, I pleaded in my head, to my dead dad, to come to me & remind me of the name!! But it wouldn't come & time was running out, as the presenter came to me.

I was left with 3 alternatives, all that seemed obvious & high scorers to me, just what I didn't want, but unable to come up with the artists name, I had to opt for one of them, I opted for the oldest historic person of them all, hoping a lot of school kids were surveyed, as these days they seem, very ignorant of history. It was a bad choice & we were out of this show, but still in for the second show. I hoped that would be, due to timing, get filmed tomorrow (when I could rest) but no such luck!! At 5.30pm I had a chocolate snack Cookie, and changed into my navy dress, with dragonfly print (above) plus my black heels. Ian & I went into the studio again for the 2nd show, I was now 34hrs without sleep & absolutely shattered!! This is where, my tiredness, really hit me.... I only had one contact lense in, as my left eye had puffed up this morning, from tiredness, and I couldn't put my lense in it, so that combined with tiredness, meant I had difficulty viewing the board. One answer, the one I could see & was going to go for, had the initials OW. Exhausted and frightened of my mind forgetting, like on the artist question, I kept saying to myself over & over "Oscar Wild, not Orson Wells, Oscar Wild, NOT Orson Wells" So what happened, when they got round to, an exhausted me? Yep I mistakenly blurted out Orson Wells, I realised, the second it came out of my mouth, I'd said the wrong one, the very one, my mind was telling me not to say!! But it was too late, as they take your 1st answer. So my exhaustion screwed over Ian & I, thanks hairdressers, you stitched me up good & proper!!!

So when it airs, I will look an idiot, on TV, due to my tiredness (which of course the TV audience will be totally unaware of!!) but by then, I was just relieved, It was over & I could now go home to bed, as I was beyond exhausted. I walked with difficulty (in my flat pumps again) to the station, each step was exhausting!! Ian got on his train to London & moments later mine came, on the train, I realised, I didn't have my yellow dress, in the holdall. It had been hanging up next to my white coat, I must have been really exhausted, not to see such a bright dress & pack it in my bag, when I put my white coat on. I contacted the TV crew & they said they'd post it to me. How I managed to walk from the station, home, god only knows? I passed the hairdressers at 7.45pm & popped in & asked the owner, if she now knew, who had locked up last night, leaving the music blaring out? She said it was one of the hairdressers Danny. I get on well with Danny, we have silly, jokey banter, but he certainly isn't in my good books right now!!! I eventually crashed into bed exhausted after 36hrs without sleep, way too tired, to eat my last two, cinnamon Cookies. 

Thursday 27th March (Week 2, Day 11)

I woke up at 2am, needing to spend a penny (Cookie Diet side effect) still dizzy & sleep deprived, from Wednesday, I toddled naked from my bedroom, to go to the bathroom, downstairs. But my stairs are dangerous at the best of times, steep, and undersized depth wise, only 3/4 the depth of my smallish size 5 feet (so toes hang over the edge, even when my heel is at the back of the step) Being shattered & so less overly cautious, of my stairs, as I'd usually be. My foot slid on the stair carpet, at the edge, and I flew backwards, crashing down the whole flight on my arse!!! OUCH!!!! Carpet burns & bruising tomorrow lovely... Another mishap, to add to my disastrous day, due to, the hairdressers keeping me awake. I checked Facebook & Twitter messages, then went back to sleep, my bladder woke me again at 5am, but with my arse still smarting, from my last wee hours, bathroom journey, I ignored it & went back to sleep!! I woke finally at 9am, due to the noise of the hairdressers opening up downstairs (as usual!!) 

I got up & gingerly, I went down the stairs, to the bathroom, only to discover I now had cystitis, OUCH!! Great just what I need, I must of really done some damage, to my bladder & kidneys, in that fall!! I got on my scales, I'm now down by 5lb, in 11 days. I had a shower & had two maple Cookies for my breakfast with a coffee (with milk) then I did a few household chores that needed doing, my internet has been down, since the 12th March, which is screwing me job/audition search wise. I had my two maple snack Cookies at 11am & 1pm then headed for the gym. I got in Fitness First, and did a set of exercises on the power plate, then I did 10 sets, of 10 reps, on the hip adductor & the same on the hip abductor on 40kg. I had a vending machine cappuccino, as I felt tired & did some squats with the Swiss Ball & a few more on the power plate. Then I passed Frank Bruno, on the way to the exercise cycle, I was about to start exercising on the cycle, when I had agonising cramps in my stomach, and in my kidneys, I broke out in a sweat, it was like when I had a gallstone attack (which is said to be 9 times more painful than childbirth!!) 

I put my legs up on the bike, with my knees under my chin, in the recovery, position, that I learned with my gallstones. The pain was excruciating & I pulled gargoyle like grimaces, as I struggled, not to scream out, like I was being murdered!! Sweat poured off me & my legs trembled, as my kidney area, went into seizures. Nobody came to my aid, though it must of been obvious, to those on the bikes, either side of me, that all was not well. When the pain had passed enough, for me to move, I walked (doubled over) into the changing room. Where I knelt on a stool & half laid over the table area, in front of the mirrors. As another wave of pain attacked me, and I groaned like a woman in labour. A woman came to check on me, and asked if I was ok?? I said "I think I have kidney stones, or a urine infection, caused by a fall & needed to go home!" when this 2nd attack passes. I eventually left, still doubled over, going into Boots en route, buying some medication for Cystitis, asking the pharmacist if the fall, could of caused a urine infection? Plus would it cause these, stone like symptoms? He said yes, but to go to hospital, if symptoms persisted, after the medication was finished? 

I had 2 lunch Cookies at 3pm & laid on the bed, I had another bad attack & screamed the flat down, as if I was being murdered!! Which proved the noise pollution from the hairdressers only goes one way, or they did hear me screaming, but didn't care enough to check if I was ok!! It was a long time before I could face, or felt brave enough to eat. I had a Quorn curry with rice & slice of buttered wholemeal bread (for roughage to try help me go to the loo) plus 6 Riesen chocolate sweets for dessert. That totalled 766cals 66 cals over suggested amount, I spent most of the rest of the night curled in bed feeling rough, taking cystitis medication & the final 3 snack Cookies. Going to sleep at 11pm totally shattered!! 

Friday 28th March (Week 2, Day 12)

I woke at 6am, wanting to go to the loo, for a wee, but resisted after my bad accident yesterday at 2am, when I woke, bladder full, and fell down my stairs, top to bottom, going to go to the bathroom. I went back to sleep & woke again at 9am, when the noise, of the hairdressers downstairs, disturbed me! I got up & went to the loo, looks like the cystitis thankfully gone. Hopefully the cramping in gut & kidney area, will have stopped too (I obviously damaged my butt, bladder, coccyx & kidneys in my fall) I grabbed a Cookie bag for the day (I couldn't be arsed with the hassle of mixing up a few bags) so I had 2 chocolate Cookies, for breakfast at 9am, with a coffee. I got on the scales I'm now 5.5lb down in 12 days. My bum really hurts, it was bad enough the diet making me want to pee a lot, but now burning cystitis, makes me feel like I want to go, every two minutes!! I pulled on my Union Jack leggings & Marilyn Monroe t-shirt & did some housework, and had a coffee & snack Cookie at 11am & another at 1pm. At 2pm I went to my Bailine session, today it was thankfully on my leg/hip NOT torso area today (I think my kidneys would be too sensitive still, for the electric shocks!!) Yalda complimented me on my lemon coloured underwear today. I was so chilled out in today's session, I was checking my Facebook & twitter as I lay there, listening to Heart Radio on my iPad. 

Yalda says I have such a high PAIN threshold, that she is upping power & combination that she would do AFTER 5th - 6th session on my 3rd & 4th I'm going to include arms next.... Even though that's also meant to be AFTER the 5th session. I was going to go to the gym after, but after my bad kidney attack in the gym, yesterday I was wary & opted to wait until after the weekend!! I had two chocolate Cookies for lunch at 3pm with some water. When the hairdresser who kept me awake Wednesday, due to leaving the music on, and blaring all night, apologised to me, in a somewhat unusual fashion. Funny old world!! I did a few chores & some shopping. I had a snack Cookie at 5pm while putting away some underwear gifts, I'm running out of storage for underwear & bikinis. Then I watched Home & Away from 6pm to 7pm, when I had my 2nd snack Cookie & finally at 9pm, I had a seafood curry, with Japanese rice & a slice of buttered bread, at 614cals (under the top calorie limit) I haven't done much today, yet I feel utterly shattered (I am usually full of, too much Hypa activity!!!) I'm sure it's this diet, sapping my energy!! I had my final snack Cookie at 11pm then zonked out in bed shattered!!! Without going to the loo, yet again!! 

Saturday 29th March (Week 2, Day 13) 

I got up at 9am & had a bath plus my two chocolate, breakfast, Cookies at 9.30am. I packed my costume case (Disco Diva) all outside shots have been done, so it's indoor night shots today, at a reasonable hour, thank god, no more night busses in the wee hours (phew!!) I put on my blue satin disco pants, then pulled my jeans on top (in case changing area, is limited on set) plus my bright blue t-shirt, my sister got me for Xmas. It's a lovely day out for a change, so I wore my gladiator sandals (below) I wore my lightweight Betty Barclay puffer jacket & packed my bodywarmer & butterfly scarf in my case, along with the rest of my costumes, as it will no doubt be colder tonight, when my filming ends! I grabbed my Prada sunglasses & dragged my case to the train station, to catch the 10.30am train. 

It was a beautiful day which really lifted my spirits, but sadly didn't bring out the sunny disposition of my fellow commuters (below) I had my 1st snack Cookie at 11am, just stuck with the chocolate ones, I couldn't be arsed, decanting & mixing them again. While on the platform, I heard via the station announcer, that the trains to Richmond, on the District line, were not running, west of Hammersmith to Richmond!!!... Great that's where I was heading!!! There were rail replacement busses, from outside Hammersmith. Great, so no night busses this time, bloody rail replacement busses instead. While on the platform, I bought myself a Cappuccino, to have with my snack Cookie, on the train into London, with the grumpy commuters. 

I changed at Kings Cross & got the tube to Hammersmith & then the Tube Replacement Bus, to my destination. The bus thankfully stopped, practically outside set & I had a 2nd snack Cookie, with a diet decaf coke at 1pm, as I got into, my full costume. I was bent over, doing up my strappy heels, when a Facebook message, popped up on my iPad. I laughed when I opened it, it was from my fellow SA Mandy, saying she loved the "Disco Pants" not sure if she'd got my best side, when she spied them lol. Actually the blue trousers, were a bit of a hit, a lot of people, complimented me on them & my long legs!! (36" trouser) but I'm not sure, if my legs, would of got those same compliments, if they were still trussed up, in those Bailine straps!! In fact I'm pretty sure they wouldn't, my friend Simon said I looked fantastic, in my 'Car Wash' disco diva, attire. He's coming to stay at mine again soon, I can't wait!! I had my two lunch Cookies at 3pm, with another caffeine free, diet coke, while all around me, scoffed soup, or burgers. My bum is really hurting today, I really bashed my coccyx badly, falling down those stairs. 

At 5pm I had a snack Cookie with a coffee, as I needed one I was starting to flag, despite a late start. I was peckish, when I had another coffee & my 2nd snack Cookie at 7pm, and I was glad for, my on set, veggie burger in a bun & a diet coke, plus a slice of wholemeal toast & honey, for dessert, at 9.30pm, coming in at 718cals, 18 cals over, but too hungry to care!! At 10pm I set off home, more busses to Hammersmith, then tube to Kings Cross. I got a large, skinny, decaf, cappuccino, for the train journey from Costa & got on the semi fast train home, eating my final snack Cookie at 11.30am. I got home at 11.50pm pretty shattered, and washed & got ready for bed, before watching a snippet of TV, before crashing out for the night, shattered at 1am (which as I put the clock forward, for British summer time, is now 2am) Still constipated, apart from constant peeing, I didn't go to the ladies once today, AGAIN!!! (That can't be healthy??) then I was out for the count!! 

Sunday 30th March (Week 2, day 14) Mothers Day 

I laid in until noon, which with the clocks going forward last night was 1pm... I got on the scales I have lost 3lb again this week, that's 6lb since the diet started two weeks ago. Not bad I guess? But I'm still suffering constipation, peeing like crazy & I am very tired, which I don't think is ONLY down to my lack of sleep!! I had 2 cinnamon Cookies for breakfast, then I had a shower & pulled on my jeans, my white, Reebok, Easytone, trainers, plus my blue t-shirt, I got from my sister for Xmas (below) I wrapped my butterfly scarf round my neck. I pulled on my metallic blue, Betty Barclay, puffa jacket & packed scissors, water, my cookies, plus debit cards, in my small Moschino, rucksack & set off for the cemetery at 3pm. 

I bought some orange roses, from Tescos, en route, during my hour long walk, to the cemetery, thinking of the happy times, spent with mum, on the journey. I got there at 4pm, I had my 2 lunch Cookies (I saved the 2 snack ones, for later, as breakfast was so late) and removed the remnants of the Christmas visit, wreaths etc, then pulled up the weeds & used the scissors to cut down, overgrown grass. Then once it was tidied up, I filled the planter with some water from my bottle & trimmed the orange roses & arranged them. Then I sat crossed legged in front of my parents grave, and talked to their headstone for roughly an hour until 5pm. I was saying what I'd been up to, since my last visit, joking to dad, for not helping me to remember, the name "Stubbs" on Wednesday, when I was so tired & needed the help, on Pointless, plus wishing mum a Happy Mother's Day & saying how much I missed her!! 

I set off home at 5pm, with a sore bum & aching legs. Thinking about mum & how much I miss her, on my hours walk home. Once home at 6pm, I had a SMALL prawn curry with rice & two slices of buttered bed, which went 33cals over meal limit, at 733 cals. But I am not too concerned, the two hours walk & a bit of pruning at the cemetery will have worked off more than those excess 33cals. I spoke to Sharran, she said she had one LARGE, but HEALTHY meal, along with the Cookies, but gained & like me (With Vi) the weight dropped off again, when she stopped with the Cookies. So she is going to see her doctor, about it. I asked if the LARGE meals, were within the 500-700cal limit set? She said a typical example, would be a steak with LOADS of vegetables, which should be fine! BUT of course, that depends on the cut & size of the steak, plus if it was grilled or fried?? Also it depends if the vegetables are boiled/steamed or cooked another way & also if those veg are high in carbs, like potatoes, swedes, parsnips etc, as that could tip the meals well over 700 cals. Also if their is gravy or any sauce had with the steak? 

Maybe taking a photo of each meal, to show her doctor, would help? Because some people, like in Secret Eaters, don't realise just how many calories, can be in vegetables & it can be a lot, depending on type of vegetable & the way it's cooked!! But she also may be Spot On calorie wise, but the sugary Cookies, play havoc with her metabolism? I hope she gets some answers soon, I know just how frustrating, sticking to something & still gaining weight is!! I had 2 decaf diet cokes & my 2 morning snack Cookies (cinnamon) at 8pm. I finally went to the loo at 9pm & it was hardly a nappy filler, this is deffo a side effect of the diet. I was regular as clockwork, 3 times a day, before The Cookie Diet. I had two of my evening snack Cookies at 10pm, when I felt shattered, despite my lie in this morning!! Another side effect of the diet, I think!! At 11pm my bowels moved again, maybe thanks to the rice & the spices in the curry? Not a huge amount, but at least twice a day, is closer to the norm & better than the none a day of late!! I finally went to bed shattered (as I have been all day) at 1.30am, when I finally finished this blog!!